Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
"The Shame of My Pain"
(For I am Your Lover and Meant to Be)
Written on July 9th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© 2021 Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
She knows me now; as she follows me?
And, she knows me now but she loves me not?
But that's the best I can do and that's all that I got!
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She takes my hand and squeezes it tight!
She tells me everything will be all right?
And she's with me now and tucks me in this Horrid Blight!
And, yeah she knows my name!
And, feeds off my shame!
And, my life will never again be the same?
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She comes to me in the Darkness;
as if a Fine Mist in the Blackened Cloud...
I can never resist?
Her sweet but deadly kiss!
Lord God above!
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She calls out my name!
And, tells me she's my love?
Yes, as her Darkened Cloud...
(For crying out loud!)
Emerges!
....
I try to exhume Her and purge.
But it's never going away?
This mystery of my life is seemingly here to stay?
Yes!
And, she calls out my name!
Lord God?
Am I going insane?
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She followed me to the Edges of My Forsake?
And, tells me to dive deep into her lake...
And as she command me to take a dip and forsake?
...
'Ricky!'
'Forsake anything good that's ever come to you Doctor Ricky!'
'Ricky?'
'Are you not listening to me?'
'I told you that I'm never going away!'
'And, I love you more each and every day?'
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'Extinguish any blossoming of anything normal; of anything that you could ever again be!'
(For I am your Lover and meant to *Be!)
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Author Notes
*Be: verb /be/
1) exist
"there are no easy answers"
2)occur; take place
the exhibition will be in November"
verb
1) used with a present participle to form continuous tenses
"they are coming"
2) use with a past participle to form the passive mood
"it was done"
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Note: Pain comes in many forms.
And, this pain is about the loss of a child
Yes or a Parent's Worst Nightmare!
Yes as previously mentioned; as the gift that continues to keep giving.
And, it sets up home inside your Soul; while it plays with your heartstrings and eventually blows you away!
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Note: First the only son.
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organ's graciously offered and donated on April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
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To learn more about,
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend
Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1.
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Note: Secondly the only wife.
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach
December 6th, 1952~
November 23rd, 2003.
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Note: And, if you know somebody who's suffering so bad and they're contemplating suicide?
Ye, please call 9-11.
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'avmurry'
And, her Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Confusion of a Bleeding Heart"
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