As I polish off my drink,
indulge in one more hit,
I've come to know that I forgot
what I wanted to forget.
I might be sloppy drunk,
might even slur my words,
but this place that I have found
it seems I never hurt.
The pain I feel consuming me,
I suffer everyday,
but this place that I have found
the pain just goes away.
Sometimes I wish that I could stay
in this place for good.
If not for the mortal cost,
I do believe I would.
Back to the real and painful life,
can hardly even breath,
suffer through unending strife,
will there ever be relief?
I push to cope and hang on strong.
I'm not too weak for this.
But this place that I have found
provides an instant bliss.
Though all alone, no one but me,
sustaining disappoint.
But still this place that I have found
any downside seems aroint.
Family push, they try to help,
or completely cut me off.
But this place that I have found
I can't quite see the loss.
It carries on from days to weeks,
the months turn into years.
Hopelessly lost, I've now forgot
what had caused my tears.
Although they're not, they're lurking still,
the pain seems far away.
Seems this place that I have found
is the only place I stay.
The ones that care have given up,
I'm just one more lost cause.
This happy place that I have found
blinds me from my flaws.
Now all alone, I notice not,
I'm on the brink of death.
And now this place that I have found
is all that I have left.
But there was One, whom stayed with me
with grace bestowed His hand.
Now this place that I have found,
no longer can I stand.
I wouldn't stop, or find the door.
Could I have been much more naive?
He showed me that this place I've found
Is one I need to leave.
And now because His loving grace
That would not give up on me,
that lonely place that I have found
is now too far away to see.
