Almost Lover

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I thought that I could do it,
but it seems that I have failed.
My feelings are much deeper, dear -
yours, transient and veiled.

The surface stuff looks peachy,
but scratch and you'll find out:
it's all a bit unequal,
you've sown the seeds of doubt.

No fault in this delusion
that I have labored under,
but now I feel my tender heart
is being ripped asunder.

I should have listened to my brain.
It doesn't often lie.
But I always trust my heart,
though logic be defied.

You're a lover, just like me,
romantic, hopeless too,
but parallel reality
has masked what's right and true.

It was not even me per se,
you had to clear your clouds,
some lover just to salve the pain
which loneliness enshrouds.

"I never meant to hurt you babe",
I've heard these words before.
and always when it's far too late,
you're walking out the door.

Today's the day I save myself
from heartache and more sorrow,
to give myself what I deserve,
an honest, true tomorrow.

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