A Journey In Shadows

The blackness is not of the night time sky
There is no sun, moon, or stars to guide my way
There are no smiles
There is no warmth
There is no vision of brighter tomorrows

Where have I gone
So hidden in time
Where have I gone

I am alone
In emptiness
Where time waddles to make believe
And sadness spoils the eyes of the Saint

I walk in dark shadows
Going deep into void
I seek solutions to questions
That cannot be answered
And ask myself
Why

I am distant to time

Faces of friends
Disappear to the clock
And I am alone
Without memory

Where have all the people gone

No smiles from my beauty
No laughter from my love

Sleep calls
I wake with fear
Was I once happy

The misty liquid runs down my cheek
My vision is blurred
And I cannot escape the gloom I see
The sights are singular
Loneliness, desperation, and sadness accompany themselves

Fog runs through my head
Dulling what was once there
There is no meaning
There is no hope
Oblivion is peaceful

I cannot comprehend my affliction
Panic, rage, anxiety, and stress
Have numbed my body and robbed me of purpose
My emotions run wild
I weep
I gasp
I quiver
I shake
All is futile

There is no balance
There is no structure

No one can change what I have become and
I am powerless to make them understand why

I am alone

I sink deeper into void

Time is not tomorrow
And tomorrow is a dread
I wish not to come
Where is the spirit to show me the way
Where is the future I once beckoned

No hope
No hope
No hope

Who will save me

Maybe there is no salvation
No light
No warmth
No knowledge
No one can comprehend my devastation

Where is the humanity to show me the way

Yet I still love
And want to be loved
A bosom for protection
A nipple to suck on

Where is the warmth
Where is the light
When will I awaken

I want to be me