When did this happen
My loss of life
I died before
due to strife

Each new life
hope came again

Lesson learned
mistake not
repeated

each new life
again defeated

Never I said
I am not dead
I will decide
where I bed

old now I am being
another says who
I am seeing

who I see no
longer my choice
another has become
my voice

Here I am not in
charge
into my room
anyone can barge

This I was not seeing
I am controlled
by another seeming

Beautiful children
their lives screwed up

when I want to talk
I need to shut up

Delicate feelings
a word said wrong

my love or relationship
with a child gone

no longer do I decide
who comes into home

my dogs my friends
no longer roam

people I knew
those I choose to see
not my decision
not made by me

wrong to think
we are in control
life takes over
we all get rolled

Sanctuary suddenly
becoming jail
being needed
puts us in hell

someone offers to
take care of you
its bound to happen
what can you do

pride makes us
pay our way
we cannot say
no thanks
i'll be on my way

making someone need you
is not having them
free you

with children, dogs or others
cannot stop being mothers

Helping children
until I die

When I go
not up to I