I experienced jealousy as a child of 4 when I saw my female abuser kissing her fiancée. Some horror gripped me and I ran in anger the long length of the farmhouse verandah and into the orchard. My parents had abandond me for 9 months into the care of this young woman.
That's one reason why, when as adults, we remember, suddenly, our childhood abuse, we still have difficulty telling. Abuse and Jealousy? Together????How can that be? That's too complex. That's a mind f.... That's a conundrum. There's shame lurking and guilt. Was it my fault after all we ask ? Still.
I've also been the Jealous one in my now non existant marriage. He made it very clear he was almost falling over himself with lust at all the pretty women in the street by commenting on their clothes, staring non stop at the pretty woman at the next table at the restaurant, Saying he just read the articles in you know which magazine a bulging boxful of which stood next his desk and asked of course for that little dance in sexy undies with garters and when asked to do same everything went limp. 20 years, 13 sexless and he cried when I left.
Then I spent 4 years with someone who was so jealous and possessive of me that he even locked the dog in a room with himself so that she couldn't cuddle and play with me. I stayed because he got cancer and needed support, but he recovered and I couldn't take it anymore. His type is known as Narcissists and Beware is all I can say! Jealousy is their Mistress indeed.
And I've seen jealousy at work with the youngest of children . Planting her imprint on the repertoire of their emotional repertoires and one only hopes that they will have Good Love and Good Teachers in their lives to learn to not carry this wicked Goddess within them.
Yes, I know the Green Eyed Wicked Goddess intimately. I've seen how she wreaks havoc wherever she goes. I've seen the shadenfeude sparkle in her eyes.

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