Comment from prettybluebirds

Excellent

Where did you find the picture you used for this story? It is certainly an appropriate one. I hope this is not a true story but just wishful thinking. It is not like your usual writing.

 Comment Written 14-Jan-2022

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reply by the author on 14-Jan-2022

"The Destruction of Me?"
I do believe I posted it as a true life story in the beginning.
And the picture is a selfie I took of myself a while back.
Since the event is real I've had damage to my heart valve.
And since it was an attempted suicide the records are sealed even to me.
Another words I have no idea if I have an artificial valve in me or they just fixed what I had done.
Do you know my life was limited that day as I was bleeding internally.
They had somebody watch me for a couple days and then they left me alone and took the catheter out of course which was a relief.
I still have the scar on the side of my waist where that drain was from the pump.
If the pump would stop pumping and I would hear it I would kick it and it would start again!
I hope you enjoy this but learn from it that if you know anybody feeling suicidal please call 9-11.
Ricky

Comment from Earl Corp

Excellent

I'm glad you weren't successful in your suicide attempts. Other wise I would never have gotten to read your poetry on Fanstory. I hope this has been therapeutic for you to write.

 Comment Written 13-Jan-2022

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reply by the author on 13-Jan-2022

"Triple Suicide Dance!"
In the book entitled,
"Suicide Intentions"
That was actually my first posting which was many years ago.
It's a very extremely powerful story and it has saved two lives so far to people that have talked about it too one woman had breast cancer and was going to blow her brains out.
Thanks again Earl and yes it is therapeutic.
Doctor Ricky 1024
"Still Preaching the Choir Here at Fanstory"