2024 Favorites : The Sun Shines Outside by Gypsy Blue Rose |
The sun shines outside but my home is dark and gloomy and my bedroom is a torture chamber. Every night I dread going to bed. I know sleep will not come easy. snakes of light slither through my window blinds — darkness wins the fight
I stare at the ceiling that feels like the top of my coffin. Until a raging storm grows in my chest and I get up before my heart explodes. I pace my bedroom floor back and forth like a tiger in a cage. It feels like I can't breathe and I am going to pass out. I panic and there is no one with me, only God, my quiet and loving companion. fierce beast devours flesh and bones — spits out a tender heart
The morning comes and I dread getting out of bed to start another worthless day. Nothing sounds like fun. I look through a sliver of opened window blinds and I feel disconnected, life marches on. sunrise came and went without me — daybreak misses me
Family and friends tell me to get over it, it's all in my head, just be positive. But their words are vacuous and float past my head. Nothing seems worth doing and darkness fills my days. in a sea of despair, an empty boat is full of broken dreams
I beg my doctor to change my medication but she refuses to adjust them. I look at a fist full of pills, seducing me to end the pain. I grasp God’s hand and we face another day.
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