There are deep grooves
running thru my heart
enlarged on one side
inflamed

Waves washing thru me
lightening stabbing my heart
a pain
like no other

Yes
you know who I mean
more than one
out of reach

A lifetime of fighting
feelings
numbing myself from them
has finally caught up

Age and a critically wounded heart
has peeled away my facade
I thought I wouldn't survive this
but I did

Loses stacked
like empty boxes
once so full of life
now barren

I want to kick and fight
at times my anger overwhelms
why did you leave me behind
my guides

I am so lost now
screaming silently
drowning in tears kept inside
a storm raging

I wish I could send you away
like mailing a letter
I know you have peace
I am jealous

I once knew peace
at times I glimpse it again
then the pain comes on me
crushing me

I think another loss would do me in
take me with you this time
if anyone of you left
leaves me