"Medicine for My Soul" (A)
Written on October 14th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

171,263 hours and 30 minutes hath now come to pass.
And, it still feels like yesterday!
Now how long God?
Does this have to last?
I can still see his smile among the long ago.
And, I can still hear his beautiful music as it flows.
(Don't you know?)
...
171,263 hours and 30 minutes hath now come to pass.
Yes, and the tears?
Tears of wetness coats my pillow case.
Yes, shall always and continuously last.
And, that's quite okay with me.
Yes, for I can still feel it inside.
Yes, and it's a driving Force!
You see?
And, now as I pray...
...
Dear Lord God above.
Yes, on this October 14th, 2022 day.
Thank You for giving me the strength to carry on.
Thank You for saving my son's life!
Yes, and giving his heart that second chance in the helicopter.
Yes, on that fateful night.
Thank you for making me now strong enough not to hate but to fight!
...
And, to accept how horrible the event was and allowing me to navigate through the stormy waters.
Note: Also along with saving my youngest baby daughter!
And, thank You God!
Yes, for teaching me that there is Life after Death!
And finally, Eye also thank You!
Yes for giving me back my very last breath.
And allow me this disclosure on my Quest.
Amen.

****

"Triple Suicide Dance!" (B)
(A Rewrite and True Life Story)
Written on October 14th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky and Satan

'This is 9-11 can I help you?'
'And, what is the problem?'
...
How much does it take?
And, how much can a man take?
How much can I take?
Yes, when now all I want to do is die?
How much does it take?
And, how much can a man take?
Yes, when he can no longer be or forgive himself?
And, can never stop the flow in tears?
"Of the Cry?"
How much does it take?
And, how much can a man take?
How much?
Well, I will tell you my friend.
And, it all started early.
That December 1st, 2006 morning.
As, I write this down with the blood.
Yes, of my, very own, pen.
Amen?
...
And, it's funny how much and then how we can?
Impload then Explode and lose our F****** minds!
But you now see?
The one thing that keeps us bound?
And, makes us one of a kind?
Note: WARNING!
GRAPHIC!
Perhaps you have once come to a point?
Yes, and got to the low point in your lousy life?
First lost your only son, or perhaps your daughter, and then eventually you're husband or wife?
And, you felt like the darkness was grasping and strangling your now Broken Heart!
Ripping your being completely apart!
...
Now you need closure but what do you do?
The rope is hanging and waiting for you!
Or do you take "The Nestea Plunge?"
And, end it within seconds or perhaps a gun?
Yes, just a quick shotgun blast to the brain?
But we know in our hearts that suicide is not proper or there's any gain?
Yes, or maybe you want to just go to sleep?
And, bleed to death when you slice your veins but as for me?
You see that will never do!
Amen.
...
For I slept with my new girlfriend!
"Miss Butcher Knife!"
But as a coward that too would not do!
But on that Fateless day?
"Enough was Enough!"
I do say.
And, I finally found the strength and finally got real tough!
A 7-in serrated steak knife await my date with Fate!
...
'Now Ricky this is your new friend Satan.'
'Yes, and I know that you have been hating!'
Yes, as I plunged it all the way in and I know it's considered a sin.
As I now watched my Guinea white Tee
Yes, turn Crimson red!
But that would not do!
As Eye was still breathing!
...
So, without a second of hesitation.
(when I realized that I wasn't dead) Instead a second time?
I plunged it in to the red!
And, I went into my room for the next twenty minutes waiting for the Dead?
Yes, into the suicide dance and told my only son.
'I'm coming.'
...
God, I don't need another chance.
But you see?
And, unfortunately for me.
And, at that moment in time.
Yes, as I write these words...
Individual sentences of rhyme.
...
'Now Ricky I'm so ashamed of you!'
Stated Satan.
So, again I picked up that knife you see?
And, this time it was easy!
Yes, as 1, 2, 3!
...
So, I figure the side of the neck?
Yes, what the heck!
And, if I nicked the juggler it'll be the End?
But you see my Fanstory friend.
I could never juggle but I sure as HELL?
Can write!
...
So deeply now...
And, three times as much as I could.
If only I should but I knew that I would!
Take the Nestea Plunge!
But this time?
...
WARNING!
GRAPHIC!!
So now no little tripling trail of My Blood!
'Ricky you F****** and dumb bitch!'
The Knife!'
Demanded Satan.
...
So, again did I take the floor!
But on the couch?
Yes, it was covered with not only my blood but my Gore!
...
See?
So into the room again for the next twenty minutes again.
So now perhaps it would be no more?
...
But now forty minutes into the hour-long dance.
Yes!
God was giving me another chance!
...
So, how do you kill oneself when the pain is immense?
Yes, when it's so intense!
Yes that you can no longer cry!
Yes, and the only thought in your mind is one word die!!!
...
Oh yes!
This will be my latest Quest for people take the pills!
And that's the way!
I had a bottle of Depakote waiting for me that day!
Yes but even though I took each and every one.
Yes but I know it is wrong and I know it's not fun.
Yes but Depakote is used for depression and seizures and you cannot overdose!
But my new Host?
...
Yes, and it's funny how Fate and Destiny will appear?
And yes!
Now it wouldn't be Santa and eight reindeer!
As the phone rang and let me make this certainly perfectly clear!
And, what did I hear?
Yes, it was my ex Nancy the Wicked Witch of the East and the West!
I've been F****** HEXED!!!
...
And the night before when she and me?
Yes, we broke up and she did not like my tone of voice.
She was coming over now?
As Eye had a thought...
'Your seriously interrupting my misery!'
...
'Hello this is 911 and what is your problem?'
Well the problem mame is me!'
'I don't no longer want to be!'
Believe it or not?
And, this would be my final thought?
...
So, I took the steak knife and shoved it in deep leaving a trail of Bloody Misery!
So blatant, so steep and Deep!
...
A Stafford officer arrived within a few minutes.
And, came in to my living room.
Registered and observed the scene.
And saw the blood and the knife.
(if you know what I mean?)
And, then asked me.
'Who had did this to you?'
...
Now you have to realize my state of mind that day.
Yes, and I thought this was kind of funny now but no Santa and Sleigh!
Yes, with the words that he did say.
So I simply replied.
'I did this to me!'
...
This was when things really started getting, "Fast and Furious!"
And a little bit more serious!
As they had called for canine backup and now there was a German Shepherd searching my attic and under my house in around my premises for the perpetrator!
Me!
The next thing that happened was A van pulled up with Ocean County violent crime scene as they taped off my house!
I'm glad they didn't say to me next who did this Mickey Mouse?
...
And then the paramedics arrived two young men came into my living room. Now as I write these two words with my pen.
Yes, and less than 10 ft away on my couch.
Yes, this is what the one man did say!
'Who did this to you?'
...
They then asked me if I could stand.
I was controlling my heartbeat.
(And my blood pressure was quite okay)
Now perhaps, I was having a little more fun that day?
But as I stood up with these words.
( I now say.)
The second more deeper wound?
I'd hit the heart valve and had been bleeding internally for quite a while.
So that exit wound was ready to blast.
And the one young man but not with a smile.
But right into his face!
As the blood would fly!
...
Now I was embarrassed, embarrassed indeed.
Because now my pain was being shed with my greed.
The wrong way and taken from me.
...
So, I apologized as they came to take me away not with Santa, nor was his sleigh.
...
Somebody was able to get in touch with one of my children.
Yes, and explain what had been going on.
I had a less than 5% chance of survival
For the up and coming storm?
...
But you see?
Yes there's something going on in Me? And, no matter how much I tried.
And, no matter how much I cried.
And, no matter how much did I curse Jesus Christ.
And, I know that's naughty and not nice.
And, no matter how much?
I could not die!
...
I remember as they prepared me to be operated upon.
The surgeon observed the second wound in my chest.
And as he probed with his index finger?
That was when the pain came back and I thought what the heck!
...
Well, then I heard them words for the third and final time!
'Who did this to you?
(In rhyme)'
And I simply replied...
"F****** Satan!'
The End?

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Cindy Sue Truman' Cindy's Incredible Picture Entitled, "The eye, the window to the soul"

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Permanent Sleep"
(The Human Coma)
Written on October 28th, 2022
By Richard and Jason Smrkovsky
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Note: Coma adj.
1. A period of prolonged unconsciousness brought on by the illness of injury.
Typically a coma does not last more than a few days or a couple of weeks.
Yes but in some rare cases a person may stay in a coma for several weeks or more.
...
I'm sleeping now God.
And yes, it's extremely restful but Nightmarishly eerie.
Dear Lord God above.
Just how much longer?
...
Note: Most people think that a coma is merely being in a deep sleep like state of being.
But in all actuality.
A coma is a serious health issue that isn't related to sleep at all.
...
God it feels like forever!
And does my body still belong?
And how much longer must I be strong?
...
Note: Yes a person in a coma is unconscious but not sleeping.
And unfortunately, they can't respond to voices or other sounds. Nor any type of activity happening around them.
...
God I think this has gone on long enough?
March 31st, 2003.
(about 7:45 p.m.)
...
"The Beginning"
By Doctor Ricky 1024
In order to go way back to that day.
Yes, as I've done in multiple times. And yes, it is necessary as I draw on my intellectual ability.
I draw on my belief in the Lord above and his Heavenly Father.
And also my educational needs to present.
"The Extreme of the Scream"
Note: As if in nightmares.
As it seems and the cause of a coma?
Yes is serious and sometimes?
Results: Someone who has a severe Blow To The Head.
Yes or the brain.
Can cause seizures infections to the brain, brain damage, severe head injury, severe lack of oxygen to the brain, a stroke, a chemical imbalance. or even a drug overdose.
...
April 1st, 2003.
(about midnight)
And, it has now been about 6 hours.
Six hours since my son Jason's accident.
And, the blood/oxygen level to Jason's brain is dangerously close to a total collapse!
And, only time will tell?
...
Dear God am I now dead or alive?
I can't instead even remember my damn name!
And, this is so insane God!
Now what is happening to me?
...
Note: Someone in a coma needs serious medical attention.
Yes, from anti-swelling medications to a possible skull intrusive intrusion.
Yes, to eliminate the pressure with a tapping.
...
April 1st, 2003.
(Aptil Fool's Day)
17 hours now after the original accident on March 31st, 2003.
...
Finally God, my body is rising now.
As it and my Soul needs to finally rest.
...
Note: Most people do not come out of a coma.
Yes, and in rare cases.
Yes, it may last several weeks, months, or even in extreme cases.
Years!
...
And, most patients who are in a hospital under care.
May and can eventually come out of a coma.
And, can sometimes remember.
And, even very quickly return to work.
Yes, but most others need some kind of help.
Yes, taking care of the minor functions that we take as normal.
Such as walking, eating. dressing, grooming, and other normal tasks.
...
Note: The procedure of 'Organ-Tissue Donation'
Yes, is not only absolutely necessary, as needed and rare.
But in most cases a Beautiful blessing indeed!
...
As it can bring and it will bring life back to those who are an emotional state of being!
And, waiting for death to arrive! Restoring life through Human Organ Donations.
Yes, so people can again be able to breathe!
Yes, as well as have their new hearts function!
Yes, is a Beautiful thing!
And when new hearts and lungs, kidneys, livers.
Yes, and all the other body organs that can be meticulously removed.
Yes, is complicated and also quite simple if?
...
"Done Vida!"
(Donate Life)
Jason Richard Smrkovsky. November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
...
Organ's Graciously offered to help save four Human beings.
April 1st, 2003
(April Fool's Day)
"And, the Beat Goes On"
...
To learn more about this process of
"Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend.
Lara S. MORETTI the L.S.W.with
"The Gift of Life!:
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800- DONORS-1.

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist, 'avmurray' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "I am dreaming"

Chapter 44
When Love Leaves You

By Ricky1024

"When Love Leaves You"
Written on November 5th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ©� Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Within my Broken Heart there's still a single beat.
Within my Body and Mind.
I try my very best to still avoid the defeat!
Yes and at best.
I will feel just fine.
...
Now God the day still unwinds.
Now God Above.
And, they shall pass.
(As always)
And, forever last.
Forever last as lasting tears.
Lasting tears pour down from my crying, blue, eyes.
Sustaining and Staining my cheeks.
Dear Lord God above no relief?
...
Not So Divine.
Not So Divine each and every time.
Each and every time I go back.
Each and Every time I go back to that saddened day?
I go back to reflect and another barriage of tears
So, So, much I regret.
...
But regrets and if only if but a few?
Yes, can be taken Away.
Taken away with just a blink of a tear.
A lash from my eye.
And, when I so Cry.
...
So, my Fanstory friend when you think it's the End?
End of the Line?
No More Tears can be shed.
...
Yes but instead when someone you so, so, Loved.
Loved and tis no longer around?
And, when it's his or her birthday this day.
This day like my Jay.
...
Not much more than I can say.
Yes, as you finally found.
Found in that Broken Heart.
And, he or she can not be found.
Just try to say a little prayer.
Say a little prayer and look above.
Why?
Because you have finally realized that
"When Love Leaves You."

Author Notes

Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Note: Organ's Graciously offered to four Blessed Human Beings on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... And, to learn more about this Amazing and Incredible Journey? 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Incredible Writer, 'Doctor Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Just Jay"

Chapter 45
Fractured Birth

By Ricky1024

"Fractured Birth"
Written on November 19th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

"Fractured Birth"
Past lifes pleasures now measured.
Measured and sesled with a simple clasp.
Held tightly in a small hand.
Classified memories long gone but never ever passed?
Pictured Smiles that can never again laugh.
So forlorn but lost voices still So, So, strong.
...
Fractured yes but as you may now guess?
Cast Within by Broken Hearts.
Broken Hearts floating so delicately together.
Yes, and now not apart.
Never to part.
Those happy times now as Sorrows?
Seasons long past.
Long gone never birthdays but you somehow know they shall always last.
...
And, within all are Broken Hearts. And, within all those long gone years.
And, with each and every memory?
There's a single *Tear.
...
"When memories you Love become someone long Gone?"
When there's no more Songs?"
"When there's no more Pleasures?"
"These are the Memories that we shall always now Treasure"
"Unknown Poet"

...

"Refracturing Birth" (B)
Written on November 19th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024

Date: April 1st, 2003
Time: Midnight 12:00 Am.
Place: Atlantic City Trauma Hospital
Atlantic City, New Jersey
Patient: Jason Richard Smrkovsky
...
Dear Lord God above,
Please accept the many, many, Gifts from my Only Son, I so Loved.
...
Note: The removal of major body organs is a complicated; yes but also a simple procedure by train professionals.
The subject is still viable.
As Life staining of course by medical devices.
The lower organs.
(I believe?)
...
Yes, would be removed firstly; as another team removes the major vessels from the arms and lower legs.
...
They would lastly remove, of course, the Heart and lungs after the kidneys, Liver, Pancreas, and other bodily organs.
...
Dear God above,
Please accept now these many new Gifts of Love.
And, Lord God offer them to the right reciprocants.
And, please give those a chance again to Live and breathe.
...
Yes, in the morning hours.
My son Jason's Soul would finally be able to exit, as his body below; his purpose on Earth; now achieved.
...
Note: The process of Gifting and giving a Loved one's organs.
Yes, tis truly is a Noble sacrifice indeed.

Author Notes

*Tear: noun /ter/ 1 a : a drop of clear saline fluid secreted by the lacrimal gland and diffused between the eye and eyelids to moisten the parts and facilitate their motion. b : tears plural : a secretion of profuse tears that overflow the eyelids and dampen the face. ... 2 :tears plural : an act of weeping or grieving. "broke into tears" 3 : a transparent drop of fluid or hardened fluid matter (such as resin) tearless adjective ... **Tear: verb intransitive verb : to fill with tears (see Tear entry 3) :shed tears "eyes tearing in the November wind" Saul Bellow ... Note: On March 31st, 2003 and 17 hours later leading into April 1st, 2003. As my only eighteen year old son Jason. Laid in a coma. (Brain dead) And, after a horrible car accident. I cried more during that period or time than I have my entire life. ... And, to learn more about the the Amazing and Incredible process of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist, 'MKFlood' Michael's Amazing and Incredible Picture Entitled, "Memories Become Treasures"

Chapter 46
When Two Become from One

By Ricky1024

"When Two Become from One"
(Splitting the Atom)
Written on November 25th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright ©� Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

The accident is over now and an important decision must and needs to be made.
'Your son Jason is officially,
Brain-Dead.'
'Yes, this I now know Lara.'
Note: Lara S. Moretti is the L.S.W with, "The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.
...
After a brief discussion between me and my family.
We came to a final decision.
Yes, to donate my son Jason's Heart and Lungs.
His pair of Kidneys and his Liver.
And, it is now April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
...
Note: The decision to donate Human organs is both Noble as necessary.
In order to save waiting lives.
...
As the hours melted into minutes.
The Miracle would soon take place.
Trained professionals would begin the tedious process of Organ removal.
Where they will then be refrigerated and transported to the necessary waiting recipients.
In order that they will have one last chance at Life.
...
Note: It is now been over Nineteen years.
Many holidays and birthdays have passed.
My very own children have grown and had children.
And, out of the four original receivers of my Son Jason's organs.
Three still are happy, alive, and living.
Living and existing.
Living now a healthy normal life.

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist, 'iPhone7' Their Incredible Picture Entitled, "When Two Become One"

Chapter 47
Turning Upside Down (A)

By Ricky1024

"Turning Upside Down" (A)
Written on Nov 26th, 2022
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

The die is cast and the dice have been rolled.
And, it's now my time to pay the Toll.
My life, all though short, there is no more pretend.
So, I guess I'll just say a little prayer.
And ,end it with an Amen.
Yes, as the Darkened Clouds drift over me.
God, what will be.
Unfortunately, must be for me.
...
Dear Lord God above,
Won't You please allow me?
Me to bask in Your "Heavenly Love?
For now as I move forward.
Yes, every forward into the place.
The place where Love's Dispensed.
All so Beautiful.
All so Immense.
Even though there is now darkness.
I shall fear no Evil but flourish God.
In Your Beyond and I accept my new Destiny and job.
...
Yes, for there are others whom have lost their ability.
Looking for a little more longevity.
And, have more need.
Need to move forward with new Life.
New Seed
You see God?
Yes for that's what I now must do.
I shall do now indeed.
Amen.

*****

"My Blue Heaven" (B)
Written on November 26th, 2022
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

It's been now over Eighteen, long, years.
Unfortunately I left behind so many mixed feelings and wat to many tears.
Yes, but I finally arrived back.
Back to my home where I shall now forever reside.
Even though below, I had died but not inside.
...
Back home you see?
In Heaven indeed!
And, with the many Angels in Heaven Above!
For this is where I first got my beginning.
From the God we so much Love above!
And, this is where I first learned how to give Everlasting Love!
...
I was given this body and a second chance with His Holy Blessedness!
And, then I passed through.
Through, "The Veil of Forgetfulness"
But now I remember all you see?
For when He calls that's what Angels shall do.
Understand?
And yes, He's waiting ever patiently for you!
...
Yes, for that's what Angels do.
And, when it's our time and our mission is completed.
We come back above to a place of
"Pure Love!"
....
This is my Blue Heaven!
Where the clouds are Beautiful in Blue and fluffy White!
Indeed we sleep well each and every night!
And, there's a Heavenly fountain to fulfill all our needs.
Perhaps soon you will join me?
Join me when it's your time of need?

Author Notes

Note: On March 31st, 2003. And, because of the results of a terrible car accident. My family and I decided to donate my son Jason's organs to save four others. ... To learn more about this process of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Sarah Christian" Sarah's Incredible Picture Entitled, "My Blue Heaven"

Chapter 48
The Disappearance Within Me?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"The Disappearance Within Me?
Written on December 1st, 2022
By Richard Smrkovsky and ???
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

"To Give tis a Noble, and most Compassionate, Gift but to give without expecting a reward; tis a Most Blessing indeed"
Unknown Poet (me)
...
The race is on now and Time is the enemy.
*Fast and Furiously!"
Many Lives are counting on this!
And, it is April, April 1st, 2003.
(April Fools Day)
And, any Fool now knows how important, important this day shall be!
Especially me with those many, many, tears now coming down from my eyes.
. ..
Now, Sometimes the Road is Long, as Weary, for a man on a mission.
A mission where the outcome is a Two-edged sword.
The One side cuts deep into my now Bursting and Broken Heart.
While the other Cuts a Swath for New Life!
...
When I first came to know Chaz.
This amazing and older man from Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.
Twas but a simple letter of thanks.
Gratitude speaking but of my Pain for the loss of a son.
The compassion I felt welled up in my eyes, as I came to realize.
Realize the now sense in all of this insanity.
No mention of his pain for having his chest opened and a New set of Lungs, along with a New Heart carefully planted inside.
A Seed of New Life.
...
'Dad I'm so scared and can't even remember my own name?'
'And, I can no longer see but darkness surrounding me?'
...
Note: Seventeen hours hath passed since the automobile accident and my Only Son.
Yes, and the soul passenger.
Unfortunately, was declared not only deceased by the State of New Jersey but also, and unfortunately,
"Brain-Dead"
...
Following this letter was another a short time later from a man named Bill.
Bill lived somewhere out West and had but one and only one request.
Bill was counting the days but not to live?
Yes, but to only die from his misery.
As he did pray to God to save.
Save his life with but a Human Kidney.
Not only did and was the prayer answered but not by his wife.
His wife that was divorcing him and counting on the Insurance money.
Money not only would she never see.
As Bill now divorced she!
And, most fortunately, he now was living and being cared for by his Princess.
His only daughter.
...
'Dad I can feel...
'Feel this strange feeling...
'Feeling that I'm rising?'
...
Another man from Philadelphia, whom would never write a thank you letter but that was okay.
You see Received from the "Giver" a well needed Human Liver.
Yes, but whom would be that "Giver"
The "Giver" of more than Eight?
Yes, Eight precious.
Precious more years of Life?
...
Now the last recipient.
Yes, I'm saving for last was another unknown person.
And yes, to never write or return a letter.
This little girl from my state of New Jersey.
And, also South Jersey.
...
Now at just a child.
Her family was depending and praying for a Miracle.
A Blessing in the name of Jesus Christ.
And, obviously of course the left kidney.
Yes!
...
And, it was Christmas also in April!
Yes, for all four fortunate beings! Firstly, from Chaz receiving the Precious Heart and Set of Lungs.
Yes, and lastly to this little girl.
This girl of only at age eight.
Waiting patiently for New Life to begin.
And, As for "The Disappearance Within Me?"
You reviewers just need to continue to read!

Author Notes

*Fast and Furiously: Adjective Note: This is how the driver, Brian Cole; drove a Ford Mustang that was at one point professionally raced at Atco Raceway in Atco New Jersey.i Into a telephone pole at over 100 miles an hour. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organs Graciously offered to save four Human beings on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... To learn more about this Amazing program of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... "And, the Beat Goes On!" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented artist, 'memephotos' And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Gift of Life"

Chapter 49
Stepping Out Into Reality (A)

By Ricky1024

"Stepping Out Into Reality" (A)
Written on July 24th, 2022
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright ©� Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Yes, I'm now Stepping Out of Reality into Another World.
Where life, as I know it?
Tis now left completely behind.
Forget about me?
"The Old Me"
Welcome now!
This New and More Glorious Me!
...
Yes, I'm now Stepping Out and moving upward.
Above, where there is always "Satisfaction of Total Love"
And, things are much more Calm snd Peaceful here.
...
See, all the vital hues?
Hues of Green, White, Red, and Blue?
Yes, All the Colours of the Rainbow.
For now Me and You!
Why?
...
Because like me?
You too just died.

****

"Stepping In and Out of Reality" (B)
Written on July 24th, 2022
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky

I just don't believe.
Believe in "Sunny Days and Sun Set Days"
"Moon's Glow"
Stars, you know?
...
Eye live and exist "On God's Nectar"
Reflections.
Now from "The Protector"
(Cany you see?)
"Stepping in and Out of Reality?"
...
Yes, I now live in a World where there is no more "Crystal Clarity"
Trapped as if held, held Hostage.
Hostage in a "Glasstein Jar "
Way far, afar.
Where "Glasstein Clouds"
Drift over and comfort me.
As my coffins lid opens in
"Greenwood Cemetery"
...
And yes, this is "Death"
When somehow and someone takes away Your, Very, Last, Breath.
And, there's no need to now cry or even "Shed A Tear"
Why?
Simply because "The Best of Me"
Is
No
Longer
*Here.

Author Notes

*Here: Note: Kason Richards offficial New Jersey State Death? March 31st, 2003. ... But according to Reality? April, 1st, 2003 (April Fool's Day) Was and still is the day. The day that I gave my son away. ... And, to learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist, 'avmurray' And, Her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Another Word II"

Chapter 50
The Fountain of Desire

By Ricky1024

"The Fountain of Desire"
Written on December 6th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Come now either me to place where we will see?
See something so very Special.
Special indeed!
And, it will fulfill your every needs.
...
Now in this Very, Special, Place.
Place of divinity.
You will experience and experience beyond Human Reality.
Yes, as you now can enjoy chance to quench.
Quench your thirst and Emburst!
...
Now, this is not rehearsed, as each drop replenishes.
Replenishes the pores.
Yes, with Beauty and Enrichment.
To tell you the truth.
As you now realize.
"The Fountain of Youth"

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented artist, 'simoka' His Incredible and Beautiful Picture Entitled, "Splach"

Chapter 51
This Poem is for You

By Ricky1024

"This Poem is for You"
Written from My Broken Heart
December 15th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ©� Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Eye am nothing without you.
Most days I still try hopelessly without you.
My Love has never left and it never will even without you...
...
Yes, the Sun still shines and the Moon still glows but without you.
Only God knows.
I am nothing but can never stop thinking, these old eyes so, so, clogged with tears
Hardly even blinking after all these many years...
...
It 3:27 AM.and this will never be written with a pen.
But with the My blood I now bleed.
To give presence to your deed...
....
My body no longer wants to live.
Yes, but Son you have taught me that there is still toi much work.
Work to be done indeed...
...
I only still exist and I must now insist...
To make you proud of me.
I'm moving the Mountains and refilling the Seas and it will never stop.
Stop as long as this Broken Heart still beats...
...
So, another Holiday Season without you.
Yes, will come and go.
And, I now know in your Heart, you wish it wasn't so...
...
I'm getting closer and soon after almost Twenty long years.
I will keep that promise...
That promise to you my dear.
Yes, even when you were Brain-Dead I knew you could still hear...
...
That as long as there is still a breath within me.
That as long as this Heart continues to beat...
And, only God knows...
Yes indeed.
Nobody will ever forget that most *Noble Deed

Author Notes

*Nobel Deed: noun 1. It's getting hard to describe exactly what a noble deed could be indeed but it's the sacrifice selflessly. And, to give all of you So, others could still live. ... Happy and Merry Christmas to Chaz, Bill, and an Unknown. ( now grown woman from South Jersey) Whom have discovered that the "Golden Fleece" Actually still does exist! Whom since April 1st, 2003. Have had the opportunity of "New Life" Now over Nineteen years. ... And, to learn more about this Amazing process of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's Graciously offered to four Human Beings on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) "And, the Beat Goes On" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Mr.Jones' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "The Golden Fleece"

Chapter 52
Silent Night 2003

By Ricky1024

"Silent Night 2003"
Written on December 27th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

The Autumn leaves left the trees stripped bare.
Not a word to be said nor a chance to even care.
And, now it's the beginning of November.
The leaves stopped falling and seemed to remember.
Remember that horrible March day.
The Day Jay that you went away.
...
Yes, Eye as November came and went in the blink.
"The Blink of an Eye."
Not to think i missed your Birthday.
When Thanksgiving came.
What was there to to be Thankful for?
...
No more colored leaves to be found.
Tree branches drooping down.
Hardly a Star but so far.
Where are you are?
Thankful for?
While my tears filled every crack and poured.
...
The thoughts of Christmas approaching was just to much to share.
Even though sometimes I know in my Broken-Heart Jay.
If possible you would still have loved to be there.
...
But my shame through the seasons would become way to much to bare..
An Unmentionable Burden no parent should dare.
...
Yes, God knows the shame though still remains.
As if a scar burnt and seared so, damn, deep.
Buy God what could I do?
The whole World yez was watching and four waiting now too!
And, if I only had a *Clue?



'

Author Notes

*Clue: noun 1. something that guides through an intricate procedure or maze of difficulties. specifically: a piece of evidence that leads one toward the solution of a problem. 2. IDEA, NOTION "had no clue what he meant" ... *Clue: verb 1. to provide with a clue.. 2. to give reliable information to. "he clued me in on how it happened" ... Note: On March 31st, 2003. My son Jason Richard was unfortunately involved with an old friend. (Brian Cole) A 17-year-old mentally ill driver. Who decided he would take his Ford Mustang for Joyride. Yes, and unfortunately 100 miles an hour purposely into a telephone pole. ... Now as a result and 17 hours later? April 1st, 2003. My son was diagnosed by the state of New Jersey. Yes, as "Brain-Dead" On April Fool's Day 2003. A hard decision had to be made between the family. Me, my deceased wife Carolyn, And, sadly. Jasons four sisters. Yes, so we decided to donate Jason's Heart and lungs.. His kidneys and Liver to save the lives of four hopefully waiting people. Yes, for a second chance at Life. ... To learn more about this Amazing and Incredible Life-giving procedure of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's Graciously offered to four on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist, 'avmurray' Her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Glowing tree"

Chapter 53
The Difference

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"The Difference"
Based on Judy Collins hit song
(Send in the Clowns)
Written on January 10th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ©� Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Isn't it rich and isn't a shame?
Now me so close and you now so far away?
But now baby, I have the key.
Finally yes, and you ran *Away?
Nothing left of us.

But to just pray.
...
Isn't it rich?
Isn't it clear?
You're gone each and every day.
But God, and I'm still here?
Doesn't it seem quite right to live Life.
Each and every day?
...
One moment I laugh?
And, the next moment what come may?
Send in the clowns.
Yes, there's got to be Clowns?
...
Isn't it Rich?
Isn't it Grand?
Me walking alone on the beach.
And not holding your hand?
I still try.
But God for no good reason why?
The day Dear you went away?
Didn't I want to die like you?
...
Isn't it Sad?
Weren't we once a Thing?
Together we created a family.
Yes, soon after the church bells did ring?
But then you took my Love?
And, it still stings.
...
Darling with this Poem.
I need you to now know?
As, Love was all I had left to give?
Tears now continuously Flow.
But I never shared with you.
I did not want to live too.
...
How God can I Ease?
My pain as it Bleeds?
Yes, when she no longer remains?
God I know all these words are driving me insane.
...
Isn't it Rich?
Isn't it Clear?
All those seasons have been taken in all of those lost Years?
Taken away?
Each and every day?
All those Birthdays and all those Holiday's?
...
Let me try as I Can?
Let me try as I May?
But God how can I hide?
Hide and ease the pain.
I feel each and every day?
Yes, in this Broken Heart.
When I know deep down.
Yes, she broke my Heart.
But God, She's no longer a part?
...
Now, isn't it Rich?
Now are we a Pair?
Me here at last on the ground.
But You still in **mid-air?

Author Notes

*Away: It's been 6,988 days since the death of my wife Carolyn. **mid-air: noun 1. a part or section of air above ground level. "She's now lost in mid-air" ... Note on November 23rd, 2003. Unfortunately, only eight months of our dearly beloved son Jason dies from injuries sustained in a horrible car accident. My wife stopped her necessary medication and took her existence away. ... Note: if you know somebody who seriously depressed and possibly suicidal please reach out to the national Suicide hotline at 988 or just simply dial 9-11. ... Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky December 6th, 1952~ November 23rd, 2003. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's graciously offered to four Human Beings on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... To learn more about this amazing program? 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact me or my dearest friend. Lara S ,Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800- DONORS-1. No need for clowns. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer 'cleo85' And, Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Send in the Clowns"

Chapter 54
God Told Me

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"God Told Me"
Written on January 15th, 2023
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Before I was born and before I had a body.
"God Told Me"
When God allowed me to be born and with a body.
"God Told Me"
As a small child.
And,still not fully capable of taking care of myself.
"God Told Me"
You told me to say these two words in my diaper.
'Holy Crackle"
...
And, As I grew into a strong young man.
God would tell me Many, Many, more words and things to understand.
He would tell me to honor my father and mother, along with my four sisters.
He would tell me to Dream and Dream some more.
Dream the most Beautiful Dreams now too.
That one day God again told me.
That all my Dreams would all come true.
"God Told Me"
...
He told me that you have musical talents.
He told me that you can work well with your hands.
He told me to play the Drums, the Key Board, and he told my father too!
So, now as only a young man.
Yes, I did exactly what He told me to do.
And, even started my own band!
Why?
God Told Me Too"
...
And, after I was now grown man.
And, at about 250 lbs.
And, after I was more than age Eighteen.
(if you know what I mean?)
And, after I was well on my way to achieving all my childhood dreams.
Childhood Hopes and Dreams.
Yes, again He did exactly that.
"God Told Me"
...
And, lastly coming back from my oldest sister Nicole's birthday party .
Yes, and on March 31st, 2003.
God would tell me more things.
Yes, more things that would be most important..
Most important to only me!
...
He told me to leave the party and get into the car.
A car at one point driven professionally.
A car at one point driven professionally Atco RaceWay and Atco, New Jersey.
Yes, purposely get into that Ford Mustang.
Ford Convertible as it would approach.
Purposely approach and into a telephone pole.
Yes, at over 100 miles an hour.
...
And he told me.
Yes, and then the driver and childhood friend too.
Brian Cole then told my baby sister Dana Alyse to get into the car too.
God told me then what to do!
Why?
"God Told Me"
...
So I obeyed and as He told me.
Now to tell my baby sister.
My baby sister Dana Alyse too.
...
To not ride with me this fatal day.
Because there was many people who and on that day.
On that day they would pray.
Yes, and Pray for a Miracle that day!
...
Yes, but for her to ride instead.
Instead with your older sister Kyle Erin.
And his fiance Fred Drum.
And, your youngest niece Sasha Lynn Drum too.
And God knows.
God knew Knows I would do exactly what He would want me to!
...
God told me that that car would crash and it be completely destroyed and Smashed!
Destroyed now today.
God told me on April Fool's Day.
That my parents and family would want to give me away.
...
Yes give me a way for four people that sad but most Incredible day.
Whom were waiting just for me.
He even in the future would mention it to my family!
Yes, give me away because others now needed me more.
More that Sad, Sad, but now Amazing day!
"God Told Me Too....

And, now going on almost Twenty years later....
I still do exactly what God.
"God Told Me Too"
...
But not below anymore.
Yes, but now above!
Yes, for this is what God's Angels now must do.
Why?
Well simply because...
God Told Me"
Told me that Sad, Sad, day.
That the Angels tears would guide me and show me the *Way!

Author Notes

*Way: noun /way/ 1. a message style or manner of doing something. "There are two ways of approaching this problem" The first way is to no matter how hard except the loss of your only son. And of course the second way? ... To learn more about this amazing program? 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact me or my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's graciously offered to four Human Beings on April 1st, 2003 (April Fool's Day) "And, the Beat Still Goes On To This Very Day!" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85' Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Boys are Boys"

Chapter 55
Recaptured Soul

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Recaptured Soul"
Written on January 16th, 2023
By Father and Son
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

When I was first born.
I knew in my.
"Heart of Hearts"
Yes that there was a reason.
Yes a reason to Live.
Yes a reason to breathe.
Yes, and the reason to be me!
And only me.
...
Now many years later.
When I was grown into a young man.
God allowed me to understand.
Yes, to be and to Love.
Yes to be, to love, and be.
Yes, a loving and understanding man.
...
Yes, with just a few Gifts that He gave to me.
And, yes!
As He showed me and gave me the ability.
The ability to Love with Compassion.
To Hope and also to Dream.
To Dream with Faith instilled.
I am as I am.
Unique and always till.
...
Then one fine day.
God decided that there would be.
That there would finally be.
Be a more and better reason.
Yes for me to be.
To then be?
Or not to Be?
Was never a question.
...
So, yes on March 31st, 2003.
He wrapped His Loving arms.
Yes, His Loving arms around just me!
You see just me to protect me!
Yes, as I would be propelled into
a telephone pole.
Telephone pole unfortunately and at over 100 miles an hour.
..
Yes, and as a passenger driven by a past childhood friend.
We all need to understand.
Understand that he was mentally ill and not in control.
...
Brian Cole had a purpose too.
And, this "Fast and Furious"
Event would not do!
But would bring a brunt conclusion.
Yes, brunt but not to a bitter End.
...
In closing, so yes.
I am long gone.
Long gone as the breeze in the trees with a sweet song.
Long gone but my music Still carries on!
And yes!.
Music and also being an auto mechanic was my quest.
And, Even though I was comatose and eventually diagnosed and confirmed by the state of New Jersey.
"Brain-Dead"
...
And yes!
My new Fanstorian friends.
THIS was my Destiny!
THIS was at His request!
And yes.
To continue to do.
(and now in others too!
My Very, Very, Best!
...
And even though I was also diagnosed in a Deep Coma.
*Raccooned too.
But my Heavenly Father told me!
Yes, and told me to hold true!
Yes, so this is not the End of Sad, Sad Story.
And, but a Childhood Dream.
Nor a short or a long poem indeed.
For God told me to stay, stand, tow the line.
That I'm in for the long haul and the distance is so Damned Devine!
Approximate Word Count: 578
And, He is now with me.
And, your God is with you too!
And, maybe perhaps one day.
He'll protect and wrap His Loving arms around you?
But now we need to realize there is a greater purpose.
A good reason for not just me but also now for you.

Author Notes

*Raccooned: Adjective /rac.coon.ned/ 1) this is how my son looked after the accident. His eyes were swollen closed. Black and blue as if he had been in a prize fight. Rocky vs.Clobber Lane! But my son Jason is not just a Prize nor just a Gift of Life. For my Son Jason Richard Smrkovsky is a Prime Example. That there is life after death! And, my son Jason. Who I decided to name him in 1962. Yes, as an 8-year-old child myself. Amazed in the balcony of the Pitman movie theater. While watching the movie Entitled, "Jason and the Argonauts! ... A fictional Greek hero in search of redemption for the death of a person.. Little did he know that my son always has and always will be. "The Golden Fleece!" ... Note: To learn more about this Amazing program and process? 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1 Thanks, 24. Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer 'cleo85' Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Calling the Past"

Chapter 56
Reflections Past

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Reflections Past"
Written on February 4th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved''

Reflections on mirrored glass, thoughts and images.
Long, Long, now past.
Eight by Tens aligned in such a way.
My Beautiful Flowers out to play.
...
Music on my stereo, sterile Peaceful Happiness of laughs
Dear Lord God.
Why so long, gone, past?
...
Shedded very few tears and only of Joy.
My four Beautiful girls and Only One, Single boy.
...
Reflections appear on mirrored glass, thoughts disappeared.
God, thought it would *Last?

Author Notes

*Last: adjective /last/ 1. coming after all others in time; or order. "they caught the last bus" Similar: rearmost, rear, hindmost. 2.most recent in time; past. "last rear" Similar: previous, preceding, latest. adverb: 1. on the last occasion before the present; previously. "he looked much older then when I last seen him" 2. after all others in order of sequence. "the two last mentioned classes. Noun: the last person or thing; the one occuring mentioned, or acting after all others. "Brian decided to take the dare and purposely drive the car into a telephone pole. ... Note: On March 31st, 2003 and around:8:00PM. Brian Cole decided it was time to take that dare and, "Fast and Furiously" Drive his Ford Mustang Race Car into a telephone pole at over 100 MPH. ... Why God, did this have to Happen to me? Me, my family, my only son Jay? Because sometimes on slide, that's the only way. ... To learn more about the miracle of 'Organ -Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L. S.W. with "The Gift of Life!' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5yh, 1984~ March 31dt, 2003. Organ's Graciously donated to the four on April 1st, 2003 (April Fool's Day) "And, the Beat Continues On" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Artistsushma' Their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Reflections"

Chapter 57
Gently I Will Love (A)

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Gently I Will Love" (A)
Written on February 4th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Gently I Will Love Only Thee.
I'm waiting now patiently.
Yes to finally again See?
Yes see your childish grin.
Yes that I so much want to again, bathe in.
Yes to hear your voice after almost twenty, long, years, of "Endless Tears"
...
Yes to feel your gentle touch that God, I miss so Very, Very, much.
Yes again to watch you Breathe.
Yes on your own again.
God, I surely can Believe?
...
Believe that all my past Miseries and all my past Pains?
Will finally and forever wash do own a drain?
And, God finally with Great Anticipation?
Yes in Heaven Above.
I will finally emerse myself.
"Gently I Will Love"


****

"I Will Fix U" (B)
Written on February 4th, 2023
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

When you feel like Life is getting you down?
And no where on Earth can you heat a single sound?
When your Tears have no meaning and you just don't care?
...
When the Darkness surrounds you and your so Damned Scared?
When you run and hide but there's nobody there?
...
When the Sun is shining but no warmth shall bare?
When the Moon's Glow is fading and the Stars are out of reach?
...
The Oceans Waves no longer touch the shores?
And no one seems to care anymore?
But Jesus Christ knows your still there.
And, though your Time is few we both still care.
And, finally, when your Time Comes Due?
"I Will Fix *You"

Author Notes

*You: pronoun /you/ 1. the one or ones being addressed>used as the pronoun of the second person singular or plural in any grammatical relation except that of a possessive. "you may sit in that chair" >used formally only as a plural pronoun of the second person in the dative accusative case as direct or indirect object of a verb or as object of a preposition. >Compare: Thee, Thou, Ye, Your, Yours 1.One Sense 2 a. "after a while it grows on you" ... Note: After a horrible accident on March 31st, 2003. After 17 hours of watching my only son Jason's brains oxygen go to zero. After Endless tears, a decision was made. And after all those long ago years. ... To learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ -Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. 1. One sense 2a. "after a while it grows in you" Note: After about ten years, Jason's Organs were completely accepted with no need for anti-rejection medications. "And, the Beat Still Goes Onto this Very Day!" ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organs Graciously donated to the "Four" on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ Fanstory and Tom the Administrator Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'Dr.Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Carolyn Ann and Dana Alyse"

Chapter 58
To Whom the Bell Tolls?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"To Whom the Bell Tolls?"
Written on February 6th, 2023
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright ©� Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Broken Heart Strings.
Harps of Angels no longer sing?
Total collapse.
God, somethings going wrong?
Lost my music play me a song?
...
Darkness permeates the Sin.
God lost my way.
Well, might as well just jump in?
Stripped of the body coughing up and slipping on my own blood.
Ford Mustang at 100 mph into the damned telephone pole.
"Tears of Emotional Flood"
...
Broken Heart Strings.
Harps of Angels in the *Spring.
Total collapse.
Searching but God now some things finally going right?
Well then I guess I'll sleep fairly well.
Forever and ever through the **Night

Author Notes

*Spring: noun /spring/ 1. one of the four seasons including Summer, Fall, and Winter. Note: spring was the season at the end of March when the accident happened. ... **Night:noun /night/ 1. the time from dusk to dawn when no sunlight is visible. "After Jason's accident I cried each and every night" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'nikman' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Bell Towers"

Chapter 59
Saturday (Anniversary)

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Saturday (Anniversary)"
Memoriam
Written on February 11th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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Today is Saturday February 11th 2023 40 years ago.
I would start my Journey.
My Journey of Holy. Matrimony with my wife to be.
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky.
Note: This would not have been my first but unfortunately, my last choice
...
"Until Death Do Us Part"
Strong wedded words vows that are considered customary that must be taken in an American marriage.
"I Will Honor, Protect, Nurture, Provide and offer UnEnding Love"
"Till Death Do Us Part?"
...
Note: Most marriages today.
Hardly even see the light of day.
But why Dear Lord God, why??
Opposites attract?
Male and female geodes?
There never would be argumental issues and when you get the gest of this and all the issues?
Unfortunately, you'll need a box of Kleenex tissues.
...
A fractured Soul with no place to go.
And searching desperately for some kind of relief?
Within this Latter-day Saint Priest.
But you see?
No matter how hard I tried?
No matter how hard I cried?
No matter the family that we would grow together.
Unfortunately nothing will last forever.
...
They say opposites attract?
Perhaps in some cases?
Opposites instead attack?
Her first marriage failed miserably for his love was not for the family.
Nicole Megan Harbach Kyle Erin Harbach.
Nor for his wife to be Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach.
...
Instead, his mission was perfectly clear to continue drinking and continue piercing his skin!
Shedding his inhibitions, desperately and foolishly tempting to take his own life.
But along the way and that day?
...
Michael Harbach AKA "Archie"
Was a Russian born addict 6 ft. 7 in and Hell bent on his and his family's destruction.
...
Little did I know that on that blind date way back in 1983.
I would not be dancing with Carolyn but instead with the devil himself!
...
I never figured after all the visits she made with the two children and the shopping cart.
Yes, in the Foodtown I had worked for an UnEventful 36 years.
That's something horrible was about to appear!
And that something would have to be done unfortunately.

****

Yes, there was no escape.
But now she was creating something wonderful within me!
I used to call her the "Baby Maker"
And would slowly watch her babies grow right in that shopping cart seat!
...
They say opposites attract?
And, yes there would be for Carolyn and me.
(On a blind date)
Unfortunately, I was coming off my first of three nervous breakdowns.
But would I be prepared for this opportunity?
God, would I be prepared for this test?
God, would I be able to do my very best?
...
Because on that Eventful October day?
He would come to now my town and find her with me
Hell bent on revenge for her running away.
I still remember his drunken face at the bottom of the stairs that long ago day.
I still remember his words.
His words of hate that he was going to kill me and beat the Hell out of her!
The only problem you see?
Yes, there was now me!
...
But I would have nothing.
Absolutely nothing to do with that!
I told him if he had the courage to climb those steps with his lanky 6 ft 7-in body.
I would pick him up over my head.
I would crack his back over my knee.
And, throw his nasty carcass over the railing to the rats below!
...
It's funny how God works in mysterious ways.
Because there would not be anymore hiding or running away for she!
There would be two more trips to Disney World to come.
Yes, and in the following year to come.
I would spend $1,000 to divorce her from him.
...
Now all alone.
He had nobody to put on the show.
Don't you know?
And, especially his family that used to be for only he.
So, he found God, cleaned his act, and even started speaking at the local Catholic Church on a dangers of addiction.
Note: Michael Harbach would die from pancreatic cancer about 20 years later.

****

Yes, we would be married and there would be a total of three trips to Walt Disney World.
And experience Walt Disney's wonderful magic!
Three trips to Port Orange, Florida to see my mother.
And three children to be created in 1983, 1984, and 1985.
Corrine Alexis, Jason Richard, and Dana Alyse Smrkovsky.

****

Note: Four years after graduating high school 1978.
And now four years later at age 24.
I paid off the mortgage, paid off my mother and owned the house.
And, the house would be waiting, as another four years would pass.
And, I would be married at age 28.
...
By the end of 1985.
I will put an addition to the house and purchase a1985 Volkswagen Vanagon.
As now the 1982 Chevrolet Citation was way too small.
...
But even with all of that?
Sometimes things still will go terribly wrong.
No more would there be a Sweet, Sweet, Disney song?
Because in every Disney movie there has to be a death.
But also a happy ending?

****

There would be no more trips to Port Orange to see Mom. No more trips to Orlando and experienced a Walt Disney's magic Kingdom.
And, finally, after all the many years that has passed and on my 39th Anniversary.
...
Note: On March 31st, 2003.
Our only son Jason Richard.
Our only 18-year-old whom would never graduate high school.
Whom would never become an auto mechanic or even go into vocational school.
He would never even finish his band nor create another sound.
"Four Ways to Save"
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky was involved in a horrible car accident.
(As a passenger in the Ford Mustang)
.
As his past childhood friend.
Brian Cole was Hell Bent on destroying himself.
Yes, and also taking Jason for a ride into a telephone pole at over 100 miles an hour.
...
Seventeen hours later.
My son Jason will be diagnosed by the state of New Jersey.
"Brain-Dead"
He was in a comatose state of vegetation, also severely raccooned.
As if he was in a prize, fight with his eyes swollen and completely closed.
With spinal fluid slowly coming out of his ears.
...
And unfortunately less than Eight months later.
On November 23rd, 2003.
After almost 20 years of marriage.
My wife Carolyn Ann would commit suicide.
...
They say there is a Silver Lining on a Dark and cloudy day.
They say God has a good reason for all things.
And, I say these words are true.
And, I want you to know that now too.
...
To learn more about the wonderful process of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend,
Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life!"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1.
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1985~
March 31st, 2003.
Organs Graciously donated to the "Four"
On April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
...
Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky
December 6th, 1952~
November 23rd, 2003.
...
Note: If you know somebody who is severely depressed contemplating suicide, please call the National Suicide Hotline at 988.
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Approximate Word Count: 1314

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, Dr. Ricky 1024' And, my Incredible Picture Entitled, "Jason Richard Smrkovsky" (Age Five)

Chapter 60
Remembrance 2003

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Remembrance 2003"
Written on February 22nd, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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Time Embraces Chance.
Chance Romances Time.
One-Note-At-A-Time.
Stinging Needs
Buzzing Bees.
Autumn's Leaves.
...
Memories Aligned Perfectly.
Perfectly Aligned Memories
Eight by Tens.
Captured Spirits
Lost and find?
Moments now Tease.
As Autumn Leaves falling.
...
Seasons Change Holidays Gone.
Gone Holidays Change Seasons.
All day and night long.
No longer any notes to the song.
Where do I belong?
...
Long Nights and Gone Days.
Winters Ring brings?
Coldened Hazr of Glaze.
All now Simply Freeze.
Fallen Trees.
No more Autumn *Leaves.
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Author Notes

*Leaves: noun /livz/ 1. the plural of leaf 2. "leaves fall from God's many trees" ... Fallen: verb /faw-luhn/ 1. Past participle of fall. Fallen: adjective: 1. having dropped or come down from a higher place, from an upright position, or from a higher level, degree, amount, quality, value, number, ect. ... Note: On March 31st, 2003 Due to and shortly after a horrible automobile accident. My Only Son Jason; an Angel whom had now just fallen. And, on April 1st, 2003. My Fallen Angel Jason; whom God wrapped His Loving Arms around. him, took him back home where he belonged. And, to learn more about this Incredible. As well as, Amazing Miracle of Life giving 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'suzannethompson2' And, Suzanne's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Remembrance"

Chapter 61
Triolet of ABC

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Triolet of ABC"
Written on February 22nd, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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"March 1st, 2003" (A)
By Doctor Ricky 1024

This beginning will slowly begin the Eradication and constant erosion, it's and erasure of me.
The month of March is my Nemesis with her Unholy kiss.
I try my best to resist but she ever comes for me.
And with her Sadistic Beauty.
...
A Darkness visits me now when I make an attempt to sleep.
With her firm Grasp, she takes my hand in her claws and I'm at her command.
To her demands.
And then unfortunately, I'm back there again!
..
The Noise God?
The Damned NOISE!
It's still haunts me to this very day.
The sound of a vehicle propelled at over 100 mph into a telephone pole.
Yes, will affect you that way.
...
Yes that was back but when I'm trying my best .
Nightmarish screams, await my Dreams?
Forever trapped at the bottom.
The bottom of my Mortality.
...
God, as I search out for some form of Higher Humanity?
But don't You see for me?
Yes, it's always and ever the same.
Ridiculously and hideously trapped and forever playing.
"Miss March's *Game!"

"March 31st, 2003" (B)
By Doctor Ricky 1024

God, I still vividly remember that Sad but necessary Day.
Today my Only Son Jay had to go away.
Home for a short stay.
As I settled in.
Had no idea when I turned the computer on?
That it wouldn't be playing the game of chess.
Yes, but playing a game of Sin!
I should have known?
And what I crumble?
Yes, and when I die?
...
Yes, to he computers set on chessnet.com.
Didn't I deserve a little fun?
God, after a long day at work.
But with the movement of just a single pawn.
Eye was now that pawn and would soon not belong.
The song, God the song!
Yes, with linger on.
...
BANG!
The car hitting the curve first and then propelled.
BANG!!
Propelled into the telephone pole.
BANG!!!
Now even louder, as the Ford Mustang settles to the street below.
Not with some Bit in it's mouth but a message!
There's Hell to pay?
(Don't you now know?)
Don't you know and can't you see?
...
See the shards of shredded glass from the windshield?
Coating, coating, the lawn and street below.
It should be now all over me!
(Now don't you know?)
My head instead?
Should have took the blow and not my Only Son.
But God.
...
How Fate has a funny way?
A funny way to present a Present to Destiny that day.
And, see the presenting itself?
Itself in Death?
Yes should instead have been me.

****

The call came in quicker than my Drunken King trapped by a wall of sloppy Liquor!
'You had better get over here!'
She said.
...
Unfortunately, the call came in and these were the words I would soon hear.
'Jason's been in a horrible accident on Nautilus Avenue!'
Stated my daughter Kyle Erin.
...
Yes in this UnGodly Mess of Distress.
Kyle gave the exact location.
But My Dear God, I already knew.
I soon would fail my job.
And, in my now Broken Heart.
This was a Nightmare.
A Neverending Nightmare from Hell?
Yes, and begun from the start.
But not my Only Son Jay?
No Way?
God, I already knew it was bad!
This now is inherently MAD!

"April 1st, 2003"
(April Fool's Day)
By Doctor Ricky 1024

"As Time Drifts slowly in Turbulant motion, Sensing the change; Rearranging the Rearranged; in Spare Change"
Unknown Poet.
...
It's funny when you know you've arrived, but your body hasn't nor your Mind?
When suddenly there's a shock and a spark!
Deep in your Heart but it's something that you never want to again feel, nor see, or impart.
"In this Sea of Non-Reality"
...
After realizing that I would be in for the long haul, unfortunately my son wasn't just unconscious.
God, He just looked like a Angel sleeping?
Something much more than that was going through Jason and my Mind.
What's the Grim Reaper doing now?
Creeping?

****

Note: After the proper people arrived, the fire company too, decided to get involved in an unusual way.
They first draped my only child.
As the second fireman smashed the window with the ax in his hand?
Understand?
...
Together they pulled Jason out and loaded him on a gurney.
Yes, to be eventually taken away by helicopter
Now this part you need to understand!
....
I then screamed out this word.
"Jason!"
(As if on some eerie command)
And, with no response?
Holding back the Tears.
God is this all that's left after 18 years?
How could I cry?
But on March 31st, 2003 at 8:30 p.m. instead?
I died.
...
They next extracted the driver Brian Cole, who was pinned.
Yes, as he should be.
(But with little pain)
And with the wheel firmly planted against his chest.
...
Yes, complaining about himself.
And God, caring less about what he had done?
Unimaginable.

Perhaps it would have been easier if this mentally ill 17-year-old had a gun?
So, they used the "Jaws of Life"
But what about my son's life?
..
As we raced down the Garden State Parkway, as the helicopter was heading in the same way.
My 18-year-old and only son Jason would have a Heart Attack on the way!
By fortunately bring him back that day!
...
On arrival, I realized that I had no more family insurance.
Yes, since my Cruel employer decided that was the way.
But it wouldn't make any difference on the outcome of this sad day.
...
My wife and I were led into a room with pictures decorating the wall.
They were black and white x-rayed pictures of my son's brain!
I told you this would be insane!
...
The head nurse stated that it was the worst she had seen in her 10-year career.
It gave us very little Hope.
...
We were then instructed to watch the blood oxygen level of our child?
And that's what we would do for the next 17 hours.
17 hours in and out of that room in tears.
Raccooned and on a coma.
17 hours I had to come back in again.
17 hours I had to leave again!
Umbilical fluid coming out of his ear!
Dear God, can you hear?
17 hours of Tears and Fear!
In this 2003 year.

****

I knew It was getting serious when we were asked to leave the room.
They had brought a surgeon in to perform a procedure.
They would drill into my son's skull to relieve the pressure.
...
God, Is this way it was supposed to be?
When I found out my wife Carolyn was pregnant with a son way back in 1983 .
I was so happy that there soon would soon be.
Yes, a brand new baby?
...
And yes, there is a Moral to this story.
And in all it's Sadness but in all it's Glory.
I might have lost the game of chess.
A pawn can barely ever defeat a King.
But on that April Fool's Day
There was something much more important you see?
Because Life is more than just a game.
And they're definitely is Life after **Death!
.

Author Notes

*Miss March's Game: Note: March represents a month of death. "Et tu Brute" (The death of Caesar) ... **Death: noun /death/ The irreversible cessation of all vital functions especially as indicated by permanent stoppage of the heart, respiration, and brain activity. ... To learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th,1984~ March 31st,2003. Organ's Graciously donated to the "Fortunate Four" on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) "And, the Beat Goes On1" Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer 'cleo85' Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Sugar Plum Fairy"

Chapter 62
Negative to Positive

By Ricky1024

"Negative to Positive"
Written on February 24th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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Negative to Positive.
Positive to Negative?
Let's journey down the
"Leg-a-tive?"
...
Take Eighteen years of Lost Life.
Had a bit of Strife.
Throw in a Ford Mustang convertible.
And a 17-year-old mentally ill driver named Brian Cole.
Now provide a massive telephone pole.
100 mph!
BANG!
Strike it twice!
(Not very nice?)
Shaken not stirred!
Now break it, but don't forsake it!
...
Allow 17 hours of Tears and Fears.
God, why all those wasted years?
Had a bit of sugar and spice.
And, now possibly everything nice?
Coated with a lot of Love and Tenderness.
Love from above!
...
Separate, Sectionate, Reestablish the Negative to Positive.
Positively and Surgically Divine.
One Organ at a time!
From Strife finally to *Life!

Author Notes

*Life: noun /life/ 1. the period between birth and death, or the period or state of being alive: "Life's too short to worry about money!" "I'm not sure I want to spend the rest of my life with him" "God, decided to take my life and save others" ... Note: On March 31st, 2003. And, unfortunately after a horrible car accident on Nautilus Avenue. My Only 18-year-old son Jason. And, only Seventeen hours later. April 1st, 2003 was diagnosed Brain-Dead by the State of New Jersey. As a result, we offered Jays organs to save Four Lives. ... To learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800- DONORS-1 ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'Dr.Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Just an Angel"

Chapter 63
With a Sprinkle of Imagination

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"With But a Sprinkle of Imagination"
Written on March 12th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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'All Rights Reserved'

"All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them."
Walt Disney
...
Once Upon a Time.
I too had a dream.
And like all little boys and young men they become influenced by something that was incredible.
That was impossible to be?
...
1962.
I went into a movie theater by myself and up to the very top balcony.
To watch an Incredible movie entitled,
"Jason and the Argonauts."
At only Eight years old.
I was very impressionable and I was very, very, impressed!
...
The movie was using the technology of the time. Entitled, "Claymation"
With each and every scene.
It would have to be reconstructed to an infinite degree.
And, then moved in pose again.
Until an infinite degree was achieved.
Yes, to finally put the Special effects to Life!
...
But I saw something that impressed me.
Besides that, a Greek fictional hero in search of "The Golden Fleece."
(To say the least )
The Gift of Life!
...
"It's kind of fun to do the impossible."
Walt Disney
...
1984
Now let's move ahead about two decades to the age now of 28 years old.
I now had achieved my partial Dream to be married and have a start a family.
...
"The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing."
Walt Disney
...
The next Almost 20 years.
That's what I had been doing for almost 36 years.
At the age of only sixteen.
I had started working in the supermarket industry.
Building myself up from a box boy and shopping cart collector.
To a frozen food manager, grocery manager and eventually assisted and store manager.
...
"The real trouble with the world."
"Too many people grew up."
Walt Disney

****

At the age of only 24, I
I had owned my house without a single following mortgage payment.
I then purchased a brand new 1982 Chevrolet Citation with cash.
My CDs in the bank were bringing in 15 and 1/2% interest.
...
"If you can dream it then you can do it."
Walt Disney
...
Yes I had my dream and yes my dream had come true!
I had now the career.
I had now the house and car.
I had now the family.
But there may have been something missing?
...
"When you believe in a thing believe it all the way. Implicitly and unquestionable."
...
Now we have to move ahead unfortunately till March 31st, 2003.
This would be the turning point in my Life.
This would be what it took to break me but then make me?
...
Because my Greek fictional hero and Argonaut and only son, Jason.
After a horrible car accident and eventually bring dead.
Would unfortunately turn the last and almost final page in his "Book of Life.
Because Seventeen hours later on April 1st, 2003.
My son for Eighteen years would now belong to more than just my family and me.
Because he is "The Golden Fleece!"
...
Laughter is timeless, imagination has no age, and dreams are forever."
Walt Disney
...
To learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend.
Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life!"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS 1.
...
"With but a Sprinkle of Imagination." "When the Time comes due, all your Dreams will Come True!"
Unknown Poet.
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organ's Graciously donated to the Four on April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
"And, the Beat Goes On!"
Approximate Word Count: 718.

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Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'simonka' Their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Touch of Blue"

Chapter 64
Three Subjected 2 Change?

By Ricky1024

"Three Subjected 2 Change?'
Written on March 13th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

There now are only Three.
Three that still Live.
Three that needed.
Needed someone to Give?
Three that needed someone to Give.
To Give in order to continue to Live.
But that was Twenty years ago.
...
The Summer's Heat came with the Sun's Shine.
Yes, while the Winter's Cold came with the Snow.
So?
Well there were many moments to Feel.
Feel the Sun's Light and Feel the Moon's Glow.
(This you need now to know)
...
All the continued Birthday parties.
And, all those many moments as Gifts.
Christmas Day still exists.
Graduations, new Careers!
Yes, and perhaps more than one baby on the way?
(What more can I say?)
...
Yes, for the Three of Four.
The Three of Four whom have lived the longer.
The Three of Four who have gotten older.
The Three out of Four who have gotten .stronger.

****

They write to me to tell their Stories.
They write to me with their Success than Glories!
A Son now, two Daughters and perhaps even a grandchild or now two?
Yes!
Two now on the Way??
...
The funny thing is how God works in Mysteriously Ways.
Even though my only Son, Jay.
Yes, had to be taking away?
Even though my only wife, Carolyn.
And only Eight months later.
My only wife Carolyn decided to go too.
And, even though my Life.
My Life is still is Bruised and Pained.
No more do I continue to Blame.
Blame myself and live in the Shame.
...
The Sun's still shines and I feel.
Feel and now see the Moon's Glow.
There is Happiness in my Broken Heart God
But God, it still doesn't overflow?
And, I know now deep down inside.
Deep down inside this was a necessary Sacrifice.
And I move forward and on.
...
For Life is something to Nourish.
For Life is something to Nourish.
As well as Cherish.
And, as for the Three?
"Three Subjected 2 Change?"
Well and, I think that they realized.
Yes, that that's s also okay too!
...
Note: In the year of our Lord God 2014.
And, in the Tri-state area of Delaware, Pennsylvania and South Jersey.
Over 4,500 people awaited the gift of life.
I waited the gift of life in the form of a human kidney.
And, unfortunately over 98%.
Yes, finally got to go home but in body bags.
...
To learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend.
Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life!"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'memephotos' 'Their Incredible Picture Entitled, "gift of life"

Chapter 65
Donating Life After Death

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Donating Life After Death"
Written on April 2nd, 2023
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

The Amazing Process of Donating is plain and simple, simply as can be?Just opt to give?
Give up your normal and daily activities.
Now as for me?
Just a matter of going for a simple ride?
...
Yes, a simple ride into a stationary object such as a telephone pole.
Yes, and of course you need to drive.
"Fast and Furious"
A driver with the education of a mouse or mole!
...
Okay, are you still with me?
Doesn't yet bother you a bit?
Because the next part?
The next part is the SHIT!
..

That's right, that okay.
Let's take that ride at 100 MPH.
As sweet as sweet tis soured?
What?
You ran away?
Can't take the Heat?
No Grim Reaper you ever want to meet?
On, " Lonely Street?"
...
Don't want to feel my Pain?
God knows that my dad still takes the Blame!
...
Same Old, Same Old, Game.
In and out and out and in.
Dig now deep, deeper and let the Living again begin!
..
What?
Need a Human Liver?
Well I'll be your Giver!
Now, need a Kidney or Two?
Well I'll be your Huckleberry now too!
...
What?
You need a Heart and a set of Lungs?
Well of course the process hath just begun!
But let's please save these for the very last?
Damn!
God, I wished that death Car had ran out of *Gas!

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'avmurry' Her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Sleeping Beauty"

Chapter 66
Unity'

By Ricky1024

"Unity"
Written on April 3rd, 2023
By Jason nd Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright �©ï¸? Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Unify but divide.
Divide with Unification.
Unification from me to you!
Yes, that's what together we shall do!
...
Simply start with a small piece.
Piece of me.
Yes, my pair of Human kidneys.
Now divide the pair and Unify.
Yes, for there are two in desperate need.
They need something more.
Something more that you just can't buy at the grocery store!
And, if they don't you see?
Tis blind is blind could ever be?
They'll never celebrate another birthday.
...
Wow!
Doc, you're doing well and all right, but there's another still in need?
In need of a Liver from me, the now
"Giver!"
...
Now again carefully Unify and detach.
Why?
Because soon if we don't?
His and her life shall not last!
...
And, last but not in the least?
This is the Hardest part you see?
Yes, because now you need it and from me?
It has to depart.
I shall offer to you Chaz
Yes, my One and Only Heart!
And, along with that my lungs for you to breathe.
...
Finally, now that we're done.
Done yes indeed.
For this is my mission.
My Mission for you to *Succeed!

Author Notes

*Succeed: verb /suc.ceed/ 1. achieve the desired aim or result "Jason can finally rest because he was able to succeed. ... Note: To learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800- DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'Dr.Ricky 1024' His Incredible Picture Entitled, "Just My Jay"

Chapter 67
Pray for My Only Jay

By Ricky1024

"Pray for My Only Jay"
(Knot of Forgot)
Written on April 7th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

I can still remember to this very Day.
14,032 days.
When I was there and My Only Jay?
Yes, I remember when I cut the cord.
Then the whole World.
Yes, the Earth would welcome you aboard!
...
My Only Jay?
Before you're very moment of Birthing and Conception.
Jay, before the first touch?
Touch and beat of your Heart.
...
I can still remember way back in the month of November?
336,653 Hours.

Yes, when finally all my Dreams.
All my waiting, waiting for something?
Yes, when and if somebody?
There would finally be somebody to give to me?
...
Yes, I still remember that passing,
"Ides of March.
To Be or then to Be Knot?
Now as if Past.
Gone but forlorned.
Enclosed tied up in a
"Forget Me Knot of Forgot"
...
Before there was you
Til soon there would be.
You and me.
...
Oh how seldom you would smile.
But when you did your smile would light up the World.
Yes, and all the Earth to see?
...
Yes, I still remember?
Remember to this very day .
My Only Jay.
1 billion.
212 million.
379, thousand
910 seconds.
...
As if wasted now and spent?
And, now only Guilt and Shame.
Tears appear in Endless Rain.
As drifting clouds gather of grey.
Then when I pray.
Pray for My Only Jay.
All that *Remains?

Author Notes

*Remains: verb /re.mains/ 1. continue to exist, especially after other similar or related people or things have ceased to exist. "a cloister is all that remains of the monastery" ... Note: the loss of your child is a father's, worst nightmare. It's the gift that will continue to give and give and give? As long as you continue to live? ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's Graciously donated to the Four on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... To learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. "And, the Beat Goes On!" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer 'cleo85' Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Boys are Boys"

Chapter 68
Angels Appear.

By Ricky1024

"Angels Appear"
(A Dedication for Jay)
Written on April 8th 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Just call me Faith .
A Blessed Being all dressed in a Beautiful Gown of pure White.
And, she's trying her best this fluttering delight.
Sent to assist this messenger of God. She's Very, Very, nervous!
Yes, this is a big day?
And, the very first day on her job.
...
Wings pronounced in Golden of White.
Halo set just so tight.
So be patient.
She's coming and it'll be all right.
She'll travel for you all through the night.
She knows she needs to get this right!
Sent by Father above for God knows.
Knows Humanity hath forgotten how to Love.
Too long no Love.
...
Indeed the need.
This need to feed.
Show that there's more than just greed!
The need indeed to stop and seal "Earth's Bleed "
For yes!
This Quest is long overdue!
And, long overdue because of me and you!
...
So now indeed, we established this need?
But are you willing to do your
Part and share??
Do you Dare?
Do you Realize?
Do you still Care??
...
Because if you still do?
Then I was created just for you!
And I swear that with all my being.
With all your needs.
Yes, indeed Heavenly Father told me about you.
...
I'm setting my halo now on high.
I'll search and I'll search until I can see you finally cry.
And before you die?
You know it and I'll show it.
And prove it to you!
I have a pair of Kidneys, a Liver, Heart and Lungs!
I will be with you till the End.
You're constant and Beloved Internal *Friend!

Author Notes

*Friend: noun /friend/ 1.consant companion, amigo, buddy. "Katie was happy she made a new friend!" ... Note: The ultimate Sacrifice one Human being can do for another is to give Life. To sacrifice your very own existence. And, to purposely end your Mortal life, but allow your spiritual life to again. Begin! ... /Anjel/ Plural noun: angels 1. A spiritual being believed to act as an attendant, agent, or messenger of God, conventionally represented in human form with wings and a long robe. The word suggests goodness and is often used to refer to someone who offers comfort and aid to others in times of trouble. "Elizabeth behaved quite conventionally" ... The word, "Angel" Derives from the Greek, "angelos" Meaning messenger. It is used in the Holy Bible to donate God's attendance, with angels.often depicted as being guardians of humans, an idea found in ancient Asian cultures as well. The Biblical sense was continued in a medieval gold coin called an angel, which depicted the archangel Michael. The word has been applied to angel fish, so named because they appear to have wings, and nurses often called, "angels of mercy" .. Note; From om my own personal understanding of the word "angel" Talking to many people on the subject. Some people believe that in the time of crisis. The Angel that will arrive. Yes, would be a past relative who had long passed away. Somebody they had never met but did know of their existence. ... Note: On March 31st, 2003. My only son Jason purposely got into a car. Purposely told my daughter Dana not to get in the back seat when told by the driver. Brian Cole. And purposely went into a telephone pole at close to 100 miles an hour. ... You may wonder why an 18-year-old? And, no where near the prime of his life will sacrifice? To answer that question? Then you need to believe in Angels! ... To learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. Organ's Graciously donated to the Four on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Writer, 'Doctor Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Just My Jay"

Chapter 69
Two for the Price of One

By Ricky1024

"Two for the Price of One"
Written on April 8th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
' All Rights Reserved'

Mother and daughter.
Mother and son.
It's sad, yes, but this needs to finally be done.
They were two different and two of a Kind.
Cut from the same mold.
But for some reason they couldn't find?
Placed and on paths.
Just two different on "God's Vine."
Soon one would run out of breath.
Life is not separate from Death.
...
Parties long over and so is me.
No matter how hard I Try.
You see it had to be.
No matter how much I Cry?
Mo matter how much I tried to die .
No matter how hard I try to see?
My Dear God.
Why has this happened to me?
...
He was too young so much more.
More he could have done.
Just like a music and one of his songs.
And, now unfortunately he's Long, Long, gone.
...
Yes, as if up in flames.
All that remains is pictures and memories.
What more can I say?
Lost my only son then named Jay.
Then approximately 237 days gone by.
Lost.my only wife.
She actually took her very own life.
No longer did she want to be.
Yes it's a sin but now that it's done.
"Two for the Price of One"

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer 'cleo85' Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Flames"

Chapter 70
Jason.

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"J.A.S.O.N."
(An Acrostic Poem for Jay)
Written March 9th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

J.Jason, Day to Night, Night to Day.
Nightmare to Light, Nightmares won't go away?
Each and every sleeping moments.
Yes, there here to Forever stay.
God, tis this the only way to get back to my Jay??
...
A. April showers tears of sadness.
God, can You tell me why?
Why the Cry won't ever Die?
Why this continuous madness?
Eye share and bare Soul to You.
But my blindness never kindness?
And, as Eye Dare.
Barely but God, do You really care?
...
S. Simple thoughts shake the Die.
Look what You brought?
I'm trapped and caught!
Doesn't seem to ever go away.
Accidentally crashing, Waves of lost compassion!
...
O. Open Your Heart God and take me away?
God, won't your please bring me back my Only Jay?
God, if Your real than why must I remain?
Playing this forever and gambled continously stupid,
"Snake Eyes Game?"
...
N. November my Son's birthday again but he's never there?
Nobody but You seems to me to still Care.
With each and every word that You give me down there.
I write and ignite without out hesitation.
I'm waiting Lord for You to stop the *Hesitation?

Author Notes

*Hesitation: noun hes.it.ation/ 1. the action of pausing or hesitating before saying or doing some. "Brian didn't hesitate when he purposely drove that car into the telephone pole." ... Note:7,314 days and counting since my Son Jason's accident on March 31st, 2003. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and Hos Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing Writer and Talented Artist, 'Doctor Ricky1024' His Incredible Picture Entitled, "Night to Day"

Chapter 71
Nourishing Factors

By Ricky1024

"Nourishing Factors"
Written on April 21st, 2023
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

As I travel on my way.
On this very early April day.
I can see the April's shine.
Yes, and all God's many Gifts.
Gifts So, So, Devine.
...
The Blooming of His many Magnolia and Cherry blossoms.
The Early emergence of the Yellowed Daffodils and the Tulips in multi-hues.
Yes, soon to follow.
...
Hollow tis the Broken Heart of this Writing Latter-day Saint Priest.
(To say the least)
But I'll be okay on this Warming Day.
...
For yes!
I now realize God's many offerings for all to see!
Fresh Air and pure Waters abound and confound me!
...
They Cleanse and Purge my Soul for Life sometimes presents a most HORRIBLE Toll.
I am truly being fulfilled in God's Nourishing Factors.
Yes, as I breathe in and out.
Out and in.
Truly the Best Things in Life.
Family, God, Good Health, and company.
Yes, church and Family indeed.
All Nourishing Factors to me.

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist and Talented Writer, -cleo85' Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Magnolia"

Chapter 72
My Gift for You

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"My Gift for You"
Written on April 23rd, 2023
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Peace be with you.
As I must now leave you.
Yes, for I Loved you so.
Yes, and I Loved you all.
Understand?
...
Understand that we are not always meant to be.
To Be or Not to Be?
Ashes to Ashes and Dust to Dust.
Things just happen.
As things and circumstances now must.
...
Yes, I Loved Thee so.
And this you now always need to know.
Even though my Mortal body.
My Mortal body?
Unfortunately, for me.
It can no longer Be.
Yes, but here in a Different way?
This my Gift to You.
Thes ewords that I now say on this very *Day.

Author Notes

*Day: noun /dai/ 1: a. the time of light from one night to the next. "The shortest day of the year" b. DAYLIGHT Sense 1 "woke up at the break of day" c. DAYTIME "sleeps during the day and works at night" ... Note:The death of a child is a parent's Worst Nightmare. And, It s a Gift, as not a Blessing. A Gift that continues to give, as long as you continue to Live. ... To learn more about the Amazing Gift of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara.S.Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's Graciously offered to the four on April 1st, 2093 (April Fools Day) "And, the Beat Goes On!" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist and Incredible Writer, 'cleo85' Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Scattering Joy"

Chapter 73
A Prayer Beyond Both You and Me

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"A Prayer Beyond Both You and Me"(A)
Written on April 27th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �?�© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

April 1st, 2003
My Dearly Beloved and only Son.
I know even below you're in Heaven this day
Jay, Oh how I miss you so and I now must pray.
...
God, on this day.
Help Jay on his way?
And, I know now in this Broken Heart of me.
Unfortunately and fortunately, this tis the way it's got to be.
Whether to Be or Not to Be for me.
My future now seems so bleak.
Forever I shall travel down this dark and, "Lonely Street."
...
Perhaps if we ever again meet?
Until then I will continue to cry and with each and every Tear Shed.
And, die with each and every breath to my Death.
With each and every Moment spent.
It will be for You Only and not me.
...
I can still see you in that hospital bed.
Comatose and Raccooned with eyes shut so, so, very tight!
Black and Blue instead?
Dear Lord God, don't let him feel this Horrible Pain this night?
...
Umbilical fluids draining from his ears.
Could you possibly now hear?
I can see...
Yes, see you all alone, with all those devices.
Yes, as if even you were never real?
My Dear Lord God?
The cards were dealt, this loss, so near.
...
I gaze now into your Heart that will soon be another's.
Another to again beat as it plays and strums with a Drummers.
I can feel your lungs breathing by another's.
Your Kidneys, (a pair)to be split and go to whom knows where?
But that's Okay by me.
And, your Liver will go from you the "Giver."
Yes, to another for another chance at Life.
...
These are your Musical .Gifts.
My Only Son Jay.
I allocate for you.
You will now play a different beat.
But your music left below?
Will continue to give a second chance at Life.
On this very April Fool's *Day.
Amen.

****

"Showering Moments" (B)
Written on April 30th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024

Glistening Liquefied tears.
Now let all of God's rain this day, restore and reside.
Dampening our Spirits this day.
And, let us all be fulfilled His way.
Yes, for this is Spring and a Time of Renewing!
As all of God's flowers show now their worth!
...
Glistening are you paying attention and listening?
Yes, to His message above.
Can you feel His UnEnding Love?
Let His Spirit come forth and acknowledge this Blessed Day!
Yes, in this Latter-day Saint Church.
On this very Sabbath Sunday.
...
Now listen intently to our chosen ones.
For they too have a job to be Done.
And, after the Rains...
And, after the Pains...
Of Glistening disappears?
Always remember, out Savior is Here!



...

Author Notes

Day: noun /dai/ 1. a: the time of light between one night and the next. The interval of light, between two successive nights. b: DAYLIGHT: Sense 1. "woke up at the break of day" c: DAYTIME "sleeps during the day and works at night" ... Note: On March 31st, 2003 which is now almost 20 years and one month ago. My only son Jason purposely road, as a passenger into a telephone pole at 100 mph. ... The purpose here was for him not to die but to give Precious Life! Life to four people, whom he would never meet until his organs would go inside. Life to four people who were praying for a Miracle and a Blessing. ... To learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's Graciously donated to the Four on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) "And, the Beat Goes On!" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'simonka' And, Simonka's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Our Father"

Chapter 74
Done Vida

By Ricky1024

"Done Vida"
Written on May 6th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Once in a "Blue Moon"
No cow ju.ps over that Moon.
See ya real soon?
Once in a "Great Moon"
What's not the only thing that's great?
A decision need to be, a Sectional division from your and me.
A separation between Time and Reality.
Understand my, "Crystal Clarity?"
...
Now pay attention and Eye will give you a clue!
Unless you can't see?
Someone's waiting for this Gift from me and you.
No Christmas present but a going My Way Present.
Now enough with the clues!
Time to get down and dirty?

Author Notes

*Done Vida: noun /done vida/ 1.donate life. "The green bands state done vida" (Donate Life) ... To learn more about the Amazing gift of donations? Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "THE Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November. 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Linda Bickston' Linda's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Behold Your Son"

Chapter 75
Life Tis Precious

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Life Tis Precious"
Written on May 8th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Life Tis so Precious.
Precious indeed.
And as Death Rides in on his steed.
Grim Monarch take thy breaths away?
The Death of my two.
Bounds me with Grief!
Forever and Ever for this Latter-day Saint Priest.
...
Have not want more?
Yes, I can. I know you're attempting and knocking at my door!
I implore you Nevermore!
..
Death are you now done with my only son, Jay?
You've taken billions upon billions and laid them by the wayside!
Breaking the ties of Love?
Death hath you no respect?
First my son and eight months later.
Then my wife!
Death no more shall I accept.
Accept your Endless Pangs.
Accept the Horrid pain!
As only strife *Remains.

Author Notes

*Remains:noun /re.mains/ 1.the parts left over after other parts have been removed, used, or destroyed. "Jason's original many Organs still remain in three other's bodies" Similar: remainder, residue, remnant. "he left instructions on the deposit of his remains" . A person's body after death. ... Note: To learn more about the Miracle of'Organ-Tissue Donations?: Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1 ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85' Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Sapphire, Mica, and Amethyst"

Chapter 76
Inspire Me?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Inspire Me?"
(A Conversation with God)
Written on May 10th, 2023
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Heaven & Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

"Inspire Me?"
"Prove and Inspire Me?"
"Prove, Inspire, Me?"
"And, show me your value?"
"Yes, God, I'll try."
...
"Well firstly, I'm about to Die."
"Inspire Me?"
"Well okay, God."
"When I die, I've been good."
"Inspire Me?"
"Good enough as I should."
"Should now because I could now."
"Inspire me?"
"Good enough to give."
"Give exactly what my son?"
...
"Well Dad wants to help others?"
"Inspire Me."
"And, I'm listening son."
"Well, you know God?"
"People are out there."
"Yes, they are out there."
"Yes, and they need me!"
"Inspire Me?"
...
"God, they need something."
"Something from me."
"Something from me to continue."
"Inspire more for Me?"
"Something from me to continue."
"Continue to Live."
"You hath now finally inspired Me son."
"And, thank you!"
*Amen.

Author Notes

*A.men: noun /a'men/amen/ Exclamation :Uttered at the end of a prayer, or hymn, meaning. "so be it" Noun: an utterance of amen. ... Note: to learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Note: On this date of March 31st, 2003. My only son Jason was involved in a terrible accident. Innocent passenger in a car driven by a mentally ill young man named Brian Cole. And as a result, Seventeen hours later? The State of New Jersey diagnosed Jason brain-Dead. ... Note: Only Eight months later on November 23rd, 2003. My only wife and spouse of almost Twenty years. Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky committed suicide. ... Note: If you know somebody who is severely depressed and you may believe they're contemplating a possible suicide? Please call immediately. "The National Suicide Hotline at 9-88 or . 9-11. Thank you. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85' Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Summer Night Dream"

Chapter 77
Receiving Life (A)

By Ricky1024

"Receiving Life" (A)
Written on May 11th, 2024
By Doctor Ricky1024
Copyright ©Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

"Doctor Williams?"
"Yes, Nurse Jones?"
"This young man?"
"I understand he's only Eighteen."
"Yes, I realize that Nurse."
"But even though quite gone."
"There will be no room in that Hearse."
"Now, Nurse Jones."
"Hand me a scalpel Number Seven."
"And, let me do something Amazing Nurse."
"There are still others dieing whom await."
...
Note: On April Fools Day 2003.
In the early morning hours.
A set Of Lungs, along with a strong Heart will be sent out to a man from Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.
While a pair of Human Kidneys will be dispersed, first to South Jersey. Yes, to an Eight year old female with only hours.
Hours left to Live.
The Second or right Kidney was flown out West to a man also, on total Renal failure.
...
Lastly, the Human Liver stays local in Philly
A young African American man in his Mid-thirties will have Eight, Long, Years of *LIFE.

****

"Life There After" (B)
Written on May 11th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky1024

Life preserved after Death.
One lucky individual named, "Chaz"
And almost my age twenty years ago.
Kicks off this "Living Miracle Show."
Just so you know, he has a New Set of Lungs, a Strong and Healthy Heart; along with a new Start.
He can now breath without collapsing.
Yes, on oxygen attempting to walk a HUNDRED YARDS.
...
A Human Livet from my Only Don Jason.
(The Giver)
While laughed at the Face and disgrace of DEATH.
Gives Eight Years of LIFE.
Again filtering Day and Night.
...
Life.
Life There After.
Right Human Kidney flown out West Far away.
To a man named Bill.
Whom will need this in order to divorce his nasty wife one day.
...
Left Kidney into She.
Unknown female from South Jersey.
The youngest recipient.
(You see?)
No more Jaundice.
Skins again Pink, Eyes again Blue, no letter from she to me.
(Get my point of **View?)

Author Notes

Life noun /life/ 1 a: the quality that distinguishes a vital and function being from a dead body. b: a principle or force that is considered yo underlie the distinct quality of animate beings. c: an organismic state characterized by capacity for metabolism. (See METABOLISM Sense 1.) growth, reaction to stimuli, and reproduction. **View: noun /view/ 1.the ability to see something or yo be seen from a particular place. "the end of thr tunnel came into view." Similar: sight, perspective. 2. a sight or prospect, typically of attractive natural scenery, that can be taken in by the eye from a particular place. "Jason had the best view of the accident." ... Note: On March 31st, 2003. My son Jason Richard Smrkovsky was propelled into a telephone pole at over100 mph. Unfortunately and fortunately. To learn more about the Amazing and process of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti thr L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!: Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. .... "And, the Beat Goes On!" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist and Incredible Writer, "Doctor Ricky1024 His Incredible Picture Entitled, Displaying Life"

Chapter 78
4 An Eternity

By Ricky1024

"4 An Eternity" (A)
Written on May 12th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ©Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

For an Eternity, I shalleth and always and Forever...
For an Eternity, as Time passes me By...
For an Eternity, as my broken Heart...
...
For an Eternity, as this Earth is lost and no longer Sustained...
For an Eternity, I shall call out your Name.
For an Eternity, when I no longer need to live in Shame...
For an Eternity, when I shall no longer feel this horrible Pain...
For an Eternity, as I Live and Pray...
For an Eternity, when the Oceans finally meet the Bays...
For an Eternity, when the Sun no longer lights this Day...
...
For an Eternity, when I realized my Death and Eye shalleth no longer Breath...
For an Eternity, when it's my time to finally Leave...
For an Eternity, when my crying eyes are closed and I no longer can See...
...
For an Eternity, when this Heart finally ceases to Pray....
For an Eternity, when Heaven Above...
Yes, is finally filled with Earthly Love...
For an Eternity, when I finally meet you one Day...
...
For an Eternity, when I no longer need to Pray..
And, when that time finally comes Due...
Or an Eternity, I shall stop missing *You...

****



""Gifted One" (B)
Written on May 12th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024

Gifted One, come now to Me.
I can no longer wait and await your presence immediately.
Gifted One, yes for an Eternity.
And, no more shalleth thy suffer.
Suffer so below.
Gifted One, feel My gentle and warming embrace.
Breathe in deeply and relinquish your waste.
...
Gifted One, your Time was overdue.
Yes, for others needed you.
Needed you and I'm sorry that your time is now Due.
Gifted One, I am your Creator.
Yes, and this now is your Destiny.
Gifted One, yes don't you?
Won't you?
And once you finally arrive.
Gifted One.
I'm sure you'll finally **Understand.

Author Notes

*You: noun /you/ 1. the one or ones being addressed>used as the pronoun of a second person singular or plural in any grammatical in any relation except that is a possible. "Yes you are the only one" ... **Understand: verb /under.stand/ 1. perceive the intended meaning of, (words,a language, or a speaker. "no one understands Doctor Ricky" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Denise B' Denise's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Generations in Eternity"

Chapter 79
True Life

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"True Life" (A)
Written on May 19th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'.

Note: As hard as this is for me.
It has to be written.
Can you see?
...
The tempo was sullen and the beat was not right.
Hold on my darlings.
Yes, hold on tight!
This is no Roller Coaster ride where you glide along merrily.
Merrily as can be.
It's more like bumper cars set to the speed of. "Let's Kill you and me?"
...
Bleak as ever.
Bleak as bleak can ever be.
To Be or Not?
That question will go down in Infamy.
...
You see?
True Life means simply that Reality has no limitations or time.
It just happened so f****** quickly.
Yes, quickly and unkind.
...
Roses are Blood Red and the bleed tis always within me.
Not as much as a hair was displaced.
Actually no signs of trauma in this drama full of crime.
...
No ticket would be written nor fine to be cast.
The driver was and got away with it.
His damn foot hit the GAS!
100 MPH.
May seem to you and to me.
"Fast and Furious"
Of course, it was and always will be.
Believe it or Not?
...
But the point of the matter is I live with it and now should you.
To realize that "True Life" is awaiting and can actually happen to you.
...
In closing, there's not much more that I can but should if I could but that's okay?
Because there's a new Angel in Heaven.
Yes, a New Angel named, *Jay.

****

"True Life Transferred"
(Kidneys, Heart, and Lungs)
Written on May 19th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024

"Jesus answered and said unto her, if thou knowest the gift of God, and who it is that saith to thee, Give me to drink; thou wouldest have asked of him, and he would have given the living Water."
John 4:10
...
March 31st, 2003.
My Only Son Jason Richard Smrkovsky.
Only 18 years old would be involved in a horrible car accident.
And, as an innocent passenger.
Yes, on that very unfortunate but fortunate day.
And, what more can I say?
I would learn so much.
Yes, so very, very, much..
...
March 31st, 2003.
Yes, I would arrive at the scene 8:00 p.m.
An investigation later would show that the car.
A Ford mustang convertible that was previously raced at Atco raceway.
Yes, but professionally in Atco New Jersey.
...
Now, most likely this "Death Machine?"
(If you know what I mean?)
Yes, was purposely driven into the telephone pole at close to or over 100 mph.
The driver Brian Cole would be extracted with "The Jaws of Life."
...
April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
I thought it would be okay but what a Blind Fool was Eye.
Blinded by my faith in God!
Now, 17 hours later a decision would have to be made.
...
April 1st, 2003.
(Midnight)
A Decision would need to be addressed.
Yes, what to do with your 18-year-old who is now Comatose, Raccooned, and Brain-Dead?
Brain-Oxygen dead.
...
April 14th 2003.
The very first letter came in from the recipient named Chaz.
Chaz was writing in gratitude for the Heart and Lungs that hath given him New Life!
...
One month later, the first letter comes in from a man named Bill.
Bill was writing too in gratitude for the right Human Kidney that was now giving him a second chance at Life!
...
No more would he be subjected to the Sin of total Renal failure.
A prisoner, hooked up to a machine. And, three times a week suffer tremendous in Pain!
Yes, thanks to my son Jason no more would he have to be hooked up to a machine.
...
I would reach out and write returning letters to both of these gentlemen.
Yes, and we would share a total of six wonderful letters together.
...
I would then reach out on to the recipient who received Jason's left kidney.
An unknown female child from South Jersey.
(where I live.)
I would write two letters and never receive one reply.
...
May 1st, 2013.
Ten years would pass and I would learn so much from these gentlemen.
Unfortunately, I would also learn that African-American man from Philadelphia.
(Name unknowns)
Yes, would only live 8 years with Jason's Liver.
...
May 19th, 2023.
Time has passed and my Life has Marched on.
No more would I have a spouse or be married.
Carolyn Ann Harbach Smrkovsky would commit suicide on March 23rd, 2003.
(Only 8 months after the death of our son Jason.)
...
Yes, over Twenty years has now passed.
Passed since that fatal accident.
Yes, and three human beings are still walking this planet with Jason's Kidneys, Heart, and Lungs.
Approximate Word Count: 1038.

Author Notes

*Jay: noun /jai/ 1. boys name, nick name. "jay won the basketball game!" ... Note: On March 31st, 2003 and due to injuries he sustained in the car accident. My only son Jason had and needed a decision to be made for him. To allow him to remain in a coma for the rest of his remaining years. Yes or too... ... To learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Lililbug' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Angel eyes"

Chapter 79
True Life (A)

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.

"True Life" (A)
Written on May 19th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'.

Note: As hard as this is for me.
It has to be written.
Can you see?
...
The tempo was sullen and the beat was not right.
Hold on my darlings.
Yes, hold on tight!
This is no Roller Coaster ride where you glide along merrily.
Merrily as can be.
It's more like bumper cars set to the speed of. "Let's Kill you and me?"
...
Bleak as ever.
Bleak as bleak can ever be.
To Be or Not?
That question will go down in Infamy.
...
You see?
True Life means simply that Reality has no limitations or time.
It just happened so f****** quickly.
Yes, quickly and unkind.
...
Roses are Blood Red and the bleed is all within me.
Not as much as a hair was displaced.
Actually no signs of trauma in this drama full of crime.
...
No ticket would be written nor fine to be cast.
The driver was and got away with it.
His damn foot hit the GAS!
100 MPH.
May seem to you and to me.
"Fast and Furious"
Of course it was and always will be.
Believe it or Not?
...
But the point of the matter is I live with it and now should you.
To realize that "True Life" is awaiting and can actually happen to you.
...
In closing, there's not much more that I can but should if I could but that's okay?
Because there's a new Angel in Heaven.
Yes, a New Angel named, *Jay.

****

"True Life Transfered" (B)
Written on May 19th, 2023
By Doctor Ricky 1024

"Jesus answered and said unto her,
If thee knewest the gift of God,
To it is that saith to thee, Give me to drink; thou wouldest have asked of him, and he would have given thee living water."
John 4:10
...
So, now it must begin.
And, soon there will be an end to the Sin.
No more would there be Suffering.
No more would there be Misery and Pain.
Soon the only thing that would remain.
"True Life"
...
Chaz is a 45-year-old father of two who used to work at Walmart.
No more now shall he do!
No more. Can he even walk 100 yd without oxygen and collapsing!
Yes, but "True Life, tis Ever Lasting.
...
Bill is a 42-year-old father of a daughter.
In complete renal failure.
Awaiting patently, his death and his eventual slaughter!
...
There is an African American man who needs a new Human Liver.
Also patiently awaiting from the Giver..
Unfortunately, cirrhosis has set in all part of Death's Sin!
...
The Last of the four is also awaiting at Death's door!
She is but a small child!
Jaundice has set in and no more will she be on dialysis.
Now in a coma.
Also a Sin?.
But you see Heavenly Father works in Mysterious ways!
...

Author Notes

*Jay: noun /jai/ 1. boys name, nick name. "jay won the basketball game!" ... Note: On March 31st, 2003 and due to injuries he sustained in the car accident. My only son Jason had and needed a decision to be made for him. To allow him to remain in a coma for the rest of his remaining years. Yes or too... ... To learn more about the Miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Lililbug' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Angel eyes"

Chapter 80
April Fool's Day

By Ricky1024

"April Fool's Day"
Written on April 1st, 2024
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright C. Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Donate me to the World.
Let me be all that you can be?
Ailing to meet me ?
And, greet you with me?
...
Are you blind and can no longer see?
(The Gift of Sight)
Need a kidney or possibly two?
Still aching and Hearts breaking?
(The Gift of *Life!)

Author Notes

*Life:noun //life// 1. creation 2. to exist. "With life I now live" Note: when it comes to organ tissue donation there is a time period of close to 10 years before the organ is fully accepted. The organs that are in the most demand are human kidneys. When the human body is given a donated kidney the old kidneys are absorbed by the system. ... Special thanks goes out first as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Incredible Writer 'Doctor Ricky 1024' His Incredible Picture Entitled, "The Gift of Life" ... To learn more about the amazing and Incredible Process of 'Organ-Tissue Donations' Simply contact My dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" 1-800-DONORS-1.

Chapter 81
Day By Day 2024

By Ricky1024

"Day By Day 2024"
Written on July 21st, 2016
By Richard and Jason Smrkovsky
Copyright C. Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Dad where are you?
Eye can no longer see?
What is happening to me?
Wonders Jay.
...
It's okay son.
Okay for you.
You to again.
Again be more than me.
I reply with a year in my eye.
...
Dad, but if eye work and then when?
This strange work?
My name?
When dad will eye be done?
And, where?
Eye feel as if eye am drifting away?
Jay replies.
...
Son, my only son.
It's okay son.
There's a better place now for you.
And, no more shall you.
...
Br subjected to a coma and Pain...
No more will you be Brain Damaged...
No more shall you forget you Name...
No more shall you be *Raccooned...
And yes, no more shall you be subjected to a vegetive state of Being...
For you will always be now as you are and it's okay...
Star by Star...
"Day By Day"

Author Notes

*Raccooned: noun //raccooned// 1. State of being as subjected to severe damage of the head resulting in swollen, black and blue Eyes. "As a result of his accident Jason was raccooned" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'avmurry' avmurry s Incredible Picture Entitled, "Surrealism"

Chapter 82
Trying Before Dieing?

By Ricky1024

"Trying Before Dieing?
Written on April 13th, 2024
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright C. Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

"Sometimes fairytales can come true and sometimes happen to you?"
Unknown Poet
...
And, as Life covers you with Miseries, Heartaches, and then finally Grief.
All in a row.
(Don't you know?)
...
You need to realize.
Realize that Heavenly Father knows.
Yes, and covers you with His Love and a Brilliant Double Rainbow!
...
And, even though your Loved One is long gone.
He offers you another chance at "Life's Last *Dance."

Author Notes

*Dance: noun //dance// 1. Movent in line with music. "He danced the night away" ... Note: On this date in time it marks now 184,400 approximate hours. Since the passing and donation of my son Jason's organs on April 1st, 2003. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'meifin' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "The Courage"

Chapter 83
Watching You Watching

By Ricky1024

"Watching You Watching"
Written on April 18th, 2014
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright C Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Watching You Watching as I'm still trying.
Watching You Watching I'm always crying.
Can't seem to dismiss this and somehow still miss this but...
I'm blind the Sun's no shine?
...
Watching You Watching as my Broken Hearts still knowing.
Watching You Watching but for some reason the bloods still flowing?
...
Watching You Watching me and God that's okay.
Taking off my sunglass...
What more can I say?

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Only Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Incredible Writer 'Doctor Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Jason's Vision"

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