I love to win!
I am very competitive~
whether it's a game
on my laptop,
a game of Royal Rummy
on family game night,
a poetry or writing
competition--
(wink, wink)
Checkers or Slapjack
with a student,
a quiz show I watch on TV,
I love to win!
I need to win . . .
I like to be the one
with the best idea
at the meeting,
I like to be the one
with the best art project,
the wittiest comment,
the correct answer
to every question.
Why?
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel like a failure if I'm not first?
I've never been good at sports~
always last in races,
always 0 at the chin bar,
always first out in dodgeball,
always picked last for teams.
I've always felt inferior~
even when I'm good at something,
I feel I'm fooling folks,
I'm getting away with . . .
what?
I don't know.
But I've always been smart,
always used my brain,
always exercised common sense,
always been curious,
always wanted to learn.
Do I want to be first
at all I try to do
to feel I'm worthy after all?
I don't know.
I just know
I love to win!
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