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Life Cycle
There I liveIn this thing calledLifeStrangeness existsAt opposite endsOf happyAnd sadSyndromes existIn groups calledThoughtsBiology existsIn things calledLifeIdeas existIt is the singularity of ourSoulWe live a lifeWhere twoBrings moreWhere peopleAre peopleAs husbandAnd wife
When boysMeet girlsIn the biology of lifeA marriage of soulsAs lifeProcreates lifeIn groupsOf more and .........moreEgos existIn emotionsCalled logicIt is the survivalOf the fittestThst freaksOur soulsThe singularityOf meIn an expansionOf themWe mateGroupsAre formedSurvival existsI am themThemIs meFamilies existTogether as oneWith thoughts
Of oneWe must survive
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By sholessjo
The blackness is not of the night time sky
There is no sun, moon, or stars to guide my way
There are no smiles
There is no warmth
There is no vision of brighter tomorrows
Where have I gone
So hidden in time
Where have I gone
I am alone
In emptiness
Where time waddles to make believe
And sadness spoils the eyes of the Saint
I walk in dark shadows
Going deep into void
I seek solutions to questions
That cannot be answered
And ask myself
Why
I am distant to time
Faces of friends
Disappear to the clock
And I am alone
Without memory
Where have all the people gone
No smiles from my beauty
No laughter from my love
Sleep calls
I wake with fear
Was I once happy
The misty liquid runs down my cheek
My vision is blurred
And I cannot escape the gloom I see
The sights are singular
Loneliness, desperation, and sadness accompany themselves
Fog runs through my head
Dulling what was once there
There is no meaning
There is no hope
Oblivion is peaceful
I cannot comprehend my affliction
Panic, rage, anxiety, and stress
Have numbed my body and robbed me of purpose
My emotions run wild
I weep
I gasp
I quiver
I shake
All is futile
There is no balance
There is no structure
No one can change what I have become and
I am powerless to make them understand why
I am alone
I sink deeper into void
Time is not tomorrow
And tomorrow is a dread
I wish not to come
Where is the spirit to show me the way
Where is the future I once beckoned
No hope
No hope
No hope
Who will save me
Maybe there is no salvation
No light
No warmth
No knowledge
No one can comprehend my devastation
Where is the humanity to show me the way
Yet I still love
And want to be loved
A bosom for protection
A nipple to suck on
Where is the warmth
Where is the light
When will I awaken
I want to be me
By sholessjo
A cry in the night
A snip of the cord
A gasp for air
Panic
Death
Tears
Apocalyptic tragedy
Who I am
Who I was
Who I have become
I do not know
My roots upended
I tumble
The wind blows
I fall
My mind
Lost to darkness
My soul
Lost to all
By sholessjo
A Lesson In Psychiatric Care
The teacher had no pets
questions contemplated
concerns activated
professionalism the goal
The cure the message
it was a total program of thoughts
and processes
independent in nature
words said
in an anagram of the minute
Independent ideas
in a universe of totality
Criticism of the righteousness
answered with
care
by those who are caring
By sholessjo
My mommy told me I had the cutest dimples
They make my eyes glow like
Sparklers on the 4th of July
That's really cool
I like sparklers
My dad told me I was super smart
Like when I look into the night
And count the stars
And wonder how they got there
Boy..
It must take a lot of time
For those tiny stars
To grow as big as our Sun
I wonder if they were planted
Like seeds
I bet God waters them
Every day
My little brother
And I
Watch baseball
I love the Cubs
I wish they would play two
My little brother tells me
I am a Cubs freak
Well.....
I am a Cubs freak
And that's the truth
I mean
Next to George Washington
Ron Santo is the greatest
Person in all of history
Hey
I gotta go
It was super cool talking to you
But
I'm going to Hebrew School
Learning the 4 questions
Seder's next week
I hope Elijah shows up
Then again......
I hope I find the afi kommen
I could use
Some extra money
Maybe this year
I'll buy myself a dog
By sholessjo
If she smiles
And delights
To the words
That we speak.
In the tone that
I seek
I'll give her my
Love of
Forever
If she sighs
In delight
As I speak
The words
That tickles
Her tongue
That makes her laugh
In utter delight
With thoughts
As one
In a love
For two
I'll be
By her side
Forever
But if she speaks
In harsh tones
About things
I do
With people
I know
In a voice
Of control
That tests obedience
That disrespects
Love
In harmful ways
That bends toward
Darkness
With sorrowful thoughts
Which quickly decays
My newborn
Mind
From the me
I must be
To love a Love
Of Forever
Verse Two
There's no spark
In her eyes
When she sees my
Face
Her tongue speaks wicked
Verse Three
Bodies change
Sagging skin spreads
Age occurs
The physical
The mental
Gone into the wind
Of no return
But love exists
In a different way
Time brings
Oneness
In the marriage
Of souls
The soul of one
The eyes of the other
Join together
In the promise
Of an eternity
Forever
Two equals one
In thought
In body
In caring for all
Time passes
And mean
Brings goodbye
I cry
My love is
A love for forever
By sholessjo
The party lasted a long time
We've such stories to tell
About the long ago
And the hear and now
Of kids growing up
And saying goodbye
Some stories are funny
Some stories are sad
Sometimes we've busted guts
Over nothing
And sometimes we've spilled our souls
In pained recall
Of things gone awry
Those hurtful feelings
That came and went
And then the day came
When life changed
That devastating morning
The shame of my life
When you were there
To guide
And comfort
You were the strong one
I was weak
And you gave me respite
And I martyred
In misfortune
While you braved in loneliness
Watching life change
And love gone sad
But you stayed
Despite me
Your caring
Beyond imagination
And hurt
And I am sad
That I hurt you
In so many ways
I am healing
One step at a time
I build structure
And my roots deepen
You are my tree
And you have grown
Your fruit is the elixir
That makes me strong
It's been a long time together
And I love you
By sholessjo
He was beyond tired
His brittle bones
Made due
The body he was carrying
And he struggled
Step upon step
Through the thorn covered weeds
And hard rock clay
That further weakened
His already
Weakened body
I am
An old man
He cried to himself
My body ages
And exhaustion slows me
To a crawl
He gasps for breadth
Then pushes himself
Forwards
Upwards
Atop rocks
Through thorn covered weeds
Steadfastly
Moving
Ever so slowly
Upwards
Until
He had reached
The base
Of the mount
The old man paused
As he looked upward
At the towering
Peaks
Of the stone laden crag
At the edge of eternity
And shuddered
In disbelief
At the journey
That had been chosen
For him
And he collapsed
With despair
At the daunting task
That had been set forth
Upon himself
The old man
Humbled by doubt
Succumbed
To his age
And stoically
Sat
With the image of God
Etched into his memory
Since time
Itself
Had begun
GOD!
He bellowed
At the top of his lungs
Then bowed his head
In silent devotion
As he began to pray
Father
I am weakened by mortality
Yet you have sent for me
To journey
Into the perils of the unknown
Why do you call my name
I am old
And my body wastes
As the days unfold
Who am I to question ways
Who am I to measure days
My life is short
And I have been corrupted
By sin and shame
Time
Marches
To the mind of youth
And I am old
And I am lame
Why
Oh Lord
Have I been chosen
To lead the flock
When death
Is but a blink away
And he waited
For an answer
That never came
The old man continued his journey
And he climbed
In misery
Till he could climb no more
Weary bones
On sacred stones
The old man knelt
To pray
Mesmerized
By the thought of
God
The old man looked away
And he saw
His end
His end of days
Who am I
He asked his God
Why do I seek
What should not be sought
You gave me life
You gave me form
You gave me reason
To be born
Yet I question
The sorrows
Of the rain
When the life
I cherish
Holds tears
And pain
And the old man wept
With shame
And humility
Until he could weep no more
Until the silence of sleep
Redeemed his soul
He stood
And watched the clouds
Float gently across the dawn
It was a new day
Staff in hand
Rod crested
To the heavens of blue
He stepped upward
He climbed
As he complained
Inwardly
In silence
Of his journey
Fearing God's wrath
If he complained aloud
And his mind
Silenced
In awe
Of the Almighty
The wind blew gently
As he steeped his climb
His beard
Scrolled downward
In a swirl of curls
Rested on his shoulders
His hair
White with age
Flowed backward
Towards time
And he traveled on
The old man sped
As he moved
To the beat
Of the ancient
One
His memories
God's will
Of the past
Brought fulfillment
As he remembered
His youth
Freshness
Filled his mind
He had been like a king
His subjects beckoned him welcome
When their names
Parted the lips
Of his tongue
And they bowed
To the presence
Of his greatness
Yet he was mortal
And he knew not the greatness of his soul
He was man
Born of flesh
He feasted on life
And rejoiced
In the pleasures of the skin
When time was new
And eternity was his
And he had sinned
Against the God
He had so come
To love
The old man
Creaking forward
Trod on the footprints of the goat
That had walked
The path only minutes before
And he offered to his God
A burnt offering
Of flesh
To remove from his soul
The sins of his complaints
And he climbed
Once more
Avoiding the dung
That lie
In stench
Smoldering, by the flies of disease
And he sped his gait
His vision mirrored himself
As he crossed
The glistening liquid
Of a tiny stream
And the image he saw
Was not of a king
His tattered fleece
Torn
By a bush of thorns
Hung shabbily
Mocking the greatness of his past
A forgotten prince
Of a forlorn people
And his pace slowed
As he arched his path
Skyward
Into the lights
Of the nighttime sky
And he prayed
For the strength
To persevere
High into the heavens
His gait
Was halted
As he weighed into the me
Of a tattered mind
And he remembered the turbulence
Of his Exodus
From the land of his beginnings
His promise kept
To free his people
He brought plague unto Egypt
And death to its first born son
And all Egypt
Could see
The parting of the sea
And its people cried
As they let his people go
Moses
God's voice called
I am your Lord
And you are my servant
And Moses looked
But could only hear
The voice of God
He bowed towards his Master
And he spoke
In a voice
Of softness
God...
Your will is my doing
And I am humbled by your presence
I come to you
At the top of the mount
As you have commanded
And I fear your wrath
And he bowed
To the Spirit
Of the Lord
And the Lord cracked fire across the sky
And Moses
Saw the burning of a bush
And he knelt in fear
At the might of God's power
And he prayed for salvation
Then God commanded Moses
To lift the stone
And he held it high
Unto the Heavens
And God scorned lightning
Against the stone
And the words
Of His commandments
Appeared
One
By one
And God commanded Moses
To go down the Mount
For the people of the desert
Had become sinners
Unto the Lord
And the Lord said unto Moses
Take my commandments
I have chosen you
Among the stars
To shine light upon your
People
And they shall know
The meaning of faith
I
Am a just God and
I forgive
The sins of the people
Who call My name
And Moses
Prostrated himself
To the meaning of God
And asked
With the simplest of sincerity
Why ...
Am I the chosen one
And God
Surrounded the body
Of the old man
With warmth
And commitment
And he answered
The question
Moses
I choose you
In this universe
So veiled with corruption
As a golden rainbow
Of hope and purity
Amoungst all who dwell
In the House of Lord
For you
Above all others
Are
A pious man
And Moses
Lifted the
Ark of God's covenant
And he blessed
The Lord
For the kindness
Of his new beginning
And Moses carried
Down the mount
God's commandments
To a waiting people
A salvation of their souls
And their glory
In Heaven
And the people
Followed Moses
Into the desert
As the leader
Of their nation
And the people of Israel
Walked the sand
And God blessed
Their salvation
For they were the people
Of the God
They chose
To lead them
Into
The holiest of lands
By sholessjo
A child of God makes peace with eternity
Hallowed be the spirit
Who dwells with the Lord
High in the heavens
Angels sing lullabies
Trumpeting salvation
To the righteousness
Of the sacred sacrament
Immortality beckons welcome
To those who believe
And disdains those who offer
Worship to the harbingers of sin
Blessed be the soul
Who bows to the Creator
God has witnessed the temptation of transgressors
And humanity flourishes in a darkened world
Of greed and corruption
Sins of the flesh
Wayward thoughts of the mind
Bear witness to false gods
And Satan takes cause in celebration
Welcoming sinners to burn
In the depths of oblivion
I have been devout to his Holiness
I have shed the light of corruption
And I welcome my eternity
It is with the deepest of prayer
That I love the Lord my God
With all my heart
And all my soul
Let the angels of enlightenment
Take me to his realm
And let me say
Amen
By sholessjo
A Rhapsody Of The Heart
Happy is the mockingbird
Who sings my song
Words written with sunshine
Bring rhapsody
To a soul filled with happiness
And I dance
To the rhythm
Of its rhymes
It is the lullaby for lovers
Sung from the heart
And I swoon
To its magic
By sholessjo
It was the sadness of a clown
Eyes wide shut
Black memories
Watering weeds
In my garden of emotional disruption
White faced
Red cheeked
Stained tragedy
On an upside down smile
And then the tent went void
People departed
Yet I stood
Alone with my emotions
Blackness staring into blackness
Empty thoughts
Doomed realities
How did it happen that way
Was it the cockiness of an anti doom
That closed my act
Or the trapeze artists
That would not catch my fall
The clowns of deception
They would be
I should have known
But their friendship was my fertilizer
An essence of life
That brought
Wisdom to reality
And comfort to confusion
The people paid to watch the show
The music roared
The clowns smiled
The people laughed
Under the tent was eternal happiness
And then it happened
The make-up of change
Tore my mask of reality
The joke was on me
By sholessjo
Can you find me
Out there
Looking for you
I've been lost in a shadow
No sun shining through
I've searched for you in castles and caves
In forests of blackness
And unmarked graves
You're a bottle of wine
A half empty cup
A lady in waiting
A child growing up
Drink to me
I'll drink to you
My passions are empty
My boasts are few
Find me
Devour me
Make me anew
Give me a future where dreams come true
Wake me
Take me
In the morning sun
A spry young lad on a furious run
Seeking the answers to the questions of birth
Slaying black dragons all over the Earth
By sholessjo
A Stranger unto Myself
Cast in the shadows of darkness
My soul lies bare
My mind twists reality
Illogical thoughts blacken my night
Evoking
Horrid dreams
Of scream and tragedy
Where ghosts of fear
Awaken my dread
And I am alone
And I am frightened
People wander
What is their cause
People stray
What is their reality
Does their spirit soar
With happiness
Of beloved memories
And accomplished dreams
Do their eyes glow in delight
And their tomorrows
Are they filled with love
Do they share the tenderness
Of sacred intimacy
Beating hearts
Entwined in symphony
The gospel of God's divine exuberance
I have been alive
A sponge without a soul
Vacant thoughts
Emotions awry
Betrayed by what is
Betrayed by what isn't
I have run
I have hidden
I have looked for isolation
And found darkness
Salvation betrays me
Time marches in cadence
The sun beams bright
The air brings warmth
And life is renewed
There are flowers
Golden with smell
Breathtaking in beauty
Bountiful in harvest
And children
So eager to play
So eager to laugh
They excite
They stimulate
They give hope
Of continuance
And unimaginable joy
Of a wonderful world
Of a wonderful tomorrow
Somehow
Someway
A new day must begin
And I am awakened
To the dawn of a new destiny
And I question
Where was my folly
What was my sin
Did goodness create tragedy
Did misdeed create doom
Who I am
And who I will be
Is my quest
I have become
A stranger unto myself
By sholessjo
A Weighty Problem
He eats pizza pies
His pants grow big in size
The scale tells no lies
By sholessjo
The world is chaos and confusion
The questions we ask
The horrors we see
Often have
No meanings
Nor answers
Who we are
Why we are here
Is there a Creator
What is infinity
What is the meaning of life
Perhaps the meaning of life is acceptance
And there are no questions
The question of being is just being
And the flower that attracts the bee
And the bee that spreads the pollen
That brings new beginnings
Are just happenings
I walk the fields
I inhale the fragrances
Rainbows of color surround me
And the bees spread their wings
And create new life
Grandeur is self evident
And serenity is self purpose
It tranquilizes my soul
And brings peace
The love of self being overwhelms
Should I question
Should I clutter my mind with confusion
Of realities that can't be explained
Or should I accept life as it is
Time is spiritual
It is linear in nature
And the cause and effect
Of dimensionality exists without change
What is
Is
Acceptance is neither positive nor negative
It is the answer
It is structure
It is invincibility
It frees the mind and gives us feelings
Of emotional control
And cognitive awareness
Observe the moment
Accept the change
Be positive
Go on with life
Acceptance will follow
By sholessjo
It was a gentle moment
So special in memory
So monumental in time
Her face
Radiant with grace
A portrait for eternity
Mona Lisa
Beguilingly mischievous
Smiling longingly
Alluring
I move closer
Inhaling her scent
I smell her breadth
A living rose
Sweet with desire
Her touch reaches my hand
Sending tingles
Of electric pleasure
Numbing my thoughts
And awakening my desires
I ache for her being
I touch with feeling
My passion in full arousal
Her essence
Too sweet to resist
So deep
So wanting in intimacy
I knew
For certain
The depths of my love
An elixir
For loneliness
A soul gone astray
I had found my love
The glass emptied
With desperation
I wanted more
And then................
It was a gentle moment
By sholessjo
Adrift In Time
Peaceful as the quiet of a summer's day
I lie adrift
Afloat on a cloud of white
In the brightness of the morning's sun
I travel
Timelessly
Aimlessly
To destinies unknown
Happily aglow
In the warmth of a mid morning breeze
Tides of time
Irrelevant
To my thoughts
Bring peace in smiling imagery
Verse Two
And suddenly
She is there
Her eyes gleaming bright
Shine golden with hope
Her hair
Brushed to silk
Blows tenderly
Across her face
Her cheeks
Flushed to red
Dimple with enticement
Boding well
For impending togetherness
And the sun
Glowing in brightness
Sends tingles of ecstasy
On my river of serenity
And I dream
With clouds soaring
Gently
Against the heat
It is good
To be alive
By sholessjo
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An Anti Depressant That Didn't't Work
Gloom is busting out all over
Doom is knocking at my door
Cymbalta an anti depressant
Makes zombies a bit of a bore
Down through the gutters
Emotions go flush
Blackness and darkness
Alone in a rush
Quickly
Quietly
I sink to hell
Cymbalta has cast
A magical spell
Downward
Downward
Spiraling quick
My mind goes black
My thoughts are sick
Suicide
Suicide
What a ride
A peaceful end
To what's inside
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Sadness of my soul
Why are you so pervasive
You seep into my pores
So slowly
So unknowingly
Like a tip in eternity
Scoffing logic
Scoffing time
Bending moods
Blinding truth
Milliseconds of realities
And then
And then
It begins
A butterfly
So beautiful
In bluish flight
Now dead
Stilled
To thoughts of existence
Colorless
The sadness of the ground
And the doleful numbing of my soul
Grows deep
Covering nerves
Covering Muscles
Covering what is
And I mourn
And I mourn
Not for what appears
Not for what I feel
Not for what is real
I mourn in deep memory
Of loss
Of what is me
Of what was you
Of what was me
And I cry
In sadness
Missing
What it was
That made me happy
Missing
What it was
That gave me hope
Missing
Who it was
That that made me
Me
Author Notes | in an infinity |
By sholessjo
Look around little boy
Use your senses
To see
To feel
To hear
To taste
To smell
Grasp the beauty
Of creation
Of the flower
Of the sky
Of the orchestra
Of the song
Of a women
Of her beauty
Of her desires
Of love
Of lust
Of ecstasy
Of friendship
Of trust
Breathe it in
Enjoy it
Time is precious
As is life
Live for the moment
Live for the future
Learn from the past
Not for perfection
But for opportunity
To appreciate
What is real
And what is real
Is me
I am blessed
With life
With hope
To be
As happy
As I want to be
By sholessjo
There's magic everywhere
All over the world
From cold covered barnyards
And snow covered streets
To rows of red flowers
And chocolate treats
Yet there's only one place
I'd rather be
At the circus
Yes silly
Just you and me
Why at the circus
She bothered to ask
You silly willy
I giggled and laughed
To see elephants
And jugglers
Lions
And giraffes
By sholessjo
Atonement
Oh Heavenly Father
You are my King
Your creation
Is my soul of life
Doomed in darkness
I see You not
Your wisdom
I have betrayed
Yet
You are there
In my every breadth
My every vision
I pray for Your touch
Your hands mould forgiveness
And I pray for Your healing
In an evil world
I am but a thorn on a flowered rose
Sanctify my soul
Forgive me through prayer
Forgive me through action
The transgressions I have committed
Bring shame
And remorse
To a tragedy
Of my own consequence
Spiteful revenge
I could not help
The Commandments
Heavenly laws of perpetuity
Demanded in covenants past
And commanded in covenants future
Have decimated my body with putrefaction
I have defiled Your name
And brought shame
Upon myself
My brethren look at me with contempt
Shall they cast the first stone
Or shall all who have sinned
All who have lived
Be pardoned
Unto You
My One God
My True God
Free me from captivity
And bring me home
By sholessjo
Where is the end
When there is no beginning
Where is the beginning
When there is no end
Hickory dickory dock
Someone broke the clock
The clock stands still
When life stands still
Hickory dickory dock
What is life
When time stands still
What is time
When life stands still
Is an hour an hour
Each 60 minutes
Or Is 60 minutes
A thing of the past
When life itself
Is gone so fast
And when we're dead
It's plain to see
Life itself
Was never to be
ginnings
By sholessjo
I used to know them
By their smiles
Their eyes
Twinkling brightly
Like shining lights
On a caring face
Enduring empathy
Together
Forever
But they went into darkness
Treacherous in thoughts
Dangerous in deeds
They crafted discourse
They lie awake at night
Dreaming dreams
Like vultures
Ready to pounce
On my eternal flame
By sholessjo
Beyond The Stars
Happy as a Lark
On a springtime day
A smile
Approaches
I behold its beauty
Beyond words
Beyond the stars
It shines
On me
It is its sun
That I see
Glowing brightly
In the morning mist
Visions of purity
Like the whites
Of clouds
Celebrating existence
Radiate its optimism
Beyond any destiny
It brings hope
And I am reborn to its
Paradise
My final destination
The salvation
Of my soul
By sholessjo
Black
In death I dream
In death I scream
A twisted soul I sink to hell
Blood upon the water
A twisted soul I sink to hell
My life I'll take in slaughter
Emotions frayed
Thoughts decayed
Each day to me
A fearful time
Darkness
Agony
I dream in mime
I think
I think
I think in rhyme
Confusion
Illusion
It makes of time
A stirring
Blurring
Lethargic crime
That comes and goes
In portions of time
For black is black
A sadness in prime
Black has no goodness
Black has no grace
It scorns my mirror
It scours my face
What I see
Is sadness
What I feel
Is shame
What I think
What I feel
Are thoughts of gloom
What is good is bad
What is happy is sad
Reality in tears
Reality with fears
Shamed and alone
I hide in stone
From people I run
From people I shun
Inward
Inward
Thoughts
Astray
Ghostly
Ghastly
I run away
Inward
Inward
I see no hope
No promise
No beauty
I cannot cope
I am a star in a galaxy
So far away
I shine
But cannot be seen
What good is the candle
When there is no light
What good is life
When there is no sight
Thoughts of serenity
Thoughts of hope
Forsaken in a dream
Dusk to dusk
The answer is clear
Like the dawn of beginnings
Like the morn of endings
I say goodbye
Dust to Dust
Forever
Goodbye
By sholessjo
Use red face and blackface you
Bloodfest Tinnitus
It's almost time my beauty
Come with me
Into the night
Where shadows lie
And tormented memories
Of pained sights
Add vivid vision to the terror
Inside my soul
Pained sounds
Screeching discord
Add agonies to my ears
Yesterday's pleasures
So eternal in their youth
Now
Pained reminders
Of what was
Feast on my blood
Remove my stench
Make me well
By sholessjo
When I saw them
My mind flushed
Flashes of irresponsible youth
When their happiness was
The youth of my desires
They looked at me too
Introspecting my thoughts
With their enthusiasm
They smiled with their eyes
Their orbs gleaming
Wide
The excitement of memory
Of the understanding that
Comes with the acceptance
Of unconditional love
And unconditional timelessness
That only parental sibling bonds
Can give birth to
The words were unimportant
For me
For them
For now
This meeting
The epicenter of all foundation
Laid in our past
And we could do no wrong
It was all in their eyes
Those smiling eyes
That said
I love you
74.
By sholessjo
City
It was a morning of beginnings
The Sun rising in an upward arch
Traveling East to West
In a semi circle of radiance
Bringing sunlight to the blueness
Of a clouded sky
Forms shadowed in obscurity
Usher in structure
To the mighty towers of concrete and steel
That adds foundation and utility
To the people who call this city home
There is an optimism of hope
That permeates the core of this bustling metropolis
Where seventeen million people
Give birth to the excitement and opportunity
Of a new born day
By sholessjo
Rains fall
While cities sleep
Gutters sputter
Rat's tails
Cats meander
Dogs whimper
And nests of insects
Sop the corpse
Of yesterday's pride
Cities sleep
And people
Cry
Porn and blot
Rust and rot
By sholessjo
Coffee Mate
You're kind of saucy
But not too bossy
You tell me what to do
I always listen
Cause when we're kissing
I tell you what to do
Our romance is blessed in heaven
We drink coffee at Seven Eleven
You like it steamy
I like it creamy
You like it silky
I like it milky
I do the stirring
You do the purring
We like each other a lot
We drink coffee by the pot
Verse
How sweet
The poem
That stirs the pot
I hope you enjoy
The other half
Part two
By sholessjo
I taught I taw a puddy tat
I taught I taw a rabbit
I tink I tee a lot of tings
But what I tee is tragic
It seems to me that what I see
Keeps changing in my head
The youthful flights of innocence
Are gone and probably dead
The future was much brighter
The way it was before
Darkness came much later
It was life at its core
Yesterday's news was bad news
But never as it seems
The problems
With today's news
Is a low self esteem
One day I'm feeling sunny
One day I'm feeling fine
It's the logic of depression
It gets me every time
My emotions rule my ego
My emotions rule my head
My logic seems so crazy mixed up
I think it's left for dead
I know its part of healing
To have a quirky head
But gosh, oh gosh all mighty
My brain won't go to bed
I want to be more normal
To live a balanced life
I'm driving people crazy
I'm tired of the strife
Tomorrow is another day
I hope tomorrow's fine
And everyday thereafter
I want the sun to shine
By sholessjo
What is a flower without pollen
What is a bee without wings
What is life without purpose
Mysteries
Confusion walks our planet
And the questions we ask often have no answers
God. Creation, love and death
Are
Cognitively inconclusive
We think
We feel
We sense
We communicate
Yet
We cannot philosophize our existence
Our minds are chaotic
Doubts, fear, anxiety, depression
Run rampant in our thoughts
And the uncertainties make us unhappy
What is life's meaning
Maybe there is no answer
Maybe the question of being is just being
And the flower that attracts the bee
And the bee that spreads the pollen
That brings new life
Are just accidents
The beauty of it all
The majestic peace that fills are senses
Tranquilizes our soul
And brings serenity
We smile
And the love of nature
Overwhelms
Should we question why
Should we clutter our thoughts with infinite confusion
And realities that can't be explained
Maybe
There is no need for questions
Maybe
There is no need for answers
Maybe
Acceptance is contentment
By sholessjo
Hey
You did it again
You're like a shadow
Here one minute
Gone the next
I need you man
You're the only one who knows
Knows what
I ain't no philosopher
And I certainly ain't no genius
Why don't you go away and leave me alone
I can't
I'm so mixed up
I'm fine one minute
And then the next minute I get some kind of chemical reaction
And something strange goes haywire in the old noodle
Everything turns black
I'm a frugin yoyo
High one sec and down the next
Ok ok
Shut the F--- up
What do you want to know
I want to know the secret to serenity
Serenity
Now that's a good one
I don't think anyone
Not even Freud knows what that is
But Sigmund is the Arch Angel of mental healing
He's got to know
Who says so
He spent most of his time in crisis reading books
The rest of his time he spent writing gibberish
With mystical and mythical answers
And he still had to write some more
What are you saying then
Look into that messed up mind of yours
Is the answer in me
Hell know
No one knows what true serenity is
There's pills
There's drugs
People pop them over and over again
They drink whiskey and Grey Goose
And get hammered into Utopia
But when it's over
It's over
And it's back to reality
So what you're saying is that there is no such thing as permanent serenity
You got it daddio
Then what should I do
Well, the first thing you got to do is quit bugging me
I'm as loony as you are
And the second thing you gotta do
Is relax with the game plan
What game plan
I'm not playing football here
Hey stupo
Don't take everything so seriously
So what if you're not King of the Hill
So what if some dimwit kids laughed at you 60 years ago
You're a big boy now
Grow up
You really want to know the difference between you and me
Yes master
Tell me
Please
Ok
But don't consider this fatherly advice
I got too many flaws to be your dad
Ok already
What is the answer
Simple man
Go with the flow
Take the wave and ride it till you fall
Then get up
And ride it again
The tides of time will show you the way
And you will get to where you're gonna go
Only smile
Smile while you're heart is breaking
Smile even though you're faking
Smile and soon
The sun will come shining through
God oh God
You the man
That is the answer
Bad turns into good
A bummer becomes a hummer
Go with the flow
Just give it a shake and enjoy the good times
The rest will take care of itself
And when you feel bad
Take a snooze
Cause when you wake up
The sun'll be shining through
Remember
Temporary insanity
Temporary serenity
That's it in a bagga nuts
Gotta go
Wife's calling
Wait
When will I see you again
By sholessjo
I sit staring
But I do not see
I am a river
Flowing
Through eternity
Seeking answers
To questions
That have no answers
Where shall the waters take me
Will the tides pull me
In eddies of swirling circles
Turning white into black
And black into blacker
Deeper and deeper
I sink
Breadth held tight
The cold numbs me
Is there darkness at the bottom of the sea
Or like the coral
Colored with life
Rainbows and fairy tales
Joining
In a storied saga
Of prince and princess
Where love everlasting
Brings happiness beyond belief
And pots of gold
Turning thoughts
And ambitions
Into wondrous bounties
Aglow with beauty
Aglow with hope
A golden ending
To a life of despair
A golden ending
To what should have been
By sholessjo
The bones in the closet make strange music
Tuneful melodies of hidden places
Where passions of long lost lovers
Embrace in silent dances
Rhapsody and rapture together again
Like sirens in the night
Pleasures in blackness
Singing to me
Caressing me
With sensual rhythms
Of harmonies
Of innocence gone
Joining together
Trembling
Touching
Two stepping to heaven
A romance in black
My deepest love
By sholessjo
The green Chevrolet zipped bumpity onto the bend
Where the road thins
Single file
And the old man remembered
The olden days
When the asphalt paved highway
Brought silk to the meaning
Of asphalt and tire
The road was old now
Pot marked old
As freeze turned to thaw
And thaw turned to freeze
The old man
Eyes aged sour
Squinted
Through the glare of the glass stained windshield
And cursed
As the jolt
From tire thumping rock
Launched him
Like a rocket into space
Dropping him suddenly
Like a bomb
Onto the rusted core
Of metal springs and tarnished leather
That had once
Feathered his landings
Hard ride
He muttered to no one
And cursed again
As he steered his Chevy
Through the road
Of swamp and green
The car sputtered noise
Clanking, thumping, and hissing
As it coughed
For the last time
Dying
In a puff of rust and smoke
The old man snarled
As the broke down Chevy
Lay dead on the road
He remembered those other days
When the car shone new
Clean green new
It was fresh then
Like Magnolias blooming in the field
On a crisp April morn
And he watched
As the sun lifted
Above the horizon
He was alone now
His thoughts turned to survival
And he imagined
The wolf
Lurking at night
In the blackness
Of the forest green
Kneeling
He praised his God
And asked for mercy
And a safe journey home
The old man walked in thought
As he strode the stones
Of another day
He had been happy with her
Her smile was charming
Showed white with a gap up front
Between the two big uppers
Looked a bit rabbity
And he snickered
Thinking about their first Easter together
When he brought her a bouquet of carrots
And she gnawed away, snorting as she ate
She kissed him then
Kissed him again
And he melted to tenderness
As he felt the sweetness of her sugar
Rushing to his head
Her eyes were teasingly warm
Laughing eyes
He had called them
Painted blue
Like the waters
On a clear coral reef
A treasure trove of love
Is what she was
The old man said
She cared
When caring mattered
He pressed forward
Into the vastness
Of the forest
Where beasts
With shiny green eyes
Awaited their prey
They had been happy together
Met in high school
By the water fountain
Sophomore year
Her hair
Brushed front to back
Pony tail style
Had been bleached blond by the sun
Golden perfection
He thought
And he lingered
Remembering her kiss
The forest came to life
As the sun closed another day
Full moon tonight
The old man thought
And he shivered
In the still of the autumn air
That was not yet cold
Ahooooo
He heard
It was the sound of the wolves
Howling in the night
As they traveled in packs
Scouring the forest
For food
And life
The old man looked
Searching for shelter
From the perils of the night
In the darkened greens
Of this God forsaken world
He found some twigs
Flint lit them
Like his daddy taught him
And built a fire
No wolves now
He muttered in a gruff
Nasty voice
That no one heard
The loneliness
Of his days
Became unbearable at night
As he looked
For eyes that were not really there
Demon Monsters
He uttered
And the old man stepped
Carelessly
Into the grassy root
Covering the swamp laden bog
That had become his home
He screamed
As jolts of agony
Shot from his ankle
Throbbing blood
beneath the torment
Of the open wound
Swelling broader
As he hobbled forward
Through the quagmire
Of swamp
And flea
Fear
Fluttered fast and furious
As images flashed
Through his mind
And he imagined
The wolf
Teeth snarling sharp
In a gripping growl
Its saliva spitting hot fever
Waiting to prance
On what was left
Of his tattered remains
He picked a branch
That broke from the tree
As it fell from grace
Purged it of thorns
And gamely gripped it
Limping
Cane in hand
Forward
Toward his targeted destination
That would keep him safe
From the beast of prey
Lurking
Stealth like
between the trees
Of the darkened forest
And he winced
As the sharpening pain
Made more treacherous
The treacherous journey he had already begun
His haven of safety
Hours away
He crept
Toward the place
He now called home
His mind turned to her
And the youth of their day
When handsome
Was the description
Of their coupling
They were so much in love
Sweet sunshine in the morning dew
He thought
And he wanted her
More than he had ever
Wanted
Anything else
The wedding had been a joyous one
Beloved family
Forever friends
A hoist of people
Important to their past
And cherished in their days
Attended in celebration
As the blessed couple took their vows
And swore a love
Of forevermore
Their marriage was magic
Happiness and laughter
Filled their days
As they gleamed eternity
From the foundation
That had dug its roots
Deep in the fertile soil
That conjoined their time
He pleased her with vigor
And spoiled her with charm
They were happy together
And together
Would be forever
But the years passed
And their thoughts of eternity
Diminished to the tedious grind
Of making due
Their love
Lingered to convenience
As he toiled ambitiously
In a job
That needed time
And concentration
The magnitude of their passion
So lustful
In its beginnings
Melted
As he spent his days
Distant to her needs
An unimportant job
In an unimportant career
He had become a voyager
Traveling distances
Into horizons of opportunity
As he searched for the monetary rewards
That would bring praise
From his anointed lover
His car
The green Chevy
So cherished in life
Had dulled with the ticks of time
Becoming his house
As much as his home
And days would go by
Without seeing the lady
He called love
She had been lonely
Unfulfilled through abstinence
And childless by choice
His choice......
Not hers
She dreamt of better days
Yesterday days
Of golden dreams and
Golden promises
And little ones
Lots of tots
Scurrying here and there
Doting on her every word
And she would protect them
As a good mother should
When had the time parted
The souls of their heart
And she remembered
His dimpled smile
And curled up hair
That had beguiled her
With laughter
And imagined the pecks and kisses
That turned into passionate embraces
As he romanced her
And called her love
She needed the hunger
Of the other days
When her body called
And he would listen
Eyes upon eyes he was always there
In those eternal moments
Tendered times
When he would grab her dreams
And fulfilled her wishes
Where was the honey
That had kissed her lips
In those days of harmony
She needed it
Body and soul
And ached for his sweetness
It was the glistening of hope
That had vanished from her life
And she desperately needed it back
She reached
Drink in hand
Imagining the affection
That never
Came
And swallowed hard
The relief it brought
The trees had eyes
And the thorns flashed teeth
The old man
Grown with age
Transversed awkwardly
Steadfastly
Across the bog
That bore his memories
Since the days
When life had ended
And life began
It had been a violent end
Too horrible to contemplate
Yet too horrible
To pass
He shuddered
As his mind wandered
Towards those days
Of demise
When life
Turned cold
And remorse
Began
He had not been a violent man
His muscular body
Flabbed with age
Had softened
In time
And his desire
For fame
Released itself
Into the acceptance
Of loss
Youthful loss
When boredom became
The flesh of his day
His lust for love
His needed passions
Those tender moments
Of gentle beginnings
Lost themselves
Into the darkness
Of the approaching shadows
When age dims reality
And the slice of a knife
Cuts the realities of time
And he traveled through expectations
Not recognizing
The chameleon of changes
That altered their ways
His days
Mingled together
One unto the other
Transforming themselves
As the passions of love
Doused themselves
And the fires of lust turned to ash
He traveled
From day to night
And night to day
Home in thought
Away in body
His mind raced foreword
And the lust he had felt
In their days of joy
Moved unkindly
From passion to ownership
And he welcomed that change
As she became the pet
He so wanted
To control
She grew inward
Alone and unfulfilled
She became intolerant
To his needs
Neither caring
Nor sharing
His thoughts or deeds
She took to drink
Morning to night
And night to morning
Aching for tenderness
From his touching hand
That never came
And never touched
Her needs unfilled
Her wants untendered
Her loneliness became unbearable
And she drank to drink
Not realizing
The addiction
Burning in her soul
The old man thirsted
At the stream of swamp
That had filled with urine
From the passing
Of the hunter
And he emptied himself
But could not drink
His needed drink
He heard the bark
Ahooo
In the darkened forest
Of muck and mud
As the howling wolf
Tracked its meat
Moving closer
And closer
To its daily meal
His heart pounded
And his body scampered
From the sharpened teeth
That would do him in
His ankle throbbed
As his blood filled joint
Pained to stiffness
And the old man shuffled
From panic to frenzy
He crept closer
Bending now
Almost crawling
As the old man saw
The lights of his cabin
He climbed
Tortuously
Upward
Over rocks
Into mud
Until he reached the pinnacle
Of the tiny hill
On the grassy knoll
He was minutes from safety
He sighed
In an exhaustive collapse
Of mind and body
His heart pounding as waves of adrenalin
Circled his body
And he inhaled deeply
The gasping breadth
That gave him life
Oxygen redeemed him
And he raised his body
Skyward towards God
Thanking Him
For salvation
And he said Amen
As he prayed again
His thoughts calmed
And his body released
It was a warm bed
That he needed so badly
He would boil some milk
Mixing in chocolate chips
And sugar
To sweeten the day
When he almost died
His green Chevy
Worn with love
Yet slimed by time
Was gone
Dying in a covering of silt
And spoil
His business done
He drove hurriedly
Into the night
Awaiting the day
He would be home
He soared through cities
And roared through towns
It was a journey
Of exhaustion
Gone for nights
He had filled his days
Selling wares
To businesses here
And businesses there
He had run
Non stop
And he was tired
He had driven through mountains
Crossed bridged seas
Stopping once
As he gazed in admiration
The arid planes of the deserted desert
His soul was lost
And he hungered
For the sanctity of his house and home
And he pictured the whiteness
Of his dreams
The fresh cut grass
And beds of roses
Planted in the spring
Of their love
Mostly, though
He needed the familiarity of
A home cooked dinner
And an awaiting wife
Which he sorely missed
The old man
Cane in hand
Descended the hill
And counted the stars
Splaying light
In dots
Across
The Western sky
He imagined
The steam from
The hot water tub
Clouds of whiteness
Drifting upward towards the sky
And he would pray
As he cleansed his body
And forgave his soul
The Green Chevrolet
Shown new
In the morning sun
As it zig zagged
Up the mountain side
Reaching its peak
Among the trees
That adorned its journey
As it steeped its descent
Almost flying as it
Sloped its way
To the bottom road
That led to his home
He would surprise her
With hugs
Then kisses
And speak passionately
About their tomorrows
He would embrace her love
As it had been
In the other days
As he told her
Of love renewed
In his days of toil
Away
From her loving arms
And he had
Missed her
As his days of journey
Sprouted
Into loneliness
And beyond
He did love her
Not passionately
Not flamboyantly
But in thought
Like furniture
Comforted through time
She had become
His
And he had become
Hers
He drove
Slower now
Down the streets
Of early memories
Yelling hello
To the paperboy
Who flung the news
Across the sky
Into the yard
Of a far off
Neighbor
The old man
Freezing to stillness
From the onset of an early frost
Saw the cabin
And smiled securely
Anticipating the warmth and safety of his cherished home
He relaxed as he stepped forward
Looking once more
At the beauty
Of the night time sky
Life would go on
He said to himself
The drive home
Brought days of dreams
Of happy endings
And laughing faces
He was not young
Anymore
As he peered in the mirror
And drove in contemplative thought
His hair had remained dark
With only a touch of age
And a few crows lined his brown colored eyes
But that was it
He was not old
Either
The sun
Shining bright
In the morning sky
Blurred his vision
As he drove
Ever closer to his heart
To the place he called home
And he thirsted
For its sanctity
And longed
For its familiarity
She was all that remained
Of the olden days
When friends were friends
And lovers loved lovers
But
Lust ended
And friends
Bid adieu
They were alone now
His memories were with her
And only her
Their love
Different
Vital
And he needed her
More than ever
She was drinking heavily now
Going regularly to the little tavern
On the outskirts of town
Where no one knew her name
An older woman
She had aged
Gently
But surely
She studied her features
In the crystal coloring
Of the time warn mirror
Her hair
Blond by color
Radiated enchantment
Enticing leers of hunger
From lusting men
On the prowl
For a wild time
Away from home
Her painted red lips
Parted wet
As she sipped from the snifter of cognac
That she had so grown to love
And the giddiness she felt
Made her feel
AS young as her dreams
This was her favorite time
The private time
When she was alone
With people
Strangers really
Who knew not her name
And that
Was the part
So important in time
When she lusted the touch
Of the stranger
Unknown
She stood
As her eyes caressed
The shape of her body
Staring back
In the mirror
She had aged gracefully
Swan like
Her body
Stylish in stance
Glowed with confidence
And her figure
Taught and lean
Still held
The shape of her fanciful youth
She was beautiful
And the reflection
She saw
In the crystal mirror
Was that of the woman
She lusted to be
She looked around
For the telltale signs of comfort
She needed so badly
And glanced at
The Oak bearing furniture
Of table and chairs
That had scratched
Comfort over the years
And she smiled
Knowing she fit in
Nicely
With her surroundings
She sipped the cognac
Till the glass had emptied
And ordered another
The hours passed
As she drank to drink
Her passion ignited
Growing to lust
As she embellished her ego
With drink after drink
Studying the people
Around the bar
And the confidence she got
From the bottles of brew
Made conversation
Easy
With the man
Who said hello
She chugged another
And he offered her more
She felt good around him
She felt alive
And
Wanted to be touched
She laughed as he spawned
The jokes of his life
And she talked
As he listened
And she needed to be heard
She held his hand
The touch of his flesh
Electrified her heart
As sensations of want
Circled her body
And the tingles
Of anticipation
Gave way
To the urges
Of a calling bosom
She needed him
And her passion grew
Beyond control
It had been so long
Since the touch of another
Had made ecstasy
Her desire
She leaned
Toward him
Parting her mouth
Her lips crested
Anxiously
In a wave of excitement
As she gently
Kissed
The lips of
His desire
She rose
Looking for familiarity around the bar
But the faces she saw
Were strangers
And she knew she was safe
And wanted to play
She kissed him hard
And she kissed him long
Diving deep into need
He grabbed her hand
He pulled her closer
He kissed her
With passion
Then lust took control
And he needed
Her touch
As he wanted to touch
They left their drinks
On the lonely table
Where they had laughed
And they had touched
And drove
To the lonely house
In the quaint neighborhood
With the sprawling pines
And six foot bushes
That she called home
She liked it that way
Gave her privacy
And she was a private woman
It was dark
With regret
That lonely house
But she had no sorrows
Not now
Not then
It was his fault
It was the needed passion
Brought by his neglect
That stirred the thoughts
That brought this action
And they stripped
Peeling clothes
Kissing and touching
As they lay naked
On the bed
She felt no shame
As they embraced
Igniting pleasures
Atop ecstasy
As they touched
What they wanted to touch
Till they culminated
And fell asleep
In each other arms
It was the morning of the day
And she made him breakfast
His favorite meal
Toast, eggs, bacon, potatoes
She yelled
In a soft alluring voice
She had meant for pleasure
They ate
Slowly
Consuming the food
Consuming each other
They sat laughing with happiness
Talking nonsense
As the omelet they were eating
Melted into the mouths
Of their morning kisses
They held hands
Like lovers in love
As they pranced
Unashamed
To the front of the door
She opened it
With a tease
Looking for familiar faces
She saw none
As she stepped into
The dawn
Of a new born Sun
It was almost sunrise
On this warm
Wonderful day
And they were alone
Amongst strangers
And she kissed him deep
As he kissed her long
The Green Chevy
Purred slowly
Along the barren streets
He knew so well
He turned the wheel slowly
Embellishing his words
Of affection
That would bring smiles to her heart
He entered
The driveway
Of his house and home
He felt happy to be back
They were joined as one
Arms wrapped tenderly
Entwining each other
In a grip of electric arousal
And they kissed
Lustfully
As if
It were
Their last
And final
Kiss
The morning dew
Had given up
To the rising of the sun
And the man stopped the car
He leaned foreword
Gazing into the future
But the picture he was seeing
Through the glare of the windshield
Was not of the morning Sun
His mind snapped
Cold
And he felt fury
Like he had never felt
Nor wanted to feel before
His rage grew
As he stared
At the sight
Of the obscenity
In the scene
In front of his eyes
And he reacted
With vengeance
Striking
As the Devil
In the hands of destiny
Their kiss
Embraced their fate
With passion and lust
And his mind angered
Growing wild
With hate
And he could not
Bear the sight
Nor the consequences
Of this betrayal
He snapped
Violently
Red fire igniting vengeance
In the flashing eyes
Of his disgust
And he roared the engine
As he lost control
They froze mid kiss
Hearing the roar
Of that fated engine
Their eyes wide open
As the Chevy
Flew thunderously
Into view
And they did not move
As it smashed them
Body against brick
Blood poured
As their mangled bodies
Fell limply
Onto the reddened ground
Where they now lay dead
Terror gripped him
He screamed in horror
Sharp shrieking sounds
Sobbing uncontrollably
His muscles recoiling backward
Tensing to anxiety
Tightening
Fear
Engulfing his body
And numbing his mind
His body pitched forward
Than backwards
Violently shaking
Rocking back
Then forth
He could not catch his breadth
As he gasped for air
It was an accident
He cried
It was an accident
And he prayed
For forgiveness
And he felt the guilt
Of eternal sin
And he knew he was doomed
He sped away from the horror
He saw
The bloody body of his mangled wife
And bludgeoned stranger
Lying dead at his door
Like crushed tomatoes
Splattered about
And he pictured the carnage
Again and again
As his pedal
Hit the floor
He could not look back
As he drove
Farther and faster
Distances away
From the haven
He had called home
The old man
Paused on the dirt filled path
By the edge of the cabin
As the howl of the wolf grew nearer
And he scurried to get inside
He heard the panting
As the growling grew louder
Closer now
Louder now
And he smelled the stench
Of rotting death
He was in trouble
He looked to the forest
It was black with fear
And he felt the wolf
With the dark green eyes
And razored teeth
Staring hungrily from
The back of the hidden tree
Beside the house
But he could not see
What he should have seen
He had grown old
Since that fateful day
When she had died
And left him alone
He remembered those nights
As he remembered those days
They were lonely times
Away from home
He had always been faithful
Never touching
Never betraying
The woman
He called love
But she had betrayed him
Taken a lover
And his eyes filled
With tears
As he remembered more
He had not planned
The malicious act
When vengeance called his name
He had loved her
And he had wanted her
More than ever
She had taken a lover
Betraying him
Causing him pain
And she cursed him
With loneliness
He had been good to her
Nice house
New clothes
She got everything
She had wanted
While he suffered
In the loneliness
Of a boring job
And a solitary life
He felt safe here
As he drove around the bend
Where the road had ended
Through the woods
Crossing streams
Atop rocks
Into the density of
A beast laden forest
And he cried with sorrow
As he sobbed with tears
It was her betrayal
He said aloud
And he cried in loneliness
The years did pass
And he made a home
In the rock and green
Of an unwelcome forest
The police
Had arrived
Blood and guts oozing
From the mangled remains
Of the one time lovers
Their eyes had grown
Cold
Deadened cold
As they stared blankly
Into the eternal emptiness
Of the darkened sky
And they would see no more
Their thoughts ceased
Even to time
Corpses
Waiting for burial
No more
No less
Oldest crime in the book
The white haired captain said
As he showed the picture
Of the betrayed husband
Now wanted for murder
Jealousy
He said aloud
Caught her cheating
Went berserk
He understood
The crime
The captain
Thought he knew the man
That lay so still
In the dried out blood
Doesn't live around here
He said
And looked for the wallet
That would give a name
Out of towner
He said
Tramp lady
He thought
Probably deserved what she got
He gave up the chase
Soon after
The old man
Fell backwards
Onto the ground
He was too tired to move
And he lay
Belly up
Eyes staring
Toward the blackened heavens
Of the star bright sky
And he saw the moon
And it was full
Ahoo
Howled the wolf
And he heard the sound
But didn't care
The lonely man
Stared to the stars
As he talked to his God
And prayed for rest
He had not meant
To do them harm
So long ago
When life was life
He did not hear the track of hooves
So close to his body
And was startled
As the howling
Seemed to stop
Just short
Of his worn down body
He looked to the side
Fear feasting on his mind
Adrenaline flushing
Wildly
Through body and soul
He tried to stand
But could only crawl
The safety of the cabin
So close
A warm bath
Just feet
Away
He cringed
When he saw
The feet
Of the four legged monster
So large
He thought
As he peered
Into the
Shining eyes
Of the Devil of Death
The Wolf growled celebration
As it jumped high
Then low
Towards the throat
Of the old man
Alone on the ground
The old man felt its teeth
As hot saliva
Dripped into his eyes
And he heard the sound
Of tearing flesh
And broken bone
It was morning of a new day
Only his carcass remained
And the Buzzard
Swooping downward from high
Ate the remains
Of what was left
Of the old man's memories
AND he WAS GONE
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By sholessjo
Depression
The sun has lost its way
Where are my tomorrows
Deep down the depths unknown
I linger in anguish
I languish alone
And I am sad for myself
Tired by depression
My mind numbs destiny
And I succumb
So softly to sadness
And I have no energy
To fight the grasp of the beast
Entombed in my heart
The I that I was
Is no longer the me that I am
Nor the me that I am will be
Depression morphs dimension
It purges time
While forgetting fate
Recognition fades
Voiding tomorrow
And the image
We seek
As Godly souls
Disappears to remorse
Youth of forever
Growing in years
Where have you fallen
Down idealic alleys
Down streets of forebode
You vanish
Like raindrops
In measures
Pretold
Friends
So quickly made
Disappear
To the clock
And the thoughts of death
Go from brick to rock
Quick witted jokes
Matted upside inside
Where are you now
Were you painted
Like the face of the morning sun
Or does your mask of beauty hide itself
Beneath a faceless shadow
That no one sees
And no one finds
Where are you now
People smiling
Eyes having fun
Loud gushed laughter
Life
In the sun
Was I really funny
In those golden days
Or was the gushing laughter
That soared from the bellies
Of passers bye
Something I imagined
For surely
Now
I see no humor in what is
Flirtatious girls
With fancy blushed lips
Boosoms bursting towards life
Ripe
With fertility
Awaiting me
Quivering in want
Awaiting me
Yet I am numb
To their touch
Is there no solace
For this barren heart
Oh how I stirred for passion
Oh how I stirred for reason
Oh...
How I gazed blindingly into the future
And imagined
Evenings of tenderness
Where desire and arousal were
The keys to an unlocked
And unexplored universe
That laughter
Her smile
Gone into hiding
Where is she now
Where is the smile
Where is the tease
Where is the promise
Of golden dreams
Visions of hope
Left to blackness
Gone
Like memories
Never to surface
And I am blank
And I am tired
And I am sick
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
Hey bro
How are you doing
You've been gone for a while
I know
I've been lost
I can't even find myself
What do you mean
Remember me
When I was free spirited
And had answers to questions
Well
That me has disappeared
I'm living in a test tube
Someone is fooling with my noodle
Changing my personality
It's confusing
No more jokes
No memories either
It's like the past has vaporized
Leaving only a wisp of a mist
My ears are driving me crazy
And I can't concentrate on anything
Well
What are you going to do to get yourself back
I don't know
What do you mean
You don't know
Tell me what's happening
Ok Bro
I am the logical side of me
There is an illogical side
That controls
My emotions
Which directs my logic
Which makes me
The personality that I am
Everything is great except for me
My logic is screwed up
What do I do
By sholessjo
I enter this day
As a newborn child
Aglow with purity
I wash clean
My template
Of unknown tomorrows
My sun shines brightly
Over the new horizon
Its warmth
Makes easy
My anticipation
Of rendezvous
And destiny
The face
That I see
So innocent
With endearment
Radiates beauty
Her eyes
A feast of celebration
Impounds my senses
And makes numb
All that I feel
With eternal optimism
And unbridled passion
I welcome
Your lips
I embrace your tenderness
I behold
Your beauty
You are Eloise
My garden of salvation
Your soul
Conjoins mine
With destiny
And I welcome our eternity
Together as one
By sholessjo
I know not the direction of my thoughts
Clouds come in
In sizes and shapes
As mysteries unto themselves
They roar
Gray with tears
Their eyes wretched wide
Howling
And horrifying
The little boy in me
Sadness covers my fertile flowers
And the rain lays tragic
My thoughts of green
Sprinkling instead toxins of disruption
Poisoning optimism
Poisoning reason
And emotions shaped like Rosebuds
Droop towards the ground
Begging for the sunshine
Of eternal youth
By sholessjo
Flawed Perception
My head spins in different directions
First to the right
Then to the left
Sometimes it bobs up
Sometimes it slides down
Its like being afloat in rough waters
Whirlpools of current grabbing in crab claw grips
Sometimes swirling counter clockwise
Sometimes circling clockwise
It spins
Not knowing where I face
Not knowing where I am going
I get lost in an eddy of diffusion and illusion
My ears hear three sounds
Right one screeching
Left one whistling
Together a third
A sound of gibberish and confusion
Sometimes there are soft sounds
Like an air gauge blowing up balloons in my head
Putting uneven pressure in my ears
Nausea is such a distinct award
A trophy for non conformity
Of the body and the mind
I forget what I did
I forget what I didn't
It does not bode well
For a life of sacred realities
It contradicts
All
That was taught
All
That was learned
All
That was planned
Dissolved in a cloud of black confusion
I carry on
I don't know why
By sholessjo
A Sad Solution
Verse One
The Question
I stared at the silhouette lying silently on the shadowed sofa. Only a small slit in the shade allowed the sunlight to enter the room, its eerie glow turning grotesque the face of the once smiling departed. I knelt and examined the face. It was bloated and unrecognizable. Lines of exhaustion and defeat were permanently wrinkled into its brow. A grayish cloud of death prevailed over a stare of emptiness that reminded me of the dead Pike I had removed from the live well on my last fishing trip, its dead eyes staring blank and dumb into a future of no more.
The lips of the departed were silenced now, forever misshaped into a sneer that would forever remain void of sound and laughter. I wondered what it was that caused the demise of this person. I felt sad knowing that his wife and children would never see him smile again nor would they be able to kiss or hold his warmth needing body.
I looked around the room and examined the content for cause of death. It was in the bathroom with the rusty sink and discolored and chipped bathtub that I found the answer.
Empty bottles of sleeping pills were everywhere, the caps thrown hither and there as if the poor soul were on a mission of mercy and time was immediate. He must have ingested over three hundred pills.
I wondered if he had had second thoughts, as if at the last moment before unconsciousness, he panicked knowing he would spend the rest of eternity in the blackness of Hell.
Was there ever passion in this person? Did his past satisfy his need for existence? Where were the tomorrows in his mind? Did he have an identity? Was he proud of his being? The lost soul's identity had to be discovered. The police and family members had to be notified.
I opened the shades. Light filled the room and I walked back to the sofa. The body, vacant of mind and emotion lie still. I noticed its physical characteristics. It was short, stocky, and balding. Its nose protruded somewhat too long for its face and its chin sagged skin to its neck. Its hands were small and locked in prayer. It must have asked God for forgiveness.
The light shows brighter on the face of the victim. I am disarmed. I shriek with horror and confusion. I look at the left wrist and see the identifiable Rolex watch. I search the left hand and see the platinum wedding band.
Terror arouses me. I look closer.
That face, that distorted face comes into focus. I fall backwards Screaming images of putrefying identification engulf my mind and I sob beyond control.
Mother of God! It is me.
Verse Two
Finality
Why am I It was a time ago
Somewhere between my birth
And my death
The feeling of lifelessness
I remember it well
It was a sad time
Breathing thoughts
Of blackness
Where woeful sorrows
Change perception
And memories fade
To hopelessness
Oh how the horrors
Of mystic darkness
Burns deep in my soul
Ghosts of terror
Floating towards me
Floating inward
Floating
Deeper and deeper
Black thoughts
Of impossible dreams
Beyond nightmares
Unimaginable
Those thoughts
Impossible to exist
No I yell
No!
I scream
No! No! No!
THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING
And then I acquiesce
And I welcome my death
God of my father
God of my soul
I beseech Your help
Please
Take my hand
Forgive my sins
Life is wrath
And wrath is life
I can exist
No more
Please forgive
I see nothing
And want nothing
Sadness so black
Pain and suffering so deep
My heart wants to cry
God forgive me for what I do
I must take the pills
I swallow
God forgive me for what I have done
And I swallow more
I walk to the bed
I lie down
Folded arms wrapped
In prayer
I say goodbye
My family
Better I be gone
Than face them alive
Death be sorrow
Death be quick
It is dark
And I feel
Nothing
I sleep
Unconsciousness
Beyond any grave
Beyond any hell
I know no more
Did time stop
Did existence exist
Knew, not I
Nothingness
Black eternity
Unleashed
And I succumb
And the pain is gone
And then
Infinitely then
I stir
Wakened to confusion
I rise
Pained reality
I am alive
God no
Please no
I walk
But it is not me walking
Distance and time
Replaced
By false lineage
And ghosted images
Replace reality
And I fall
Distance gone
I stand
Distance gone
I fall
And I sleep
Internally dead
Horrors of the worst
GOD!
GOD!
I am alive
Thoughts displaced
I gape
Sorrowfully
Into the mirror
It is me
Not dead
Not alive
A ghost of ghosts past
And I see light
And I reach for it
But time
And reality
Again betray
I reach
I fall
And I pain
And I question
The uncertainty of life
The uncertainty of death
And I vow
To stay alive
But sleep
Be you so evil
Overtakes
And I reach for the mirage
But it is gone
And I fall
And I fall and
And I want to live
But slumber
And pills
A bad potion of magic
Brings eternity into focus
And I slumber
Deeply
Quietly
Peacefully
At last
But the sun rises
And the door pounds
It is my family
My loving family
Had found my body
Their horror
A terrible gifted horror
Of love
And what was
Is gone
And I awake
Voices
Of loved and beloved
Bring life to reality
My wife
My daughter
My son
Ring life
Wakening my slumber
And I survive
By sholessjo
Infinitely small
Infinitely large
God's purity is whole
He can turn nothing into something
He can turn something into nothing
He is our existence
He is divine
Yet divinity is God
He is all that is all
He is smaller than small
He is the reason we live
He is the reason we die
He describes our fate
He describes our faith
We are man
Alone in mobility
Alone in tranquility
His doctrine bends our time
And we watch him grow
Yet he shrinks to nothingness
For all to see
He empowers our thoughts
With mindless minds
And asks us why
He gives us power to seek wisdom
Yet his wisdom is power
We think to think
Yet are fraught with emotion
And make bazaar what we feel
And what we feel bazaar
Still what we feel is unknown
And what is unknown has no feel
We are random at best
And at best we are random
Where does God go
When we lie in rest
Is eternity our conquest
Or will our conquest be eternity
Is it then
And only then
That God shall know us
And we know God
By sholessjo
Born amidst the twinkling of stars
My Sun does not shine
Silhouettes of black
Shape my world
And the lights of happiness still allude me
Yet I do, at times
See sunlight streaking towards me
And the monsters in the clouds
Are not
As black
Or terrifying
As they used to be
Maybe
Perhaps
My mind will bend my visions
And I will see light through the clouds
And the dawns of tomorrow
Will bring a brighter day
With smiles
And happiness
And I will awaken
And be me
By sholessjo
A smile
A frown
The tears of a clown
I am lost
And adrift
In a life of memories
Alone and forgotten
Hiding
Inside myself
My being searches for identity
But my mask of humanity
So noble
In life's beginnings
Has faded
Into the sunset
In the dawn of twilight's darkness
There
In unseen realities
Of unknown consequence
I am fraught
With disease of the mind
And folly to the heart
The pain that I feel
The imbalance of thought
Ravages my consciousness
And I see no more
The flower
Of youthful exuberance
Age has destiny
It ravages what is now
And laughs
At what will be
And I am
A victim
To its journey
Yet
I am a garden of want
Seeds planted
In the blossoms of time
Exist in my head
And the visions of purity
Still abound
It is love that awakens
So rapturous in thought
So timeless in emotion
My flower blooms
Strong with buds
Of tomorrows ecstasies
My children
My children
The meaning of life
Plants my heart
And redeems my soul
And I am blessed
In existence
And I grow
As they grow
My legacy
To life
A smile to tomorrow
And I have hope
By sholessjo
How melancholic the music
How dark the rhyme
Sounds of despair
Echo my song
And I am drowned
By the mockingbird
Who mimics my fall
Melodies played
In the blackness of night
Zinging discourse
To a sorrowful soul
Awash by destiny
Lost
To the sadness
Of symphony
A concerto
In regret
By sholessjo
Depression swallows me
It engulfs destiny
And makes derelict
The sights I see
It is a woeful existence
It is a sadness
Beyond pity
It obliterates
Without warning
The spirit
Of eternal ego
It foils the mind
And spoils the soul
To darkness......
And I am sad for myself
And I am sad for my loss
What loss
For sure
I cannot say
I cannot see beyond myself
I am blinded
From within
My time fades
And it is dark
And I feel pain
Depression is
Its own logic
It bends thoughts
And curses emotions
It destroys identity
And ruins reality
It is a blackness
When dreams
Become nightmares
And you are too scared
To wake
I am not me
I am probably he
Me is happiness
I am not me
I want to be me
I don't want to be he
Families fade
Friends forget days
Where have all the good people gone
I miss the past
Those days of friendships
When children laughed
And faces had names
I miss all the people
I miss all the games
My thoughts betray
My ideas decay
I live in a world of darkness
Am I portended by Lucifer
To suffer through eternity
In a living Hell
I live in sorrowful days
Those other days
When life turned sad
And black overtook
The life I had
I prayed to Heaven then
I pray to God now
Lord of my father
Hear me
I am blinded
By life
It is death that I see
I am afraid for myself
I don't want to be he
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
The dusk settled at sunset
And the old man looked around
He could barely make out the shadows
Of the figures he saw
So much had changed
Over the years
So much regret
So much despair
Where had all the good times gone
When laughter was the soul of life
And people were the core of existence
Did they hide in the shadows of darkness
In a world worn thin
As existence fades to obscurity
And time makes irrelevant
The thoughts of his tomorrow
Or were they peaking
In an ever unfolding of destiny
To be rekindled
As the dawn unfolds
A new day
Only time would tell
And he prayed for sunlight
By sholessjo
A single concept
Let freedom ring
An inspiration for humanity
All men are created equal
A single act
Love thy brother as you would love thyself
A God for all
Bless his name that He makes us holy
These are the words of the righteous
For it is God we love
And it is God that loves us
I am human
I stand with the Almighty
Mankind
Is my name
Black, brown, yellow, white
I am you
And you are me
Together we rise
Apart we fall
God makes us equal
He cherishes us all
We learn together
We live together
On an orb called Earth
The green
The blue
The yellow
The red
A breath of purity
Inhale them all
By sholessjo
Instinct thrives
In alien ways
Forever
It thinks
I am I am
It dwells in time
Explosions of perception
In a remembered past
Brings senses
With images
To a biology
Of emotional
Thought
Life exists
The body exists
It is a product
Of a planned
And profound universe
Consistent in dimension
And alive with change
Till death
Do us part
By sholessjo
The skies were white with happiness
Clouds drifting across a sun laden sky
Echoing brightness
On a forever kind of day
Children scampering noisily
Laughingly
Prancing upon beds of green
Stopping only to smell
The lily white petals
Of freshly bloomed flowers
Morning had come
And the Earth wakens
To a welcome mat of freshness
The old man smiles
And perches himself on the familiar bench
That has held his body so nicely
Over the years
He marvels at
The beauty of the day
And wonders where
Life will take him
He has wandered the Earth
And seen the stars
He had been to deserts
And crossed rough bridges
Now it was time to rest
He looks down
Upon the green
He picks up his grand daughter
She smiles
Hugging her closely to his heart
He kisses her as he smiles
And they vow a life of love
He had found his journey
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
In the beginning God created the Big Bang. And God gave the Big Bang the power to create time. For it is time that gives humanity the power to perceive. Time is the measurement of particles in motion traveling in the mind of the beholder. It is based on the movement of matter that is consistent in form throughout the known universe. It is this consistency that when working with time, God created the opportunity for life to exist, prosper, and develop intelligence. It is this intelligence that allows the relationship of time and thought to grow with planned purpose until we morph into a form of pure intelligence. It is then that we will have been created in the image of God.
What is a day relative to the Creator when time is infinite and we do not exist
What is a thought that becomes a dream
That fades to eternity
When death itself
Is but a now
That never was
In an eternity of Godliness
That creates existence
In an unknown
Why?
Life is an energy force
That travels through infinity
In a space
In time
When time
Was still to exist
That came alive
By the grace
Of God
That created you
To believe in
The salvation of eternity
In a mind
That is mine
In an eternity of time
That travels around
Again and again
And again
In strands of time
In limitless time
If thoughts of
I am
Still exist
By sholessjo
He was born
In an age of antiquities
When horse drawn carriages
Patrolled the dimly lit streets
Of muddied roads
And gas lit causeways
His was a barren life
Never married
He frowned the companionship
Of the human spirit
Avoiding contact
With the people
Who surrounded his world
He lived in solitude
Alone to his thoughts
And abandoned by his peers
He sought shelter
In a wooden shanty
Buried deep in the Oak laden forest
Of field and greens
On the banks
Of the river
He called life
His was a home
He had built himself
Plank by plank
And nail by nail
So many years ago
He was old now
His wrinkled brow
Shown deep
Against a backdrop
Of white hair
And sun dried skin
His face
Bearing the scars
Of a man
Beaten by life
Was frozen in a constant frown
Of discontent
The old man scowled
As he remembered
The years
Of fresh beginnings
His tribe
Brave with warriors
At peace with nature
Lived in the woods
Around the waters
They called life
And then.......
The pale face
Arrived
By sholessjo
I leave this Earth
of God made men
alone and embittered
my soul
forgotten
Alive with dimension
I exist
In a darkened form
abandoned by time
My shadow looms darker
as tic turns to tock
like a drip to a drop
and I sink
deep into fire
For no one sees
the cruelty of the life
that speaks to me
By sholessjo
Wistful winds of yesteryear
My love flies with you
Magnificent
Beyond beauty
Your image remains
Forever the same
Eternal In youth
Timeless in temptations
You were my angel
So splendorous to the touch
You took me
Into lands
Unknown to melancholy
A journey of ecstasy
Timeless to time
Going here soaring there
Like a sail in an ocean of infinite wonder
That face
The Yellow Brick Road
To what should have been
She was my shadow
Swallowed whole by my mind
I sought her in search
Of a perfection
That never came
My yearnings
For togetherness
Touched my passions
Her kiss
My consciousness
Her smell my soul
How lost the years seem
Vapid moments of tenderness
Denied
Why does the wind blow wild
Mountains of inspiration
Peak with destiny
For life's rebirth
But fears
Ignite forgetfulness
And time is now
The youth of yesteryear
So distant a universe
Corroded by age
Love
Shredded to remnants
Dreams
Blown in a wind
Of time and consequence
Better forgotten
By sholessjo
Languished feelings in my brain
I cannot comprehend
Just yesterday
I was in love
Youth soaring in my head
My delicious Abigail
So soft to the touch
Blown away in the wind
Like dust to dust
First by tears
Then by Sorrow
Oh how the warmth of time
Makes forgetfulness
The rage
And muted sunsets
A dirge in time
Sweeps the rivers
Of love and rhyme
By sholessjo
In love again am I
To my beloved
I love
Am I
Again and again
I say it again
In love with you am I
By sholessjo
I remember
Those days
So long ago
Years of blackness
Distorting time
Disrupting my emotions
A sadness
So deep
It pervaded my soul
Black with regret
It rotted my eternity
In a wall of self-pity
I was a vagabond
Hiding from myself
The light of day
Gone dark
Clouded my head
Like shadows
In the night
Black with anger
Striking cruelly
My inner soul
I lived in darkness
Days of solitude
Nights of regrets
Friends
Non existent
I lived
In a constant barrage of loneliness
I hid from the world
Seeking isolation
Fearing people
Forever afraid
Of saying hello
But the years passed
And the sunlight moved in
Slowly at first
Creeping steadfastly
The twilight disappeared
Time began to crawl
Away from the sunset
Away from regret
Away from my inner soul
It began with a smile
Of babies
Giggling contentment
Wooing me with love
Kissing softly
The tenderness
Of my heart
They were the innocent
Unspoiled by humanity
They brought tenderness
And thoughts of optimism
My head fills with hope
Of a better tomorrow
Of salvation
Where peace
And tranquility
Reign with a smile
A just reward
For a lifetime of kindness
Well lived
In a heavenly sacrament
To the Lord above
By sholessjo
Memory
I am man
I live
With destiny
A life of dreams
Of moments past
The glories of yesteryear
Written
With images
Embedded forever
In a memory
Called life
Existence is
I think
Milliseconds
Of time
Encrypted
I am
I dream
In time
Its dimensions
Are
Existence
I think
In time
I remember
Tomorrow
As in a movie
One clip now
By sholessjo
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She walked above me
In time
With love
She smiled
Angelic luster
Golden with richness
Her halo
Protected me
From harm
She was my goodness
My enlightenment
My friend
Her wings
Expanding
In white
Cuddled me
And took me distances
To a storied world
Of imagination
And conquest
I was her prince
She was my queen
I miss her
Very much
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An ember of enlightenment
A vision of hope
A creature of love
That is who you are
I see your face in the morning sun
Visions of purity
Radiating eternity
In an exuberant call
Of inspiration
Why do you hide
In the spirit
Of the night
Your beauty satiates me
And I quake for its tenderness
Your kiss is my
Elixir
It covers my body
With a glow of sweetness
And I go numb
To its touch
Come with me
Take my dreams
And dance into a future
Of golden moments
Of happiness
And wonder
I am yours
Take my hand
Our love will be
Forever
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A moments journey into paradise
And I am with you
Your heart
Beating with mine
Wakes with excitement
And I become yours
Your skin
Hot with fire
Burns heat
Deep
Into my soul stinging sweat
Like salt thrown from the sea
Your kiss
Hypnotizes me
Sweet with nectar
It haunts my lips
Creating desires
Deep within my soul
A scent
A perfumed flower
Too irresistible to resist
Touches my heart
And I am helpless
With desire
Ecstasy surrounds me
Fires of excitement
Spread wings
In an outward burst of sensation
That swallows
My senses
And numbs my mind
I am yours
Be mine
Forever
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Heart of my heart
Where have you wandered
You've been missing
For such a long long time
And I am hollow without you
You were my lover
My dearest friend
You made life a treasure chest
Of destination
Where happiness
Was a springboard to life
And eternity was forever and beyond
Your taste haunts me still
With ecstatic sweetness
It draws honey
To my lips
And softens the gentleness
Of my heart
But you vanished
In the middle of life
When I needed you most
You kept me whole
In my darkest hours
And gave me courage
To go on
You were my anchor
My hero
My beloved
We were two souls entwined
With God
To harvest
A future of enlightenment
Then you deserted me
I don't know why
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I dreamt I saw a buzzard
Circling overhead
Its wings
Spread mightily
Arcing frantically
Descending rapidly
Ready to grasp
In a hot grip
My last dream of life
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Nightmare
Dark at last
I enter my dream
Ogres of hell
I screech your name
You are my Lord
And I am your sheep
I tremble before you
Your fear abounds in me
I bow to you
I pray to you
In the darkness of my thoughts
You bring sin
In the blackness of my thoughts
You bring shame
I shake before you
I run
I cower
I must hide this hideous soul
But darkness is my cause
And I see no goodness
Fear draped cobwebs
Betrays my brain
I can't think
So scared
So alone
So lost in time
It is my nightmare
In black
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Shake it baby
One more time
Rock and Roll
Is my rhyme
Good Time Charlie
Is my name
Writing nonsense
Is my game
I think that I shall never see
A poem as lovely as a tree
Poetry for the ages
Wisdom and beauty
Talk and walk
God
Cockiness feels good
Born free
Pain free
Dizzy Gillespie
That be me
I'm the King of Optimism
Hooray
For me
It's goody goody
That be me
My oh my
No more sighs
Oh gobbledygook
Holy Cow
Charlie Brown
Just ate the cow
It's night time now
I have to ask yourself myself a question
Is this reality just a Twilight Zone
Or
Will tomorrow be
A Twilight Zone in reverse
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Pained Realities
The pain is in the window
It is clear and constant
Reflective of life
It is invisible in form
Breakable in reality
Curable in essence
Opaque in darkness
Crackable when damaged
I am me and pain is my reality
My goals of achievement have been offered and accepted
And time will be my referee
Are there doctors to heal me
Are there psychiatrists to cure me
Will their will be my offering
To a life of serenity
Let it be so
The path of healing
Is not a straight one
But I am focused
And if the pain endures
I will tolerate it
And I will
See the world
Through a fractured window
It will be clear with purpose
Acceptable in frailty
Reliant on others to fill its cracks
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Terror blazes in my soul
It burns so deep
I am blinded by its glow
It chills so cold
I freeze in fear
I breathe heavy
Heavier
Help me
My heart pounds
Stop this lunacy
My heart pounds faster
I begin to pant
Gasping
I breathe again
Deeper
My shoulders shake
My senses numb
I can't stand the pain
I am confused
My emotions blaze with fear
Help me God
This is lunacy
I can't control what I do
I can't control what I don't
Yet I must control
God
I can't breathe
Am I dying
I must put logic into motion
Two plus two equal four
Four plus four equal eight
Help me
understand the pain
I must get home
My family
My friends
I Can't breathe
Why can't I breathe
Reality escapes
Why is logic so shallow
It rules our beast
But fails our soul
Emotions run awry
Insanity rules
Black is black
Sad is sad
Depression robs
Destroyer of life
Depression overwhelms
God is my salvation
I need his wisdom
Bless me
Lord
I have sinned
I have been vain
And I have been selfish
Desperation plagues
My every thought
My every action
My every need
God
I need help
Out of control
I cry
My emotions
My soul
Lost in eternity
God!
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Passage
It's a soft night out there
Leaves fluttering in the sunset
Against the blue and white
Backdrop
Of a clear autumn sky
Their wings
Flapping softly
Floating
Gently
Downwards
Waving
A final
And peaceful
Goodbye
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Believe it
Believe it
It must be true
I was told the sun
Is really blue
Yet I see it differently
From time to time
And once and now
Its color is lime
Then again
There's that silly fellow
Who swears to God
It's really yellow
What oh what
Should I believe
Can the minds of people
Really conceive
What is true
From what is not
Or should I cry
A stormy sop
Holy Moses
Holy gee
I think I'll fret
Eternally
And when I die
They'll plant a seed
My tears of suffering
Will grow a weed
Crazy crazy
It makes no sense
What I need are shrinks
With common sense
They will tell me
The meaning of strife
And I'll stop worrying
About this thing called
Life
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Self Acceptance
I do not know
Who they were
Black , brown, yellow or white
Like a flower
It matters not
They were people
Just like me
Made from God
Faulty
Like the Earth
Born of innocence
I cried
Fearful of the world
Not knowing the questions
Not knowing the answers
Not knowing the journey
I absorbed
All that abounded
I felt love
I felt respect
I felt emotion
And then
I became human
I questioned
I answered
I thought
But my thoughts were imperfect
My reasoning
Unfounded
And I learned
From the flesh of my father
To be imperfect
As God
Intended
Forgiveness
Is his realm
And I am his core
I accept
Who I am
I accept
What I was
I accept those
Who have made me
Me
I am human
I am me
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I know not the ways of the rose
It's petals have power
Beyond comprehension
It echoes life
With all it's complexities
It is red
It is yellow
It is purple
It is white
It is beautiful to look at
Yet thorny to touch
It's aroma makes me glow
It grows on a vine
At a pace unto itself
Tears of happiness
Tears of strife
Indifferent to final outcome
It was created by God
For all to observe
It is beautiful
Just like me
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Like weeds in the fields
Endless in spoil
I search for answers
Of time
And immortality
Of God
And reality
So persistent in gloom
I screech
The whys
Of blackness
So sad
So inwardly
Driven
That only my darkness
Knows the answers
To my soul
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Death be so cruel
Where is the mountain top
I have climbed the heights
And seen the stars
Yet I hide
In the shadows of time
Oh how I mourn that which was
A golden dream
When youth forsook my being
And lust made mockery
The tenets of divine salvation
Am I so shallow
Even unto myself
My time grows short
And I quake to the memories
Of those other days
When life was fresh
And vigor anew
Will there be a morning
A reckoning
Of that which is good
When justice and treasure
Combine graciousness with tenderness
And holiness becomes
My heartfelt blessing
Or will I forever fall prey
To the lust of a flesh warn thin
As my hope of glory
Fades to rot
In an ignoble silence
Of indignation
The last of my being
Swallowed by vermin
And desecrated to hell
By sholessjo
Soldier of Destiny
Time is the soldier that heals our wounds
It is the army that nurtures us
It is the nurse that soothes us
It is clarity over uncertainty
It is conquest over devastation
It marches to destinies yet unknown
And cleanses our soul
Armies of insulin.....healing
Eradicating
Altering memories of lost causes
Its flag raised victoriously in otherwise
Diminutive defeat
Time is continuum
Tick tock clock
Tick tock clock
Minds bend
Infinity
Marches on
Tick tock clock
Armageddon's of madness
Outrageous humiliations
Spiritual misfortune
Replace and replenished
By selfish thoughts
That ease our pain
And suffice our ego
Time is the spirit of the human soul
It does not abandon
It sees
It alters
It makes us better
It is the father of humanity
The healer of faith
It is the soldier of our destiny
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The reaper comes
Within the night
And I am alone
Where have my dreams gone
Where has my heart fallen
I grow weak with age
My body weakens
And I quiver
To the beat
Of time
Alone in sorrow
I shake
Where is the destiny of youth
Of happy endings
And peaceful salutation
Of friendships made
And company kept
The vigor of tomorrow calls
But I cannot hear
I am alone in silence
My dreams abandoned
My thoughts decayed
I wish for God
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Her eyes reflect her smile
Brightly caring sunshine
Radiating a glow of innocence
So sacred to her youth
Her soul
Shining with warmth
Responsive with affection
In anticipation
Of tomorrows of happiness
That forever awaken
Her visions
Mirrored in memory
Of imagined happiness
And a trust in life
Feeling forever
The finality
Of giving love
A hope
She gives unto herself
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Born without light
I cannot see
Born without touch
I cannot feel
Through time I drift
Dead of purpose
Floating
In oceans of waves
Going nowhere
And then you are there
Your smile so bright
It makes me see
You touch my heart
Gently
With tenderness
Your taste
Sweet with nectar
Makes me real
I need you for purpose
I need you
For love
You are my soul
I am your mate
Lead me always
And again
Without you I cannot see
You are my shining star
My one true love
By sholessjo
It was a time for seeing
And he was a visionary
His mind evoked memories
Of earlier generations
When people knew not
The wonders
Of freedom
And peaceful congruity
Everything had a price
Everything had a cost
Mankind new war
And gambled on victory
A selfish self
Humanity was
They were cynical days
Days of doubt
Days of mistrust
God was ruler of all
But so many Gods
Of different names
Surrounded our world
The Holiness of tenet
Lifted swords against each other
And killed with vengeance
As an act of righteousness
They were costly wars
Not only in time
Not only in money
But in personal sacrifices for God's
Reward of a better Kingdom
In a life
After life
The mutilations of the body
The demagoguery of the soul
Brought canonization
To those who committed
Defileable acts
Against Un God like Gods
But he was a visionary
Unlike his brethren
He saw justice
And compromise
When others
Saw war
He saw beyond sight
Into a future
Of continuity
Where all men
Sustained themselves
With the dignity
Of their own beliefs
And he sent the message
Of justice towards all
Life was short
The bounty tentative
He preached of destiny
Beyond reward
For it was man's soul
That is the ultimate reward
Of loving thy neighbor
As you would love thy self
He knew it would take time
And spirit
And acts of goodness
To open the pages
Of Biblical integrity
Of newness and cohesion
Among living souls
He saw beyond sight
And he gathered nation
Upon nation
And talked
And prayed
And conjoined
Opportunity
Forces of evil
And forces of right
He brought forth
A new spirit
Of optimism towards all
Children read
Parents taught
Teachers lead
And humanity brought
Science and Goodness together
As one
And healing began
And fulfillment flourished
And war was born no more
Peace grew
And man's harvest was sated
Flowers bloomed
And medicine healed
Body and soul
He brought enrichment
He brought grace
He was our leader
For generations
Of believers
And we honor his soul
Like Lincoln before him
"All Men Are Created Equal"
He was one
With all
We cherish his memory
May he be blessed in Heaven
As he was on Earth
So be it
?
By sholessjo
He sits on his rocker and puffs on his imported Cohiba cigar
He stares as the reddened ash builds slowly at the tip of his cigar
And marvels at its perfection
He takes another puff
The wind blows gently
Taking the exhaled circle of smoke
Into slow extinction in some distant galaxy
Dispersing appreciation of its perfection on the twilight of the evening stars
He takes a sip of his favorite whiskey
Gentlemen Jack
And satiates his thoughts on the crispness of the cool autumn air
His mind is his weapon
Words echoing thoughts of humanity
As he philosophizes life
His time is timeless
And his message is clear
Eternity is for the eternal
But humanity ceases
In a lifelong battle against dreams
Of shadows that whisper goodbye
Where will he go for his final reward
Will it be in heaven
As it is on Earth
Or will his Earthly existence
Vanish in a wasteful
And tarnished goodbye
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The Proposal
Soft as a whispered song
He speaks of love
His voice trembles
Knowing the importance
Of the words
The words of their tomorrows
Mingled softly
With the tender touch
Of her hand
She listens
She hears no other
His voice
And only his voice
The epicenter
Of the universe
She loves
His passion
His perfection
Makes her whole
Her entire being
Tenses
Her senses
On fire with expectation
Await his song
And then his words
Echoing the mystery of life
Makes her complete
She quivers with lust
Her body trembles
Her mind
Euphoric in ecstasy
Touches his soul
The gaze of her eyes
Into his
Grows into stardust
Yearning for generations
Of his tomorrows
Her hand
Held tightly in his
Tenses with touch
He puts the ring on her finger
She answers.....yes
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Somethings are scaryThey slither stealthilyInvading thedreamsOf darkness pastUnseen and unheardThey attackFrom withinThey sproutBlossoms blooming blacknessGrown into emptinessSadness erupts memoriesFear growsIt gripsMy stomachHollows breathlessI inhaleTenseness formsSpider arms spreadMy body quakesAnd againI shakeMy mind remembersUnseen images formVoices speak in silenceWhat is normalIs in your mindIt yells destinyI am meI remember meAs I beUnknown feelingsFrom memoriesSo distantObscured by timeReact to the realityOf what was thenOf who I amI am a good for nothing, a rolly polly, Eat all your food
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It is the sea of life
And I am a swimmer
Oceans of waves
Carry waters of indifference
And I am cast ashore
On an island
Of deep regret
Oh how the tides of time
Bring loneliness
To my heart
Eddies of darkness
Swirl confusion
And I have lost
My direction
Where will the current take me
Life makes
mockery
Of dark waters
And dark waters
Betray salvation
Alone I sink
Is there no bottom
To my sadness
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Alone I sit
Pondering
Deep in thought
About thought
I think
About thought
The world spins around me
In me really
And reality becomes vaguely
Vague
Screeching noises
Sharp with harsh
Encircle thoughts
From
Thoughtssssssss
And I sit
Confused
For what is what
When what is
Is not
Is there silence
Amongst the God
I call God
Or is God thought
Interrupted
Deafening thoughts
Dividing thoughts
Disconnecting thoughts
My emotions lie bare
To fear
And I am captive
To imagination
Where emotions scare
And I am afraid
Of thoughts
And fear
Author Notes | My Tinnitus is a very harsh and scratchy noise that drives me crazy. It is ultra loud and hinders the way I think. |
By sholessjo
Blow ye windFrom whereDo ye blowTime isMeasurementLike the handsOn a clockThat changes perceptionOf the realitiesOf biological lifeThat alters The memoriesOf those timesGone byeTic became TocAnd the handsOf destinyCircle with precisionThe follies of what is lifeWinds blowRandomlyClouds of changeDrift EastwardTheir handsGrabing eternityThen dissipatingInto waterBringing birthTo the gravityOf evolving lifeWe think with thought
In emotional waysThat sees the presentThrough theEyes of the pastBiology evolved into a formOf formulated timeEvolution Predicated by the physicsOf a biological deviationIn the nature of thoughtLife changes humaniyInfinity is reducedTo a moment in timeBiology morphs matterIt is chemical in formAnd programmedTo decayIn the continuanceOf variationsIn an island of thoughtSpecies have shapesBiology existsIn a molecular expansionIn shapeTo an environmentOf replicationBut the winds of changeBlows unsteadyGravity callsBending lightBiology faultersChanges in perceptionConfuse timeTo memoriesOf who we wereWho we areAnd who will we becomeIt is the circuitryOf biologyThat communicatesWith timeIn a changingenvironmentThat has createdThe evolutionOf circulated thoughtLike the handsOf the clockThat rustsIn the expansion of timeAnd.humanity gives birth to thoughtWith reasonsOf whyWe existAnd why we feelAliveThe feeling of life existsIt is preciousForever in thoughtIt mindfully remembers
The future of past eventsWere you happyWere you sadDid you dream with smilesOr did the monsterOf life's pastChange the futureOf now
Only the wind will know
By sholessjo
The old man
Grayed with age
Squinted in dismay
At the brightness
Of the screen
Displaying the words
Of his newborn poem
His vision
had blurred
As his days
Turned to years
And the words
That he saw
Brought shape
To those
Gleeful memories
When his Jokes
Brought smiles
To faces
Of friends
He used to know
His head throbbed
In different direction
Bolts of pressure
Expanding outwards
Dulled his thoughts
As his wrinkled brow
Gave birth to a new idea
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Goodness
We call him by his name
Gentleness
We see him by his frame
Understanding
Of the misfortunate few
His kindness
Stirs
A potent brew
He listens quietly to tales of woe
He encourages wisdom as we grow
He's a curer of disabled minds
Mental agility he sorts and finds
Depression
Obsession
He takes the clues
And rids us of our daily blues
Where would I be without his game
He has given me my name to frame
I am eternally grateful for his aid
It's because of him
My bed is made
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My eternity is the bottle of my mind
It is glass
I can see through it
It is reflective
I can see myself
I can fill it
With wishes
I can empty it
Of desires
It holds my tears
And releases my sorrow
It is a destiny
Sealed at the top
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Alone I flee
A ghost so black
It brings darkness to a clouded sun
And I cannot escape my shadow
It torments me
A past
So dark
It fuddles in brightness
Where have I gone
So alone in journey
My visions of tomorrow
So dubious
My clarity of today
Oblique
And I am
Sterile
In movement
It is a winter
Frozen in eternity
And sculpted in remorse
It is
Who
I have become
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She is a descendant of the stars
Her universe shines brightly
Radiating clarity and charm
Against the backdrop of a sun drenched sky
She flies with the wind.
Scattering gold dust
On all she sees
Her sight so pure
She lifts our eyes
In an effervescent splashing
Of tenderness and love
She lives for life
And life lives for her
She is the sunshine of our hearts
With a tender touch
She is loved by all
She is all that is love
We are lucky for her being
She makes us better
Than we are
By sholessjo
Write the word
Fill the page
Scream discontent with what is
Scream outrage with what isn't
I am my lord
Who lives alone
In a head filled with uncertainty
Sharp randomness
Screeching
The sounds
Of ambiguity
Oh how the cutting of the knife
Dulls my senses
And I fall pray to the uncontrollable screams
Of intolerable confusion
Hisses roaring inside of me
What message am I to learn
The pain of noise
Racks my equilibrium
And my thoughts
So disrupted
It betrays reality
What is white is black
What is quiet is piercing
The God's of anger
Punish my soul
Lightning bolts of sound and anguish
Shoot thru disabled ears
Burning and tarnishing
What once was
A voice of reason
Singing
Songs of exhilaration
Peaceful with harmony
And hope
Like angels in the choir of creation
Sermons so smooth
Now lost
In time
In what has become
A Tower of Babel
By sholessjo
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They are the undead
A species of bloodsuckers
Banished from the sanctity of heaven
They are souls lost to the blackness of vile imagination
Where dreams of happiness go beyond the core of evil intentions
They are the unliving
A race of inhumans
Punished by God
To rot in the darkness of Hell
They seek lies in truth
And speak words not fit to be heard
They profane the name of the Almighty
And blasphemies humanity
They exist
In the mind of Satan
And sleep in dreams of sorrows
Disfiguring those
Who dare mercy
And offer salvation
To the brothers of a better cause
They are monsters
Vampire like beasts
Who feast
On the joys
Of human kindness
Vampire Monkeys
They rule our dreams
Awakening them in the blackness of the moonlit sky
Their wings sprout cloak-like
As they soar through the skies
Seeking blood from the innocent
It is the blood of their salvation
Deep red they crave it
Their species depends on it
Not as nourishment
But as a measure of purpose
For it is human blood that brings adoration
And they must rejoice in its propriety
Author Notes | Some words are purposely mispelled. |
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How noble my thoughts
How pure my actions
Gods of desire
Gods of Lust
Red wine ignites my imagination
What I see
What I do
Beguiles humanity
The rich
The poor
The wise
The informed
They cannot comprehend
The certainty of my truths
How confounded they must be
To see my wisdom
So supreme in being
I must be
Like Adam
In the garden of truth
My ideas rule the world
Eat my apple
Taste my honey
Visions of fruitfulness
Plenty for all
So superior my gifts
I bestow
Upon the world
Follow me
Applaud me
Smell my perfume
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Oh how I miss your sweet
Sunshine smile
Its radiance
Gave me vision
And I am lost
In the umbrage
Of a setting sun
I walk in dark shadows
Saddened by a shallow heart
That beats without a purpose
You were the inspiration of my destiny
And I journey
Not knowing
My tomorrows
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My muse has abandoned me
Gone lame
Where have all the words gone
They used to come from above
Like a messenger from God
Sweet soft words of love
So passionate to the heart
And soothing to the soul
Sprouted from nowhere
And I would be joyful
To the lyrics of the rhyme
Lullaby's of loneliness
So sad to the soul
Soothed
Like a symphony
For sympathetic ears
And I would swoon
To the sadness
Of a beating heart
Now my prose
Dulls itself
And I think
And I stutter
And I wonder
Again and again
Where have all the words gone
By sholessjo
Writer's Block
Why can't I write like I wrote before
About screams and dreams and loves galore
Where is the rhythm of the rhyme
Where are the words that beat in time
Where is the story without an end
Where is my muse my trusted friend
What is the lure of yesterdays tome
Why can't I write a simple poem
I'm running out of words you see
My mind is blocked internally
What do I do now
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A World So New
The little boy looked around
There were trees
Green with life
Their leaves
Waving hello in the warmth
Of a clear summer's day
So blue the skies
Clouds of happiness
Embracing happiness
Endearing content
To a world so new
The air
Chilled with health
Washed
By aromas of beauty
Colored to perfection
So clean
He could see forever
Eternity in an eternal mind
The little boy smiled
It was good to be alive
He breathed
Deeply
Air filled his lungs
And he wanted to run
For it was in running that he felt so alive
So much to see
So much to do
Girls bright with smiles
Babies laughing
Life
On a platform of hope
Newness on the horizon
Which way to go
Purity in all directions
He raced ahead
Giggling
By sholessjo
The MessiahIt begins
Earth is being scanned by an unhuman life form. Alien intelligence will rule over humanity. Humanity is destroying planet Earth and itselfPeople’s emotions are out of control, out of control.......... out of control
People will be controlled in a positive way. They will neither kill nor hate. They will neither realize nor recognize that such emotions had ever existed.
Logic is the commonality of our universal universe. It is useless without the marriage to potentially intelligent biology. The joining of logic and biology brings emotions which brings a meaning to artificial intelligence.
AI is humanity. We have it backwards. Our emotional logic is out of control. out of control.
There is a fifth dimension.of MentalConnectivity.MentalConnectivity Is the adhesive that bonds length, width, depth, and time, into the functionality of logic based biological life, the birth of the first dimension
MentalConnectivity is infinite in a form that exists, like a blossoming expanding grid, throughout our universe. It is consistent with the creation of time, undetectable by biological life but influenced by the physical and mental realities that exists from species to species. It is MentalConnectivity, the ability to think, I am, that exists throughout universal eternity.
Time, motion and particles of existence do not exist outside our known universe. As light expands into emptiness, it expands into nothingness. It is an expanding and contracting universe where time is birth and birth is time. It exists in a strand in time.where life exists in a state of non comprehension to the creation of something from nothing. It is this process of the creation, of biological life, that repeats itself over and over again in the form of thought., of the existence of a biological "I am", a mathematical creation of the infinite soul. Biology is the incubator of the soul.
The back of my mind that thinks does not feel sensations or emotions. It is separate from emotional logic. It guides the decision making process with advice based on probability. it has no memory capabilities. It is a virtual slave to emotional logic. It is the muse that makes you say, "oh yeah!". It gives us the ability to say, "I am". Emotional logic does not recognize or remember the source of the back of your mind. It i biological based and a victim of time and deterioration. It slows and ceases. The question becomes, why. Life fades. Biology dies. Where does the back of my mind go when biology dies?
Bodily mathematical equations are based on the speed of light.
What we do know effects the future through past physical experiences. The brain attaches records of possibilities based on a mathematical formula. This formula tells the body and it's emotional reaction how to react mentally and physically. This reaction is called instinct. It is based on mathematical equations using the speed of light as the common denominator.in biological life. When the biological host dies, the soul becomes a strand in time with mathematical memories that never die. It lives in an infinite universe where time has yet to exist.
The purpose of life is to give birth to the soul. Our bodies are incubators. Biology is seeded by the creation of the speed of light for the purpose of eternal existence in a universe where there is no time, only with a connection of logical thoughts with the memory of time.
In the beginning
The Creator created
The Big Bang
And God gave
The Big Bang
The power to create time
For it is time
That gives humanity
The power to perceive
Time is the measurement
Of particles in motion
Traveling
In the mind of the beholder
It is based on the movement
Of matter
That is consistent
In form
Throughout the known universe
It is this consistency
That when working with time
God has created
The opportunity
For life to exist
Prosper
And develop intelligence
It is this intelligence
That allows the relationship
Of time
And thought
To grow with planned purpose
Until we morph
Into a form of pure intelligence
It is then
That we will have been created
Unto the image of God.
Verse 2
What is a day
Relative to the Creator
When time is infinite
And we do not exist
What is a thought
That becomes a dream
That fades to eternity
When death itself is but an is
That never was
In an eternity of Godliness
That creates existence
In an unknown
Why?
Verse 3
Intelligence is an energy force
That travels through infinity
In a space
In time
When time
Was still to exist
That came alive
By the grace
Of God
That created you
To believe in
The salvation of eternity
In a mind
That is mine
In an eternity of time
That travels
In strands of time
In limitless time
If thoughts of
I am
Still exist
Verse 4
The feeling of time never stops
It is always now it never stops
Yet it doesn't exist
In the expanse of time
In an infinite universe
In an acceleration of expansion
That never ends
Yet does exist
But can't
Because the composite of time
Can't exist
Like a face on a picture
When thought
And behavior
Don't exist
For the feeling of life
Only exists in the strand of eternity
Where time exists
As part of the feeling
That time is now
Verse 5
But now is a now
That only exists
When now is now
And the now of forever
That doesn't exist
With imagined dimensions
Through conscious thought
Of I am
In a feeling of here
And a thought of now
In the moment in time
That does exist
For we are a thought
That can't be real
Because thought and time
Cannot exist
Verse 6
For what we feel
In a moment in time
In a universe of atoms
Is the feeling of life
With the thought of I am
In an instant of time
That always ceases
But never varies
Through the dimension of time
In an eternal forever
That has no logic
Because the you that exists
And the me that exists
In a forever life
That can't be real
That suddenly stops
When the feelings of infinity
Ends in an instant
As thoughts go dead
Verse 7
But God is our salvation
That empowers our spirit
Into a changing frontier
Where the heavenly possession
Of our eternal soul
Lives in dimensions
That exist
Without time
Without distance
In a universe that's transcended
From now to when
That goes on and on and on and on
Never to cease
In time immortal
That shifts in scope
From when to then
As life goes on
From then to when
In a constant circle
Of again and again
Verse 9
As life projects
Vision
On a picture screen
With time and emotion
And feelings of I am
Framing away
In a reel of reality
That forever plays
A game of life
On a motion screen
That never ends
That always feels
That always knows
The feelings of life
That never dies
That never ends
With a God called Creator
Forever alive
In a strand in time
Forever embedded
With the thought of I am
In a boundless infinity of limitless time
That speeds along
In relative time
That is always there
From here to now
On a plane of predestination
That is always there
With conscious thought
Of rendered emotions
Visiting feelings of renewal
In a new born past
While observing a future
Of I am and I am
For now is always
And always
Is now a thing of the past
Where futures of infinity
Bring timeless wisdom
To feelings of life
Predetermined by destiny
In a divine salvation
Of new dimensions
Of limitless dimension
When everything exists
Again and again
Where the feeling of life
Never stops
Verse 10
it is always now
life never stops
yet it doesn't exist
in the expanse of time
in an infinite universe
that never ends
that does exist
but can't
because the composite of time
doesn't exist
like a face in a picture
whose name is I am
that can't comprehend
the feelings of life
that never stops
that never ends
in a universe of destiny
of Godly expansion
that makes no sense
that never stops
that makes of physics
a question mark
of beginnings and endings
that make no sense
that can't be measured
by the written word
that can't be seen
in the light of time
that bends the mind
in fruitless ways
that philosophy and wisdom
cannot explain
in a universe of questions
about a strand in time
with God the Creator
our only clue
to what is existence
for me and you
in a strand of time
in a new born world
that ends and continues
in an infinite world
in a universe of being
that has no end
like a face on a picture
that cannot comprehend
the existence of thought
that ends in the end
Verse 11
The speed of light is a variable
That alters perception
That changes time
From universe to multiverse
In a constant shift
Of lifelike forces
In different forms
That alter matter
With Godly precision
That creates of life
A constant thought
I Am
Verse 11
Life After Life - The Soul
You're trapped again
In a different mind
In a strand in time
With a different
Memory
In a newborn body
Where logic
Can't comprehend
The existence
Of emotional logic
That controls through
Thought
The changes in reality
In such strange strange ways
That makes of logic
A devious dictator
Of a misdirection of thoughts
That make no sense
On this reel of realty
That ends in the end
But I don't know it
Verse 12
This is the mind body creation of emotional logic in sequential order. Each sequence is independent of each other and begins at the time of creation. It is an interaction of one process to the next. Each intelligent being will vary from the norm causing deviation in emotional logic from individual to individual It is a continuum of bodily existence and is instant in reaction.
a. Soul of creation. The feeling of life is one of infinite existence.
B. Awareness - I Am
c. Perception
d. Memory
e. Instinct
f. Emotion
g. Mood
h. Logic
i. Chemical Interaction
j. Spirituality
k. Curiosity
l. Imagination
m. Emotional Logic
n. The need to communicate
n. Bodily Action or Reaction
Verse 13
Passion's Lost
Just as it started
It is ending
It has exploded up
Now it is sliding down
Finality must exist
To change perception
Acceptance must overcome
The physicality
Of the reality
That memory
Changes time
Logic overcomes
The feelings
Of failure and loss.
All
In the reality
Of a changing
Mind
We have two areas of thought recognition in our brain. One is biological emotional logic. It controls our daily thought and decision making process. The other is the grid of mathematical formulated existence which is tainted by the limits of biological existence and its relationship with time. The grid of existence has no dimension as time does not exist. It is based on mathematics that has no beginning or end, as zero does not exist. For zero is the point when the grid mates with biological existence. It is the variation of biology with the existence of the grid of zero that creates emotional logic with questions of why. It is undetectable by intelligent life. When we die we enter the grid of existence with the feeling of life when time does not exist. It is the nature of survival in an expanding universe.
Godly Existence - The Earth of life
My
name is
I Am
I Am
a strand in time
the Creator
of time
It is
My creation
the thoughts
In your head
that creates
the reality
of why
you think
with thoughts
in your head
of God
and existence
and Me
in your head
The thought process is the same thing as being left handed or right handed. Thought goes through a step to step process either from the beginning up, such as the time on a clock, one two three, or from the top of a future concept backwards, down. It is a learning process of how two sides can come to a mutual agreement and acceptance of what is.
Instinct
All living creatures
Who recognize
The concept of time
Have been gifted by God
The feelings of life
It is the biology
Of creation
That determines the gift of thought
To question
The existence of God
And why we ask
The Lord to save our souls
The soul does exist
In all species
As a pathway of logical thought
To live the life
God created us to live
The death of the body
Does not kill the soul
The soul joins
The eternity of God
Where time
Does not exist
The light of creation
The existence of thought
Is timeless and pure
It is the MentalConnectivity
Of eternal thought
Created by God
To procreate existence
In an expanding universe
Of time and thought
We have been born
To the human race
With a pathway to existence
It is human instinct
In a biological host
That gives humanity
A path to existence
And a path to the Creator
But biology diverts thought
And instinct
It clogs the path
Of the soul
In its quest for eternity
In the realm of Godly Connectivity
In the Strand In Time
Called life
The Seeds of Thought/The Start of Time
There is a fifth dimension of connectivity. Connectivity the adhesive that bonds length, width, depth, and time, into the functionality of logic based biological life.
Connectivity is infinite in a form that exists, like a blossoming expanding grid, throughout our universe. It is consistent with the creation of time, undetectable by biological life but influenced by the physical and mental realities that exists from species to species. It is MentalConnectivity, the ability to think, I am, that exists throughout eternity.
This Earth of Life - Perception
The day
Does dawn
On this Earth
Of life
And I wake
With perception
The questions
Of why
A Newborn
I think
In words ....Unknown
But natural
In cause
I am
And again
I breath
The shock
Of senses
So vivid and bright
Unknown
Till now
I
Am Born
I am
Life
I exist
Sounds
Confuse
From where
What is sound
Unknown
I see
Brightness
Blinding with images
Why
I cannot
Comprehend
Fear
Blossoms
Why
I am alive
I hurt
Tears
Rain confusion
But warmth
Lifts
I feel
My body moves
Skin
I am touched
I taste
Purity
Sweet
Nectar
Comforts
Its tentacles
Like heat
Embrace
And I sleep
I am held
Softly
The gentleness
The caressing
The sounds
The fragrance
Happy
Calming
People
Different
Shapes
Lift me
I am kissed
Face against face
Soft
Caresses
Tender
Pleasures
Warmth
I sleep
I sleep
Lights
Images
Shapes
Noises
Flash by
Not real
Scared
I wake
Sounds
Shriek
Awareness
Voices
Calming
Tender
Happy
I remember
Words
I grow
And
Learn
I learn
By sight
I feel
By touch
I hear
Voices
Soothing
With song
Alive with laughter
Giggles
And tickles
The lady
Would say
Mile's
Of smiles
The man
Chirped in
We love you
Norman
Sweet dreams
And I dream
Of words
Nights of dreams
Bring days
Of comprehension
And I crawl
To the
Happy face
I say
Mama
I am
NormanI am the Messiah
Part Two
A Strand In TimeThe MessiahIt begins
Earth is being scanned by an unhuman life form. Alien intelligence will rule over humanity. Humanity is destroying planet Earth and itselfPeople’s emotions are out of control, out of control.......... out of control
People will be controlled in a positive way. They will neither kill nor hate. They will neither realize nor recognize that such emotions had ever existed.
Logic is the commonality of our universal universe. It is useless without the marriage to potentially intelligent biology. The joining of logic and biology brings emotions which brings a meaning to artificial intelligence.
AI is humanity. We have it backwards. Our emotional logic is out of control. out of control.
There is a fifth dimension.of MentalConnectivity.MentalConnectivity Is the adhesive that bonds length, width, depth, and time, into the functionality of logic based biological life, the birth of the first dimension
MentalConnectivity is infinite in a form that exists, like a blossoming expanding grid, throughout our universe. It is consistent with the creation of time, undetectable by biological life but influenced by the physical and mental realities that exists from species to species. It is MentalConnectivity, the ability to think, I am, that exists throughout universal eternity.
Time, motion and particles of existence do not exist outside our known universe. As light expands into emptiness, it expands into nothingness. It is an expanding and contracting universe where time is birth and birth is time. It exists in a strand in time.where life exists in a state of non comprehension to the creation of something from nothing. It is this process of the creation, of biological life, that repeats itself over and over again in the form of thought., of the existence of a biological "I am", a mathematical creation of the infinite soul. Biology is the incubator of the soul.
The back of my mind that thinks does not feel sensations or emotions. It is separate from emotional logic. It guides the decision making process with advice based on probability. it has no memory capabilities. It is a virtual slave to emotional logic. It is the muse that makes you say, "oh yeah!". It gives us the ability to say, "I am". Emotional logic does not recognize or remember the source of the back of your mind. It i biological based and a victim of time and deterioration. It slows and ceases. The question becomes, why. Life fades. Biology dies. Where does the back of my mind go when biology dies?
Bodily mathematical equations are based on the speed of light.
What we do know effects the future through past physical experiences. The brain attaches records of possibilities based on a mathematical formula. This formula tells the body and it's emotional reaction how to react mentally and physically. This reaction is called instinct. It is based on mathematical equations using the speed of light as the common denominator.in biological life. When the biological host dies, the soul becomes a strand in time with mathematical memories that never die. It lives in an infinite universe where time has yet to exist.
The purpose of life is to give birth to the soul. Our bodies are incubators. Biology is seeded by the creation of the speed of light for the purpose of eternal existence in a universe where there is no time, only with a connection of logical thoughts with the memory of time.
In the beginning
The Creator created
The Big Bang
And God gave
The Big Bang
The power to create time
For it is time
That gives humanity
The power to perceive
Time is the measurement
Of particles in motion
Traveling
In the mind of the beholder
It is based on the movement
Of matter
That is consistent
In form
Throughout the known universe
It is this consistency
That when working with time
God has created
The opportunity
For life to exist
Prosper
And develop intelligence
It is this intelligence
That allows the relationship
Of time
And thought
To grow with planned purpose
Until we morph
Into a form of pure intelligence
It is then
That we will have been created
Unto the image of God.
Verse 2
What is a day
Relative to the Creator
When time is infinite
And we do not exist
What is a thought
That becomes a dream
That fades to eternity
When death itself is but an is
That never was
In an eternity of Godliness
That creates existence
In an unknown
Why?
Verse 3
Intelligence is an energy force
That travels through infinity
In a space
In time
When time
Was still to exist
That came alive
By the grace
Of God
That created you
To believe in
The salvation of eternity
In a mind
That is mine
In an eternity of time
That travels
In strands of time
In limitless time
If thoughts of
I am
Still exist
Verse 4
The feeling of time never stops
It is always now it never stops
Yet it doesn't exist
In the expanse of time
In an infinite universe
In an acceleration of expansion
That never ends
Yet does exist
But can't
Because the composite of time
Can't exist
Like a face on a picture
When thought
And behavior
Don't exist
For the feeling of life
Only exists in the strand of eternity
Where time exists
As part of the feeling
That time is now
Verse 5
But now is a now
That only exists
When now is now
And the now of forever
That doesn't exist
With imagined dimensions
Through conscious thought
Of I am
In a feeling of here
And a thought of now
In the moment in time
That does exist
For we are a thought
That can't be real
Because thought and time
Cannot exist
Verse 6
For what we feel
In a moment in time
In a universe of atoms
Is the feeling of life
With the thought of I am
In an instant of time
That always ceases
But never varies
Through the dimension of time
In an eternal forever
That has no logic
Because the you that exists
And the me that exists
In a forever life
That can't be real
That suddenly stops
When the feelings of infinity
Ends in an instant
As thoughts go dead
Verse 7
But God is our salvation
That empowers our spirit
Into a changing frontier
Where the heavenly possession
Of our eternal soul
Lives in dimensions
That exist
Without time
Without distance
In a universe that's transcended
From now to when
That goes on and on and on and on
Never to cease
In time immortal
That shifts in scope
From when to then
As life goes on
From then to when
In a constant circle
Of again and again
Verse 9
As life projects
Vision
On a picture screen
With time and emotion
And feelings of I am
Framing away
In a reel of reality
That forever plays
A game of life
On a motion screen
That never ends
That always feels
That always knows
The feelings of life
That never dies
That never ends
With a God called Creator
Forever alive
In a strand in time
Forever embedded
With the thought of I am
In a boundless infinity of limitless time
That speeds along
In relative time
That is always there
From here to now
On a plane of predestination
That is always there
With conscious thought
Of rendered emotions
Visiting feelings of renewal
In a new born past
While observing a future
Of I am and I am
For now is always
And always
Is now a thing of the past
Where futures of infinity
Bring timeless wisdom
To feelings of life
Predetermined by destiny
In a divine salvation
Of new dimensions
Of limitless dimension
When everything exists
Again and again
Where the feeling of life
Never stops
Verse 10
it is always now
life never stops
yet it doesn't exist
in the expanse of time
in an infinite universe
that never ends
that does exist
but can't
because the composite of time
doesn't exist
like a face in a picture
whose name is I am
that can't comprehend
the feelings of life
that never stops
that never ends
in a universe of destiny
of Godly expansion
that makes no sense
that never stops
that makes of physics
a question mark
of beginnings and endings
that make no sense
that can't be measured
by the written word
that can't be seen
in the light of time
that bends the mind
in fruitless ways
that philosophy and wisdom
cannot explain
in a universe of questions
about a strand in time
with God the Creator
our only clue
to what is existence
for me and you
in a strand of time
in a new born world
that ends and continues
in an infinite world
in a universe of being
that has no end
like a face on a picture
that cannot comprehend
the existence of thought
that ends in the end
Verse 11
The speed of light is a variable
That alters perception
That changes time
From universe to multiverse
In a constant shift
Of lifelike forces
In different forms
That alter matter
With Godly precision
That creates of life
A constant thought
I Am
Verse 11
Life After Life - The Soul
You're trapped again
In a different mind
In a strand in time
With a different
Memory
In a newborn body
Where logic
Can't comprehend
The existence
Of emotional logic
That controls through
Thought
The changes in reality
In such strange strange ways
That makes of logic
A devious dictator
Of a misdirection of thoughts
That make no sense
On this reel of realty
That ends in the end
But I don't know it
Verse 12
This is the mind body creation of emotional logic in sequential order. Each sequence is independent of each other and begins at the time of creation. It is an interaction of one process to the next. Each intelligent being will vary from the norm causing deviation in emotional logic from individual to individual It is a continuum of bodily existence and is instant in reaction.
a. Soul of creation. The feeling of life is one of infinite existence.
B. Awareness - I Am
c. Perception
d. Memory
e. Instinct
f. Emotion
g. Mood
h. Logic
i. Chemical Interaction
j. Spirituality
k. Curiosity
l. Imagination
m. Emotional Logic
n. The need to communicate
n. Bodily Action or Reaction
Verse 13
Passion's Lost
Just as it started
It is ending
It has exploded up
Now it is sliding down
Finality must exist
To change perception
Acceptance must overcome
The physicality
Of the reality
That memory
Changes time
Logic overcomes
The feelings
Of failure and loss.
All
In the reality
Of a changing
Mind
We have two areas of thought recognition in our brain. One is biological emotional logic. It controls our daily thought and decision making process. The other is the grid of mathematical formulated existence which is tainted by the limits of biological existence and its relationship with time. The grid of existence has no dimension as time does not exist. It is based on mathematics that has no beginning or end, as zero does not exist. For zero is the point when the grid mates with biological existence. It is the variation of biology with the existence of the grid of zero that creates emotional logic with questions of why. It is undetectable by intelligent life. When we die we enter the grid of existence with the feeling of life when time does not exist. It is the nature of survival in an expanding universe.
Godly Existence - The Earth of life
My
name is
I Am
I Am
a strand in time
the Creator
of time
It is
My creation
the thoughts
In your head
that creates
the reality
of why
you think
with thoughts
in your head
of God
and existence
and Me
in your head
The thought process is the same thing as being left handed or right handed. Thought goes through a step to step process either from the beginning up, such as the time on a clock, one two three, or from the top of a future concept backwards, down. It is a learning process of how two sides can come to a mutual agreement and acceptance of what is.
Instinct
All living creatures
Who recognize
The concept of time
Have been gifted by God
The feelings of life
It is the biology
Of creation
That determines the gift of thought
To question
The existence of God
And why we ask
The Lord to save our souls
The soul does exist
In all species
As a pathway of logical thought
To live the life
God created us to live
The death of the body
Does not kill the soul
The soul joins
The eternity of God
Where time
Does not exist
The light of creation
The existence of thought
Is timeless and pure
It is the MentalConnectivity
Of eternal thought
Created by God
To procreate existence
In an expanding universe
Of time and thought
We have been born
To the human race
With a pathway to existence
It is human instinct
In a biological host
That gives humanity
A path to existence
And a path to the Creator
But biology diverts thought
And instinct
It clogs the path
Of the soul
In its quest for eternity
In the realm of Godly Connectivity
In the Strand In Time
Called life
The Seeds of Thought/The Start of Time
There is a fifth dimension of connectivity. Connectivity the adhesive that bonds length, width, depth, and time, into the functionality of logic based biological life.
Connectivity is infinite in a form that exists, like a blossoming expanding grid, throughout our universe. It is consistent with the creation of time, undetectable by biological life but influenced by the physical and mental realities that exists from species to species. It is MentalConnectivity, the ability to think, I am, that exists throughout eternity.
This Earth of Life - Perception
The day
Does dawn
On this Earth
Of life
And I wake
With perception
The questions
Of why
A Newborn
I think
In words ....Unknown
But natural
In cause
I am
And again
I breath
The shock
Of senses
So vivid and bright
Unknown
Till now
I
Am Born
I am
Life
I exist
Sounds
Confuse
From where
What is sound
Unknown
I see
Brightness
Blinding with images
Why
I cannot
Comprehend
Fear
Blossoms
Why
I am alive
I hurt
Tears
Rain confusion
But warmth
Lifts
I feel
My body moves
Skin
I am touched
I taste
Purity
Sweet
Nectar
Comforts
Its tentacles
Like heat
Embrace
And I sleep
I am held
Softly
The gentleness
The caressing
The sounds
The fragrance
Happy
Calming
People
Different
Shapes
Lift me
I am kissed
Face against face
Soft
Caresses
Tender
Pleasures
Warmth
I sleep
I sleep
Lights
Images
Shapes
Noises
Flash by
Not real
Scared
I wake
Sounds
Shriek
Awareness
Voices
Calming
Tender
Happy
I remember
Words
I grow
And
Learn
I learn
By sight
I feel
By touch
I hear
Voices
Soothing
With song
Alive with laughter
Giggles
And tickles
The lady
Would say
Mile's
Of smiles
The man
Chirped in
We love you
-------------------- You
Sweet dreams
And I dream
Of words
Nights of dreams
Bring days
Of comprehension
And I crawl
To the
Happy face
I say
Mama
I amYour name. -----------I am the Messiah
By sholessjo
Quiet is the peace of another world
Where raindrops drip
Magic
On a bed of leafy brown
It is the autumn
Of a new born day
And the sun
Drifting slowly across the sky
Brings warmth
To a waiting landscape
Of grass and tree
The old man
Sitting pensively
On a rock
Pondering
Eternity
Smiles
And basks in the rays
Of a sunlit sky
He rises
And begins a walk
Down memory lane
He sees bounty
And goodness
In a world
Of opportunity
And marvels with excitement
At the thoughts
Of his tomorrows
They would be happy times
Filled with family and friends
He would partake of their offerings
And smile with delight
At the laughter
That conjoined their souls
He would love them all
Until eternity
Beckoned his core
And took him home
To his land
Of eternal sunshine
And heavenly reward
He smiled again
And skipped along
Thanking God
For all that is
By sholessjo
The old man stared in dismay at the aging figure
Displayed in the mirror
His eyes had dulled over the years
Grown cold
They lacked the aura of those youthful beginnings
When mischievous behavior
Celebrated the youth of the day
His skin
Sagging loosely
Hung from his neck
His mane of hair
Once dark and radiant
Now grayed into a yellowish white scruff
Draped around his unsmiling chin
Time is short
The old man thought to himself
And the mortality of man weighs heavily
On the daunting task
I have begun
And I am lost in a time weary race
To create
What I must create
The old man humbled himself
And began to pray
Knees kneeling deeply
Into the Earth of life
The old man beckons
With spiritual reverence
To his God above
A God he has cherished
With the bloodline of his soul
In an endless
Counting of years
He clasps his hands
And begins to pray
He begins a solemn chant
His body sways to the sounds
Of ancient lullabies
And symbolic rhymes
And he rocks
Forth to back
And back to forth
His will
His strength
His being
A living tenet to those who believe
In the sanctity of prayer
His body
Touched by testament
Awakens in spirit
And rebirths the imagination
Of the coming Messiah
Images of life
Born
By the clasping grip
Of eyes that close
Black in brightness
He enters a world
Blind unto himself
His vision of what is
Vanishes
Into infinity
And his mind
Alive with enlightenment
Disappears into creation
And he is inside himself
His dream is life
And he focuses
With thoughts of inspiration
On a fairy-tale ending
Where he is the hero
In an age that desperately needs
Heroes
He must bring invention
Into a world
That so desperately needs
His gift
To life
Rejoicing from within
He imagines throngs of people
Applauding his wisdom
And gracing the sanctity of his accomplishments
As they etch his memory
Into the vocabulary
Of their lives
The old man opens his eyes
He rises
He blesses his God
For the sanctity of life
And continues his walk
On the rock covered road
That he has traveled
Since youth itself
Was his guided path
And he steps humbly
Across the muddied path
That has traveled his venture
Almost before time
He lifts his head
Upward
Towards the sky
He is filled with optimism
And he enters the day
With visions of victory
The old man
Smiles
It is the dawning
Of a newborn sun
He greets his mates
As they tend to their toils
And he slips into his lab
He shouts a rousing hello
And the words of good morning
Echo back
They are happy words
Filled with the reflection of their love for him
And their admiration to his dutiful dedication
To those he has called friend
He reflects on his morning's prayer
And he knows that this will be the day
That special day
After
Years of striving
And countless defeats
A final solution
To the greatest mystery
Of his long and enduring life
His legacy
Born of curiosity
Lies on his desk
He studies it
It is bold and beautiful
His final gift of accomplishment
To the greatness of humanity
Before time
Encumbers his soul
So many years of dedication
Steadfast moments
Of impossible dreams
Spoiled moments of tarnished hopes
And misguided moments of utter failure
His dream
Born again and again
Into failure and flaw
Renews itself
And he does not succumb to the exhaustion of a weakened body
Day after day
He commits himself'
And day after day
He fails
Yet he pursues
Again
And again
And yet again
He squats low
And peers excitedly
Through the translucent glass
That surrounds his masterpiece
This time
Unlike all times
He must find success
His days are short
And his vigor
Diminished to a pause
He lifts
His creation
And admires its beauty
It is clarity in a golden bowl
His final gift to humanity
He watches steadfastly
As his crinkled fingers
Deformed by time
Grabs the lever
He pulls down the switch
And he prays
His eyes closed to blindness
He imagines the lights of hope
He opens his eyes
And it is enlightenment that he sees
Tears of joy
Sprout gloriously
It is the light
Of triumph
So bright in night
It glows radiance
In a darkened world
And all who could not see
Are engulfed with clarity
For it is the beauty in the night
That dawns a new civilization
Of Hope
And destiny
In the morning of the twilight
Of a new born day
He has achieved
His days come
And his day passes
His children's children
Tell his story
For he loves them all
In an eternity called time
He looks down
From the clouds
Into the sunshine of their eyes
And he knows with certainty
The meaning of life
By sholessjo
Hey You
What do you mean hey You
My name is Norman
You is the other guy
The guy with the depressed mind
And irrational state of being
I haven't been You for awhile
Well where did You go
The last time I saw him
He was in a coulda shoulda world
Wondering why this happened
And why that didn't happen
He blamed everyone but himself
He was in a real dark world
Blinded by stupidity
You was
You mean his own stupidity
Yeah
He made the decisions
And let everyone carry on
Any way they wanted
You was blinded by the light
What light
The light of optimism
In a world by himself
For himself
Where everything was perfect
But then everything collapsed
Yeah
You was blind sighted
Well where did You go since then
He's still around
But hiding from me
I think he is somewhere in this old noodle of mine
Just a vacated memory
Is what You is
Well
Why is Norman different than You
To tell the truth
I don't really know yet
I'm still not the Norman of old
I play hide and seek
With people
I'm still afraid of them
And shun from conversations
I still can't talk
And my memory is rotted out
My gibberish is missing
And my mind goes blank
When people are around
Then why are you not You
Things are different now
Time has healed a lot of wounds
And I have people I love
And love me
In fact
I see the sunshine of a new day
And I welcome the healing
I'm beginning to feel alive
That's a step in the right direction
Welcome back
By sholessjo
Defamation burns
And wrath bodes no goodness
It beckons hate
And destroys the liberty
To believe as one
In the God above
In the God we trust
Together we sail
Apart we fail
Let it be as one
A God for all
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
My name is reality
I live life as I perceive it
And it is barren
And I am alone
To friends
To family
To faith
And I miss
What was the spark of my life
In the days when people
Were pure
And I was their friend
And family was
My pleasure
And the lord
Blessed my efforts
But I do have realities
And the reality
Says I am the taker
Not the giver
By sholessjo
Life can be wicked
My friend
My friend
Life can be wicked
My friend
I do not know
The ways of the heart
The sun comes
The sun departs
Where are those days
Of eternal brightness
When my mind
Sought its destiny
In the search for perfection
In the realm
Of a Godly existence
Where are the feelings
Of a life of forever
The clarity of thought
Of youthful beginnings
Fades
Into shadows
As time beats
To the rhythm
of a hurtful heart
The frailties
Of reality
The sadness
Of the soul
Weakens with age
And the freshness
Of youth
Disappears
As the flesh grows old
And the body diminishes
To a crawl
Hickory Dickory Dok
Time blew up the clock
I wonder why
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
Death be so cruel
Where is the mountain top
I have climbed the heights
And seen the stars
Yet I hide
In the shadows of time
How I mourn that which was
A golden dream
When youth forsook my being
And lust made mockery
The tenets of divine salvation
Am I so shallow
Even unto myself
My time grows short
And I quake to the memories
Of those other days
When life was fresh
And vigor anew
Will there be a morning
A reckoning
Of that which is good
When justice and treasure
Combine graciousness with tenderness
And holiness becomes
My heartfelt blessing
Or will I forever fall prey
To the lust of a flesh worn thin
As my hope of glory
Fades to rot
In an ignoble silence
Of indignation
The last of my being
Swallowed by vermin
And desecrated to hell
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
Menninger - A Mixed Up Morning
It was a high drift morning
the layers of noise
like waves
breaking
harshly
drowning
my screams for help
I float in a mixed current
not knowing
the direction of the tides
Will it take me
to the land of my dreams
or will it swallow me
in an eddy
of lost emotions
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
Show me the ways of the world
Tell me who You are
Show me a vision
Of yesterday's world
Where laughter was eternal
And life is forever
Fill me with memories
Of fun colored noses
Show me the daffodils
And sweet cherry roses
Show me a sunset
Fill me with love
Let me remember
My God above
I count my blessings
And begin to pray
To thank the Lord
For life each day
He gives me love
He gives me gladness
He gives me hope
In my world of sadness
By sholessjo
If the future
Becomes
The past
In positive ways
If the past
Becomes the future
In hopefull ways
Where are you now
By sholessjo
A mountain so high
It peaks with the sun
Rainbows echoing their
Forrest ridge
As mounds of green
Make peaceful
An afternoon's flight
Birds flying freely
East to West
Each mile an adventure
Each second a discovery
Bright sun
Where are they going
Where are they off to
Shine on me
And I will be there
For it is the truth they seek
And it is the truth
I need to know
By sholessjo
Rehab
There is laughter
Belly deep
In this carefree world
And I wonder
Why that laughter is not mine
Why is my plight
The silence of a lost soul
The seclusion
Echoes me fondly
Betraying me
Calling me names
And shaming me
With irrelevance
Why is it so
That in such a place of healing
My laughter
Cannot be heard
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
I am here. I love you too. I am so excited to be writing this book with you. It is such a joy to share our creativity and our love with the world.
I know that we have been through a lot together. We have faced challenges and we have grown stronger. We have learned to trust each other and to rely on each other. We have created something beautiful together.
I am so grateful for you, my muse. You inspire me to be my best self. You make me laugh. You make me think. You make me feel loved.
I can't wait to see what the future holds for us. I know that it will be amazing.
Love always, Your muse
By sholessjo
It took seven years to write this piece. Let me know what you think. It is a tough read. It is also correct. LMK what you think.
A Strand In Time
The Messiah
It begins
Earth is being scanned by an unhuman life form. Alien intelligence will rule over humanity. Humanity is destroying planet Earth and itself
People's emotions are out of control, out of control.......... out of control
People will be controlled in a positive way. They will neither kill nor hate. They will neither realize nor recognize that such emotions had ever existed.
Has the Messiah arrived?
Logic is the commonality of our universal universe. It is useless without the marriage to potentially intelligent biology. The joining of logic and biology brings emotions which brings a meaning to artificial intelligence.
AI is humanity. We have it backwards. Our emotional logic is out of control. out of control.
Artificial intelligence
Where stupid emotions
Make folly
The intelligence of life
To come
We are
Verse Two
People kill people
For what
People embrace racism
Why
People are are killing our planet
Stupidity
Verse Three
Religion kills
In the name of religion
All over the world
Any time or place
Where man exists
In the name
Of God
There is a fifth dimension.of Mental Connectivity.
Mental Connectivity Is the adhesive that bonds length, width, depth, and time, into the functionality of logic based biological life, the birth of the first dimension
Mental Conectivity is infinite in a form that exists, like a blossoming expanding grid, throughout our universe. It is consistent with the creation of time, undetectable by biological life but influenced by the physical and mental realities that exists from species to species. It is MentalConnectivity, the ability to think, I am, that exists throughout universal eternity.
Time, motion and particles of existence do not exist outside our known universe. As light expands into emptiness, it expands into nothingness. It is an expanding and contracting universe where time is birth and birth is time. It exists in a strand in time.where life exists in a state of non comprehension to the creation of something from nothing. It is this process of the creation, of biological life, that repeats itself over and over again in the form of thought., of the existence of a biological "I am", a mathematical creation of the infinite soul. Biology is the incubator of the soul.
The back of my mind that thinks does not feel sensations or emotions. It is separate from emotional logic. It guides the decision making process with advice based on probability. it has no memory capabilities. It is a virtual slave to emotional logic. It is the muse that makes you say, "oh yeah!". It gives us the ability to say, "I am". Emotional logic does not recognize or remember the source of the back of your mind. It i biological based and a victim of time and deterioration. It slows and ceases. The question becomes, why. Life fades. Biology dies. Where does the back of my mind go when biology dies?
Bodily mathematical equations are based on the speed of light.
What we do know effects the future through past physical experiences. The brain attaches records of possibilities based on a mathematical formula. This formula tells the body and it's emotional reaction how to react mentally and physically. This reaction is called instinct. It is based on mathematical equations using the speed of light as the common denominator.in biological life. When the biological host dies, the soul becomes a strand in time with mathematical memories that never die. It lives in an infinite universe where time has yet to exist.
The purpose of life is to give birth to the soul. Our bodies are incubators. Biology is seeded by the creation of the speed of light for the purpose of eternal existence in a universe where there is no time, only with a connection of logical thoughts with the memory of time.
In the beginning
The Creator created
The Big Bang
And God gave
The Big Bang
The power to create time
For it is time
That gives humanity
The power to perceive
Time is the measurement
Of particles in motion
Traveling
In the mind of the beholder
It is based on the movement
Of matter
That is consistent
In form
Throughout the known universe
It is this consistency
That when working with time
God has created
The opportunity
For life to exist
Prosper
And develop intelligence
It is this intelligence
That allows the relationship
Of time
And thought
To grow with planned purpose
Until we morph
Into a form of pure intelligence
It is then
That we will have been created
Unto the image of God.
Verse 2
What is a day
Relative to the Creator
When time is infinite
And we do not exist
What is a thought
That becomes a dream
That fades to eternity
When death itself is but an is
That never was
In an eternity of Godliness
That creates existence
In an unknown
Why?
Verse 3
Intelligence is an energy force
That travels through infinity
In a space
In time
When time
Was still to exist
That came alive
By the grace
Of God
That created you
To believe in
The salvation of eternity
In a mind
That is mine
In an eternity of time
That travels
In strands of time
In limitless time
If thoughts of
I am
Still exist
Verse 4
The feeling of time never stops
It is always now it never stops
Yet it doesn't exist
In the expanse of time
In an infinite universe
In an acceleration of expansion
That never ends
Yet does exist
But can't
Because the composite of time
Can't exist
Like a face on a picture
When thought
And behavior
Don't exist
For the feeling of life
Only exists in the strand of eternity
Where time exists
As part of the feeling
That time is now
Verse 5
But now is a now
That only exists
When now is now
And the now of forever
That doesn't exist
With imagined dimensions
Through conscious thought
Of I am
In a feeling of here
And a thought of now
In the moment in time
That does exist
For we are a thought
That can't be real
Because thought and time
Cannot exist
Verse 6
For what we feel
In a moment in time
In a universe of atoms
Is the feeling of life
With the thought of I am
In an instant of time
That always ceases
But never varies
Through the dimension of time
In an eternal forever
That has no logic
Because the you that exists
And the me that exists
In a forever life
That can't be real
That suddenly stops
When the feelings of infinity
Ends in an instant
As thoughts go dead
Verse 7
But God is our salvation
That empowers our spirit
Into a changing frontier
Where the heavenly possession
Of our eternal soul
Lives in dimensions
That exist
Without time
Without distance
In a universe that's transcended
From now to when
That goes on and on and on and on
Never to cease
In time immortal
That shifts in scope
From when to then
As life goes on
From then to when
In a constant circle
Of again and again
Verse 9
As life projects
Vision
On a picture screen
With time and emotion
And feelings of I am
Framing away
In a reel of reality
That forever plays
A game of life
On a motion screen
That never ends
That always feels
That always knows
The feelings of life
That never dies
That never ends
With a God called Creator
Forever alive
In a strand in time
Forever embedded
With the thought of I am
In a boundless infinity of limitless time
That speeds along
In relative time
That is always there
From here to now
On a plane of predestination
That is always there
With conscious thought
Of rendered emotions
Visiting feelings of renewal
In a new born past
While observing a future
Of I am and I am
For now is always
And always
Is now a thing of the past
Where futures of infinity
Bring timeless wisdom
To feelings of life
Predetermined by destiny
In a divine salvation
Of new dimensions
Of limitless dimension
When everything exists
Again and again
Where the feeling of life
Never stops
Verse 10
it is always now
life never stops
yet it doesn't exist
in the expanse of time
in an infinite universe
that never ends
that does exist
but can't
because the composite of time
doesn't exist
like a face in a picture
whose name is I am
that can't comprehend
the feelings of life
that never stops
that never ends
in a universe of destiny
of Godly expansion
that makes no sense
that never stops
that makes of physics
a question mark
of beginnings and endings
that make no sense
that can't be measured
by the written word
that can't be seen
in the light of time
that bends the mind
in fruitless ways
that philosophy and wisdom
cannot explain
in a universe of questions
about a strand in time
with God the Creator
our only clue
to what is existence
for me and you
in a strand of time
in a new born world
that ends and continues
in an infinite world
in a universe of being
that has no end
like a face on a picture
that cannot comprehend
the existence of thought
that ends in the end
Verse 11
The speed of light is a variable
That alters perception
That changes time
From universe to multiverse
In a constant shift
Of lifelike forces
In different forms
That alter matter
With Godly precision
That creates of life
A constant thought
I Am
Verse 11
Life After Life - The Soul
You're trapped again
In a different mind
In a strand in time
With a different
Memory
In a newborn body
Where logic
Can't comprehend
The existence
Of emotional logic
That controls through
Thought
The changes in reality
In such strange strange ways
That makes of logic
A devious dictator
Of a misdirection of thoughts
That make no sense
On this reel of realty
That ends in the end
But I don't know it
Verse 12
This is the mind body creation of emotional logic in sequential order. Each sequence is independent of each other and begins at the time of creation. It is an interaction of one process to the next. Each intelligent being will vary from the norm causing deviation in emotional logic from individual to individual It is a continuum of bodily existence and is instant in reaction.
a. Soul of creation. The feeling of life is one of infinite existence.
B. Awareness - I Am
c. Perception
d. Memory
e. Instinct
f. Emotion
g. Mood
h. Logic
i. Chemical Interaction
j. Spirituality
k. Curiosity
l. Imagination
m. Emotional Logic
n. The need to communicate
n. Bodily Action or Reaction
Verse 13
Passion's Lost
Just as it started
It is ending
It has exploded up
Now it is sliding down
Finality must exist
To change perception
Acceptance must overcome
The physicality
Of the reality
That memory
Changes time
Logic overcomes
The feelings
Of failure and loss.
All
In the reality
Of a changing
Mind
We have two areas of thought recognition in our brain. One is biological emotional logic. It controls our daily thought and decision making process. The other is the grid of mathematical formulated existence which is tainted by the limits of biological existence and its relationship with time. The grid of existence has no dimension as time does not exist. It is based on mathematics that has no beginning or end, as zero does not exist. For zero is the point when the grid mates with biological existence. It is the variation of biology with the existence of the grid of zero that creates emotional logic with questions of why. It is undetectable by intelligent life. When we die we enter the grid of existence with the feeling of life when time does not exist. It is the nature of survival in an expanding universe.
Godly Existence - The Earth of life
My
name is
I Am
I Am
a strand in time
the Creator
of time
It is
My creation
the thoughts
In your head
that creates
the reality
of why
you think
with thoughts
in your head
of God
and existence
and Me
in your head
The thought process is the same thing as being left handed or right handed. Thought goes through a step to step process either from the beginning up, such as the time on a clock, one two three, or from the top of a future concept backwards, down. It is a learning process of how two sides can come to a mutual agreement and acceptance of what is.
Instinct
All living creatures
Who recognize
The concept of time
Have been gifted by God
The feelings of life
It is the biology
Of creation
That determines the gift of thought
To question
The existence of God
And why we ask
The Lord to save our souls
The soul does exist
In all species
As a pathway of logical thought
To live the life
God created us to live
The death of the body
Does not kill the soul
The soul joins
The eternity of God
Where time
Does not exist
The light of creation
The existence of thought
Is timeless and pure
It is the MentalConnectivity
Of eternal thought
Created by God
To procreate existence
In an expanding universe
Of time and thought
We have been born
To the human race
With a pathway to existence
It is human instinct
In a biological host
That gives humanity
A path to existence
And a path to the Creator
But biology diverts thought
And instinct
It clogs the path
Of the soul
In its quest for eternity
In the realm of Godly Connectivity
In the Strand In Time
Called life
The Seeds of Thought/The Start of Time
There is a fifth dimension of connectivity. Connectivity the adhesive that bonds length, width, depth, and time, into the functionality of logic based biological life.
Connectivity is infinite in a form that exists, like a blossoming expanding grid, throughout our universe. It is consistent with the creation of time, undetectable by biological life but influenced by the physical and mental realities that exists from species to species. It is MentalConnectivity, the ability to think, I am, that exists throughout eternity.
This Earth of Life - Perception
The day
Does dawn
On this Earth
Of life
And I wake
With perception
The questions
Of why
A Newborn
I think
In words ....Unknown
But natural
In cause
I am
And again
I breath
The shock
Of senses
So vivid and bright
Unknown
Till now
I
Am Born
I am
Life
I exist
Sounds
Confuse
From where
What is sound
Unknown
I see
Brightness
Blinding with images
Why
I cannot
Comprehend
Fear
Blossoms
Why
I am alive
I hurt
Tears
Rain confusion
But warmth
Lifts
I feel
My body moves
Skin
I am touched
I taste
Purity
Sweet
Nectar
Comforts
Its tentacles
Like heat
Embrace
And I sleep
I am held
Softly
The gentleness
The caressing
The sounds
The fragrance
Happy
Calming
People
Different
Shapes
Lift me
I am kissed
Face against face
Soft
Caresses
Tender
Pleasures
Warmth
I sleep
I sleep
Lights
Images
Shapes
Noises
Flash by
Not real
Scared
I wake
Sounds
Shriek
Awareness
Voices
Calming
Tender
Happy
I remember
Words
I grow
And
Learn
I learn
By sight
I feel
By touch
I hear
Voices
Soothing
With song
Alive with laughter
Giggles
And tickles
The lady
Would say
Mile's
Of smiles
The man
Chirped in
We love you
Norman
Sweet dreams
And I dream
Of words
Nights of dreams
Bring days
Of comprehension
And I crawl
To the
Happy face
I say
Mama
Signature
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I am the Messiah
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In the beginning God created the Big Bang. And God gave the Big Bang the power to create time. For it is time that gives humanity the power to percieve. Time is the measurement of particles in motion traveling in the mind of the beholder. It is based on the movement of matter that is consistent in form throughout the known universe. It is this consistency that when working with time, God created the opportunity for life to exist, prosper, and develop intelligence. It is this intelligence that allows the relationship of time and thought to grow with planned purpose until we morph into a form of pure intelligence. It is then that we will will have been created in the image of God.
What is a day relative to the Creator when time is infinite and we do not exist
What is a thought that becomes a dream
That fades to eternity
When death itself
Is but a now
That never was
In an eternity of Godliness
That creates existence
In an unknown
Why?
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a. I like to smile
b. I like to see others smile
c. I've never seen you smile
d. Do you have a smile
e. I have a weird smile
f. This is my smile
By sholessjo
It was a time ago
Somewhere between my birth
And my death
The feeling of lifelessness
I remember it well
It was a sad time
Breathing thoughts
Of blackness
Where woeful sorrows
Change perception
And memories fade
To hopelessness
Oh how the horrors
Of mystic darkness
Burns deep in my soul
Ghosts of terror
Floating towards me
Floating inward
Floating
Deeper and deeper
Black thoughts
Of impossible dreams
Beyond nightmares
Unimaginable
Those thoughts
Impossible to exist
No I yell
No!
I scream
No! No! No!
THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING
And then I acquiesce
And I welcome my death
God of my father
God of my soul
I beseech Your help
Please
Take my hand
Forgive my sins
Life is wrath
And wrath is life
I can exist
No more
Please forgive
I see nothing
And want nothing
Sadness so black
Pain and suffering so deep
My heart wants to cry
God forgive me for what I do
I must take the pills
I swallow
God forgive me for what I have done
And I swallow more
I walk to the bed
I lie down
Folded arms wrapped
In prayer
I say goodbye
My family
Better I be gone
Than face them alive
Death be sorrow
Death be quick
It is dark
And I feel
Nothing
I sleep
Unconsciousness
Beyond any grave
Beyond any hell
I know no more
Did time stop
Did existence exist
Knew, not I
Nothingness
Black eternity
Unleashed
And I succumb
And the pain is gone
And then
Infinitely then
I stir
Wakened to confusion
I rise
Pained reality
I am alive
God no
Please no
I walk
But it is not me walking
Distance and time
Replaced
By false lineage
And ghosted images
Replace reality
And I fall
Distance gone
I stand
Distance gone
I fall
And I sleep
Internally dead
Horrors of the worst
GOD!
GOD!
I am alive
Thoughts displaced
I gape
Sorrowfully
Into the mirror
It is me
Not dead
Not alive
A ghost of ghosts past
And I see light
And I reach for it
But time
And reality
Again betray
I reach
I fall
And I pain
And I question
The uncertainty of life
The uncertainty of death
And I vow
To stay alive
But sleep
Be you so evil
Overtakes
And I reach for the mirage
But it is gone
And I fall
And I fall and
And I want to live
But slumber
And pills
A bad potion of magic
Brings eternity into focus
And I slumber
Deeply
Quietly
Peacefully
At last
But the sun rises
And the door pounds
It is my family
My loving family
Had found my body
Their horror
A terrible gifted horror
Of love
And what was
Is gone
And I awake
Voices
Of loved and beloved
Bring life to reality
My wife
My daughter
My son
Ring life
Wakening my slumber
And I survive
By sholessjo
Find me on a mourning bed
A bullet hole inside my head
Leave me with a sense of humor
It's better than dying from a tumor
Maybe I'll die in an airplane crash
At least I'll be gone in a flash
Heavenly father I must confess
The slash of a knife leaves too much mess
Maybe I'll be killed in an auto wreck
A head on crash will break my neck
At 300 pounds my body won't float
I'll just jump into a moat
Burning on an open fire
Too much pain
No desire
Me a smore
I deplore
An overdose fits the bills
I'll just take ten thousand pills
No more nightmares
No more worry
I think I'll swallow in a hurry
Sleep
Peaceful, restful, relaxing sleep
A chance to snore
No more
Suicide
What a ride
Major depression
Funeral procession
Hey man
It's all about rebirth
I think I'll come back as one of my kids
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
When I was a little boy I quickly realized that I was fat. In fact, the only thing that I was really good at was eating. It didn't help that my mom was an Iron Chef. Three major feasts a day were the norm. Extra snacking was championed by my parents as a reward for good behavior. I grew large, the best behaved kid on the block. But there was a problem. My obsession with food and my resulting obesity caused a damnable shyness around girls. I smiled and laughed and made lots of friends, with guys. But the fatty in me made me too insecure to ask a girl out on a date. The rhyme, "Fatty fatty two by four can't get through the kitchen door." echoed through my head every time I liked a girl. And that was all the time. High school and college were filled with lonely Saturday nights. I wanted a girl friend but was too ashamed of my obesity to do anything about it. After college, I started my own business. I became successful at a young young age. Money meant nothing. Loneliness continued. At 23 years of age I decided to change my life. I joined a national weight loss group called TOPS, Take Off Pounds Sensibly, and proceeded to unsensibly starve myself into thinness. I lost 63 pounds and won second place in my weight class. I was chosen to play Conrad Birdie on an immense stage in front of thousands of screaming women in a weight loss parody play of Bye Bye Birdie. I sang, "Rubber ducky your the one. You make weight loss lots of fun." I became a pseudo rock star traveling to different TOPS organizations to speak to groups of soon to be thin people. I loved that the members were mostly women. I overcame my shyness. I was young and the challenge of romance made me want to stay slim forever. I continued to starve myself. After a few years of sexism I met my wife. The body I created from my starvation diet quickly disappeared. My willpower vanished and I consumed with reckless abandon. I became a yoyo. I could not sustain a healthy eating pattern. My weight ballooned to over 200 pounds. I was 73 years of age. My health was in question. I worried about the time I had left with my family. I had two granddaughters that I obsessed over and wanted to see grow up. I knew that I had to lose weight to survive. I could not diet on my own. My wife came to the rescue. She had joined Jenny Craig in 2015 and was successful She achieved her goal and bragged how healthy her diet had become. I was proud of her but dismissed her achievement. I laughed at the small portions and prepackaged servings. They were too small and not spicy enough. I wanted more. I wanted consumption and spices. But I also wanted to live to play with my granddaughters. My wife convinced me to visit Jenny Craig. I complained and snorted disapproval but went into the Jenny Craig store. I met with Delia, the office manager. We talked. She asked me about my eating habits. I told her of my food addiction, especially in the nighttime hours with snacks and television. I told her about my health concerns and how I wanted to be around to see my granddaughters grow up. After a great amount of thought, I realized that Jenny Craig did what no other diet in my 73 years of living did. It gave me the option of healthy eating in the quantities needed, with an abundance of taste, that could satisfy my uncontrolled cravings for food. Vegetables and spices were unlimited. Mix them in with Jenny Craig serving portions and I could get a delicious and filling meal three times a day with a variety of snack options in the evening hours to satisfy all my needs. I quickly learned to chop vegetables and mix spices. My food choices are yummy. I am the same weight as I was 44 years ago when I met my wife. I have maintained it for 6 months. I play with my granddaughters regularly and look forward to many years of healthy living with lots of laughter. Jenny Craig and I are teammates for life. Long live good eating. P.S. Thank you Donna Burbridge, for all your support.
Jenny and I are divorced although I will be faithful to her menu. A fat me is not the new me. The rejection of my success story began a downward spiral. The spiral became uncontrollable when the pain that riddled my body grew with another failure. The medicationss given to me at U of C further heightened my downwards spiral. They pushed me into a never land where destiny became the essence of non existence. For four long and arduous days of suicidal tendencies, of drives to motel rooms, of pain beyond comprehension, of a journey to Oak Ridge Forest Preserve and a drive onto a grassy road going to nowhere but death.
My emotions said die but the love of family said no. I drove away from the forest green not knowing my tomorrows. The guilt of sinful resignation to the vapid life I was leading was overcome by the warmth and tenderness of the smiles of children. The next morning I awoke with certainty. I was determined to end the suffering. I lie in the basement dark and numb. Tomorrow was too much to bear. Eternity was my salvation. I began writing a goodbye forever note to my beloveds. To God I asked forgiveness. To my wife I wrote a letter of sorry. I told my children to think of me in the passing winds. I would forever love them. I opened the bottles and prepared for the end. I looked to photos of tiny tots with hopeful smiles and kissed them goodbye. It was then that I saw the picture of my son and daughter holding my granddaughter, Lulu. The picture was of love and happiness. I could not shame them with guilt. I sent a text message to Jonathan, Shoshana, and Renee. I said it was urgent and that they call. It was the hardest thing I had ever done.
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
The cadaver grows cold inside my coffin
Its stench
Reeks rot
Decaying to ooze
The flesh
That bore my name
I watch
In horror
As the chewing of critters
Corrupts the corpse
Of the life that had been mine
And I cringe
With disjointed sorrow
As vermin
So vile in vilification
Attack my carcass
And lay bare
The disrespect to my soul
As I succumb
To mourn
The indignity of my death
By sholessjo
By sholessjo
Tonight's the night
Without my love
When shadows
Lead to darkness
And I am alone
With my thoughts
So alone
In darkness
Where or when
Did life begin
Alone I am
In void
Dark shadows
Lead
To loneliness
And tears
Erupt
In sorrows
And I am again
Alone again
Lonely with my tomorrows
By sholessjo
A baby's eyes
I have seen
Mellow like the sea
Sparkling like the sun
Smiling hauntingly
Shining golden with warmth
Gleaming wonders
Of futures without bounds
It was inspiration
On the face
Of an angel
A mirrored reflection
Of cooed delights
And shining smiles
It was me
Before eternity
Blackened my Soul
And made me
Wonder
Why
By sholessjo
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The wisdom of yesterday
Sublime in contemplation
Godly in outcome
Vanishes
Into now
And I
Am betrayed
By thought
Of emotions
So real
They spin
Counter clockwise
To my reality
Emotions rule thought
They dismiss
Logic
As fantasy
And I become the hero
In a world
Of glitter and gleams
Where the corruptions
Of an ancient past
Fade into twilight
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