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********************************By Ricky 1024*******************************************
{Written on December 11th, 2015 at 10:02 PM. EST.}
{Poem Number One}
"I Walk On By and think of You...
"The times that we had....
"And those times....
'Were few....
...
"I Walk On By...
"And wonder about You...
...
"Are You alright?"
"Are you thinking...
"Now...
"Of me too?"
"As I think of You?"
...
"Jay....
"All Night...
"And all Days....
"And I Pray....
{for now}
"That We can be...
"Together...
...
"But, Some Day...
"Jay....
"As 'Reflections of Christmas Past'
"Melt away...
"Seemingly...
"Melt away...
...
"And Jay....
"I know in my 'Hurting of Heart' of mine...
"My Feeble of Mind...
"My Torrid of Soul...
"That even though...
...
"Even though...
"These Last and Dreaded of Years...
"Hath Taken it's Toll....
"There Will...
{By God}
"Again...
"Come...
"That..
"Day...
"Jay...

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*************************************By Ricky 1024*****************************************
{Written on December 11th, 2015 at 3:07AM. EST}
{Poem Number Two}
{Part A}
"Willowed Relief" as I see you not!"
"Where arth thee?"
"Willow?"
"I hear ye but...
"Ye doth no appear?"
...
"I tis here....
"My only and lost Son...
"But ye can not see me....
"Because...
'Ye doth not believe...
"In Me...
...
"Is to haveth no grief....
"No relief...
"From thy pains and agonies....
...
"So, As time passes...
"I seldom...
{at last}
"Was able to cast away....
"That Grief this day...
"Willow..
"And been able to place ALL of this Grief....
"In a place.....
"Far, far, away...
...
"Yes Willow....
"I grew fine indeed...
"Found my calling....
"Yes indeed....
"But...
"Something was missing in Me..
"What Mother Willow....
"Is wrong with Me?"
...
"Yes my Son, ye have grown strong....
"And learned so very, very, well....
"To get along...
"And came back to Me...
...
"Then why oh Lord above...
"Do I feel as if I am no longer loved?'
"As if I was no longer here?'
"No longer there?'
"As if I had...
....
"Time surpassed....
"And yes, I was finally grown...
{at last}
"Still missing that...
"What God could it be?"
"Reviewers....
"Do You hath a clue?"
...
"The Seasons came and went....
"Changed and rearranged...
"But...
"Finally....
"Fall was met with *'The Spring of 2003"
"And....
"I had met an Angel.....
"A beautiful Angel indeed....
"And at the tender age of only eighteen...
"I dated she..
"And 'Willowed Relief' came back....
{finally}
"To check again....
"On Me...
...
"Why**'Mother Willow' hath...
"Thee been so long....
"Ignoring Me?"
"Please tell...
"Oh Me?"
...
{With tears}
"My Son, My Love, from now...
"Above...
{a clue}
"You are and always and forever be...
...
'I now hath an Angel as beautiful as beautiful can be...
'and Mother Willow' I want to start{some day} "a family...
"Finally...
"Can Ye see?"
"Mother Willow?"
...
"Ye can not!"
"And You can not see!"
"Child of me...
"For...
"Each and every last of day....
"For each and every moment..
...
"I had prayed...
"For each and every moment ...
"A Tear...
"I had so cried....
"I so tried to tell thee Son...
"But your brain was damaged...
"And on that dreaded of day....
"A terrible price that ye hath to pay...
....
'You see...
'You can not only not see..
"Me...
"But You will never be able to understand....
...
"For each and every lost tear...
"That I hath cried....
"You see Jason...
"You have no recollection...
"That you had died...
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*****************************************By Ricky 1024*****************************************
{Written on December 11th, 2015 at 3:23 AM. EST.}
{Poem Number Three]
{Part B}
{A Dedication to Jason Richard and Carolyn Ann Smrkovsky}
"Forget Me not...
"For I hath not gone...
'Away...
'My Loved Son...
'Jay...
...
"Remember Me....
{as always}
"For I am strong...
{As thee}
...
"Forgive Me....
"For I was terribly so, so, very...
"Sad....
"And forgive {oh Me}
{also My four daughters}
"Oh me...
"But it's better this way...
"That I hath gone back...
"To My Son...
"Jay...
....
"And forgive Me...
{oh husband Ricky}
"For I knew not...
"What I had done...
"And needed to do...
"For I needed to move on....
"Too...
...
{Heavenly Father}
"It was better of this way....
"So, So, Sad {as such} on that 'Willowed of Day" but...
"As Much As I may...
"And Jay....
"Today be missed...
"Light just one, single, candle....
"This Christmas....