My Desk
What it means to me39 total reviews
Comment from mermaids
It was a relief to read that you cuddle a stuffed animal, I have a collection of them which I cuddle at various times. They seem to help in times of distress. Sorry your caregiver is leaving. Your words are positive and journaling at your desk is therapeutic. I think many can relate to your words.
reply by the author on 28-Oct-2024
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It was a relief to read that you cuddle a stuffed animal, I have a collection of them which I cuddle at various times. They seem to help in times of distress. Sorry your caregiver is leaving. Your words are positive and journaling at your desk is therapeutic. I think many can relate to your words.
Comment Written 27-Oct-2024
reply by the author on 28-Oct-2024
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I'm glad I shared this with all of you. If this resonates then so be it.
There is nothing wrong with cuddling a stuffed animal. Nothing at all.
Enjoy the upcoming week.
Jesse
Comment from Wayne Fowler
Nicely written.
Sometimes there are answers for life's quandaries, sometimes there are not.
My caregiver, Grace is leaving me and it hurts badly. - Needs another comma after 'Grace'.
Wishing you well.
reply by the author on 28-Oct-2024
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Nicely written.
Sometimes there are answers for life's quandaries, sometimes there are not.
My caregiver, Grace is leaving me and it hurts badly. - Needs another comma after 'Grace'.
Wishing you well.
Comment Written 27-Oct-2024
reply by the author on 28-Oct-2024
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Thanks for pointing out that extra comma needed in that line.
Thanks for your good wishes.
Jesse
Comment from karenina
Jesse, this is a wonderful write! Your ability to communicate the many changes, challenges and triumphs shows a profound self-awareness.
The first step in managing your anxiety and depression is taking ownership of it and practicing self-care.
Celebrate each success!
You've tackled that desk and pushed through the daunting paperwork!
You have undergone surgery and continue to progress as you walk about your room with your walker!
You voted! So important!
I'm sure losing Grace is a blow. It likely triggers emotions from your previous caregiver and dear friend, whose name I will not mention, as it is your perogative to do do, or not...
I agree that informing you of her two weeks notice via a note in your door is not professional or courteous...
Sometimes we aren't privy to the reason a person lets us down...
You are a compassionate person. Wish her well and it may be that your next caregiver will be precisely the catalyst for change which spurs you on!
You, my friend, are an inspiration.
Writing is great therapy!
Journal when the spirit moves you, post here and know you have many friends who care...
PM me anytime!
As for sitting with your feelings or stepping on the gas? In my experience there seems to be an ebb and flow to self awareness...
Do what feels right to you in the moment...
We can't outrun our thoughts, though at times I've tried!
Your personal growth is in par with your physical improvement.
Keep on keeping on, Jesse!
Once we believe in ourselves, we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, or any experience that reveals the human spirit." - E.E. Cummings
Karenina
reply by the author on 27-Oct-2024
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Jesse, this is a wonderful write! Your ability to communicate the many changes, challenges and triumphs shows a profound self-awareness.
The first step in managing your anxiety and depression is taking ownership of it and practicing self-care.
Celebrate each success!
You've tackled that desk and pushed through the daunting paperwork!
You have undergone surgery and continue to progress as you walk about your room with your walker!
You voted! So important!
I'm sure losing Grace is a blow. It likely triggers emotions from your previous caregiver and dear friend, whose name I will not mention, as it is your perogative to do do, or not...
I agree that informing you of her two weeks notice via a note in your door is not professional or courteous...
Sometimes we aren't privy to the reason a person lets us down...
You are a compassionate person. Wish her well and it may be that your next caregiver will be precisely the catalyst for change which spurs you on!
You, my friend, are an inspiration.
Writing is great therapy!
Journal when the spirit moves you, post here and know you have many friends who care...
PM me anytime!
As for sitting with your feelings or stepping on the gas? In my experience there seems to be an ebb and flow to self awareness...
Do what feels right to you in the moment...
We can't outrun our thoughts, though at times I've tried!
Your personal growth is in par with your physical improvement.
Keep on keeping on, Jesse!
Once we believe in ourselves, we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, or any experience that reveals the human spirit." - E.E. Cummings
Karenina
Comment Written 27-Oct-2024
reply by the author on 27-Oct-2024
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Thanks for all the kind and thoughtful advice. I wasn't aware I had profound self-awareness. I suppose I do. Your encouragement is awe-inspiring and full of carefree love. Thanks, my friend.
The ebb and flow of self-awareness is what I am searching for.
I love the quote from e.e. cummings.
Thanks for the sixes and the wonderful review.
Jesse
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You have no idea what an inspiration you are! I'm so proud to call you friend!
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Thanks. I feel the same way about you.
Your friend,
Jesse
Comment from Janet Foor
I think you are doing great Jesse. You put one foot in front of the other and before you know it, you will be walking across the floor unassisted. Then you will tell us on fanstory and we will all rejoice with you.
Keep on keeping on Jesse. You can do this.
Blessings
Janet
reply by the author on 02-Nov-2024
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I think you are doing great Jesse. You put one foot in front of the other and before you know it, you will be walking across the floor unassisted. Then you will tell us on fanstory and we will all rejoice with you.
Keep on keeping on Jesse. You can do this.
Blessings
Janet
Comment Written 26-Oct-2024
reply by the author on 02-Nov-2024
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Thanks, Janet, for your encouraging review. I will keep on keeping on.
Thanks for the blessings,
Jesse
Comment from Michele Harber
Wow! I got so many takeaways from this, the first being that you're walking with a walker. Yes, perhaps one day soon you'll "stand and walk across the room with no help at all." However, I remember, not all that long ago, when you weren't sure you'd stand and walk at all. This is definite progress, and I'm so happy for you!
Another takeaway is that life often gets in the way. I don't know about all, but I do know that, in some cases, people leave you for reasons that have nothing at all to do with you. Time is finite, and we're often forced to choose whom and what we have time for. Sometimes the decision is based on who can get along without us and who can't. You're obviously showing now, and have shown in the past, that you're much more self-reliant, and need less from others. I understand that doesn't mean you need human companionship less. Sometimes they're just dealing with people who need it even more, and they can't satisfy both and still have time for themselves. It doesn't make the loneliness easier to deal with, but it does help with the self-doubt. Often it really is true, in life, that the problem is them, not you.
As usual, you seem to be taking a healthy attitude toward your new situation. I'm thrilled that you're using your writing as a coping mechanism. I do the same. You don't even need to decide whether you should "sit with the feelings for a while until [you] slowly get better," or "step on the gas and get over the past." Most likely, once you start (or continue) writing about it, the writing will decide for you. I've often started a story with one ending in mind, and changed it along the way because the words seemed to flow in a different direction. If it were me, I'd just let the writing decide what I want to write about, and how much of it to discuss.
reply by the author on 28-Oct-2024
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Wow! I got so many takeaways from this, the first being that you're walking with a walker. Yes, perhaps one day soon you'll "stand and walk across the room with no help at all." However, I remember, not all that long ago, when you weren't sure you'd stand and walk at all. This is definite progress, and I'm so happy for you!
Another takeaway is that life often gets in the way. I don't know about all, but I do know that, in some cases, people leave you for reasons that have nothing at all to do with you. Time is finite, and we're often forced to choose whom and what we have time for. Sometimes the decision is based on who can get along without us and who can't. You're obviously showing now, and have shown in the past, that you're much more self-reliant, and need less from others. I understand that doesn't mean you need human companionship less. Sometimes they're just dealing with people who need it even more, and they can't satisfy both and still have time for themselves. It doesn't make the loneliness easier to deal with, but it does help with the self-doubt. Often it really is true, in life, that the problem is them, not you.
As usual, you seem to be taking a healthy attitude toward your new situation. I'm thrilled that you're using your writing as a coping mechanism. I do the same. You don't even need to decide whether you should "sit with the feelings for a while until [you] slowly get better," or "step on the gas and get over the past." Most likely, once you start (or continue) writing about it, the writing will decide for you. I've often started a story with one ending in mind, and changed it along the way because the words seemed to flow in a different direction. If it were me, I'd just let the writing decide what I want to write about, and how much of it to discuss.
Comment Written 26-Oct-2024
reply by the author on 28-Oct-2024
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Wow, Michele, this is a whole lot of advice to follow! I understand what you mean about it being about them instead of me. As far as how much to write versus how much to discuss, I always give my all to the piece and share what is on my mind and in my heart.
Thanks, as always, for your honesty.
Jesse
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I love that you share what's on your mind and in your heart. That's what makes your work so interesting and relatable. You're not creating a character. You're just you being you, and letting the reader into your life.
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Thank you. That is what I aim to do.
I share my life on the page.
Comment from Begin Again
One foot in front of the other is all that one can ask of themselves, Jesse. Don't give up, and when you fall, you have to get up and Begin Again. It's not easy, and each day that we age, it seems to get harder, but I have faith that you can do this and come out of it a better person than you have ever been.
Smiles and hugs, Carol
reply by the author on 02-Nov-2024
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One foot in front of the other is all that one can ask of themselves, Jesse. Don't give up, and when you fall, you have to get up and Begin Again. It's not easy, and each day that we age, it seems to get harder, but I have faith that you can do this and come out of it a better person than you have ever been.
Smiles and hugs, Carol
Comment Written 26-Oct-2024
reply by the author on 02-Nov-2024
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Thanks for your encouragement, Carol. With folks like you, I know I can do it and come out on top.
Thanks for the smiles and hugs,
Jesse
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You've got a lot of friends on Fanstory and we all will keep you in our prayers. Take care.
Smiles, Carol
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Thanks, Carol. I appreciate it. I am grateful for all the prayers coming my way.
Jesse
Comment from gansach
This aging stuff is tough sometimes~they don't tell you that while your body slowly falls apart, your mind still thinks you're a kid and capable of doing everything you used to do. It can be overwhelming dealing with it all. I make great plans to accomplish so much that needs to be done, I can envision doing it, but physically I have to work in spurts with many rest breaks which is frustrating. It can get depressing as you say~but your ideas of journaling and increasing your walking abilities a bit at a time are great ideas and, of course, keeping up with your writing on FanStory. I enjoyed reading this and wish you the best. Great job!
reply by the author on 26-Oct-2024
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This aging stuff is tough sometimes~they don't tell you that while your body slowly falls apart, your mind still thinks you're a kid and capable of doing everything you used to do. It can be overwhelming dealing with it all. I make great plans to accomplish so much that needs to be done, I can envision doing it, but physically I have to work in spurts with many rest breaks which is frustrating. It can get depressing as you say~but your ideas of journaling and increasing your walking abilities a bit at a time are great ideas and, of course, keeping up with your writing on FanStory. I enjoyed reading this and wish you the best. Great job!
Comment Written 26-Oct-2024
reply by the author on 26-Oct-2024
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Thank you for your encouraging remarks. I will continue to walk until the day when I can walk unaided. Then I will be free to go wherever I choose. Enjoy the weekend.
Jesse
Comment from Mike Stevens
Another fine write, Jesse...there's no doubt it a challenge dealing with our day to day lives, and Moreno as we age. I hope good things are ahead for you
reply by the author on 26-Oct-2024
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Another fine write, Jesse...there's no doubt it a challenge dealing with our day to day lives, and Moreno as we age. I hope good things are ahead for you
Comment Written 26-Oct-2024
reply by the author on 26-Oct-2024
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Thanks, mike. I hope so too.
Comment from Madeleine Mardis
There's so much sincerity and honesty in this piece! It's obvious you are a good friend to yourself and know your motives, triumphs and what gives you the blues. Big congrats on getting work done at your desk, the kind that's no fun! And progress with your walking! You can access your deepest emotions and drives which is meritorious! Keep on keep in' on!! Maddy
reply by the author on 26-Oct-2024
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There's so much sincerity and honesty in this piece! It's obvious you are a good friend to yourself and know your motives, triumphs and what gives you the blues. Big congrats on getting work done at your desk, the kind that's no fun! And progress with your walking! You can access your deepest emotions and drives which is meritorious! Keep on keep in' on!! Maddy
Comment Written 26-Oct-2024
reply by the author on 26-Oct-2024
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Thanks, Maddy, for the six stars and marvelous review. You understand me to the tee. I do know myself pretty well at least as much as one can know anyone. Thanks for the supportive and encouraging comments.
Have a wonderful weekend!
Jesse
Comment from Brenda Strauser
Hi Jesse, nice to read a story that you wrote. Life is hard and sometimes gets us really down. I pray and God helps me. This is such a heartfelt story. Written well. I hope you will be able to walk soon. My prayers are with you.
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Hi Jesse, nice to read a story that you wrote. Life is hard and sometimes gets us really down. I pray and God helps me. This is such a heartfelt story. Written well. I hope you will be able to walk soon. My prayers are with you.
Comment Written 26-Oct-2024