"No Time Left for Me?"
Written on November 1st, 2021
By Jason and Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory
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Within the Presence of Reality;
comes Fate and Destiny"
(Theology 60.02)

When I bring myself back in time?
Yes, over 18 years Now.
I realize how sweet and precious Human Existence.
Existence measured as if each and every drop?
Drop Upon Drop of Live-Giving Blood.
...
'Daddy?'
'Daddy?'
'Where are you?'
'Dad?'
...
I look over at my son.
My Precious and Beautiful only son.
And, my crying Heart skips a beat.
I can see him but I can't take it away?
If I could be him?
I would gladly have been the one to go away.
...
'Dad I can't see a thing so dark now?'
'I can't realize what's happening to me nor what is my name?'
'Dad is this some kind of cruel or mean game?'
...
Look at this face!
Yes!
And, I see your swollen Eyes.
Black and blue.
Raccooned as sealed forever?
And, I cry.
...
Oh, how I cried!
No River of Tears no Ocean or sea?
But can you Dear God see what's happening to him and me?
...
I can sense his heartbeat.
Yes, after the heart attack.
In the helicopter on the way.
On the way to Oblivion!
Oh what a waste and Sin!
...
I call out his name there's no response?
And, my heart skips a beat.
Dear Lord God above is this the way it's supposed to be?
Where's the love?
...
'Dad are you here with me?'
'I can hear somebody crying and I can send to somebody close.'
'And, I can feel my body now lease...
'Hello?'
'And, it's okay Dad.'
'I think I understand that I now have to go.'
...
I watch and I cry and I leave and I die.
And then over and over again.
I'm the father and I'm supposed to be strong?
But the Agony!
Continues to sing this Sadden song?
...
Dear Lord God where did I go wrong?
My Tears are following the years of his life.
Streaming?
Am I dreaming?
I now must thank You for all those Christmases cast.
But the future holidays that will never last?
And, my now Broken Heart?
Can't you finally see?
"No Time Left for *Me?"