Dark silent house day after day and no hope for a better life. I forced myself to go out for a walk among the living once a day. It was the only good thing I did for myself. I dreaded nighttime. I felt like a lioness trapped in a zoo cage. I lay on my bed, looking at the ceiling for hours. No sleep came. Panic sets in and propelled me out of my bed to walk back and forth in darkness. I asked God for peaceful sleep but it didn’t come. Asking my doctor for help didn’t work either. She treated me like an addict looking for a fix. This went on for a year until I finally ended up in the hospital where a different psychiatrist prescribed me the right medication to help me sleep at night and balance my moods. It was a God-sent answer to my prayer. Sleep is something most people take for granted and makes such a big difference in one’s life.
sleepy moon
peeks in through my window —
constant companion
Author Notes
Sleepy Moon = is one of the Chinese Moon Names. click here if you want to see list of moon names
I have had insomnia most of my life. It's a symptom of my bipolar disorder. Luckily, now I have a good doctor that prescribes and adjust my medication as needed without making me feel bad about it. I also have horrible panic attacks once in a while. They come unexpectedly without rhyme or reason. During my panic attacks, I feel like I can't breathe and I am going to pass out. It's a horrible feeling. The darkness I mention represents chronic depression. It's not the blues, it's a debilitating disease that makes you feel hopeless. Even simple daily tasks like eating or taking a bath seem like huge tasks. If you suffer from depression, seek help. Your life is precious and life gets better. The suicide prevention lifeline is 988, it's supposed to be three numbers "988"click here for more information
HAIBUN was written first by Matsuo Basho in the 17th century. It combines prose and haiku. It can be written in the present or past tense. THE HAIBUN PROSE FORM (the story) can be any subject matter and as short as possible in the first person.
FIRST WRITE THE PROSE= in Haibun tells the story, gives information, and defines the theme.
SECOND WRITE THE HAIKU moves the story forward and adds insight to the story. It's written in 17 syllables OR LESS and as succinct as possible. Usually three lines about nature (haiku) or human nature (senryu). The last line uses a juxtaposition of two concrete images in a way that prompts the reader to make an insightful connection between the two. It never rhymes. Lines are connected grammatically. for advanced students click here ; Haibun Today Editorial for further reading ; wikipedia for further reading
Thank you for reading and reviewing my poem.
Gypsy
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