"Six Thousand Three
Hundred and Twenty-One
Days"
Written on July 21st, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'

'Again dear Lord God above,
'I have awakened to what?'
Love?'
6,321 days since the day of Reckoning?'
'Since, I forgot what it's like to breathe?'
'In and out and then out and in?'
'Perhaps this is just a sin?'
'That, I'm in?'
'My Heart?'
'You mean my Broken Heart?'
'Okay, that's well...
'Yes, it's still beating.:.
'Yes, but the last time I checked?'
'Barely.'
...
'Again, dear Lord above,
'I have Awakened?'
'And, on this day of July and not May...
'May I reinterate?'
'As the many, many, days other?'
...
'First lost the Only Son.'
(Who is somebody's brother)
'And, than the Only Wife.'
(Whom was somebody's spouse)
'And, then apparently?'
'Within a few short months of the Only Son?'
'The Only Wife.'
'And, many years afterwards?'
'I lost my House.'
...
'And yes, this day as many, many, others?'
'Feels exactly the same!'
'With more, "Endless Grief and Pain!'
'So Lord God, why do I go on?'
'And, why do I remain?'
'And, why do I continue in thought?"
'And, why do I Sustain?'
...
'Again, Dear Lord God above,
'I loved but it's all past,!'
'And, I have passed all your tests!'
'Yes!:
'And, I have survived Death and a Dozen Times!'
'I have totaled sport cars, motorcycles, and bicycles!'
...
"Suicidal Intentions?"
'Wrote the book on that way back in 2018.'
'As for Suicide itself?'
'Itself in my case?'
'And, not my wife?'
...
'Yes, way back in December 1st, 2006.'
'I reached into my "Bag of Tricks.'
'And, found a Seven inch Serrated Steak Knife!'
...
'Dear Lord God above,
'Please send me down all your Endless Love?'
''And yes, way, way, back in 2006.'
'Way back that December.'
'And, into "The Never"
'And, what's next?'
"Six Thousand Three Hundred and Twenty-Two?"
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'I Mourn'd and always shall mourn...
'With each and every, everlasting spring...'
Walt Whitman.
...
'And, I too hath Mourn'd and shall have Mourn...
'Ever and forever with each and every Everlasting Spring."
Richard Edward Smrkovsky
Approximate Word Count:424.