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A Human Trait?
A chapter in the book A Fathers Grieving Heartache.
No Forgiveness (A)
by Ricky1024
The author has placed a warning on this post for violence.
| Background Follows with Another Incredible and Amazing Journey Entitled, "A Father's Lonely Heart Break" |
"No Forgiveness" (A)
Written on November 15th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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There's now no Forgiveness in this Feeble Heart.
It's simply never happening and never will it start.
Lost the Only Son and that was never fun.
Cursed myself each and every waking day.
Why?
Well because it's a parent's job to try and take the child's pain away.
...
Yes, there's no Forgiveness and now and how I do know.
I'd rather die and die suffering.
Really, really slow.
First lost the Only Son followed shortly by the Only Wife.
And God that will always haunt me.
Haunt me to the rest of my lousy life.
...
God I'm sorry but I want to to end my life.
*(December 1st, 2006)
Yes there's no Forgiveness for my past Sins.
Mercy me for that Bitter taste of "Prickling Pins"
Puncture each pore of my being.
It darkness Lord God.
Just Darkness.
I'm now seeing.
"Forgiveness" (B)
Written on November 15th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
God, there's now and no?
No Forgiveness for me?
Yes, but Thy Sun now is again Shining?
Yes, now shining for me?
And, Thy Birds?
Birds do sing Sweet Melody?
Dear Lord God what is happening in me?
...
The many and Beautiful Stars are again?
Yes, and twinkle at this night!
Tis this Thy Miracle a Blessing just right?
Tis no more Nasty Nightmares?
Nightmarish Screams?
Replaced now finally with Peaceful and Resting Dreams?
God, and now all through the night?
Through the night it seems?
...
I feel as if my Childhood tis again and so right!
I can and again want to fly my Big Pink kite!
And, perhaps God everything's now going just perfectly?
Perfectly right?
As no more Pink Tears in my eyes?
I do shed?
And God, no more Unending tears!
Unending tears pouring down instead?
...
No more wanting to die?
No more 9-11 to dial?
Now perhaps instead I can again?
Again finally smile?
Smile again and dance happily!
My Dear Lord God above!
I thank you for finally....
Finally setting me **Free!
Written on November 15th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
There's now no Forgiveness in this Feeble Heart.
It's simply never happening and never will it start.
Lost the Only Son and that was never fun.
Cursed myself each and every waking day.
Why?
Well because it's a parent's job to try and take the child's pain away.
...
Yes, there's no Forgiveness and now and how I do know.
I'd rather die and die suffering.
Really, really slow.
First lost the Only Son followed shortly by the Only Wife.
And God that will always haunt me.
Haunt me to the rest of my lousy life.
...
God I'm sorry but I want to to end my life.
*(December 1st, 2006)
Yes there's no Forgiveness for my past Sins.
Mercy me for that Bitter taste of "Prickling Pins"
Puncture each pore of my being.
It darkness Lord God.
Just Darkness.
I'm now seeing.
"Forgiveness" (B)
Written on November 15th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
God, there's now and no?
No Forgiveness for me?
Yes, but Thy Sun now is again Shining?
Yes, now shining for me?
And, Thy Birds?
Birds do sing Sweet Melody?
Dear Lord God what is happening in me?
...
The many and Beautiful Stars are again?
Yes, and twinkle at this night!
Tis this Thy Miracle a Blessing just right?
Tis no more Nasty Nightmares?
Nightmarish Screams?
Replaced now finally with Peaceful and Resting Dreams?
God, and now all through the night?
Through the night it seems?
...
I feel as if my Childhood tis again and so right!
I can and again want to fly my Big Pink kite!
And, perhaps God everything's now going just perfectly?
Perfectly right?
As no more Pink Tears in my eyes?
I do shed?
And God, no more Unending tears!
Unending tears pouring down instead?
...
No more wanting to die?
No more 9-11 to dial?
Now perhaps instead I can again?
Again finally smile?
Smile again and dance happily!
My Dear Lord God above!
I thank you for finally....
Finally setting me **Free!
*December 1st, 2006: Date
This sadly was the day now and almost sixteen years ago.
That I tried Unsuccessfully to end my life.
...
Note: And, if you know anybody feeling depressed or Suicidal like my past wife Carolyn?
Then please call the National Suicide hotline at 988 or 9-11.
...
"Compassion will cure more sins then condemnation"
Henry Ward Beecher
...
Note: In order to forgive?
In order to forgive and forget?
In Order to forgive, forget, any thing or being?
Big or small, Human or Non-Human?
We then first need the ability to Love thy Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Then we can ask Forgiveness for thyself and for everything else.
...
"To Forgive and forget indeed, we shalleth need"
Unknown Poet (Me)
...
"For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you"
Matthew 6:14
...
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky
December 6th, 1952~
November 23rd, 2003
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organs Graciously offered to save four Human beings on
April 1st, 2003.
(April Fools Day)
...
"For God so loved the world that he gave His one and only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth on him should not perish but have eternal life"
...
Note: And to Learn more about
'Organ-Tissue Donations?"
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with, "The Gift of Life!"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented artist, 'Annalinda'
And, Anna's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Mercy"
Pays
one point
and 2 member cents. This sadly was the day now and almost sixteen years ago.
That I tried Unsuccessfully to end my life.
...
Note: And, if you know anybody feeling depressed or Suicidal like my past wife Carolyn?
Then please call the National Suicide hotline at 988 or 9-11.
...
"Compassion will cure more sins then condemnation"
Henry Ward Beecher
...
Note: In order to forgive?
In order to forgive and forget?
In Order to forgive, forget, any thing or being?
Big or small, Human or Non-Human?
We then first need the ability to Love thy Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Then we can ask Forgiveness for thyself and for everything else.
...
"To Forgive and forget indeed, we shalleth need"
Unknown Poet (Me)
...
"For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you"
Matthew 6:14
...
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky
December 6th, 1952~
November 23rd, 2003
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organs Graciously offered to save four Human beings on
April 1st, 2003.
(April Fools Day)
...
"For God so loved the world that he gave His one and only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth on him should not perish but have eternal life"
...
Note: And to Learn more about
'Organ-Tissue Donations?"
Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with, "The Gift of Life!"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1.
...
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator.
Fan Art Review, this Talented artist, 'Annalinda'
And, Anna's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Mercy"
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