Beautiful Death
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Comment from Gypsy Blue Rose
Hello CBAT :)
I am so glad to hear from you. I haven't read your poems and stories for a long time. I thought maybe you quit. I really like your poem. It is genuine and heartfelt. I can tell your relationship with your exhusband was abusive but you sacrificed yourself for the family's sake and forgave him. It sounds like you loved him and tried to see the good in him. I know it is a difficult situation. I would not stay with someone like him but that is just me.
There were a couple of things you may want to edit.
---"His [ kidness ] made my life bearable" .... (kindness)
---"He saw my [ falts ] and did not feel repulsed" ... (faults)
---"Telling [ ones self ] this is not the normal it will never happen again"... (ones is plural, more than one, and self is single, they have to match so you can say (oneself) or you can say (themselves) if it is more than one.
CBAT you don't give yourself the credit you deserve. You are a kind woman and although I have never seen your picture, I can tell you are a beautiful person. It sounds like your self-esteem suffered from the type of life you had and the religion you were raised in, but I doubt you are a repulsive person. Maybe someone told you that but you must realize it was a lie. Love yourself the way you are. I know is hard for some women to do that, it is hard for me, but we must try.
Good job with the poem!
Gypsy
reply by the author on 29-Oct-2018
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Hello CBAT :)
I am so glad to hear from you. I haven't read your poems and stories for a long time. I thought maybe you quit. I really like your poem. It is genuine and heartfelt. I can tell your relationship with your exhusband was abusive but you sacrificed yourself for the family's sake and forgave him. It sounds like you loved him and tried to see the good in him. I know it is a difficult situation. I would not stay with someone like him but that is just me.
There were a couple of things you may want to edit.
---"His [ kidness ] made my life bearable" .... (kindness)
---"He saw my [ falts ] and did not feel repulsed" ... (faults)
---"Telling [ ones self ] this is not the normal it will never happen again"... (ones is plural, more than one, and self is single, they have to match so you can say (oneself) or you can say (themselves) if it is more than one.
CBAT you don't give yourself the credit you deserve. You are a kind woman and although I have never seen your picture, I can tell you are a beautiful person. It sounds like your self-esteem suffered from the type of life you had and the religion you were raised in, but I doubt you are a repulsive person. Maybe someone told you that but you must realize it was a lie. Love yourself the way you are. I know is hard for some women to do that, it is hard for me, but we must try.
Good job with the poem!
Gypsy
Comment Written 17-Nov-2015
reply by the author on 29-Oct-2018
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Thank you for your reply, I became ill and in giving up writing my thought process has become worse, I am trying to regain some of it. I have often answered to my reason for staying, I actually felt I would betray others if I did. Years later I still get a better realization of my own life, sometimes we choose to be blind.
Comment from robyn corum
1.) His (klindness) made my life bearable
2.) He saw my (faults) and did not feel repulsed
3.) the oppressed become protector of the abused.
--> because of your topic, I wondered if you meant 'abusER?'
I agree that it is good to forgive - the anger and resentment will only eat the one holding it -- it doesn't hurt the one who DID the hurting. But I also believe that at some point the abuser should try to recompense what he/she has done and ask forgiveness. Just covering it up can often allow the individual to continue committing his/her acts of abuse.
Hope that makes sense! Thanks!
reply by the author on 29-Oct-2018
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1.) His (klindness) made my life bearable
2.) He saw my (faults) and did not feel repulsed
3.) the oppressed become protector of the abused.
--> because of your topic, I wondered if you meant 'abusER?'
I agree that it is good to forgive - the anger and resentment will only eat the one holding it -- it doesn't hurt the one who DID the hurting. But I also believe that at some point the abuser should try to recompense what he/she has done and ask forgiveness. Just covering it up can often allow the individual to continue committing his/her acts of abuse.
Hope that makes sense! Thanks!
Comment Written 17-Nov-2015
reply by the author on 29-Oct-2018
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Thank you, I do not have the forgiveness I should because his aggression did not stop.
Comment from giraffmang
Hi there,
This was a thoughtful piece and had me intrigued. rationalising, or excusing such behaviour? Many would advocate no such thing but if one is striving for change what should one do?
His kidness - kindness?
He saw my falts - faults.
Telling ones self - oneself or one's self here.
loved ones transgressions - loved one's transgressions.
reply by the author on 29-Oct-2018
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Hi there,
This was a thoughtful piece and had me intrigued. rationalising, or excusing such behaviour? Many would advocate no such thing but if one is striving for change what should one do?
His kidness - kindness?
He saw my falts - faults.
Telling ones self - oneself or one's self here.
loved ones transgressions - loved one's transgressions.
Comment Written 17-Nov-2015
reply by the author on 29-Oct-2018
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Until the abuse started wit h another I did not see it, and am sometimes speaking through her .