"Day by Day 2003"
By Ricky 1024
Written on May 2, 2006.
{A Dedication and Re-write}
"Like...
'The Sands of An Hourglass.'
"My existence slowly passes through...
'The Great Portal of Life.'
"Loss the Son, then the Wife...
"Too much grief, depressions, pain, and strife...
"Finally, in 2006, I tried to take...
"My very, own, life...
...
"The seconds now tick by...
'One-by-One.'
"The minutes, the hours, and the days...
"My Life seems to be slowly, fading away?"
"Fading away by the hours and years...
"No more color...
"No more glee...
"No more 'Little Garden Flower' and no more me...
...
"God, all I can do is think of both of you...
"Never a moment passes...
"Too much distance, too much resistance...
"Too much vastness...
'Shallow and Tear ed Little Flowers' in...
'Dullness of Glasses...
"What, can I Do?"
"Without the two of You?"
...
"My, Dear, Lord above,
"Why, Oh Why, me?"
"I now am just growing old, knowing old...
"As all my memories collide...
"No more smiling, no more touching, just an emptiness...
"Deep inside...
"Lord God, can't You now See?"
"Is this the way that it is supposed to be?"
"Is that all that's left when we create a family?"
...
"So, so, many lonely and sleepless nights...
"Nights filled with Nightmares...
"All alone, no one left around this...
'Old, House, of Stress.'
...
"It's still so soon...
"Took my last breath away...
"I can't get it out of my head...
"That 'Specter of Death.'
...
"Please, Oh please, God send me an angel to take away...
"All the pains that mount...
"Each and every night and day?"
"Take me to a place where You know they will be...
"No more tears...
"No more pain...
"No more fears or loss of breath...
"No more...
'Specter of Death.'
"This, now I do pray...
"Day by Day...
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