"Broken Pieces"{Book #30} : Prologue and chapter 36. by Ricky1024 Artwork by MKFlood at FanArtReview.com |
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By Ricky 1024 "The idea of my recent book number 30 "Broken Pieces" came from the fact that in my convalescent state of non-mobility, I had a lot of time to heal as well as write." "I have written many thousands of grieving poems and stories about circumstances about similar events as well as other thoughts." "This is a collection of pain, agony, suffering, and depression laced with a little cinnamon, sugar, and not-so-nice!' ... "In today's sorrowed world, an accident happens several times a moment and a price will have to be paid... "Unfortunate people never regain their fullness but for me this is not a stumbling block as the eighteen inch titanium rod buried deep within my right leg has given me a chance to share my thoughts in an amazing writing mode!" From the book 'Broken Pieces' I present chapter 36 called... "Cursed or Blessed Beings?" By Ricky 1024 {The Father and the Son} Part #1 {A Dedication on my passed Son Jason's 31st Birthday} "They say a father's work is never done, I say that a son's work is also NEVER DONE... {Theology 24.24.1} "How dear Lord can I begin?" "As tears shall not forgive?" "But Heavenly Father above... "How can I not?' "Believe this reviewer or not?" ... "Jason Richard Smrkovsky was more then just a son, musician, or mechanic but a gift brought down from above to teach us all to have faith and hope even in these sorrowed of times... "He was born on November 5th [this day but 31 years ago... "He was not born or "nee' with a "silver spoon' in his mouth but and undeniable and amazing drive to make a difference... ... "God finally made my dream come true after girl, girl, girl. girl, and boy!" "And boy was I in for it!" "As a child myself growing up in much better times of the early 60's, I watched a movie called "Jason and the Argonauts" from the balcony of a theater in Pittman, New Jersey." ... "About Jason a mythical, Greek, hero who was on a quest to find "The Golden Fleece!' Against insurmountable odds... "If I only knew... 'As my Jason grew , I realized that he was a little 'Different!' "He went around in His Huggie and in his own world saying {occasionally} "Holy Crackle." "If I had only knew again as I write on this library computer and read what I wrote earlier today, with a pen!" Amen... ... "Can a child of only two be religious?" "Why not for god had sent me a "Gift from Above" created by his my wife and my love." "Why a gift you may ask?" "Well Carolyn was never supposed to be able since and operation when only seventeen ruined her fallopian tubes in the 60's." "And it would take eighteen years for me to finally put all of the pieces together in Jay's amazing but tragic life... ... "He grew up into a fine young man stocky and over-weight desperately seeking a chance for just a date.... "But Jason's destiny was long cast and He realized in the very end it was past... "I have a picture taken to prove it only twenty minutes before he would be flung into a coma with un-curable brain damaged... ... "With curly blond hair and hazel-brown eyes. I called him my "Buddy Friend." "Always nice and respect full and a little naughty as any teen {if you know what I mean} but was He out of place?" "And did He fall from grace?" ... "After eighteen birthdays and seventeen Christmas's Jason would not live to see His eighteenth... ... "Jason [while in high-school} was a basketball player and won three trophies, a musician and *percussionist, cutting his own Cd's called "Jason's Hot shit" as well as dreamed for a carrier as a mechanic." "But Jason [you see] would never even graduate high-school or life to see that eighteenth Christmas... ... "On March 31st, 2003 Jason [only a junior] would not qualify to be on the senior class trip to Disney world but did qualify [do to a miss-diagnosis by a stupid kinder gardener teacher to ride as a passenger with a seventeen maniac dead set on destroying himself!" "Unfortunately, Jay died and Brian lives on." November 5, 1984~ March 30, 2003. ... "Brian Cole was a lost Soul and had made a critical and tragic decision to die!" "Only one thing... "He lives today and my Son Jason passed away... "Are you realizing and seeing if jay was a... 'Blessed or Cursed Being?' "Blessed or Cursed Beings?" {The Father and the Son} Part #2 "As for myself?' "Well, you can imagine... "I was born October 24th, 1954 in Newport Rhode Island." "And I was born to two parents with beginning drinking problems." "Dad {Edward} was a soon to be 26 year retired and well decorated Naval Chief while {Florence} my mother dearest was more like Joan Crawford or "Mommy Dearest!' "At an early age {as I turn this Page} I was well on my why to Hell!" "I dumped or threw out dad's booze and {when caught} punished by marching in place with 1,000 lashes!" "Yes, dad loved us but the booze more!" "I guess you can blame it on the Navy?" "A bottle and woman in every port as you "See the World!" "Through a bottle of booze!" "WOW.... "Lets take a vow... "Now do you pledge allegence to this bottle of booze?" "In these Un-United and Drunken States of America, One Republic for which you stand under Satan?" "Yes!" "Well swell and sailor... "Welcome aboard!" "This 'Good-ship Lolly-pop!" ... "Dad {bless His soul} passed away in '72 from {you got it} booze... "And mom held down the ship till about 2011 thirty-nine years, eventually later going blind with diabetes." "I was only a teenager when dad passed but well married in family when mom passed." "I owned my house clear took on the responsibility of two new and instant step-daughters as my own three} would briefly follow... ... "But the "Winds of Descravation" had blown my way and Jay passed from a nasty accident and Carolyn followed only eight shot months later... "That was in 2003 but could it get worse?" "They say there is a "Silver Lining" in every cloud but for crying out loud my clouds never went to "Silver Lining School!" "Yes I guess I too had not been born with "A Silver Spoon in my Mouth" but perhaps a tarnished one up my ass!" "After realizing these problems and more, I put my depression [temporarily} in my back pocket dragged myself out of that Pit!" ... "Sucessful, I had to re-invent myself." "{Which I did by the "Grace of God"} and a desire to leave my enourmous waste of depressions and grief on paper." ... "My first poem "Buddy friend" won me a silver bowl and my Whole name on it!" "Many other gifts such as that would come and fill a desk and wall in my study." "Could it get worse?" "They say there is always a "Silver Lining" but like Jay I was not born with "A Silver Spoon!" ... "After realizing the problems my dear but departed wife of mine... "Left behind like bills, bills, and more... "I decided to put my depressions and depressive abilities to mote in a moat!" "And I set out in my boat and decided to sail the seven seas and see what I could see?" "Danced all night and swam in the ocean till daybreak even during Hurricane Irene in 06!" "Picked up a few more tricks too as I again began to write again my reviewer friend!" "And write I did!" "Amen!" ... "Books and books by the hundreds!" "{Some partial} while others waiting... "Damn is my brain dissinagrating?" "For a publisher or two to share my amazing and gifted points of view!" ... "Sucessful again but perhaps I need to {re-invent myself?} "So, I left all of my GRIEF, DEPRRESSIONS,and PAIN from the past on paper instead of attached to me!" "Yes my very first and dedicated poem to Jay and hois friends "Buddy Friend" was a launching pad from Him and His Dell and yes, it came back in 2006 and I almost died and went to Hell!!!! But I'm back to stay with a new and shiny 18 inch titanium rod in my right leg from that cursed October 11th *accident... "And yes my fifth on bicycle, two on motorcycle and one in my stinking Lincoln... "So am I or my late Son Jay... "Cursed or Blessed Beings?" 24 <><><><><><><><><><><>"Buddy Friend."<><><><><><><><><><><> By Richard Edward Smrkovsky {Created from heart, mind, soul, depressions and God and Angel's Grief} {First Poem written April 14th, 2003} "I'm not here right now but I'm not very far... "I'm close by not far... 'As a star... "You'll fell this place... "Take a moment and you'll see... "Exactly where... "I shall be... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~March 30, 2003. Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky December 6,1952~November 23, 2003.
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