Exceptional Infertility and faith often create an internal struggle. Faith is My Pain by Gina Schneller Faith Poetry Contest contest entry

It's a pain so deep within. One only I can feel. No one understands how it rips my soul in two. A burning in my chest. An ache in my heart. I grieve for you each day. I was robbed of creating you, carrying you and raising you. You died the day I was told you were not possible. I grieve each day. Everyday, for the child that was supposed to be mine. It's cruel. So damn cruel. And yet I am not healing. I can't forget. Some sick part of me holds hope. Faith has become my enemy. I try to shut it down but it haunts me. Maternal instinct? A silly wish? A damn fantasy. I wish I could pull it from my heart. Remove it from my mind. I cry for you when no one sees. I hide the emotional burden but it builds each day. I mourn, it takes its toll. Faith, it prevents me from giving up. I wish I could be numb. Wish it didn't hurt. It's just not human nature to lose faith? I miss the face which I have never seen. I miss the heartbeat I never heard. I miss the touch of your hand I never felt. No one understands, it's a struggle I face alone. That's the worst thing about my struggle with faith. It's relentless. I'm alone. Just me and the baby that will never be. Recognized

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