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By Ricky1024
September 5, 2015
Chapter One-
"As major and pschocitic depression made adjustments to my sorrowed Soul...
"As the Moon turned an eerie hue of red...
"And as the Stars up high in the blackened sky came crashing down as they cried....
"I awoke from months from my torrid bed!'"
"But, for no Good reason that I would want to remember...
"I was already dead."
..
"No more dead the birds that sing, no more the flowers of bloom...
"No more the Rain or Sun to shine...
"Just thoughts of death ever constant on my Mind!"
...
"As 'The Bony Fingers of Death' grasp for *me the Grim Reaper waits ever patiently but...
'I was already dead, mostly insane and Out-of-My-Head."
"I was trapped in and wrapped within me in a dank and dark Deppresional Pit."
"God, Was I being taught a lesson and why me?"
"Just give me back the **one-third of my family!"
****
<><><><><><>######"And He Wrapped His Arms Around Me"<><><><><><>######
By Ricky 1024
Chapter 2-
"That Car left that party and that Car was raced peviously by an adult at Atco Raceway in Atco New Jersey."
"That Car that left that party had the Speed Control tampered with and the Airbag disabled by Brian to0 add a Radio System...
...
"That FUC**** CAR that left my Step-daughter Nicoles party was on a course to the Grave...
"My God nothing or nobody can save...
"Me...
...
"And "As the Stars Stood Still" that very *night...
"As I try to breathe..
"As I tried to breathe...
"And as My dad tries to write My words with a Cross pen...
"God Wrappen His Arms Aroung Me and I went to Heaven...
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######<><><><><><><><>#####"First By Man...<><><><><><><><>######
By Ricky 1024
Chapter-3
"On the night of March...
"In the year of 2003...
"When 'The Hands of Time"
"Struck an hour berfore nine...
"I hear a noise and it isn't no Christmas or Santa's reindeer...
"No stocking hung for my family with care...
"Just this maniac named Brian Cole was there!"
...
"Sounds like an accident dear but soon to be dead my wife Carolyn in less then eight FUC**** months...
"Was asleep with 'Tiny Sugar Blessings' to eat...
"And again as I write these words with the Cross pen a much louder***noise little was i to know...
"It would be my little boy...
...
"the Second noise woke up Carolyn as the car [after hitting the curb ab nd propelling itself at my estimated speed do to the shift was locked in third gear of over a hunderd miles can hour} fell to the road below...
"It's and accident shouldn't you know Rich?'
"That woke me up anfd that wasn't very nice."
...
"Within a few heartbeats, the phone rang and it was my youinger step-daughter Kyle Erin...
"It's Jason, ogh my God....
"He has been in an accident with that crazy kid Brian Cole only a block from your house!"
"No one wouild leave that the car!"
"'Not Kyle or her boyfriend Fred or their daughter Sashsa...
"Only my youngest {in tears}...
"Dana...
...
"It was just to much to take inAnd the car Jason was in was a smashed now...
"A Tin Can' if you can try...
"To understand...
"Call my mother! "He demanded trapped in a lying and prone postition with the driver's wheel nestled gently at his breast...
"Perhaps it should have been the pole at best!"
"And he would leave the hospital the next day!"
"And what about my only Son Jay?"
...
'Jay was lying next to Brian as an Angel in sleep....
"Almost already gone to Heaven..
"To speak?"
"A trickl;e of blood had appeared...
"My God where the FUC* are the Reindeer?"
"And not from His nose by from His left ear...
"The nurse at the scene{it was at her house} noted that...
{more on that later}.
...
"About an hour and a half later.....
"And a quick run up the Garden State parkway as the helicopter was flying over on the way...
"Jason would have the first of His many Heart attacks!"
"But nothing and not even that was going to tak away...
'"My only Son named Jay...
<><><><><><>####<><><><>####"Then By God""<><><><>####<><><><><>
By Ricky 1024
Chapter 4-
"At about (:30 PM. the the Hosptal's nurse came up to us as we were walking to intensive care...
"Are you the parents of the child ju7st air-lifted here?" She asked.
"Yes."
"Do you have insurance?"
"No my enployer canceled our family coverage and left me with single coverage only a few month earlier." I Replied with a tear of many..
"In my eye...
"Follow me"
...
"She took us into a dark room with dozens of pictures of Jason's brain."
"She said that it was the worst brain-damaged case that she had ever seen."
"It deestroyed me if you know what I mean"
"The nurse from the scene shortly called me and said these words that still haunhts me to this very day...
"God wanted Jay so bad that He wrapped His gentle arms aroiund Him.."
"A single drop od blood mixed now with spinal fluid..
"I did what i could and did not understand...
"Why Of Lord my little man?"...
"And after seveenteen hours and after tapping Jason's skull...
"And after thousands of dollors in anti-swelling meds...
"Jason Richard Smrkovsky was no longer here instead...
""
"On Aprils Fools Day" You must understand...
"Jason was on a special coursae to save..
"Just like Christ new his fate my Jay dead too and the band that He hasd created proves this...
"Title Four Ways to Save!"
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"And as agrred the "Gift of Life and Lara S. moreeti the L.S.W. would hold Jays hand and after organ and organ...
A well rehearse course from God...
"Can you even begin to understand?"
"No more tears...
'No more hopes or dreams...
"And can be a mend...
"No more **** "Buddy Friend."
Author Notes
*me- Oneself.
My pain was only eased by three suicide attempts on December 1, 2006.
Request from my portfolio "Triple Suicide Dance" 2012.
**one-third of my family!
"I would lose Jason that day in March and not May but soon my only Wife Carolyn ...
"In a differeft way.
***Noise- A sound.
"The second noise was louder as I estimated at the speed it was about twelve feet up in the air."
****"Buddy Friend"
"What I always called Him.
<><><><>###<><><><><><>"BuddyFriend"<><><><><>###<><><><>
{My first attempt at poetry.}
Written only three weeks later on Jay's Dell.
By Jay...
"I'm not here right now but I'm not very far...
"I'm in a place not far as a Star...
'You'll feel this place...
"Take a momment and you'll see...
"Then you will know...
'Just where I'll be...
****
"Special thanks goes out first as always to Heavenly Father and His lost So Jesus the Christ, Then Fan story andf Ton the administrator, Fan Art Review along with this artist' slhbowen' and the pic "Where to Now?" and finally to all who has and will always grief for the lost of a child."
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