"A Mighty Change of Heart"
Written on May 22nd, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Sometimes life gives us choices as long "The Avenue of Regrets"
And, how we react to these choices?
Makes us what we are today.
...
A Talk By Elder Eduardo Gavarret of the Seventy and the Latter-Day Saint Church of Jesus Christ.
...
On Friday, October 28th, 1588 Having lost its rudder to being governed solely by oar, the ship.
(La Girona)
Belonging to the great Spanish Armada, collided with the rocks of Lacada Point in Northern Ireland.
...
The ship capsized.
Wanted to cast Away struggling to survive wore a gold ring given to him a few months earlier by his wife.
I'm with this inscription,
"I have nothing more to give you"
"Lord I gave you everything; I have nothing more to give you"
A phrase and a ring with the design of a hand holding a heart.
An expression of love from a wife to her husband.
...
When I read this story, it made a deep impression on me, and I thought of the request made by the Savior: "And, ye shall offer for a sacrifice unto me a broken heart and a contrite spirit"
...
But those thoughts in mind let me know share you a personal experience that I had when I was only 12 years old.
The effect which still lasts...
"To this Very Day"
...
Oh that's fine my mother and sister attended each and every Sabbath Sunday at our local church.
The Latter-Day Saint Church of Jesus Christ.
While my father would stay at home never attending the meetings to let alone taking into sacrament.
...
"Eduardo hurry up we are late for the church meetings"
Stated my mother.
"Mom I'm just going to stay with dad today."
"But Eduardo are you sure?"
You do know that you need to attend your Priesthood quorum meeting"
"Yes Mom but poor Dad, he's going to be left alone and I will stay with him again today.
He replied.
...
So, I would with my father, who would spend this time on his hobby.
Yes, repairing radios and clocks down below in his shop.
...
So, as my mother and sister went to the Sunday meetings.
Me and Dad would spend a few minutes together.
...
"Eduardo don't you need to go church today?"
"Today is Sunday."
"Yes Dad but today."
"I told Mom I wouldn't go."
I replied.
...
And then Dad went about his business as usual, which was his way of giving me permission to leave.
Leave and play with my friends.
...
Now that morning was a very important soccer game.
Yes, and my friends had told me that I couldn't miss it because we had to win that game!
Yes but there was a problem.
In order to get to the soccer field I would first have to pass the chapel!
...
Determined, I made a dash towards the soccer field.
Yes, but stop before that?
Was "The Great Stumbling Block"
The chapel!
That's what I noticed some very large trees.
So, as quick as a bunny.
I could ran into the opposite side of the sidewall.
Yes!
And, running between the trees!
Yes!
So, that no one from the chapel, and none of the members entering would notice me?
...
Everything had gone well.
Yes, exactly as I planned!
And, our team had won!
Yes, and I was thrilled!
...
Fortunately, that went well but did not go completely unnoticed by the deacons quorum advisor!
For brother Felix Espinoza had seen me running quickly from tree to tree!
Yes, not trying not to be discovered!
As quick as a bunny?
...
Now at the beginning of the following week.
Brother Espinoza decided to pay me a little visit to my house!
Yes, for he wanted to speak with me?
But he would not say a thing about what he had seen on that Sunday.
Nor when he asked me why I had missed my meeting.
...
What he did though was simply hand me a manual and he said...
"I would very much like it for you to teach the Priesthood class this coming Sunday."
"And, I have marked the lesson for you."
"Now don't worry Eduardo, it is not very difficult."
"So, I want you to read it and I will come by in two days to help you with the preparation for this lesson."
...
Now, after brother Espinoza left.
I thought about teaching this class.
Yes, A Great Calling and Honor.
Yes, being I was only age twelve.
...
So, I looked at the manual.
Yes, that manual that I needed to study.
That he gave me after he left.
But I thought to myself.
I didn't want this assignment to teach his class.
...
Yes, but I could never bring myself to tell him.
Or my plan again.
After all, this Sabbath Sunday?
Yes, again I planned to ditch the church and to stay with my poor father.
Yes, the same lousy excuse I've been using now for many weeks. Meaning there was another important soccer game!
...
Now brother Espinoza was a person whom young people admired.
And, he himself, had found the restored gospel.
And, that had changed his life or in other words his heart.
...
When the following Saturday came and arrived.
I thought to myself.
"Well maybe tomorrow I'll wake up sick!"
"Yes, and I will not have to go to church again?"
But in all actuality?
Now, it wasn't a stupid soccer game that worried me anymore.
Actually, it was the class I had to teach!
Yes, especially a lesson about the Sabbath Day.
...
Sunday came and of course.
I woke up healthier than ever.
I had no excuse- I had No escape.
...
Note: It was the first time I would
teach a lesson.
Yes, but brother Espinoza was there right by my side!
And, that was the day.
The day that I had had.
"A Mighty Change of Heart"
...
And, from that moment on?
I began to keep the Sabbath day Holy.
And, over time in the words of President Russell M. Nelson.
"The Sabbath day has become a delight."
"Lord I gave you everything; I have nothing more to give you."
Approximate Word Count: 1071.

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer. 'Cleo85' And, Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Julia"

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Don't Cry 4 Me?"
Written on May 22nd, 2022
By Jason and Richard Smrkovsky
Ricky 1024
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"Brain-Dead"
Never should'a said
Ride in a Hearse?
Never Rehearsed!
Capture a Shooting Star.
Where for Arth eye are?
...
Comatose!
Because it's supposed?
Umbilical fluid out my ears!
But can you hear?
Can you see?
That I'm probably better off now DEAD?
But instead?
...
Arrived at the site.
They say everything.
Yes, will soon be all right?
Day to Night.
Night to Day.
God, I got to pray!
...
"Brain-Dead"
Never shoulda said.
But that's all right by me.
Dissections beginning.
Can't you see?
Can't you hear?
Because Death was *Near

Author Notes

*Near: Adjective /near/ 1. Close, nearby, within proximity "God was so close he could feel him breathing on his breast" ... Note: This is based on my son's actual experience. Yes, that he would be communicating. Only if he could? Because unfortunately, aa a passenger, the car only hit the pole it over 100 miles an hour. Yes? This would be his thoughts as he was going through the process of Organ-Tissue Donation. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'lynnkah' Her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Does Our Lord Cry when We cry"

Chapter 12
Heart Cracked!

By Ricky1024

"Heart Cracked!"
Written on May 23rd, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Heart Cracked ain't coming back!
Nothing much left to do.
Raked through Hot Ashes!
Thrown down the flu!
...
Coming home now Mommy.
Don't give a damn!
Spirits all around me.
You got to understand?
Crippled moments past.
Heart shattered!
"Heart of Glass"
...
Out- of- beat.
Motion seizing.
Tick-tock Rocked!
Off kilter.
System out of sync.
Lost the link.

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Michele Walsh Gorres' Her Incredible Picture Entitled, "From the Depths I Cry to Thee"

Chapter 13
How Many Times?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"How Many Times?"
Written on May 26th, 2022
By JaySon
Copyright © Fanstory
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How many times?
How many times till you?
Understand?
Heart to Heart?
Body to Body?
Mind to Soul?
Taken a Toll!
...
Just how many times?
Just how Many More times?
Do I have to go to the Well?
Swell.
Then Ring the bell to Hell!
...
Just how many Times?
Heart to Lungs?
Lungs to Kidneys?
Kidneys to Liver?
Take it All!
For I'm just the
*Giver!

Author Notes

*Giver* noun /give.er/ 1. Person who sacrifices To give away all "He had nothing to live for so he gave his heart away!" ... Note: On April 1st, 2003. I gave my Only Son Jason to the World! ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'seshadri_sreenivasan' Their Incredible Picture Entitled, "N for a Number of Things" ... To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th,1984. March 31st, 2003. Organ's graciously offered on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day)

Chapter 14
Too Young to Soon?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Too Young to Soon?"
(A Dedication)
Written on June 4th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
At Hard Rock Hotel and Casino
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

It was Too Young, to Soon.
Lived his life with just a smile and a share.
Damn!
How I wish he was still there!
And, as for me?
...
Life goes on and on and on...
And, I gotta hang on.
Like this lingering note that just doesn't fit, nor can't get along?
...
So, I'll just concentrate.
And, write a few tunes.
Get that old scratched up record out.
And, sing along with Diana Ross to "The Lady Sings the Blues"
...
Baby?
I still ain't got a clue.
But, I'm coming home soon.
Because for me and you?
"Too Young to *Soon"
Approximate Word Count: 220.

Author Notes

*Soon: Adjective /soon/ 1: early then anticipated. "He decided to go to the party at 6:00 instead of 7:00" ... Note: And, it's now been going on 20 years. Yes, since the loss of My Only son Jason in a car accident on March 31st, 2003 ... To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1 ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist. And, Amazing Writer 'cleo85' And, Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Wanna Bite?"

Chapter 15
Straight from My Broken Heart

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Straight from My Broken Heart"
Written on June 6th, 2022
By Jason and Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

'Son Of Me what do you see?'
'For I am a missing you!'
'Dad of me what do you see?'
'Because I'm missing you too!'
...
'Son, I see Darkened skies, Clouds above that continuously cry!'
'And, it seems the whole world has lost their "Me oh My's"
'School shootings are out of control.'
'And, Jason it seems that down here.'
'Yes, Satan has dealt another nasty hand of grief!'
(To say the least!)
...
'Dad of Me.'
'I am sorry to hear and see these "Unearthly Tragedies"
'But let me make one thing perfectly clear?'
'Way up here it's quite amazing!'
'Heaven is all that we thought it would be and more!'
'Everything here is so beautiful and pure!'
'And Dad?'
'I'm waiting for you patiently...
...
'Son of me.'
'Yes!'
'I'm so happy to hear from Thee!'
'That things above are quite amazing!'
'I can't seem to sleep, and I forgot how to count the sheep.'
'And, I miss you my only son as my broken heart grows fonder.'
'But God wants me to stay below.'
'And, this I want you to now know.'
'That here below on Earth my only son.'
'But unfortunately I must stay here.'
'Yes, until my job is done.'
...
'I understand dad and I am quite glad!'
'For you have taught me well!'
'And, I too have a job up here like you.'
...
'So, instead of counting the sheep?'
'Dad just think of me?'
'Because when you go to sleep?'
'You know it's always just you and *Me!'
Approximate Word Count: 325.

Author Notes

*Me:noun /me/ 1: First person, myself. "My dad told me to be patient" Note: Because of all the recent tragedies I've been hearing about and especially the nasty shootings in Texas. I decided to write this and in doing so. Yes, communicate once again with my son Jason. ... Yes, it does seems that Satan has gotten a firmer grip on us. But with our faith in Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ. Yes, we will win this war! ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer 'cleo85'. And, Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Southern Lights"

Chapter 16
Skirting the Edge of Reality

By Ricky1024

"Skirting the Edge of Reality"
Written on June 7th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Close your eyes close your tired and weary eyes.
You need to know that I loved you so.
Baby?
Baby no more crying.
I know it's hard when all you have is dying.
But no more crying Jay.
Because our time together...
...
Feel my words now.
And, as I cast forth?
Yes son they are all for Thee.
Listen very carefully as they are cast to Thee above.
For this is my Broken Heart and this is my words of Love.
...
Touch each and every one as they are now to comfort thee.
For my message is now completely clear.
My dear Heavenly Son above.
I am almost *Here.

Author Notes

*Here: adverb /hir/ 1. in, at, or, to this place of position. "they have lived here most of their lives" Similar: at, in, this place at, in, this spot 2. used when introducing something or someone. 'here's a gift that is simple to give and to make" ... Note: The place where my son exists now is above. No longer lives below here with us on Earth except within three other human beings. ... To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800- DONORS-1 ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'Doctor Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Bleeding Heart"

Chapter 17
Heart of Steel 2022

By Ricky1024

"Heart of Steel 2022"
Written on June 8th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Heart of Metal.
This Heart Of Me.
Beats within my breast for an Eternity.
...
Heart of Metal.
This Heart within...
Pendulum motions as Life begins?
...
Heart of Metal.
Heart of Steel.
Pumping life giving blood and keeping it real!
Hemisphere to Hemispheres, Vessel to Vessel, as if frozen in Ice.
Again renewing...
*Life.

Author Notes

*Life: noun /life/ 1. An existence of being "Johnny was thankful for his life" Note: To lose a child is a parent's worst Nightmare. ... To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia,Pennsylvania at 1-800- DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's graciously offered on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) "And, the Beat Goes On" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'Doctor Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Just Jay"

Chapter 18
Heart Container

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Heart Container" (A)
Written on June 9th, 2022
By Jason and Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright ©Fanstory
' All Rights Reserved'

Tis Thy Heart Bruised and Abused?
Broken, Pierced, Challenged and Cracked?
To never come back?
Well take it from Me!
...
Are you in need of another?
Another, "Beater?"
Having a lot of problems with your
"Meter?"
Well, no problem just let me help you?
...
Tis Thy Heart been Shamed?
It calls out then My name!
No longer in a, "Beating Mode?"
No longer Heart Contained?
Well then just do the right thing!
And, call out My *Name!
Note: Capitalization done purposely for effect.

****

"The Golden Fleece!" (B)
Written on June 9th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ©� Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

"The Golden Fleece?"
(To see the least)
Is a Flying, Winged, Ram named
"Crius Chrysomallos"
(Greek)
Or "Golden Fleeced Ram"
...
In order to first Save?
You need to Sacrifice!
The Gift of Thyself.
"The Gift of Life!"
Thyself Completely.
...
No second thoughts as the Grim Reaper of Death!
Yes, shall hold Your hand!
And grasp it tightly with his Taloned Claws!
Break his firm grip and toss his Grasping, Claweded, Hand away!
Then and only then my friend?
Can you save a Life!
On that Sad, Sad, but Amazing *Day!

Author Notes

*Name: noun US/neim UK neim/ 1. The word or words that a person, thing, or place is named by. ."Hi what's your name?" "My name's Diane." "Please write your (full name) And address on the form" Note: When I was just a young child back in the '60s. I watched a movie Entitled, "Jason and the Argonauts" Based on a Greek fictional hero, Jason was forced by a murderer to search out the Golden Fleece! ... Note: Anybody that knows that story. The Golden Fleece is basically a beautiful ram's coat that glows and brings life when wrapped around a person who has died. The Fleece of a Flying, Winged, Ram named, "Crius Chrysomallos (Greek) ... And, to learn more about my Golden Fleece Son Jason and 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1 ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Note: Organ's graciously offered on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) "and, the Beat Goes On!" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'Doctor Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "My Heart Monitor"

Chapter 19
Just Frozen Zero Chill!

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Just Frozen Zero Chill!"
Written on June 9th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and Jay
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

"Here by know, we that we dwell in him, and he and us, because he has given us....

'Life sometimes deals the Ace of Spades or the Queen of Hearts?'
Let us begin?
'My life below was quick and painless?'
'I remain nameless.'
...
'Simple Life and as a very, young, child?'
I was little bother and sometimes?'
Seldom noticed.'
...
'That's completely okay because I lived in my own world.'
"The Holy Crackle World"
'And, My dad recorded me in my diaper saying that one day.'
No nothing to do with Rice Krispies nor...
"Snap, Crackle, or Pop!"
...
'But my pop?'
'He sure knew how to love me!'
'Yes, both me and my four sweet sisters.'
(whom I've never forgotten)
...
'I've missed a lot in Nineteen years.''
'Holidays and birthday parties long cast.'
'Seasons, now just four segmented time periods long ago.'
'Seemingly now.'
"Just Frozen Zero Chill!"
'Life sometimes deals the Ace of Spades.'
'Or, "The Queen of *Hearts"
Approximate Word Count: 242

Author Notes

*Hearts: noun /hearts/ Plural 1. Muscular pumps, the center of all human emotions. "Jason seemed to have had it all but gave his Heart away" ... Note: No matter how many times I go back? Yes, it's now Nineteen, plus, Years. And, countless tears when my 18-year-old son had to go away. (March 31st, 2003) And, on that evening of that horrible car accident. Yes, where my son was a victim. Yes, where only Seventeen, hours, later? Yes, the State of New Jersey would diagnosed him on his death certificate. "Brain-dead" Yes, and how only hours later on April Fool's Day. Yes, April 1st, 2003. Yes, I would give my Son. My Only Son Jason away. Yes, in order to save four people. Yes, on that Sad, Sad, but Incredible day! ... To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800- DONORS-1. .... "And, the Beat Goes On!" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'helvi2' And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Frosty Cascade"

Chapter 20
Within the Valley of Death.

By Ricky1024

"Within the Valley of Death!"
(A Dedication)
Written on June 20th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ©� Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

"For since death came through a man, the resurrection of the death comes also through a man. For as in Adam all die, so in Christ all will be made alive."
Corinthians ~15:21~
...
Jason was a gentle soul that everybody had come to appreciate on this Earth.
The place of all Humankind's birth.
...
"My flesh and my heart May fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
~Psalm 73.26
...
As Jason progressed with his life and grew into a young man.
He started a band literally with two drumsticks in his hand!
Preaching the choir!
His heart filled with desire!
...
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me."
~Psalm 23:4
...
Unfortunately, on March 31st, 2003.
Yes, my Sweet and Only son Jason.
His life at only age Eighteen.
His life would come to a brunt and quick dismise?
...
"When the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come true:
"Death has been swallowed up in victory."
...
And, only Seventeen hours later.
Unfortunately, the State of New Jersey.
Yes, would diagnose my son legally dead.
His untimely death as due to circumstances beyond his control causing his brain death.
...
"Where, O death, is your victory?
"Where, O Death, is your sting?' "
~ Corinthians 15:54~55
...
On April 1st 2003.
Yes, I gave my son away.
Because there was four people praying for a second chance.
Yes!
And, they needed Jason much more than me.
...
To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend.
Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with
"The Gift of Life!"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800- DONORS-1.
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st, 2003.
Organs graciously offered to four on
April 1st, 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
...
"And, the Beat Goes On!"

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, as well as, Amazing Writer, Doctor Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Tragedy on Nautilus Avenue"

Chapter 21
The Human Heart(A)

By Ricky1024

"The Human Heart" (A)
Written on July 5th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

The Heart beats in rhythmical motion.
Like waves caressing the shore from the ocean.
...
The Heart muscle orchestrates the musical beats.
Constrictions, frictions, restrictions.
...
The Broken Heart cries out in pain.
Within the empty now hollow room.
As tears wash away and amend.
Doing its best trying to pretend?
...
But the Human Heart?
Ahh...
The Human Heart contemplates the game.
Yes, and has complete control.
A choice whether or not to play?
It's always at beat, less than descrete, at Quest.
Doing its best.
Controlling the rest.

"Heart of One" (B)
Written on July 5th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024

Heart of One?
What have we done?
I call out your name!
Heart of One!
There's no more fun!
Things just have gone insane!
...
Heart of One?
There's no delight!
As I wonder where?
Where you are tonight?
...
Heart of One?
When the day is done?
When I call out your name?
When the answers.
Answers always the same?
...
Heart of One?
I need you so much now!
And can't you see?
Because if I don't have you?
There won't be anything.
Anything left of *Me?

Author Notes

*Me: noun /me/ 1. Used in place of I or myself. "John always thought it was about me?" ... *Me: noun /me/ 1. In this case it's all about the Human Heart. To learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003 Organs graciously offered to four on April 1st, 2003 (April Fool's Day) "And, the Beat Goes On!" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'seshadri_screenivasan' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "The Sounds of Heart Beats"

Chapter 22
Hallowed Whispers

By Ricky1024

"Hallowed Whispers"
Written on July 14th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright ©� Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Footprints long cast
Memories now all past
Trying my very best to grasp?
But all long last.
...
Shadowed and black curtain call.
Yes, my last allocate.
'And, may I present our guest of the day.'
'Everybody now get down on your knees and please pray.'
...
'Pray for a day when flowers again bloom...
'Pray for a day when the sun shines... 'Pray for a day when the rain falls gently down on the pain?'
Yes, and the sun's rays again shall warm and touch.'
'And, pray finally with all your Broken Hearts...
'Because the time is all gone and now weres...
"Hallowed *Whispers"

Author Notes

*Hallowed Whispers: noun 1. Words spoken when a loved one passes away. ... Note: This is dedicated to my only son Jason. After he passed away due from complications. Yes, due to the accident. On March 31st, 2003. The following three months of April May and June of 2003. It rained almost continuously. Yes, to the point where my back deck turned green! Yes, and had to be power washed. Make no doubt that these were not the Angels tears of sadness! But the Angels tears of happiness and gladness! Because finally after over 18 years. Their brother, my son Jason... Had finally come back home where he belongs! ... And I say these words in the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Amen. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'SeaJay1' And, Jay's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Til Death Do Art"

Chapter 23
Safely Home

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Safely Home"
(A Dedication)
Written on July 14th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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Memories long cast.
As if now cut and shattered glass. Slivers and memories now seemingly disappear?
Yes, for no longer is she here.
...
Loving moments...
Broken embraces...
Holidays never to come.
Vacations?
Nope.
No more places.
...
Crying and still trying.
God, what happened to all my
"Heavenly Graces?"
Instead now it's the Long, Kiss, Goodbye.
Tears on her pillow I now cry.
And, as the pain now begins.
...
Yes, it's crying time again.
It never leaves me.
Yes, it's crying time again.
The best I can do?
The best that I *Can?

Author Notes

*Can: noun /can/ 1. Being able to achieve something important and knowing that you can do it ... Note: This November 23rd, 2022. Yes, will make 19 years since my wife decided not to be here anymore. ... If you know somebody that feels this way and are suicidal? Please call either 9-11 or The Suicide Prevention Hotline at 988. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'Doctor Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Safely Home" Written on July 14th 2022 By Doctor Ricky 1024 'I am home in Heaven dear ones; Oh, so happy and so bright! There is perfect joy and beauty. In this Everlasting light. ... All the pain and grief is over, Every restless tossing passed; I am now at peace Forever, Yes, safely home in Heaven at last. ... Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky December 6th, 1952~ November 23rd, 2003.

Chapter 24
Hold Your Heart

By Ricky1024

"Hold Your Heart"
Written on July 17th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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Jesus, Jesus, take my Pain Away?
Cause I'm just a child of God.
Cause I'm lost and can't You see?
Jesus, Jesus?
Let me Be?
...
Jesus, Jesus.
I need You now!
Let Me Bury my Pain?
My Pain with You?
...
Jesus, Jesus?
Can't you now see?
See that I need to Be?
...
Jesus, Jesus, I just want to Hold You?
That's all I want to Do.
Share my Love with You?
Truly give it All To You!
...
Jesus, Jesus, I want to
"Hold Your Heart"
That's where I need to Be
Jesus, Jesus?
Set me *Free?

Author Notes

*Free: noun /free/ 1. released, unshackled. Note: This poem is based on a plea to Jesus Christ. To end a father's suffering from losing his child. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'Doctor. Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Hold Your Heart"

Chapter 25
Sometimes?

By Ricky1024

"Sometimes?"
Written on July 26th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
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Sometimes when it's very quiet outside.
And, I can hear the Nightingale's sing?
Yes, sing as the breeze through the leaves?
Yes, and again I can believe.
Sometimes....
...
Sometimes when I'm feeling lonely and sad.
And, my past life which was so horribly bad.
I can again see?
See his smile and as I do.
Yes, I can again remember him too.
Sometimes...
...
Sometimes when the skies are no longer blue and Blackened clouds are in my view?
I realize that life way back then, as I grasp hard with this pen.
Sometimes...
...
Sometimes I then press so hard with that pen.
The letters pretend and dance freely.
Yes, from the tip of the pen. Releasing my miseries in ink.
And, I again can think.
As they sip the blue lines along the pages of my mind.
Sometimes...
...
Sometimes?
Sometimes when I do?
Yes and finally these letters?
Letters are just a few?
I can again rest.
Sometimes....
And, finally sometimes?
Sometimes then I can think.
Yes, think only of *You.

Author Notes

*You: pronoun /yu/ Definition of You 1. the one or ones being addressed- used as the pronoun of the second person singular or plural and any grammatical relation except that of a possessive. // you may sit in that chair - used formally only as a plural pronoun of the second person in the dative or accusative case as direct or indirect object of a verb at or as object of a preposition. - compare: THEE,THOU,YE, YOUR, YOURS. 2. ONE sense 2A //after a while, it grows on you ... Note: This poem is an example of a writer, who had lost his only son. (which is a parent's worst nightmare) Which continues to give continuously. as long as he or she shall live. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist, 'allissamarie123' And, Marie's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Door to Imagination"

Chapter 26
Challenged

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Challenged"
Written on July 29th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
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There may come a day.
A day when all you have will suddenly be taken away.
I still wonder to this very day.
To this very day.
Why my son Jay.
Why Jay had to be taken.
Suddenly, taken away?
...
And, when I wonder?
And, when I pray.
Yes, you hope and you pray.
Yes, but then what can you do?
...
I remember that day.
That sad day when God decided.
Decided to take away.
And, you try your very best.
You're very best to accept?
To accept a reason.
...
The reasons why?
But then all you can do?
Yes, all you can do?
Yes, unfortunately is cry.
...
'Frank!'
'Frank did you know that Katie came home early today from school.'
Stated Teresa
'And, it was it because she was having difficulties again.'
'Yes Frank it was her lower back again.'
'And, dear and it seems to be getting worse.'
Stated Theresa Franks..
Two days later...
...
'Frank can you hear me?'
'Yes, Theresa and what is it this time?'
'Frank they called an ambulance at Katie's School!'
'And, she's in Metro Community Hospital."
'The school nurse said that Katie was having difficulty breathing and passed out during gym class!'
'OMG!'
Note: Over the next few months doctors determined that Katie Franks was showing serious signs of renal failure..
Yes, and she was only 9 years old.
And, if it worsened and continued... Katie most likely would have to go through a dialysis treatment.
Perhaps for the entire rest of her life?
...
End of Chapter Number One.
To be continued a little later with Chapter Number Two.
"Katie's Fight"

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist, 'avmurry' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Children of the World"

Chapter 27
Hopelessly Devoted to You

By Ricky1024

"Hopelessly Devoted to You"
(A Dedication)
Written on August 18th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
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It's not just in the way you first held me.
Nor not the way you made me first cry...
Not that first time that I looked into those Beautiful Blue Eyes.
And, I'll never forget the Love that we shared too.
"Hopelessly Devoted to You"
...
Sandy, and, it's not when you first had spoken.
Nor the time when we last said goodbye...
Because there's more...
Yes, much more even to both me and you.
"Hopelessly Devoted to You"
...
Baby can't you finally now see?
It's not when you first arrived at the University...
And, it's not even when I first decided to make you laugh and act like a fool...
Nor the night you called and made me sad and blue.
"Hopelessly Devoted to *You"

Author Notes

*You: pronoun /yu/ 1 : the one or one's being addressed- used as the pronoun of the second person singular or plural in any grammatical relation except that of a possessive. //you may sit in that chair -use formally only as a plural pronoun of the second person in the dative OR accusative case as direct or indirect object of a verb or as object of a preposition ----compare : THEE, THOU, YE, YOUR, YOURS the value your yours. 2 : ONE sense 2a //after a while it grows on you ... Olivia Newton-John AC DBE, was a British born Australian singer actor and activist. She was a four-time Grammy award winner whose music career included five number one hits and many others. ... September 26th, 1948 Cambridge United Kingdom August 8th, 2022.

Chapter 28
Ain't No Sunshine?

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Ain't No Sunshine?"
(When She's Gone)
Written on August 19th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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Ain't no Sunshine when she's gone.
Only Darkness in the Day.
Ain't No Sunshine when She's Gone.
And, she's always gone, I say...
Every night and every day.
...
Oh, how I now must be Strong ..
Pain and Miseries linger On.
Ain't No Sunshine when she's gone...
Only Darkness in the Day.
God, how I wish, wish that there was
a Way?
Lost my April, June's, and Mays ..
...
Ain't No Sunshine when she's gone.
God, how I try to understand and pray...
Pray again for better Days?
Ain't No Sunshine when my baby's Gone...
And, what more can a Broken Hearted man *Say?

Author Notes

*Say: verb /sa/ 1. Utter words as to convey information, an opinion, a feeling, or intention, or an instruction. "Thank You" He said. Similar: Speak, Utter, Voice. ... Note: There's not much more than I can say except on November 23rd 2022. Yes, it will make nineteen years since my wife went away. And, decided she no longer wished to live on this Earth. Yes, anymore. And, if you know anybody who feels this way. Your not alone. And, please contact the National Suicide hotline at 988. Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky. December 6th, 1952~ November 23rd, 2003. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer 'cleo85' Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "The Butterflies"

Chapter 29
Pitter-Patter

By Ricky1024

"Pitter-Patter"
Written on August 20th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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"I see dead things."
"Dead things that when I close my crying Eyes."
"Crying Eyes at Night."
I've cried in tattered lies.
Tattered lies of "Me Oh Mys."
...
Dear Lord God Above.
Once Upon a Time.
I was able to finally see.
See before the "Acidic Pains_
Poured down on my "Window of Payne."
...
Lord, and clearly clear my World?
Yes, was Crystal Pure.
Before...
Pure as a Baby's brand new Smile.
Yes, but then my World died.
Yes, and I continuously did nothing but cry.
Cry and cursed my Christ too.
Because that's what you will do.
...
Do when the pain Remains in Acidic Rain.
Yes, when the tears burn and churn.
And, your guts run Blood Red.
Oh Dear Lord God.
You wish you were instead dead.
...
Once Upon a Time.
I was able to see.
But do You now understand and see?
See that when you lose your only child.
Yes, and inside nothing remains?
"Pitter-Patter"
Upon my...
"Window of "Payne"

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Denise B' And, Denise's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Broken Angels"

Chapter 30
Waiting Here for You (A)

By Ricky1024

"Waiting Here for You" (A)
Written on August 21st, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
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"Waiting Here For You"
Yes, with our hands lifted high.
So, this is my wish.
My long last goodbye.
Lord, this is my cry.
Yes, and reason why.
...
"Waiting Here For You"
Perhaps and ever but I know now in my Broken Heart.
Ever is Forever.
So, I'll cry and no longer understand why?
...
"Waiting Here for You"
Yes, I'll be.
And, ever patient.
And, ever dreaming.
Dreaming for the day
That Day when I no longer be...
"Waiting Here For You?"

****

"No More the Wait" (B)
Written on August 21st, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
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The Waiting has now ended.
And, no more before.
For, I've finally been sended.
Sended to you.
For Lord, now is brightened!
No longer do I fight!
And, no more the regrets!
No more shall I fret.
...
The window of opportunity is clear.
And, I've finally arrived...
Arrived here.
Here where Glory and Blessed am I.
Wipe the tears no longer from my *Eyes?

Author Notes

*Eyes: noun /eyes/ 1. One of the five senses used to see. 2. Plural of eye invoking vision. "My eyes were closed but now I can see" ... Note: They say that no matter what the circumstances. No matter the suffering. Yes, that finally one day. Yes, that day will arrive. When we no longer. Because our Loved one. Waits patiently for us. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist, 'Meg 119' And, Meg's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Waiting"

Chapter 31
Constant Craving

By Ricky1024

"Constant Craving"
Written on August 23rd, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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Like a dog without a bone.
A house that's no longer a home?
Companionship that's now left all alone!
"Constant Craving"
...
God, it's like the ship without its sail.
And, a slug that no longer meets its snail?
A tail without a wag.
A witch that wants to be so much again a hag!
...
Yes, I'm constant craving you.
And, hopelessly lost.
I am so now too!
God, what am I to do?
...
"Constant Craving"
I can feel the wind but not the driving rain within the night.
Cloaked but I am no longer blind?
I see all the past miseries...
One-At-A-Time.
God, constant now with never a break?
The Pains of past I can no longer forsake?
...
"By which also ye are saved, if ye keep in memory what I preached with onto you,
Unless ye have believed in *Vain"
1-Corinthians 15:2

Author Notes

*Vain: adjective /vain/ 1.having or showing an excessive high opinion of one's appearance ability or worth. "their flattery made him vain" Similar: conceited, narcissistic 2. producing no result; useless "a vain attempt to tidy up the room" ... Note: Only a few weeks after the death and car accident of my only son Jason. The driver who was mentally ill. (Brian Cole) Who and was also on an antidepressant called "Effexor" When asked about the accident stated these words... "Shit Happens" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'eileen0204' Eileen's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Craving Space"

Chapter 32
Once in a Lifetime

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Once in a Lifetime"
Written on August 25th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
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Once in a Lifetime before, I lay myself down and go to sleep.
I pray to the Lord...
Yes, a Soul to keep.
Be what will and be what can.
Amen.
...
Once Within this beat of my Broken-Heart.
Before I go to meet.
Meet my Maker...
Be what will and be what can?
Amen.
...
Once but Only Once.
Within a moment lost in Time...
After I go to sleep to finally meet.
Meet my Maker...
Be what will and be what can.
Amen.
...
And, finally when that moment is Near.
The moment is Perfect and the moment is Clear...
Be what Must and in God I now must Trust.
Ashes to Ashes...
And, Dust to Dust..
For, I finally can see around the Bend...
Amen.

Author Notes

Note: Tis life as Death the End. To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara. S. Moretti the L.S.W. with, "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist and Incredible Writer, 'cleo85' And, Cleo's Incredible picture Entitled, "Time Stand Still"

Chapter 33
Lost Within Me?

By Ricky1024

"Lost Within Me?"
Written on August 29th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
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I'm Lost and can no longer see?
I Lost my sight, my feelings, my Me?
So damn dizzy, can hardly stand.
Trying my very best but God.
'Who am I am?'
...
God, things just keep spinning around?
Movement of battered memories come tumbling down?
Why I this happening and what have I found?
...
Lord God there seems to be nothing.
Nothing no longer left for me?
But no matter how Dark...
But no matter how grave?
No matter the moment, nor reason, nor page.
I will continue to write these words that God sends me!
I will continue to go on!
Continue to be Strong!
Because even someone as lost...
Lost...
As Lost as you and me?
With the Lord's faith.
Can continue to *See??

Author Notes

*See: verb /se/ Transitive verb 1 a: to perceive by the eye. b: to perceive or detect by. sight. 2 a: to be aware of :RECOGNIZE //sees only our faults b: to imagine as a possibility: SUPPOSE // couldn't see him as a crook c: to form a mental picture of: VISUALIZE //can still see her as she was years ago d: to perceive the meaning or importance of: UNDERSTAND 3. a: To come to know: DISCOVER b: to be the setting or time of // the last 50 years have seen a sweeping revolution in science... -Barry Commoner ... Note: "A Parent's very worst Nightmare is the Loss of a child, it continues to give as long as you continue to Live." Unknown Poet ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist, 'seshadri_screenivasan' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Lost Formation"

Chapter 34
Hell or Hell for a Day?

By Ricky1024

"Hell or Hell for a Day?" (A)
Written on September 10th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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Time Whispers in Silent Nightmares of no or little relief?
Moments lost in Un-Ending Grief! Blackened clouds now gather overhead.
Dear Lord God am I alive or now dead?
...
Telltale hearts and wasted memories to never be?
God is this the way now for me?
Jacked up on injectable dreams?
Now lost forever in Nightmarish *Screams?

****

"Hell or No Hell?" (B)
Written on September 10th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024

Hellish past!
Boney-clawed fingers that now grasp!
Dear Lord God above!
I beg of You to unlock the hasp!
Show me again some Love?
Release Me from the Nightmares that seem!
Seem to be always there!
And, no longer do I Dream!
No longer any Care?
...
Whoa tis me!
Release me Oh God?
No Life!
No Family!
No Hope!
No Job!
Are you there?

Author Notes

*Screams: verb /screams/ third person present: screams 1. Give a long loud piercing scream or cries expressing excitement, great emotion, or pain. "they could here him screaming in pain!" ... *Screams: noun plural noun: screams 1.a long, loud, piercing cry expressing extreme emotions or pain. "they were awakened by screams for help" ... Note: According to Buddhist beliefs there are Eight Hell's. "Hell of Hell for a Day" This is the lesser of the Extreme. We visit this Hell when we remember an extreme loss from the past. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'MoonWillow' Their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Helza Blaze"

Chapter 35
Just Break My Heart (A)

By Ricky1024

"Just Break My Heart" (A)
(And Make Me Cry Again?)
Written on September 12th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024
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Just Break my Heart the way you do?
Break It Wide Open now too.
Yes, and it's because of you!
Break and Pierce it over and over again.
Blood-Red ink now dripping from my writing pen.
...
Break it good there is no shame.
Tried and true this is all just another part of the game?
Nothing left, nothing remains.
Yes, inside when you are so vain!
...
Do Break My Broken Heart wide open the way you do.
Broken Hearts Are Meant to Cry Now Too.
As, saline tears never evaporate from my eyes!
Stained glass memories make me cry!
Eight by Tens on my wall lined up all in a row.
(Don't you know?)
"Break My Heart"
Please let me go?
Blood-Red ink now dripping from my writing pen.
"Just Break My Heart"
And Make Me Cry Again?

****

"Re-Break My Heart?" (B)
Written on September 13th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky1024

No more crying again for me.
Because it's time now for the dying of me.
Feelings shattered by accelerated means.
Subjected to Unending sufferings and continual Nightmarish Screams.
An interrogation past past allegation.
...
Body is now caught in captured motions.
My movements now subjected to all those past emotions.
Death persists and I can no longer resist!
...
Dear God what on Earth has happened to me?
Am I Alive or am I Dead?
For I can no longer see!
Cloudiness within my head instead?
What is now happening?
I can't even remember my own name?
And, what is this all about?
...
Spirits now beckon me.
Yes, and they are all about!
Colours of White?
But intentions of Gray?
Is it now night or is it now day?
...
Dear God what is happening here to me?
What's going on here and why?
Tis it for me?
I'm scared and I know longer understand a word!
Yes, and my voice seems muffled. And, I can't even hear?
..
'My son, My son.'
'No longer will you be in extreme pain!'
'And, yes it's okay.'
'And, yes I know your name.'
'Who you are and why.'
'Wipe those stained tears from your eyes.'
...
'Jason you've gone through an incredible and extremely *Rare.'
"Giving-Living process"
'For you always so much cared.'
'So others can now again be back there!'
'And, welcome now My son!'
'Yes, welcome here in Heaven with Me.

Author Notes

*Rare: adjective /rer/ 1. (of an event, situation, or condition) not occurring very often. "a rare genetic disorder" Similar: infrequent, few and far between. . (of a thing) not found in large numbers and consequently of interest or value. "the Jellyfish tree, one of the rarest plants on earth" ... Note: First in order for a person and their organs to be Harvested. There has to be no or very little value left. In my situation over, Nineteen years ago today. My only son Jason Richard Smrkovsky, after the car accident. Yes, he was declared by the State of New Jersey. (On March 31st, 2003) Officially deceased on a death certificate. But on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) Yes, we were able to donate him in order to save four extremely grateful Human Beings. ... "Living-Giving Process" See below. To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend. Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W with "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist, 'martin smith' And, Martin's Incredible Picture Entitled, "True Love"

Chapter 36
Listen to My Heart 2003

By Ricky1024

"Listen to My Heart 2003"
Written on September 14th, 2022
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory
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Listen to This Heart and listen well. Rhythm of the beat, hands focused and ringing as if a bell?
As if transfixed, focused patiently, under a spell??
...
Yes, and listen well.
And, soon you will hear?
The music that I bring.
Deep inside now so very near?
...
Listen now and feel?
Yes, and sense the meaning!
And yes, it's quite real!
All Living and all Beaming!
Blaring out a Message.
A Message from me?
...
Can you feel it touching deep inside?
Can you feel it renewing?
Can you feel it renourishing your five senses?
Completely within viewing?
As they all completely now collide?
Dispensing in multiple pains?
As I call out your Name?
*Chaz!
...
"Listen to My Heart?"
Broken and pierced, fractured and torn, completely apart!
But that's okay you see?
Yea because this is my gift.
My Gift of Life to thee!

Author Notes

*Chaz: noun /chaz/ 1. males name. ... Note: Chaz(never knew his last name) Was one of four lucky recipients to receive organs from my son, and only son Jason Richard. Chaz was the first to write me back around mid April. ... On April 1st, 2003. I gave my only son Jason away but not forever. And, now, fortunately over Nineteen years and counting. Three out of Four Extremely grateful Human Beings walked away that day with a second chance of life. ... Note: One passed away who received Jason's liver after eight long years on 2011. Yes, but the other three? Which are two more men and one unknown grown female from South Jersey. Still have hearts beating! Yes, and still have kidneys filtering! Yes, and a pair of lung breathing life within! ... So, you now understand! Yes, as you "Listen to My Heart" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this talented Artist and Incredible Writer, 'Cleo 85' And, Cleo's Incredible picture Entitled. "Flaming Love"

Chapter 37
Lost Forevermore

By Ricky1024

Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of violence.

"Lost Forevermore"
Written on September 18th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
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Yes I've lost my Day.
First lost the Sun and Moon.
Now what more can I say?
Yes, then my Sunny Days.
...
Darkness surrounds me and misery confounds me.
God, I'm so, so, confused?
Even Lost my muse.
Yes, and it seems to me?
That nobody wants to see?
Won't ever even listen to a word I say.
...
"Silence Tis Always Heard"
Unknown Poet.
So what should I now do?
Cry and die for you?
...
"Lost Forevermore"
Blackened Clouds strangling Me!
Blackened waters gangling me!
Bony fingers grasp and scratch Me!
Lord God Above, yes there's Never much relief.
Always that presence of *Grief?

Author Notes

*Grief: noun. /gref/ 1. Deep sorrow, especially that was caused by somebody's death. "She was overcome with grief" Similar: sorrow, misery, sadness. Informal: trouble or annoyance "We were too tired to cause any grief" Similar: trouble, annoyance, bother ... Note: I can define the word "Grief" Yes, with a simple statement. "To lose your child is a parent's worst Nightmare that continues to give as long as you continue to live" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Sea Jay 1' And, Jay's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Til Death, Do Art"

Chapter 38
Run to the Father

By Ricky1024

"Run to the Father"
Written on September 18th, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'

Skinned knees, nose bleeds, broken bones heal.
Pain and Anguish, Anguish and Pain
Both a "Double-Sided Sword"
Double-Sided Sword that still cutz so Deep.
...
Precious Tears that need to be washed away.
Memories long, gone, by but in a simple of way.
A simple tear, a simple cry.
Life to Life...
Life to Death...
'Trying so hard daddy.'
'So, very hard now to catch my breath.'
...
Skinned knees, nose bleeds, broken bones heal.
Pain and Anguish, Anguish and Pain.
But as long as we have Faith and Believe?
"Run to the *Father"

Author Notes

*Father: noun /father/ 1. a man in relation to his child or children. 2. often as a title or form of address) a priest "pray for me, father" "Margaret's father died at an early age" Similar: priest, pastor, parson ... *Father: verb (of a man) cause a pregnancy resulting in a birth of a child. "he gathered three children" Similar: as the father of, sire, engender. ... Note: The loss of a child is a Father's worst Nightmare. On March 31st, 2003. My only son Jason, as the result of a car accident, had to go away. Away but not forever. ... To learn more about'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1 ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'simonka' And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Our Father" '

Chapter 39
Tis Oh Broken Heart of Me? (A)

By Ricky1024

"Tis Oh Broken Heart of Me?" (A)
Written on September 22nd, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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So so broken cheese this Heart of Me
Waves of lost emotions and fractional memories there ain't no way I can Lord God above go on this way.
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Tears of grief tears of fears tears rolling endlessly upon my cheeks No More Love the way it used to be can't you understand Lord there's nothing left except uselessness an emotional distress so now don't you know I'm going to end the show last curtain call lights out!

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"Broken Hearts are Meant 2 Be?" (B)
Written on September 22nd, 2022
By Doctor Ricky 1024

Broken yes Tis this Heart of Me.
Fractured in the Perfect form of Misery!
Lost the Sun, lost the Stars, lost the Moon's glow.
(Don't You know?)
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Painful Tis this Heart!
Split already apart!
Apart down the middle.
Musical tones played as if on Satan's fiddle?
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The Best Way Lord God?
But Lord why?
Lord God why me?
And, will you now finally See?
Seeing is believing?
Now, Lord God.
You see it and now You don't?
Yes, a Lifetime of "Do's and Don'ts!"
Yes, in an Eendless Sea of Misery?

Author Notes

Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'seshadri_sreenivasan' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Swirling Emotions"

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