FanStory.com - I didn't really want him dead...by Jessa kuder

I felt a little under the weather. I didn't get sick often but I had caught some cold or flu. I planned on working through the illness but as the day progressed I felt dizzy and lethargic. This flu came on sort of suddenly. I called in a little late and upset the boss. I know they needed waitresses. We were always a little short staffed, but I couldn't go and cough on people's food. I went back to bed and slept through the afternoon, the night and into the next day. When I woke my body was sore, I couldn't focus and my lungs were tight. I called in one more day without having seen a doctor. I decided to get checked for covid the next day, because I was very sick, but also because I like my job.

The test came out negative so I didn't think much of it until my son got sick as well. Unfortunately with his diabetes it put him in the pediatric ICU for a day. He was all right. They just kept his fluids up and his sugar down a little bit. he didn't get real sick fortunately.

I hadn't started to feel completely better yet, and I knew that my father's health was not up to par. I knew that if he got covid he could possibly get very sick, and I knew that the tests were not always correct, so I went to visit him.

This was back in late September early October right before they found out about the omnivirus, which wasn't being picked up on the standard covid test. That explained why I was as sick as I was and didn't have the one ailment that was most likely to cause it. And as it turns out I did get my father sick. He had covid and he was as sick thought he was.

Over the next week he showed symptoms of cold. He was sneezing and coughing his body hurt but he didn't start to feel better. As time went on his back started to hurt. He was stubborn so he didn't see a doctor. I went back to see him about 3 weeks later his skin was Gray, he was confused, he didn't know who he was anymore. He couldn't speak when he tried all he could convey that was he was in pain. My Mom finally called an ambulance for him, too little too late. He laid in the hospital for about a week and a half in the icu first his kidneys started shutting down then his liver. As time went on his organ shut down one by one as he laid there dying. He was attached to a ventilator amongst other machines. It must have felt cold to have the last thing he felt be the tubes that were shoved down his throat and the needles in his arms. I wish I could say that pain was unimaginable and I suppose technically I've never been in that kind of pain, but that man tried to shut me down time and time again and I'm the celestial most painful manor, He even succeeded a few times but I brushed off and got back up. I shut him down eventually, my first demon. I always thought that I'd kill him one of these days, I don't know why. It seems unimaginable that I could do something like that or that I would. I know I wasn't a murderer, at least I wasn't born a killer. I guess as time goes on people change. It was quite an interesting experience though. last thing I said to him was some things never go away. I looked him dead in the eye a couple months before he got sick told him straight up, point blank. Some things never go away I got to have my peace with him. Once I did I laid him to rest. That's how I found out that if you're evil enough, I've got the heart to kill you. Although I'm my opinion it's not murder. I was removing a demon from the world. Riding the Earth of an evil only Hell should have known. I didn't think it was going to work. I didn't think he would be dead within weeks of that visit, but I don't hold any remorse for his untimely death.