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My past thoughts.
A chapter in the book A Fathers Grieving Heartache.
Estinguishing the Blame?
by Ricky1024
The author has placed a warning on this post for violence.
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"Estinguishing the Blame?"
Written on May 19th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
With but is much as a whiff.
A Silent Breath.
A forever moment of Death.
A Wisp in the Wind.
A Single shed moment of Sin.
How does one begin?
Silence and nothing more or less?
...
God, it does not make any sense.
I guess it was hard to see?
Yes, and not or meant to be?
Believe it or not?
Slowly, ever so, so, slowly...
God, it's becoming okay.
Even though it's still killing me.
Killing me softly.
Each and every day.
...
They say, "Etu Brute."
And, it's the beginning to sink in as the the Middle of March.
March's again in.
Unfortunately, it doesn't represent my Sin.
...
Caesar died yes on that March day.
A Very, Very, long time ago.
Murdered.
"Etu Brute."
But my Only Son Jay?
Yes, too died on a horrible.
As horrible, and seemingly senseless March day.
...
March 31st, 2003.
This day will go down in infamy.
Yes, for me, my family, and our community.
...
This loss may seem hard to bear?
Yes, for a father to take whom cares.
Like a cross at Calvary.
Hard for me to bear the Shame and carry the Blame?
...
Yes, it haunts me.
Yes, and I live with it every second of every day.
Every moment and minute.
Every hour, week, month, and year of *Time.
...
Like an old watch that needs to be rewind.
Playing the same old game.
Carrying the torch.
"Estinguishing the Blame?"
Approximate Word Count:337.
Written on May 19th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
With but is much as a whiff.
A Silent Breath.
A forever moment of Death.
A Wisp in the Wind.
A Single shed moment of Sin.
How does one begin?
Silence and nothing more or less?
...
God, it does not make any sense.
I guess it was hard to see?
Yes, and not or meant to be?
Believe it or not?
Slowly, ever so, so, slowly...
God, it's becoming okay.
Even though it's still killing me.
Killing me softly.
Each and every day.
...
They say, "Etu Brute."
And, it's the beginning to sink in as the the Middle of March.
March's again in.
Unfortunately, it doesn't represent my Sin.
...
Caesar died yes on that March day.
A Very, Very, long time ago.
Murdered.
"Etu Brute."
But my Only Son Jay?
Yes, too died on a horrible.
As horrible, and seemingly senseless March day.
...
March 31st, 2003.
This day will go down in infamy.
Yes, for me, my family, and our community.
...
This loss may seem hard to bear?
Yes, for a father to take whom cares.
Like a cross at Calvary.
Hard for me to bear the Shame and carry the Blame?
...
Yes, it haunts me.
Yes, and I live with it every second of every day.
Every moment and minute.
Every hour, week, month, and year of *Time.
...
Like an old watch that needs to be rewind.
Playing the same old game.
Carrying the torch.
"Estinguishing the Blame?"
Approximate Word Count:337.
*Time: noun
/time/
1a: the measured or measurable period during which an action, process, or condition exist or continues: DURATION.
b: a non-spatial continuum that is measured in terms of events which succeed one another from pass to present to Future.
c: LEISURE
time for reading
2: the point or period when something occurs:
OCCASION
3. an appointed, fixed, or customary moment or hour for something to happen, begin, or end.
"Jason would soon die that horrible March day"
...
Note: To learn more about the amazing gift of Life.
And, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend.
Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life!"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1.
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organ's graciously offered to the four on April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'eileen 0204'
Eileen's Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Without Shame"
Pays
one point
and 2 member cents. /time/
1a: the measured or measurable period during which an action, process, or condition exist or continues: DURATION.
b: a non-spatial continuum that is measured in terms of events which succeed one another from pass to present to Future.
c: LEISURE
time for reading
2: the point or period when something occurs:
OCCASION
3. an appointed, fixed, or customary moment or hour for something to happen, begin, or end.
"Jason would soon die that horrible March day"
...
Note: To learn more about the amazing gift of Life.
And, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend.
Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life!"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1.
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organ's graciously offered to the four on April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist,
'eileen 0204'
Eileen's Incredible Picture Entitled,
"Without Shame"
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