I can taste it on my lips
As I say goodbye
At home I mass empty my eyes
Making a bitter sea
In my bed on another lonely night
Dreams of you are likely to visit tonight
But when morning comes
I fuss around searching
For you
You're probably under the spotlight
The shining star of the band hall
All I know is that
I am in the drifting shadows
Maybe I'm obsessed
Maybe insane
All I know is that I'm miserable
And I'm addicted to what's to blame
It tastes so sweet
When I say your name
A fatal attraction
How much longer can I live on?
I guess I'm dying
Glue me into a scratchy hospital bed
But my sweet misery never will be completely gone
It follows me like a sick puppy
Puppy dog
Just like the shadows, it lingers inside me
I can taste it as I awkwardly flirt away
Autism on show
More and more every day
Alter ego
Is to blame
The girly mess I hide inside
Is seeping out
Thankfully she'll always be mostly locked away
And trapped
With the crumbling walls
And toxic gas
But it's smothering the danger only slightly
This toxic waste I've created in myself
I love to create
And so do you
Together we work together
More than you ever knew
You create a disaster to be my wake
Dangerous woman
Now
What a fatal mistake
But I can taste the sweet misery
Every time I see you
And I'm addicted to the taste
Drunk on love, you could say
Chain saw whirling
In my heart's gate
Crumbling
And I'm tumbling
And making a mistake
I'm letting you rule
Maybe I'm a fool
I'm attempting to find another guy
A candidate for a miracle doctor
A doctor to heal all this turmoil
And I'm falling
Falling
Harder and harder for you
I need someone to catch me
Other than you
Someone to save me
But I'm a bloody fool
I'm so damn stuck on you
If you were to fall off a cliff
Maybe I'd fall off too
Because often it feels like
I can't live without you
Shadows dwell
And actions tell
Tear ducts always ready to swell
Falling
Falling
Down
Down
Down
I taste it
I crave it
I love it
Sweet
Sweet
Misery
It's simply irresistible
Choking on poison when I feel the deadly words
Rise in my throat
I want to tell you I love you
When I'm forced to say goodbye
But all I can say
Is
Bye
Bye
Bye
Running around chaotically
Making me act psychotically
I can taste it on my tongue
I'm probably
Going to die young
I savor the taste of sweet misery
I have a huge supply
Because everything with you
Is just sweet misery
A dash of salt and defeat
Of heartbreak and joy that rush to meet
A smidge of jealousy and rage
Shame that bursts from a steel cage
And a dash of humiliation
Self-control fails
Grief and tears and all it entails
A sprinkle of frustration
Poetry and loneliness
Pain
Dark humor and times like stormy rain
Your loyalty and goodbyes
A pinch of silent screaming and infatuation
As my heart cries
Crumbling walls and self-hatred
Laughter
Bitterness and breakdowns
Excessive dreamscapes
And amazing moments and memories
Can't breathe
Can't leave
No end in sight
And a dash of hopelessness and awkwardness
You
You
And even more you
This is the recipe for Sweet Misery
