Since I can recall, I was a happy little girl with dreams that were as big as my whole huge heart,

But then something happened to me that I could not control, and around 14 that same girl started to fall apart.

I couldn't see so many things, but I could feel anger for so many reasons and it was all buried deep inside,

I couldn't understand why I couldn't feel what it was like to be happy like when I was younger and from all the bad I couldn't hide.

I loved nothing about my own self, not even all the good I was born with and still had but I couldn't see what I couldn't see,

Spent far too many years wishing I was never born, until I had my first child myself, and knew for her (& them both), something had to change with me.

So I set out on my own journey, to discover myself in so many ways, and it wasn't easy but it was worth the work & heartache,

Because I'm finally in the best place I've ever been in & in my entire life and am living my best life, something for granted many tend to take.

But I will never not be grateful for all the things you've done for me, from rocking me to sleep to giving me money to help me,

All things that I know weren't easy for you and you didn't have to do, yet for me you were always there regardless of my needs.

I know there's somethings that you don't like about me, that I get from my dad, the one man who left us with nothing,

But the best thing he ever did was exactly that, which gave us more throughout the years, and that's more than just nothing.

Because of that I got another dad, who I love dear and who I also take after more than most realize blood or not,

But without you, them, the life I lived & the life that I have now, I wouldn't be the person I am today,

And to live without me, the me I'm now, I will and just cannot.