depression
impression
possession
pictures
walls
things

people
animals in stalls

bright lights
pretty things
butterflies
finger rings
things for ear

can anyone hear
another minute
another hour
another year
wont endure
don't want more

pink yellow
red blue
purple black
like that

new home
room below
do not go
sadness flow
nothing to do
they can't fix me
i must flee

happy them to be

flower
light
rug
table chair
clothes to wear
put in hair

cover face
put on paste
cover lips
eyes revise
things to hide
fat to hide
cover outside

wine
food
good time
spin on the dime
communication
exahaultation

laugh
go
bend
friend
children
animal
happy

end
dark
cool
locked door
no one knew
leave me alone
won't answer phone
don't look at me
leave me be
lock the door

pills

quickly take
for pain
to sleep
to wake
happy make
no will to take
sit in a coma

mouth open
drool
eyes faded slimy
do not see
nobody home
can't find me
body mass of
loose flesh
cant find parts
not more less
need to move
hurts to walk
can only talk
hurts to sleep
can only eat
hurts to sleep
can only weep

smell
like hell

cant think
cant create
food to take
still must pee
body function
controls me

bills
next week will be better
catch up
no way life
gets better
tomorrow
money to make
money in hand
alone will stand
wills
deals

parents
thanks
left before now
coward
money or peace
for children
no money
no need to stay
must go away

hearts desire
dream supreme
want to die
if i try
must not fail

kids will be well
knowing
expecting
watching
wishing

proud of mom
wanted to be gone
dad was his song
gherri did had to
be done
took to long
did kids wrong

loren secure
left early
loved wanting more

stick around
bad sound
cant stop my wail
this is hell

not just for me
all who see
we all fall down
hear the sound

of all i see
i believe
this earth
i must leave

i know the way
no more to say

car hose pills

drive far away
where do not say

pill paced
amounts spaced

gas in car
must last far

find my place
all my space
no one around
natures sound

dogs by my side
bellies full
no worry inside
no need to hide
never will their pain i abide


kids know i tried
sorry i lied
brain is fried

take your time
will be fine

animals watch
they know
understand
how low
we can go

am proud of you
to brother be true
sister and brother
be kind to each other

dont hurt each other
think of your mother
how must we land
enjoy you lives
live to your full
love time
with family to the full

when thinking of me
laugh with glee
no sad memory of me

you were all
you did not fail
it is in my genes
to weep and wail

you will do better
give in to life
dont count the strife
enjoy your life

give guilt the knife
dont accept strife
do what you must

don't gather dust
don't live in misery
what will be will be
hurt no if you can
be true to yourself
teach kids you can

decisions made
so will not fade
forgive if you can
make peace
woman and man

don't live with hate
your soul it will take

not the fault of
he or she

kids, grand kids
so great
own decisions to make
different paths to take
none better than others
no need to be mothers
don't spend life
just for husband
or wife

this is your life
live how you will
bill can love will
jill will love
who she will

houses
cars
going to bars

the struggle for things
down it brings

take your money
go be funny
laugh smile
waste the time
cost a dime

the struggle
to stay young
forgive what
we've done

need to concede
stop their worry
go out hurry
pretend to play
hide your plan