"A Saddened Heart"
Written on July 17th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'
I'm trying my hardest to get through this and register; within my Broken Heart.
As I think way back.
Yes, a long time ago; on March 31st, 2003.
And, I try my best to understand what happened not only to me?
But I sometimes draw a blank?
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It's as if I've gone blind!
My ship has lost the wind in its sail!
My motor lost the gas and its engine!
And my heart was dreamed of every drop of precious blood!
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My Dear Lord?
Why does this happen all the time?
And, how much longer do I have to drown in this flood?
No reply.
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Yes, I put one foot in front of the other.
But then I think about my dead son's, dead mother!
Perhaps it's just the way it's meant to be?
Is living now normal with Tragedy?
Yes!
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I put one foot in front of the other but I keep tripping and falling down!
Am I supposed to lay there and kiss the ground?
But I'm learning and now I'm learning more!
And, this is what I found!
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No man is an Island and no woman either!
It's one and one equals two!
Not just a me, nor not just a you?
When we make that connection for the very first time?
Some people believe that True Love is what they find!
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No matter what the events that may appear?
No matter how many stumbling blocks are here?
No matter how many times your Broken!
My Lord God this is not any mere token! Yes, the Heart becomes Frozen!
Yes, Broken and bittered!
Yes, Scattered and littered!
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But for the most part?
Yes, it's a testing and we have to realize?
And, it's just the way it's supposed to be?
We may be able to tickle Fate's nose but when it comes to Destiny?
Nobody knows!
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So, I try to stay strong.
Know deep in my Broken Heart that life goes on.
Yes, because eventually it will be...
Ashes to Ashes...
Dust to Dust...
And though we may now be apart?
Soon, very soon one Day?
I'll no longer have...
"A Saddened *Heart"
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Author Notes
*Heart: noun>
hart
1) the unbound or moral nature is distinguished from the lesser by the intellectual native.
2) a hollow muscular organ or vertebrate within beings that it's rhythical contraction acts as a force.
Pumping and maintaining the circular system of the blood.
3) wanton, innermost character feelings or inclinations.
"She had feelings within her bosum"
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Note: Most people look at the Heart, of course, as a way to feel pain within, or to register happiness and delight.
We all know it's function as one of the major organs within.
We know that there's vast amounts of fluid that this pump will establish and run through our circular system in our lifetimes.
And, this we also do know that in virtually millions of gallons of life-giving blood will flow!
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But can a Man or a Woman's Heart be totally broken?
Obliterated, shattered, pierced, minced, up into fine pieces?
Yes, and disposed of as if it never existed?
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Sometimes I feel that way but when I look at my son Jason Richard's short but amazing life?
I have learned to realize He's an example.
Yes, an example of Life after Death.
Then and only then does My pain finally go away!
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Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organ's graciously offered, donated, and accepted.
April 1st 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
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To learn more about,
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1
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Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'Irismoonbeauty'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"A saddened Heart"
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