"Dancing My Way 2 the Top of the
Ladder?"
Written on August 14th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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'All Rights Reserved'

It's December 1st, 2006.
The sky is not blue, near or nor tis it clear to.
A light rain had started to form when I awoken from my sleep.
On this day there would be no counting of sheep!
...
This is the day I would meet?
And this is the day he would greet?
It's a simple plan that had been developed by his command?
Just to eliminate!
You take the positive, subtract and then add the negative.
...
The tea kettle is boiling now announcing that is finally time for the end!
As I recast these words quite differently with my pen.
There would be no Happy Ending nor would there be any ever Amen!
...
I made an announcement to my pet.
I had been caring for him since June and he was a gift from above.
But on that hot day things were heating up here too!
So I told my Pomeranian who I called simply, "Puffer"
'That Daddy has a job to do and you need to leave!'
'This is no longer a proper place for you to be!'
...
So I watched as I open the door he didn't understand anything?
Quote Poe's Raven...
Nevermore?
'Shut the door!'
He said with his command!
...
'Now simply go into your kitchen!'
'My slave because there's something in there that you crave!'
'Now take a Seven-inch serrated steak knife into your left hand'
'Understand?'
'And, I want you to take it into your chest not once but twice!'
'I want to see that Guinea Tee turning Crimson Red.'
He said.
...
So, I took his weapon firmly in my hand. And, shoved it directly into my chest to the left side of my nipple!
(Yes, as hard as I can!)
I didn't feel a thing.
I didn't feel like I was dying?
So, I did it a second time!
Yes!
I was really trying!
I then finally watched my Guinea Tee turn Crimson Red!
But Twenty minutes later?
I wasn't dead?
...
Yes, after going into my bedroom to die!
I wasn't dying?
I thought they call this suicide?
It wasn't as if I wasn't trying?
...
I verily, verify, must confess.
And, definitely wasn't crying!
So he said to me.
'It's now time to do what you do best operate!'
'Now, Pick it up again you Fucking Loser!'
'And, now let's see?'
'If you can't get it right for me?'
'Doctor Ricky?'
...
This time I was instructed to slash!
Not once, nor twice, but thrice!
To the left side of my neck?
(What the heck?)
To hit that juggler!
...
'Now do you understand me?'
'Yes.'
I Replied.
And, as for me?
I never was very good at juggling!
So, Again?
I went into my bedroom to await?
My date with Death!
To breathe in my very last breath?
Yes!
To End this "Earthly Quest"
And, begin another and better one with my Only Son?
End of Part Number One.

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"Dancing My Way 2 the Top of the
Ladder?"
(Conclusion)
Written on August 15th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'

Yes!
I was never very good at juggling!
So, as I decided basically to butcher the left side of my neck?
What?
Yes!
And, hit the juggler vein?
What, What?
...
I missed it of course?
God I want a divorce!
No Reply.
And, not Once!
Nor twice!
But thrice?
...
What, What!
What the heck?
God Above?
Can't You even let me Die?
After all I was severely bleeding out from the wounds in my neck?
And, still bleeding internally from the knife wound in my chest inside!
No Reply.
...
So, I went back in my room and thought...
Well, maybe this is not a good day to die?
Yes!
Because the bleeding is already seizing!
So?
What the heck was that very nice?
But how do you put a price?
On Death?
Destruction?
Elimination?
Of your Human Relations?
...
So, now I was really starting to get upset with myself.
So, I thought very carefully???
Yes, what would be my next treatment of decease?
(To say the least!)
How do you kill a Priest?
What should I prescribe for me?
...
Well, the customary way is to slash your wrists!
Yes!
But I've already done a lot of
"Outer Course Bleeding!"
From the top of the neck down to my feet!
Yes!
And, there now is a little pool of my Blood gathering below!
And, don't you know?
As I continue my Dance of Romance?
But dear Lord God?
Perhaps I have one last chance?
Can you spread the Love?
No Reply.
...
So, I ponder my yonder and calculate my ills.
Yes!
And, come up with the brilliant idea?
I think maybe pills?
...
Yes my psychiatrist put me on Depakote for depression and seizures!
Well, I have not ceased to stop this but I definitely am severely depressed!
So, I grab my Depakote and swallow each and every one!
Yes, do much more Fun?
And, with a Glimmer of Hope on my tongue?
...
Now perhaps, I can get the job done Satan?
But even he isn't talking to me?
Perhaps he's disappointed because I can't properly operate on my own self?
And wouldn't you know it as soon as I found the damn pills the phone rang?
...
'Ricky this is Nancy and I didn't like your tone of voice last night when we broke up.'
'I think I should come over and talk to you I'm worried.'
No Reply
But this time by me!
...
So I hung up the phone cuz now I was really completely alone!
Yes, to see what I could sea?
And yes!
There was a "Sea of Blood"
All over from me!
From my "Virtual Blood-Bath of me!"
And, as for Nancy?
Nancy has Heart problems.
...
So, I quickly called 9-11.
No more with my partner in crime Satan be having fun!
To make a long story short and to end this, "Triple Suicide Dance?"
Now You See Me?
Now You Don't?
But now you see Me?
Please?
...
If you feel this depressed?
My only advice would be just one word.
Yes, when your Quest at Best?
Comes to Suicide?
Don't!
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