Even seeing your name sends pain
Rocketing through my chest
Memories swell like waves
I wish they would give it a rest
I had so many dreams for you and i
Now I'm a damaged ballerina
Spinning through life chaotically
Now that you and i have died
I spin with no direction
Pain's my newest obession
Not by choice, it was forced upon me
I close my eyes and you're all I can see
Hugged by shattered dreams
I spin and spin
I can never f-ing win
The music chorusing in my head
Is a moody funeral dirge
All the memories
I'd beyond happily purge
You treated me so specially
And I thought you'd be there even after we died
and wipe away the tears
but I was wrong and without you they dried
you said even after we parted ways
you'd keep in touch
I should've known your words to me
Maybe didn't matter very much
I'M spinning to the sound of my soul crying out in despair
wise words for thought: life isn't fucking fair
but i thought you seemed to care
i spin as fast as I dare
All around me
I see happy couples and bliss
i'm haunted by you and your kiss
these memories weigh me down like heavy bricks
spinning out of control
I'm running out of tricks
To keep me going with a smile
chances are you'll haunt me for awhile
i spin and wish i could dance wtih you again
but i dance alone
and cling to my paper and pen
I dreamed of you just the other night
my heart calls for you, a pathetic
Sound and sight
I saw you from a distance in my dream
and as i slept i wanted to scream
because even my unconcious mind knows
You're gone
This is the start of a darkened dawn
I've got a while to go before I'm healed
My fate is definely sealed
I'm to be a damaged ballerina
spinning out of control
longing for you with all my busted-up soul
The good times flash in my mind and explode
like a bomb
I wish i could smother them
in my palm
i thought i was grateful for our time together
but now i'm not entirely sure
the world is a washed-out blur
because you're gone now and you took all the color away
you won't stop crossing my mind all damn fucking day
You made my world brighten and I can't help but miss you
i spin as a damaged ballerina
If only you mother f-ing knew
I'm sorry i'm stuck on you
I'm sorry the memories keep running me through
I'm spinning my way through life now
making it up as I go along
People keep asking me what's f-ing wrong
and i answer with a sad smile and say I just got dumped
but that's the tip of the iceberg for this damaged ballerina
for you my heart sang and jumped
and now it aches and bleeds
and for you it begs and pleads
I can only hope as I dance away
as a damaged ballerina
that it'll heal on its own
because once again I'd have to say
I shouldn't have even tried
I'm just better off alone
My heart opened to you like a book
damned thing just refuses to atone
I dance the days away as a damaged ballerina now
Still learning how
it appears to be an art
I must perfect it now that we're apart
Yes, my heart is still stuck on you
now, where's the fucking glue?
