It all started in July when my cousin Wendy died
She left a husband and six kids, oh how the kids all cried
Then my mom who fought pancreatic cancer for a year
It was the first of August when we knew the end was near
I stayed all day and night with my dear mom until the end
My family would call and their sweet love to us they'd send
I didn't want to lose her as I loved her with a passion
On August twenty first, then God would take her to His mansion
Then two weeks to the day, my daughter's boyfriend of four years
Was killed when he left our house, and this really brought the tears
Such darkness in our life, I thought my little girl would crack
She built a shrine in her room, like that would bring Danny back
September while we're still not getting our life back on track
I learned my favorite aunt has had a fatal heart attack
Now when the phone starts ringing, my whole body starts to shake
I do not answer for the fear, it may mean more heartache
October on my birthday, then I did answer my phone
I thought it maybe birthday wishes of my very own
It was another aunt of mine who truly ruined my day
She said my only grandma who I loved had passed away
Now I don't know just how to feel and what will it be next?
The day after Thanksgiving I felt like we had been hexed
I learned of a friend's death when I heard from my friend, his wife
He's gone the day we just gave thanks for loved ones in our life
A couple months went by, I started letting my guard down
A new year is upon us, as I slowly lose my frown
I start to pay the bills on time, no longer feel the shock
I saw a car outside, and then I heard somebody knock
Excitedly I let my brother in through the front door
I'm always thrilled to see him, cause it's been a month or more
I then received the worst news yet, this time I think I'm done
He said our older brother Ron, at forty three was gone.
I really was a mess during that horrid six month span
I took it out on God and from Him I packed up and ran
The pain of all the losses eased a little through the years.
We've lost so many others since, and I still shed the tears
They don't come quite as often or in such an extreme order
I trust my Lord and I no longer run from Heaven's border
I'm thankful for my loved ones who are all here with us still
I pray to God for strength that I will now accept His will
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