By Ricky1024
"Heart Spoken Moments"
(The Book Prologue)
Written on April 19th, 2014
By Doctor Ricky 1024
And Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright Ã? Fanstory 2014
'All Rights Reserved'
The content of the book,
"Heart Spoken Moments"
Will release my grief and depression that surrounds me, my entire life.
And, there will be my workings here, including thoughts about my late son Jay.
And his faith along with passages from my other book.
(The Gift of Life)
...
The reasoning behind these amazing thoughts will be presented as well, and indeed, in order to expand my image beyond human comprehension.
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"Stealing My Heart Away!"
(A Dedication)
Written on May 29th, 2014
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2014
'All Rights Reserved'
"Life essential, Love hurts it's elemental!"
(Theology 40.33)
...
'And now, feel my pain!'
'And, as it builds?'
'As, if boulder's being blown and castaway!'
...
'Maintain, move, and slide off the plains and pains of my reality.'
'As now, missiles miss their targets in vain!'
'For this is known as...
"The Killing Time!"
...
'And, unfortunately for me?'
'This is the way...
'For me...
'And, unfortunately for me?
'This is all that's left inside of me!'
And Lord God,
'This is how it's supposed to be.'
...
'To be or not to be?'
'As Stars now skip a beat within this insanity!'
'Yes, As My Heart sinks ever deeper into some form of pain and Calamity!'
...
'Yes, they exit my body and sore away for bitterness exists within my Milky Way!'
'And yes, unfortunately for me?'
'This is the way it was meant to be.'
...
'No relief from the horror, the mounting miseries, as my Heart?'
'Is extracted and taken away from *Me?'
| Author Notes |
Appropriate Word Count:382.
*Me: n. person, self, human being. ... 'Yes unfortunately for me?' 'On March 31st 2003?' 'My name is Jason, who is the main person speaking in the poem.' 'And yes, my Heart was taken away 17 hours later.' 'And, I was diagnosed, "Brain-dead" 'And, obviously in my case?' 'There was no oxygen left.' 'Within my broken brain.' 'Slipped into a deep coma and 'raccooned' (Syndrome when a person's body shaken so violently) It looks and mimics as if a person was in a major boxing match. Eye swollen closed shut black and blued. .:. 'Yes, Seventeen hours later?' 'This would destroy my dad's Heart and also take my Heart away for a good reason.' ... And, to learn more about, 'Organ-tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the LSW with "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1 ... "I Mourn'd and yet shall mourn with ever-returning spring...' Walt Whitman ... And, I shall Mourn'd with each and every returning beat of this broken of Heart" Richard Edward Smrkovsky ... Special thanks goes out first, as always to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing Writer and Talented Artist, 'cleo85' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Happy End" |
By Ricky1024
"Within the Sadness of this Poet's Heart"
Written on April 6th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
Within the Sadness there will never be any Gladness?
As each and every passing birthday?
Goes astray...
...
Within the Sadness there will never, ever, again be even a small glimpse of Gladness?
As each and every holiday?
Goes astray...
****
Within the Ever Pretend and Enduring return of this Sadness? There will Never, Ever, again...
Be any Gladness for this Poet's Heart?
Hath gone astray...
...
'From this Continuous and Never-Ending Miseries...
'As my Shredded and Breaded... 'Broken, Sliced, Delivered into Livered Heart!'
'Doth accept each breath...
'In and out...
'Out and in...
'But perhaps of course?'
'Tis only just a Sin!'
...
'For I am truly...
"The Wisp In The Wind!"
'Awaiting again for my life to begin!'
'And, Shed not a Tear...
'A pitied and pious thought...
'From my Heart?'
....
'Doth No More Start!'
'For this will truly and forever shall persist!'
'From the end and back to the very start.'
"Within the Sadness of this Poet's *Heart"
Approximate Word Count: 193.
| Author Notes |
*Heart: n.
pump, major organ, core. And to learn more about, 'Organ-tissue Donations' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with, "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review this Amazing Writer and Talented Artist, 'cleo85' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Magic Man" ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organs graciously offered on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... "I Mourn'd yet, shall mourn with ever-returning spring..." Walt Whitman. ... "I Mourn'd and Shall always and forever shalleth mourn with each and ever-returning Spring... Richard Edward Smrkovsky |
By Ricky1024
"Nourishing Thoughts"
Written on April 6th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
'As I think of you...
'I can still see Thee Jay.
'As if forever from afar.
And, I no longer wonder where you are...
And, every thought Jay...
'I so miss since you gone away...
...
'As I again think of you...
'And, even though you went away...
'I again I think of you...
'I can feel of you...
'I so much need of you...
'My only son Jay.
'And why Lord God?'
'Did he have to go away?'
...
'As I think of you...
'And, all the past things that we used to do...
'I see Thee...
'I as touch of Thee...
'So, so, very much of 1Thee...
...
'And, Jay?'
'As I continue to Forever think of nothing but you...
'And, yes my Heart is broken.'
'As if but once spoken?'
'And, never again bespoken?'
...
'As tendered sweet words flow gently...
'Now caressing each and every line...
'Each and every page...
'For truly and ever...
"As my cup runneth over.'
'As if I'm trapped or forever caught?'
"Nourishing Thoughts"
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first as always to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist, 'iPhone7' And, there Amazing and Incredible Picture Entitled, "Be Still and Remembered" |
By Ricky1024
"When Stars Died?"
Written on April 6th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
'Loss of me, loss of you?'
'Lost the only child, it's so true.'
'Feelings inside?'
'Time left and no longer resides?'
...
'So, why do I still hide?'
'Loss of me, loss of you?'
'Lost feelings and time inside!'
'Since I did lose you!'
'Yes, and as for me?'
...
'I lost my Mind, then my Only Son, following shortly by my Only Wife.'
'And finally?'
'My very own and shity life!'
...
'Please don't confuse me with "The Walking Dead!"
'I only lost something...
'Something, so, so, very precious instead.'
...
'If they say...
'There are no longer Colored Rainbows for me?'
'I would reply...
'That no longer signifies, nor does the Moon still Glow.'
...
'And, allow me to justify?'
'When you no longer can see?'
'When you no longer can hear?'
'Nor touch?'
'No longer?'
'Can feel?'
'Then perhaps, you lost too much?'
...
'And, if the Sun's heat feels now so cold upon your face?'
'And, if I can be so bold?'
'And, as I'm aging at this very moment but feel less than old?'
'If you're still here with me?'
'I lost the Stars...
'I lost the RAINBOW...
'I lost the Moon's Glow?'
'And, you should know?'
....
'No longer tis Sweet this Red Rose?'
'My government categorically denies me!'
'And, for on this very day?'
'I lost my only son Jay.'
'And, when I lost this too?'
...
'And yes, I lost so all of those...
'That I loved so, so, much...
'And yes, I cried Endlessly!'
'All those Endless and Sleepless nights.'
'And, I cursed and wanted God to take me too!'
'And, Cried...
"When the Stars *Died"
Approximate Word Count: 302.
| Author Notes |
*Died: n.
passed away, ceased to exist, gone. ... Seventeen years ago, this past March 31st, 2020. I lost my only son Jason after he was involved, as a passenger, in a horrible car accident. ... And, to learn more about, 'Organ-tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with, "The Gift of Life' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... "I Mourn'd yet, shall mourn with ever-returning spring...' Walt Whitman ... "And, I too Mourn'd and Shall always and forever mourn with ever-returning Spring...' Richard Edward Smrkovsky Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. 'Organs graciously offered on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing Writer and Talented Artist, 'cleo85' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Blue Light" |
By Ricky1024
"The Elusive Butterfly'
Written on December 1st, 2012
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2012
'All Rights Reserved'
'She's a butterfly of no sort.'
'A little sprite and a lot of tort!'
'Graceful in length, traceful in depth!'
'Making her place before her very last breath!'
...
'Born out of generation, forlorn and Un.'
'Beckons her will...
'Forced to taste the Bitter Bad Pill!'
...
'But as exclusive and she may be?'
'Exclusive was not meant to be?' 'You see?'
'She is so free but boundlessly bonds of her perpetuity.'
...
'Thousands of miles, she finally rests after traveling and a long flight.'
'She lands on a milkweed plant where she will soon give life!'
...
'Like a glider born that night.'
'As she supplemented the moonlight!'
'And yes, she's constantly in motion, always and flight.'
...
'As she glides gracefully with the Westerly winds, awaiting patiently for her new life below, to *Begin?'
Approximate Word Count:163.
| Author Notes |
*Begins: n
'This beautiful Poemvwas based on an event that actually happened to me.' (when I was a very young man about age eight) ... 'I found that beautiful Chrysalis attached to small outward milkweed plant's stem.' 'I wasn't sure what it was but it was beautiful.' 'As if a seashell with the prettiest and lightest green.' 'And a circular pattern going from tip the bottom of gold and black dots.' ... Note: 'This is known as a "Chrysalis" 'Which is created of course by a monarch butterfly.' ... 'After a quite a while in a jar.' 'I placed it in my parents hot water heater room.' 'And, it did eventually hatch!' 'As I watched the process.' 'The Leprodoptra comes out with the wings first folded in.' 'And, they slowly while the insect pumps her wings?' 'A miracle happens as she expands to the point where now she's able to fly!' ... Special thanks again goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing Writer, and Talented Artist, 'cleo85' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Oberon" |
By Ricky1024
"Sometime Before Eye Die?'
Written on March 26th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
'As that Severe Pain paints a pictured view?'
'Of my Up-and-Coming Death?'
'I breathe in perhaps, my very last Breath?'
...
'Yes, Death becomes me!'
'As her face?'
'Cuts deeper as if a new and Exclusive View?'
'An Acrid of Acidic Caustic Stew!'
...
'Yes, my time is f****** Over-Due!'
'So, here I go again?'
'And, here I go again trying hard to resist this stick?'
'This Prick?'
...
'Yes, an Eye For an Eye and a Blade for a Blade!'
'Yes, here I go again as I stick her deeply with my Son!'
'Yes, the blade of the knife trying hard to take my lousy life!'
...
'God knows this Extreme Pain remains!'
'And, persists as the view of my Up-and-Coming Death?'
'My very, last, breath?'
...
'God, No more shall I resist!:
'As if I be a Slave to this Unholy Grief!'
'Yes God, with this Thief whom disguises and becomes and tries?'
"Sometimes Before Eye *Die?"
Approximate Word Count: 184.
| Author Notes |
*Die: n.
death, a passing, end. Note: 'Based on my actual Triple Suicide Dance attempt on December 1st, 2006.' ... Special thanks again, goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review this Amazing and Talented Artist, 'jgrace' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Earthly Surprises" |
By Ricky1024
"Sometime Before I Die?' (A)
Written on March 26th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
'As that Severe Pain paints a pictured view?'
'Of my Up-and-Coming Death?'
'I breathe in perhaps, my very last Breath?'
...
'Yes, Death becomes me!'
'As her face?'
'Cuts deeper as if a new and Exclusive View?'
'An Acrid of Acidic Caustic Stew!'
...
'Yes, my time is f****** Over-Due!'
'So, here I go again?'
'And, here I go again trying hard to resist this stick?'
'This Prick?'
...
'Yes, an Eye For an Eye and a Blade for a Blade!'
'Yes, here I go again as I stick her deeply with my Son!'
'Yes, the blade of the knife trying hard to take my lousy life!'
...
'God knows this Extreme Pain remains!'
'And, persists as the view of my Up-and-Coming Death?'
'My very, last, breath?'
...
'God, No more shall I resist!:
'As if I be a Slave to this Unholy Grief!'
'Yes God, with this Thief whom disguises and becomes and tries?'
"Sometimes Before Eye Die?"
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"Touched by God!" (B)
(An Easter story)
Written on April 12th, 2020
"When you touch God?"
"God touches you right back!"
(Theology 50.10)
...
'On this Beautiful Easter day.'
'On the month of April, I now must say...
...
'If I do may?'
'Say that this is the time to not only gather and celebrate but it's also a time of Remembrance!'
...
'Yes, remembrance of all those in all the many Wars who passed away to protect our country!'
'And, a time of remembrance to honor all of those family and friends whom also passed away.'
'That we miss so very, very, much.'
...
'The Remembrance of Jesus Christ who died on this day at Calvary!'
'And yes, He was hung high and crucified on a Rosewood Cross at Calvary.'
'For you and me.'
...
'All of these thoughts are very important to me but I also have my own.'
'My very, very, Special way to remember this important day!'
'And, remember my Jay.'
...
'My Jay, whom like Christ made a sacrifice but in a different way?'
'My Jay, an Eighteen, year, old, child whom took a Joy Ride to His Destiny and Fate.'
But wait...
...
'My Special Jay?'
'Did not die on this or any Day!'
'And, I don't care what the State of New Jersey does say!'
...
'Because?'
'I beg to differ for my Jay?'
'Whom was always nice not naughty?'
'My Beautiful Jay?'
'Not much more I can say?'
...
'For my Jay?'
'My Blessed Jay?'
'And, on his memory on this day?'
'Will haunt and taunt me to the end of my life.'
'But that not naughty but NICE Jay?'
...
'But I do and must now admit my feelings are mixed.'
'Sometimes they reside and collide in my Broken Heart.'
'And, I can be of cried and filled of me with sadness.'
'But then other times?'
'I think of what my Jay had done and it refills me with *Gladness!'
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Approximate Word Count: 53
45.
| Author Notes |
*Gladness: adj.
joy, happiness, life. Note: 'The First piece was based on my actual poem Entitled, "Triple Suicide Dance!" 'An attempt on December 1st, 2006 to take my life.' The Second?' ... 'To learn more about, 'Organ-tissue Donations?' 'Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S Moretti the L.S.W. with, "The Gift of Life" 'Philadelphia Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1' ... "I Mourn'd, and yet shall mourn with ever-returning spring..." Walt Whitman ... "I will have Mourn'd, but shall have mourn forever, with ever-returning Spring...' Richard Edward Smrkovsky ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organs graciously offered on April 1st, 2003 (April Fool's Day) Happy Easter from my Family to Yours! Richard Edward Smrkovsky ... Special thanks again, goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review this Amazing and Talented Artist, 'jgrace' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Earthly Surprises" |
By Ricky1024
"Kissed the Moon"
Written on April 27th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
'Luna the Moon Goddess kissed sweet memories long past!'
'as each slot in time sauntered through...
'boundaries that she never knew!'
'Seeking a residue beyond the Stars!'
...
'Capturing moonbeams from afar!'
'God's gaze of long-lost reflected off the meteors that would pass!'
'As, Sun's Fiery-Golden Calvacade of Hope's and Dreams...
'Seemingly to be fading!'
'And, no more shall she be suffering so...
****
'Converted clouds turning now into brilliant Ringed-Rainbows that Sing!'
'And, she remember the time...
'Yes, when Jesus came to the Moon!'
'Yes, as he hitched a ride on Haley's Comet and needed a place to rest his weary Gloom.'
'And, she welcomed Him!'
(This visitor from Earth)
'As their caressed Heart beats touched for all there worth!'
...
'And, they touched!'
'And, oh yes how they touched!'
'And, how they touched these two Gods now from above!'
'As now together...
'They made Passionate Love!'
...
'Fireworks Cascading!'
'Angelic Music a Crescendo of allocating!'
'Yes, those thoughts were now fading but they made Love!'
'And...
'Much, much, more than just that?'
...
'For, truly this couple so Deemed and Blessed since their birth!'
'Created this bBeautiful Green Planet...
'This Beautiful Green Planet...
'Today that we call Earth!'
Approximate Word Count: 271.
| Author Notes |
Note: This was a continuation from a previously written story about Luna and Jesus.
... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing Writer and Talented Artist, 'cleo85' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Moonlight and Tequila" |
By Ricky1024
"Blinded By Your Touch"
Written on April 29th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
"Extinction setting in as if now surrounded buy some past Eerie and Mysterious Sin?"
(Theology 50.15)
...
'I didn't notice because I'm blind!'
'But, You found a way to hold me?'
'And, you treated me Goldly!'
Oceans of Pearls...
Rivers of Diamonds...
'I could see the Amazing Sparkle in your Blue eyes!'
'And, that's when I realized.'
...
'Yes, I realize that it was meant to be!'
'Me for you and you for me!'
'But I crashed and went down in flames.'
'Fiery and Endless remains!'
'Remains of Unending Pains and misery!'
'But then as if it was not meant to be?'
'You estinguished?'
'And, I smoldered in your Gentle Arms of Embrace!'
...
'And, I died.'
'Oh yes indeed.'
'I died in your arms.'
'And, you cried but that's the way it was meant to be.'
Yes, and supposed to be.'
'To be or not to be?'
'That is the question but I Loved you so.'
'So very much.'
'Why?'
'Why?'
'Well I was as if,
"Blinded By Your *Touch!"
Approximate Word Count: 240.
| Author Notes |
*Touch n.
'This love poem was written dedicated to my deceased son Jason and my deceased wife Carolyn.' Both so so so missed as if... "Blinded By Your Touch" ... Note: After Jason's passing on April 1st, 2003.' 'We donated His many Organs in order to Save Four Lives.' 'And, Today?' 'Three out of Four... 'Still walk this Green Earth.' ... Special thanks goes out first, as always to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing Writer and Talented Artist, 'cleo 85.' 'And, her Incredible picture Entitled, "Lady Justice" |
By Ricky1024
"The Same House" (A)
(A Dedication)
Written on April 30th, 2020
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
Within, "The House of Pain'
'Dwells an answer to the Misery"
(Theology 50.19)
...
'I am no more-
I am, not sure?'
'Who I am or where I are?'
'I understand nothing, nor feel a thing.'
'But I hear music, that I think the Angels may bring?'
...
'I imagine that I died?'
'But how God, how?'
'I was only Eighteen?'
'And, never hurt I think.'
'So why do I now, suffer so?'
'And, I do know this...
...
'Nothing seems to matter now, as only matter is being now being redistributed.'
'And, I hope as I leave that all I left behind?'
'All might now passed family and friends?'
'Never forget me.'
...
'Yes God, never hurt a thing.'
'Not even a mouse.'
'But for now I must enter...
"The Same *House"
Approximate Word Count: 210.
| Author Notes |
House: n.
home, abode, dwelling. This is based on the death of my son Jason on March 31st 2003. As a passenger in a car accident 17 hours later he was brain-dead so as a result? ... 'To learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend, Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W.with, "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing, as well as, Talanted Artist, 'cherrimead' And, her Incredible Picture, "Green Serene" |
By Ricky1024
"The Same House" (B)
Written on May 1st, 2020
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright �© Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved
'The day is now May 1st, 2020.'
'6,240 Days, as well, as Nights.'
'Since my Life below as you know?'
"In your Earthly House."
'That I was ousted and transported away.....
'And, so many, many, things have now happened!'
'Some I cannot imagine, nor understand, as may?'
...
'The Current Panedemic Virus and Crisis below?'
'Hath brought many lost Souls above to our family in Heaven above.'
'And, you don't have to worry.'
'As they are all now well cared for and happy, again.'
'And, their Misery?'
'Their many Pains?'
'Although still remain but below and not here above!'
...
'And, Yes they're all being well cared for and cured!'
'And, now they're pleasurable reward?'
'Tis Simply Amazing!'
...
'The Sun rises early here in Heaven and all of us hath certain tasks to do?'
'Some go back below to care for you!'
'While others stay in need to feed and to care for the many, many,
"The Dearly Departed"
...
'Yes, we are all One Big Family here above!'
'A family united in God and protected in Christ!'
'With no more need to worry...
'With no more need for pain...
'Nor misery nor strife!'
...
'Heaven's Glows and everyone here above knows!'
'And, I too await my time to again Glow and share with my family below.'
'That we all will now eventually live...
'After being ousted callously?'
As if treated as a louse?'
'Shalleth live together in....
"The Same *House"
Approximate Word Count: 304.
| Author Notes |
*House: n.
home, abode, dwelling. 'And, on April Fool's Day over 6,240 days ago?' 'My only Son Jason?' 'Lying in wait?' 'Brain Dead and in s Vegetative State of being?' 'Would offer and give of His body, "The Gift of Life!" 'To Four Lucky Human beings.' ... 'And, to learn more about, "Organ-Tissue Donations?' 'Simply contact my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the LSW with "The Gift of Life" 'Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1.' ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. 'Organs Graciously offered on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing and Talented Artist, 'jgrace' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Angel in Flight" |
By Ricky1024
"The Same House" (C)
Written on May 1st, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024 and Jay
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
'This day will be long.'
'Yes, as if a Sweet Song gone so wrong?'
'But why Lord why?'
'For there are so, so, many
"Dearly Departed'
'Arriving each and every day!'
...
'So, so, many...
'Within the thousands of us.'
'And, it's still very, very, too much!:
'And, you feel all hath suffered so.' 'I just need to know?'
...
'Know they come from below, released that very, very, day?'
'And, now we're doing the very, very, best we can.'
...
"Exhaustion!"
'Complete and Utter Exhaustion!:
'And, as this may be difficult.'
'We as a family?'
'Are all of us, working together tediously!'
'Saving and helping all of those 'That are so, so bad.'
'Do bad that their Lungs are filled to the brim!'
'So, so, sad.'
...
'Yes we remain steadfast and steady.'
'A family reunited in God and protected in Christ!'
'No more need to worry!'
'No more pain!:
'No more Misery!'
'No more Strife!'
...
Heaven Glows and everyone here above knows and that is so, so, true.
'As, I await my time.'
'Await my time to Glow!'
'Glow with my family below!'
'And, sadly like me.'
'Now taken and ousted.'
'And, for know?'
'They must live.'
'Live together.'
"Together in...
"The Same *House"
Approximate Word Count: 258.
| Author Notes |
*House: n.
abode, residence, dwelling. ... 'Yes, we all eventually will live in the same house.' 'Thr same house in Heaven.' 'The same house under God we trust.' 'Controlled as it must!: 'By Jesus the Christ.: ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing Artist, and Talented Writer, 'cleo85' And, her Incredible picture Entitled, "Diving for Food" |
By Ricky1024
"Stay Calm My Beating
Heart"
(A Dedication)
Written on May 14th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky1024
And Rosemond
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
"The Sun is it Godly Creation filled with Liquid Elation"(Theology 50.26)
...
A Heart filled Sphere is far but feels to be very real.
Ageless and Unique as all life revolves around it!
This Sweet Godly Treat!
...
Treat of Warmth...
Strong and Tender...
As it revolves in Splendor!
And I show so much now remembered Eric!
His Heart of Spirit warms my Heart!
...
And yes, losing Derek had taken its Roll ..
It's Toll...
As I age...
As I age another day...
Turn another missing page...
Another lost Moment...
Of Our *Souls.
| Author Notes |
* Souls: n.
spirit of being. My husband of four years passed away in the horrible car accident. And then an amazing person. This writer here Doctor Ricky? Reached out and shed his pain and began caring... About me with warm and welcoming arms... Wrapped around me... ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review this Amazing and Talented Artist, 'MK Flood.' And, Micheal's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Hail King of Purple" |
By Ricky1024
"Break My Heart and Hope 2 Die'
Written on May 16th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1924 and Jay
Copyright �© Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
"She came and went into the Night and to my Life!"
Silent and Deadly...
Aware not but Ready...
Inclusive but Steady...
This Silent but Deadly...
...
'She first introduced herself to me as a friend?'
'And, she reached deep...
'Ever so deep...
'Deeper, deeper, into my Soul.'
'Then, as if a prayer ending with Amen.'
'She struck and with my luck?'
'So, so, Deadly this...
"Silence of the Night!"
...
'So I cried, as she lied and I felt my Broken of Heart shutter...
'And, Shatter into a Billion puzzle pieces.'
...
'A Billion pieces of the Disease.'
'Received and smacked!'
'And, then cracked into Fragments of...
"What the Heck?"
...
Estes thought now delivered and so Direct I went and did exactly what she said...
'Eliminate that Broken of Heart!'
'No matter what Mother Fucker!'
'Shove it down and love it as you shake it around!'
'Love my Scaly Tool.'
'I truly love you!'
...
'So I shoved it in once then twice.'
'Then ripped it out!'
'Screamed and shout!'
'Because, that is what you do!'
'After deciding to go to take this to "The End!"
..
'Yes I ripped it out as if a Dead piece of dried Clay.'
'And yes, I threw it away that piece of clay.'
'And, I did truly die that day.'
'December 1st *2006.'
Approximate Word Count: 256.
| Author Notes |
*2006: n.
date, point in time, actual event. 'On December 1st, 2006.' 'After waking up suffering severely.,' 'For two and a half years.' 'As if directed by Satan.' 'Smiling, I did exactly as I was told and shoved a seven inch Serrated Steak knife.' 'Not once, twice the?' "Trying to hide it.' 'Again, into my chest hoping to die.' 'But, unfortunately I missed the Heart but hit the Heart Valve!' 'And now?' 'I was bleeding internally.' ... 'Again without hesitation.' 'Twenty minutes later.' 'I took the same knife and slashed my neck not once, nor twice.' 'But Thrice!' 'Finally then?' 'I retired to my room.' 'And, talking to my son that I was coming.' 'Again, with no result.' 'Frustrated now, I did what most people would first think.' 'I swallow a whole bottle of Depakote!'. (Used for depression and seizures.) ... 'And, if you feel anywhere near as bad as I did that horrible day?' 'Please call for help 9-11.' ... Special thanks goes out first, ad always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. 'Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist avmurry' And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Happy Me" |
By Ricky1024
"Falling Out of Grace"
Written on July 9th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
"A Simple Elegance of Refinement of Movement"
(She walks with Grace down the wedding line)
...
'Through the Atonement of the Lord Jesus Christ...
'Grace is a Sacred Gift from Heavenly Father.'
(Given through His Son Jesus the Christ)
...
'Through the powers of Spiritual Healing offered through the mercy and the love of our Savior...
"Jesus Christ"
'Grace can be obtained to those whom are worthy.'
...
'From the very first moment of Conception.'
(November 5th, 1984)
'I knew deep in my Heart of Hearts that I'd finally obtained and found Grace.'
...
'Yes from the Love of a Father from above...
'Conception did come about that long ago day in November.'
...
'And, I watched this "Grace"
'Yes, grow and become a Beautiful young man.'
'My only Miss-Gotten....
'Never to be forgotten...
'Son Jason.'
'Yes and I watched in disgrace as it was suddenly taken as if, "Erased?"
...
'Yes, taken from me the month of March 2003.'
'And, not the month of May.'
'But may I now address this issue?'
'As you will need to grab a box of Kleenex tissues.'
'For the process of...
"Falling Out of Grace"
'Did really happen in my and to my only son?'
'In Jason's *Case.'
Approximate Word Count:252.
| Author Notes |
*Case: n.
situation, presence of thought. 'Yes, on March 31st, 2003.' "After Seventeen hours... 'Yes my only son Jason was diagnosed... "Brain-dead." 'Deeply, comatosed, and raccooned.' 'And, this is my interpretation of the results from... "Falling Out of Grace" ... To learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simple contact my Dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia,PennsylvaniaAt 1-800-DONORS-1. .... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ Match 31st, 2003. Organs Graciously offered to four on April 1st, 2003 (April Fool's Day) ... "I Mourn'd, and yet shall mourn with ever-returning spring..." Walt Whitman ... "I Mourn'd, and shalleth mourn forever and ever... "With each and every... "Ever-Returning Spring..." Richard Edward Smrkovsky ... Special thanks again goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Angelheart' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Grace" |
By Ricky1024
"Praying With All My Broken
Heart?"
Written on July 28th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
"Once, when a short time was a long time ago...
"Dreams would come true and happen to you?"
"Once, when a long time ago was just a short time ago?"
'I lost my World and everything in it.'
...
'And, no more did the sun shine.'
"The Waves?"
'Washed away and Endlessly...
'Were Licking my Fears but not away?'
'Oh Dear Lord God?'
'Here I go again but how can I continue?'
'Continue to pray?'
...
"Time is now measured in mere Heartbeats of
"Let's Pretend"
'And, all my Prayers, Hopes and Dreams became just?'
"Nightmares come to stay?"
...
'Lord, no more does the Sun continue to shine, nor do the birds sing Sweet Melodies?'
'Dear Lord God, how can I get find my Sunny Day?'
...
"Time is now measured in mere heartbeats of
"Let's Pretend?"
'And Lord God?'
"Let's Pretend?"
'Seems to now End?'
...
'Maybe Lord God Above, if I can take the Long and Shorts away...
'And mix them all back up for a new start?'
"Praying Now With All My Unbroken Heart?"
Approximate Word Count:244.
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Writer and Amazing Artist, 'Doctor Ricky 1024' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Heart Spoken" |
By Ricky1024
"Heartless" (A)
Written on July 31st, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
"Sticks and stones may break my bones but..
'I live in a Glass House.'
'And I live alone, no need for a cell phone.'
"People who live in Glass Houses, shouldn't throw Stones."
...
'Time Bleeds and it's Nightfall.'
'And, I'm going under into the "Thunder Fields"
'No one to turn to?'
'I was getting used to someone I loved?'
'But I left that all behind?'
'As I left my guard down.'
..
'I was getting used to being someone you loved but now?'
'Nothing matters!'
'Yes, I'm a Loser and a Quitter!'
'Doesn't mean a damn thing?'
'And yes, I'm a Sad Being.' (shouldn't be with you)
'Because I'm just a quitter.'
...
"TWO TIME LOSER!"
'Yes, first lost the only Son.'
'Then Eight, months, later?'
'The only Wife!'
'Easy come?'
"Easy go?"
...
'But for me?'
'That isn't always so.'
'Tried my very best, to end this Quest.'
'And, I took it to the extreme.'
'Wound up like a broken dolly.
"Doll-Eyed Paper Dream?"
...
"The Pot Calls the Kettle Black!"
'And, something's been Brewing?'
'As, Darkened Clouds now
'And, Thunder Claps!'
'Everything strikes twice as 'Lightning Laughs...
'In the face of my Reality?'
...
'Coffin lids closing now and perhaps this is...
"The Last Picture Show?"
'Lights, Cameras, Action!'
'I Should have known it wouldn't be this damned way?'
'Starring in my very own movie?'
"Death Becomes Ricky!"
"No Time Left for You?" (B)
Written on July 31st, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
'It's midnight and stars are bright.'
'And, something's amazing is now going to happen this night!'
'And, He lies in wait...
'Ready and willing to Demonstrate?'
...
'As it too late?'
'Yes, the Jokes now on me!'
'Because what you get?'
'Is exactly now what you see?'
...
'Tried and Tested never been bested!'
And most certainly never arrested?'
Yes, and now the Coffins Lid is closing!'
'AND I AWAKE MY FEET WITH *DESTINY!'
Approximate Word Count: 392.
| Author Notes |
*Destiny: n.
fate, eventual outcome. ... On March 31st, 2003? My only Son Jason Richard was involved in an accident as a sorried passenger. And, his fate was sealed! ... Special thanks goes out first, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review and this Amazing Artist, 'Angelheart' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "I'm the outside looking in" |
By Ricky1024
"Broken Heart Day"
Written on August 20th, 2020 By Doctor Ricky 1024 Copyright © Fanstory 2020 'All Rights Reserved'
...
'It's, "Broken Heart Day"
"And, my "Heart of Hearts"
'Has gone Astray.'
'What to do when there is no 2more you?'
...
'It's, "Broken Heart Day'
'And my, "Silly Heart?"
'Is gone to pray!'
'Anf yes, it's down on its knees begging you Lord please!'
...
'Please Lord, won't you please?'
'Come to me and bring all your love for me?'
'And, show me the way?'
...
'Dear Lord God?'
'Why must I pray?:
'Each and every day?'
'I can't seem to get over my *Jay?'
..
'So i'm asking of a favor?'
'Yes, for You this day?'
"For there must be a better way?:
...
'Each and every memory, picture, and Holiday?'
'What more can I say?'
'They come back over and over again?:
'Dear Lord God above?'
'It's, "Broken Heart Day"
Approximate Word Count:159.
| Author Notes |
*Jay: Noun.
As a result of March 31st 2003.' 'My only son Jason got in the wrong car and was in the wrong situation.' 'So, as a result?' 'Seventeen hours later?' 'My family and myself decided to do something? 'So, we donated his body.' ... 'And, to learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' 'Simply contact my dear friend Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. 'With, "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia,Pennsylvania At 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Bob one old reb' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Mending a Broken Heart" |
By Ricky1024
"Internet Fraud"
Death by Deception)
Written September 6th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
'They come and they go, like two ships in the night.'
'And,Now you're lost in there,
"Lost in a Web of Deception!" 'Letting you think that everything's all right?
'Taking you to the max and into the wrong direction!"
...
'Yes, they want your plastic from a "steam to a eBay!'' 'And they will settle for nothing less!'
'As they go on their way!'
...
'With your MoneyGram in hand, they will give you a hug?'
'And, for no good reason?'
'They will and then spend...
'It all!'
"These thugs!'
...
'Spend it all and leave not a nickel on account!'
'Can you get me some food?'
'But,they want all that black Texas crude!'
...
'Then they say...
'This day, now they're shopping away?'
'But no receipt from Walmart will you see?'
'Because they have just scammed all your monies!'
...
'And now?'
"Holy Cow!'
'They're depositing it into their Bitcoin account!'
'As it accumulates?'
'You're humiliated!'
...
'Oh please try and understand?'
'And, from a distance if you know what I mean?'
'And, hopefully, someday somehow...
'They will be caught and they will have to suffer for these Sons against Humanity!'
Approximate Word Count: 257.
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Amazing and Talented Artist, 'Daphne Oberon' And her I seencredible picture Entitled, "Misadventures of a Frog" |
By Ricky1024
"Until She Comes Home?"
(A Past Reflection)
Written September 9th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
'As Life must go on, move forward, all alone...
'And, I Shall wander, wander, until...
"Until She Comes Home?"
...
'God knows I tried my very best.'
'To grasp and remember...
'But this pain no Quest!'
'This Horrid of Pain?'
'Yes, tis so bad!'
...
'Dear Lord God above?'
'Allow me again to find love?'
'Yes, it used to be Happy and not Sad.'
'But now Lord, it's still hard.'
'So very, very, hard to hear no answer on the cell phone until...
"Until She Comes Home?"
...
'And, they say...
"Home is Where the Heart is and Home?"
"Home on the Range?"
'Where the Deer and the Antelope used to play?'
...
'But without Hope?'
'It's like a stray dog all alone without a bone!'
'Without as much as a bone?'
"Until She Comes Home?"
...
'Soon very, very, soon...
'It will be November for me and yesterday?'
'I will never forget but remember.'
'Because for me?'
'Seventeen, terribly, long, years!'
'And now?'
'Still All Alone!'
'Dear Lord God!'
"Until She Comes Home?"
...
'So, I shall count the days.'
'Yes, each and every one.'
'The holidays and the birthdays long gone and past...
'And, the future ones to come but never last?'
...
'Like the vinyl, record, disc...
'Spinning as if it can't begin?'
'Like a Beautiful Prayer that only becomes a Sin?'
'As if an old stereo with no speakers blaring?'
'A motherless child, long gone?'
'And, she is no longer caring!'
...
'A boat without its wind...
'The wind without its breeze...
'The breeze without a leaf...
'A leaf without a clue...
'Or chance to release and follow through!'
...
'To experience relief?'
'Perhaps if I pray this day?'
'All the Pain within my Broken of Heart?'
'Will go away?'
...
'And, I shall forget all the Sadness?'
'And, Lord God?'
'All my past released Gladness shall again be?'
...
'But those Precious of Memories that I grasp?'
'Dear Lord God, will I ever stop feeling sorry?'
'And, end this constantly of crying?'
'Feeling of eventually dying?'
...
'With each and every day?'
'Each and Every word I pen?'
'Then and only then Lord God?'
'Will I stop feeling alone?'
"Until She Comes *Home?"
Approximate Word Count: 424.
| Author Notes |
*Home: noun.
dwelling, abode, residence. Note:'To lose your only son as a parent?' 'Is a Parent's worst Nightmare!' 'But to be followed only eight months later?' 'Is not only a Nightmare but a Horrible Sin.' (Theology 50.02) ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented and Amazing Artist, 'Little Bogie 007' And, their Incredible picture Entitled, "I Am Still Here" |
By Ricky1024
"Until She Comes Home Again?"
Written on September 13th, 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
"Until She Comes Home Again?"
'I shall lie and wait for my eventual Date with Fate.'
'Yes, for my cell phone to communicate.'
'Yes, for the many Stars to streak across the Midnight's Sky.'
'Yes, for the Crescent Moon to Shed not a single tear in its eye.'
'Yes, to never again Glow...
'To never again shall Wax...
'But forever and ever to Wane...
...
"Until She Comes Home Again?"
'Forever and Ever '
'Shall I watch and wait.'
'As all the Waves in all the "Seven Seas"
'To never again touch nor kiss all the shorelines...
'Nor smell the Saltine Seas...
'Nor see that it will be and fulfill its Perpetual Needs?'
...
"Until She Comes Home Again?"
'I will hold my very last breath...
'I shall count Each and Every Second...
...
'And, in Each and Every Day...
"As long as I possibly can?' 'Until finally there comes my End?'
'As the Grim Reaper of Death!'
"Grasps my Cross Pen.'
'And, I end this with a single Amen.'
"Until She Comes Home *Again?"
Approximate Word Count: 202.
| Author Notes |
*Again: adj.
repeat, second time. Note: This is dedicated to my late wife Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach Smrkovsky. ... 'Who decided that she had no choice.' 'And, unfortunately, passed away.' (Only Eight months) 'After the death of our only son Jason ' 'November 23rd, 2003.' ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Renate-Bertodi' And, Renate's Amazing Picture Entitled, "Woman Lying Down" |
By Ricky1024
"Waste"
Written September 24th 2020
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2020
'All Rights Reserved'
"Waste Not Want Not?"
Note: 'In the State of New Jersey.'
'60,000 people go to bed each and every night Starving.'
'And together?'
'Let's go plunder down under?'
'Murder?'
'Rape escape and Steal?'
'And learn together?'
'More about this "Waste?"
'And see if it is real?'
...
'Happy Birthday to me Mommy!'
'But, I'm so Hungry!'
Yes Ricky.
'And, Mommy?'
'Can you make it my favorite?'
'Can you make Hungarian Goulash?'
...
'The year was 1959 and I was yes one month away from October 24th 1959.'
'And, i would now be 5-year-old but for the few?'
'They would still go hungry!'
...
'And, I would not be attending kindergarten as a 5-year-old.' 'My big bro David was already a first grader.'
'And, I waited each morning at the picture window.'
'Yes, as I waited for his return home to play?'
...
'Times were much simpler way back then but would change.'
'As we would be entering a stage of "Kent State" "Woodstock and the Black Panthers"
'And, finally "Vietnam."
...
'Yes, is now it was October 1972 and Nixon had started the draft.'
'And, I was only a few days away!'
'But, I was spared?'
'Me alone and my three brothers.'
(David, Wayne, and Christopher)
'Why?'
'We were all Blessed and had flat feet!'
'So, that makes us "Four F"
...
'So yes, I was spared the Nixon draft and I had heard bad things about this.'
'But since my dad Edward had served as a 26-year Chief Naval Petty Officer.'
'It was in my blood.'
(I guess)
...
'So Yes, Vietnam!'
'Guerrilla Warfare!'
'Agent Orange!'
'God, is this Extraterrestrial?'
'Why do we have to police the "Entire World?"
'Perhaps there would be answers soon, some day?'
...
'Pictures that could only?"
"Come out of my massive "Gallery of Life!"
...
"World War I!"
"World War II!"
"Japan!"
"Nazi Germany!"
"Iraq and Iran!"
"The Korean Cold War!"
"The Uncivil War!"
"The French-American War?"
'Fanstorians want some more?'
...
"9-11!"
'Little chicken said...
"The Sky is falling and the "Twin Towers now too!"
'Oh my God?'
"Your children and what have we done?"
'But then?'
'Again?'
'That's for another day?'
'Another day...
'As we pray...
'To make the "Waste"
'Go away?'
Approximate Word Count: 430.
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review and this Talented, as well as Amazing Artist, 'Little Bogie 007' And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, MeMoRy StAmPs.... |
By Ricky1024
"My Withered Heart"
Written on February 1st, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright Fanstory �©2021
'All Rights Reserved'
Leathered and Cracked...
Pinned and Plated...
Broken Beats...
Bear past memories...
Incomplete.
...
Fought by defeat...
Tortured, Trapped, and Pleated...
This Broken Heart.
Within...
...
"My Withered Heart"
Can find and Bleed.
And, cry out with each and every beat.
Once the process is complete?
Silence and darkness doth it greet?
...
Alone and Unsheltered...
Weathered and pelted...
(As if no more?)
...
Captured an Ensnared...
Treated more or less?
As if no longer there?
Oh, My Broken and Punished Heart"
...
And, away from all others.
Split in half...
Oh My Broken and Punished Heart!
Split in half...
End over End...
Always apart...
"My Withered *Heart"
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as *Heart: noun
major organ, pump, emotional clock ... To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue donations? Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Special thanks goes out to first, always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'irismoonbeauty' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "A Saddened Heart" |
By Ricky1024
"I Still Believe?"
Written on February 9th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'
'How do you feel?'
'How are you?'
'How do you feel?'
'How do you feel about me?'
And, he replies...
'You'll find me in the River.'
Time passes...
...
'How do you feel today?'
'And, how are you feeling my friend?'
And, he replies...
'You'll find me in the River.'
More time now passes...
...
'Hey, it's your friend?'
'How are you doing today?'
And, he replies again...
'You'll find me in the River.'
...
"Time is Eternal"
And Time?
Takes no prisoners.
...
'Friend are you here?
No answer.
'Friend it's me!'
'Where are you?'
...
Time decides to again be
And, Time again passes but now more slowly?
...
'Friend?'
'And, how are you my friend?'
'What about us?'
The River recedes because...
"I Still *Believe"
Approximate Word Count: 225.
| Author Notes |
*Be.lieve: verb
Accept (something) as true. Feel sure of the truth of. ... On March 31st 2003. I want something so very precious to me. And yes it's hard to accept this as true. Note: the death of your child no matter the age, sex, or race. Is a parent towards nightmare. ... To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organs graciously offered on April, 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... "I Mourn'd and shall Mourn with ever-returning spring..." Walt Whitman .. "I Mourn'd and shall Mourn forever�� and ever with each and every, Returning-Spring..." Richard Edward Smrkovsky .... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Relativity of Time" |
By Ricky1024
"A Dying Fall''
(A Short Introduction of My Life)
Written on July 5th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'
Once Upon a Time...
When Once Upon a Time was not once upon.
And, when the Darkened Clouds we're not to be a piece of my Reality?
The Sun was shining and there was "Crystal Clarity!"
Oh Me, Oh My?
Dear Lord God why do Angels cry?
...
The Sun shined Left!
Yes, and the Moon Glows Right!
The Stars in the Midnight sky glitter and sparkle all through the night!
And, it seems to me?
Yes!
That Heavenly Father has painted His perceptions on, "The Mural of Life" Perfectly right!
...
But this is a Roller Coaster ride and you have to hold on tight!
Yes reviewer don't get ready to take out your Pen, Pencil, or Stars!
Because this is not over yet by far!
To Be Continued Now!
"A Dying Fall" (B)
...
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'MKFlood' And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Boys will be Boys" |
By Ricky1024
"The Shame of My Pain"
(For I am Your Lover and Meant to Be)
Written on July 9th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright �© 2021 Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
She knows me now; as she follows me?
And, she knows me now but she loves me not?
But that's the best I can do and that's all that I got!
...
She takes my hand and squeezes it tight!
She tells me everything will be all right?
And she's with me now and tucks me in this Horrid Blight!
And, yeah she knows my name!
And, feeds off my shame!
And, my life will never again be the same?
...
She comes to me in the Darkness;
as if a Fine Mist in the Blackened Cloud...
I can never resist?
Her sweet but deadly kiss!
Lord God above!
...
She calls out my name!
And, tells me she's my love?
Yes, as her Darkened Cloud...
(For crying out loud!)
Emerges!
....
I try to exhume Her and purge.
But it's never going away?
This mystery of my life is seemingly here to stay?
Yes!
And, she calls out my name!
Lord God?
Am I going insane?
...
She followed me to the Edges of My Forsake?
And, tells me to dive deep into her lake...
And as she command me to take a dip and forsake?
...
'Ricky!'
'Forsake anything good that's ever come to you Doctor Ricky!'
'Ricky?'
'Are you not listening to me?'
'I told you that I'm never going away!'
'And, I love you more each and every day?'
...
'Extinguish any blossoming of anything normal; of anything that you could ever again be!'
(For I am your Lover and meant to *Be!)
| Author Notes |
*Be: verb /be/
1) exist "there are no easy answers" 2)occur; take place the exhibition will be in November" verb 1) used with a present participle to form continuous tenses "they are coming" 2) use with a past participle to form the passive mood "it was done" ... Note: Pain comes in many forms. And, this pain is about the loss of a child Yes or a Parent's Worst Nightmare! Yes as previously mentioned; as the gift that continues to keep giving. And, it sets up home inside your Soul; while it plays with your heartstrings and eventually blows you away! ... Note: First the only son. Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's graciously offered and donated on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Note: Secondly the only wife. Carolyn Ann Richmond Harbach December 6th, 1952~ November 23rd, 2003. ... Note: And, if you know somebody who's suffering so bad and they're contemplating suicide? Ye, please call 9-11. Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'avmurry' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Confusion of a Bleeding Heart" |
By Ricky1024
"With this Heart I Thee Bless"
Written on July 12th, 2021
By Father and Son
Copyright 2021 © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
With all my Heart?
I have Deep inside?
I now give to Thee and hope to die.
Yes as it beats now for Thee!
And, no longer me?
Just take my hands and let me inside?
And, with these lungs; I'll Breathe into You?
"New Life"
...
For now I offer redemption.
Perhaps a kidney or two?
Just from me for you?
For, I no longer need these; they are both now for you!
...
Yes!
And, now I am Eternal but there's more left to do?
Let me share with you?
Take my Liver and Pancreas now too!
I offer and share as a pair!
...
Now My eyes for Thee?
A big surprise so you can see?
Take the corneas now?
Yes, so you can see!
See all now that I see above?
I offer them with all My Love!
And my skin?
...
You Waited and thought you could never win?
And now?
Yes, it's no longer a sin!
Yes, my precious skin that covers me?
And, now to cover you!
And, to protect you!
To heal the burning outside fire!
If you so desire?
...
And, lastly?
Yes, let me Deep inside?
And, I shall now be your guide!
In order to provide!
Because that's what I and all the other donors Now do!
We give our all just for you!
...
Jason Richard Smrkovsky
November 5th, 1984~
March 31st 2003.
(April Fool's Day)
...
To learn more about,
'Organ-Tissue Donations?'
Simply contact my dearest friend
Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W with
"The Gift of Life"
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at
1-800-DONORS-1
...
"I Mourn'd and shall Mourn with ever-returning spring..."
Walt Whitman
Organ's graciously donated on
April 1st, 2003.
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'lynnkah' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Hearts and Roses under glass" |
By Ricky1024
"The Day My Nightmare Went Away?"
(Part Number One)
"The Awaking"
Written on July 15th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright�© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
She came to me at first?
As if in a Dream?
Her tattooed and amazing body was aching...
My eyes were vividly breaking...
As She touched my Soul...
And, as her Long, Red, Tresses...
Perhaps, Expressed an Undressing?
And a need to succeed?
...
But with a "Swish and a Lash?"
She drifted away?
With all my dreams to cash?
Yes!
Oh how she did part!
That day with my now...
"Broken of Heart"
...
So when I recycled?
I was lost deep into the woods!
If only I knew if only I could?
So Lord God, I kissed the Moon Goddess Luna; and she led me to a lake!
It was a little cloudy but I could see by the winking in her eye.
Yes, no longer would I need to cry?
...
Then a Swish!
What is this?
At first?
I thought?
Perhaps it was just another fish but something else appeared?
Yes!
And, something else happened?
Now the object of my infection?
Further retro-action?
Perhaps was this now an affection?
Or perhaps a fascination?
Upon further inspection?
...
Yes she was coming much closer now to me!
I could tell by the ripples she had a pair of hips that would never quit but would I?
...
And God?
Wouldn't that be the second time I cried?
God knows I tried but then I noticed before I looked away?
Yes, the most amazing Bluish-Green eyes!
But hey?
With now but a single tear?
Lord God, but why?
And, I noticed this fleck of Amber Within?
My Dear God!
Is this a Dream or a Sin?
...
As, she came a little closer?
But close enough?
That enough was closer?
My Broken Heart seemed to come alive?
Dear God?
Do you see what I see?
And, did you send she to me?
No reply.
...
After all, I just went through a sad and Horrid, "break up"
But this?
How can I resist?
Yes, as Her eagar Lips parted?
With no speak and that first Kiss?
I must insist!
...
And, as she embraced?
I can feel!
Yes, feel deep inside; that very first taste!
Dear Lord God Above?
Could this possibly be happening to me?
This thing called, "Love?"
...
Then it started!
As if 7.0 on the Richter scale!
My body was shaking!
Uncontrollably!
My skin turned pale!
My God am I going to die?
Or Could this possibly Heaven?
Or am I just going to break down?
Yes, again forever and cry?
With this Red-Headed Angel?
Trapped within my very eyes!
End of Part Number One!
****
"The Day My Nightmare Went Away"??
(Part Number Two)
"A Continuation"
Written on July 18th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Time Stood Still that most Wonderful Night under; Luna's Moon's Glow!
(Don't you know?)
Reflections rippled within my now healing of Heart!"
And, I felt this Uncanny connection?
Dear Lord God don't ever let this part!
...
And finally?
She told me her name was simply "Belinda"
And, I asked if she was an Angel at best?
Yes, that God had sent from Heaven above?
I could actually visual the word upon her beautiful breasts!
And she replied...
...
'If that's what I need you to be?'
I replied.
'Now make Love to me Ricky; like you've never done before?'
'Satisfy me my Ricky for God's finally opened your door!'
'Pound me hard like you've never done before!'
...
And, that was the moment I felt like I had never died!
Yes!
And, no more would there be a continuous cry!
I was quickly forgetting my broken relationship.
Yes, that Horrid and Torrid affair with Nancy!
(Who now was not there!)
...
Thank you Lord God I finally got her out of my head!
I put her to rest!
Yes, I think now that she's dead?
...
Note: Nancy Esposito with somebody I met way back in 2006.
(After three, long, years of grieving)
Yes, grieving from the loss of my own Son Jason and spouse Carolyn.
Nancy was one of the biggest mistakes I ever made in my life!
...
Belinda then wanted to know if I loved her so?
And I replied...
'No sane man on Earth would say no!'
As, I felt her Beauty within the Moon's Glow.
...
We made "Endless Love" that night a thousand times plus.
Ashes to ashes...
And now the past?
Yes was just Dust to Dust!
Dear Lord God you know I need this so much!
...
But, was this really real or surreal?
I know I'm experiencing something quite unusual that I can feel?
And, She's there sleeping right next to me.
As if Her body's a blend of pretend with the river beds sands.
But still Lord God?
I can't understand?
Is she going to just dissipate within that sand?
And then again?
I'll be experienced with another tremendous loss and never a win?
As, I Shake the Dice Again?
Will it suddenly be?
"Snake Eyes"
Such a Sin!
...
But what if this is real?
After all they say I have the powers to summon an Angel?
(Aaronic Priesthood and Mezdeznek Priesthood)
I do know I've been praying and working on this for almost two decades!
Yes, and it seems like an Eternity!
I do know I deserve this!
After all my sufferings and testings!
Cheating death 13 times has to be ever lasting?
...
I reached over to touch my Beauty!
Yes carefully not to awaken my new found Angel from above!
But Lord God above?
I just need to know that this is
"True Love?"
But she was not there!
Damn it God!
Can I ever be spared?
Cursed again?
When will this ever End?
...
End of Part Number Two!
To be continued with the final,
Part Number Three Entitled,
"Why Me"
...
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'lynnkah' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "What do you see in the dark" |
By Ricky1024
"A Saddened Heart"
Written on July 17th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'
I'm trying my hardest to get through this and register; within my Broken Heart.
As I think way back.
Yes, a long time ago; on March 31st, 2003.
And, I try my best to understand what happened not only to me?
But I sometimes draw a blank?
...
It's as if I've gone blind!
My ship has lost the wind in its sail!
My motor lost the gas and its engine!
And my heart was dreamed of every drop of precious blood!
...
My Dear Lord?
Why does this happen all the time?
And, how much longer do I have to drown in this flood?
No reply.
...
Yes, I put one foot in front of the other.
But then I think about my dead son's, dead mother!
Perhaps it's just the way it's meant to be?
Is living now normal with Tragedy?
Yes!
...
I put one foot in front of the other but I keep tripping and falling down!
Am I supposed to lay there and kiss the ground?
But I'm learning and now I'm learning more!
And, this is what I found!
...
No man is an Island and no woman either!
It's one and one equals two!
Not just a me, nor not just a you?
When we make that connection for the very first time?
Some people believe that True Love is what they find!
...
No matter what the events that may appear?
No matter how many stumbling blocks are here?
No matter how many times your Broken!
My Lord God this is not any mere token! Yes, the Heart becomes Frozen!
Yes, Broken and bittered!
Yes, Scattered and littered!
...
But for the most part?
Yes, it's a testing and we have to realize?
And, it's just the way it's supposed to be?
We may be able to tickle Fate's nose but when it comes to Destiny?
Nobody knows!
...
So, I try to stay strong.
Know deep in my Broken Heart that life goes on.
Yes, because eventually it will be...
Ashes to Ashes...
Dust to Dust...
And though we may now be apart?
Soon, very soon one Day?
I'll no longer have...
"A Saddened *Heart"
| Author Notes |
*Heart: noun>
hart 1) the unbound or moral nature is distinguished from the lesser by the intellectual native. 2) a hollow muscular organ or vertebrate within beings that it's rhythical contraction acts as a force. Pumping and maintaining the circular system of the blood. 3) wanton, innermost character feelings or inclinations. "She had feelings within her bosum" ... Note: Most people look at the Heart, of course, as a way to feel pain within, or to register happiness and delight. We all know it's function as one of the major organs within. We know that there's vast amounts of fluid that this pump will establish and run through our circular system in our lifetimes. And, this we also do know that in virtually millions of gallons of life-giving blood will flow! ... But can a Man or a Woman's Heart be totally broken? Obliterated, shattered, pierced, minced, up into fine pieces? Yes, and disposed of as if it never existed? ... Sometimes I feel that way but when I look at my son Jason Richard's short but amazing life? I have learned to realize He's an example. Yes, an example of Life after Death. Then and only then does My pain finally go away! ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's graciously offered, donated, and accepted. April 1st 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1 ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Irismoonbeauty' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "A saddened Heart" |
By Ricky1024
"Cell-La-Ve"
Written on July 20th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'
Let the Sun....
Out Of Tune ..
Out of Time...
"Cell-La-Ve"
Do you love and live for each day?
"Cell-La-Ve?"
Then take my hand.
...
Walk with me along the "Sugar Sands"
Love me?
Yes, under the "Last Light of the Sun"
Before everything within the
"Sea of Glass"
Melts into a Crystalline Jar"
Of our past?
"Cell-La-Ve"
...
This may be the last and only moment and this story?
Is ever passing...
And, I need you will you be my baby?
Will you lie with me?
Next to the Stars...
Next to the Moon....
Next to the Sun?
And do you love me!
"My Cell-La-Ve?"
For you are the "Key"
That motivates me...
*Cell-La-Ve"
| Author Notes |
*Cell-La-Ve: adverb
"Such as Life" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Cindy Sue Truman' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "The Eye, a Window to the Soul" |
By Ricky1024
"Heartlessly Yours"
Written on July 30th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'
"Within the Shattered Boundaries and Depths of a Human-being's Heart; lies the remnants of his Endless Pain"
(Theology 54.44)
...
Beat....
Shallow and Cracked...
Beat...
Breaking and Choking...
Beat...
Cloaked and Shrouded in Darkness.
Beat...
Hurting within the Depths Valley.
Do you see?
...
There must be more than meets the eyes with me?
Yes time reflects the pain and pain reflects the time?
Sometimes things seem to go bump in the Dark?
And, there's no reason to my rhyme?
...
What do you see?
Like a switch?
Can you turn me on and then turn me off?
In the daylight and then in the night?
Like a switch?
I'm ready?
And I feel my Heart beating now steady!
...
Never should this ever be?
My Loving for you and your Loving that you do?
But now not for me?
Kylie it was meant to be!
Yes, just you and me!
FOR-E-VER and ever?
...
Till Death do us part...
Ashes to Ashes...
Dust to Dust...
Sometimes things must do as they must?
Yes my Love?
For this is my Broken of *Heart.
| Author Notes |
*Heart: noun
1) major organ in the human body. Acting as a pump for all our blood to survive through the veins of our bodies. 2) The major organ that feels the most within the human body. ... Note: The picture of Kylie is from somebody who; like the many others; presents himself on the internet but are scammers. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'Doctor Ricky 1024' His Incredible Picture Entitled, "My Love For Miss Kylie" |
By Ricky1024
"Only the Lonely?'
Written on August 10th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1025
Copyright © Fanstory 2021
'All Rights Reserved'
Only the Lonely?
Never seem to sleep at night!
Only the Lonely?
Yes cry those endless tears!
(Now let me try to get this right?)
...
Only the Lonely?
Da, da, da...
Dumb, Deedly, Dum...
Only the Lonely?
Dum, Dee, Dum...
Doo, doo, doo, doo...
...
Only the Lonely?
Two hearts that seem as one?
Dum, diddly...
Dum, dum, dum, dum...
Only the Lonely?
Only now One Broken Heart that beats as one?
...
There Goes My Baby?
There she goes now!
Why did she leave me?
I can't believe how?
Only the Lonely?
...
Feel this way!
Only the Lonely?
Dear Lord God what more can I say?
And, she's gone forever!
Why did she leave me alone?
All alone this sad, sad, night?
Never again on the cell phone?
Only the Lonely?
...
Because Only the Lonely?
Cry saltine tears!
Because Only the Lonely?
Exist but don't seem to be here?
...
Yes There Goes My Baby!
There Goes My Heart!
There goes my reason?
It's broken apart!
Only the Lonely?
Feel this way?
...
Only the Lonely?
Guess what more can I now say?
But "Only the *Lonely"
| Author Notes |
*Lonely: adjective
/lonely/ 1) sad because one has no friends or companion. 2) without companionship, solitary 3) (of a place) Unfrequented and remote ... Note: There's a lot of lonely people out there in the same situation. Yes, either losing a spouse and become a widower. (like me) Or just never able to find that special someone? (for whatever various reasons?) And this song in the form of a poem is for them. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Wolfdancer13' Their Incredible Picture Entitled, "It's not the same without you" |
By Ricky1024
"Point of Impact!"
Written on September 28th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
The Septembers breeze rustles through the Early morning leaves but what about March?
March marches in with Sin!
But why and how should I now begin?
...
April's May can bring Pretty Flowers this day but what about my Jay?
What about that past horrible March day?
...
October's pumpkins are plump and now right for the picking!
And, Halloween's treats are tasty indeed!
But as for my Jay?
I still feel the need?
...
I need to walk with him.
Through September's breeze as the Amber and yellow leaves fall from the trees.
I need to talk to him.
Through Springs blooming flowers and experienced that Beautiful sweet scent of the Rose!
The petals?
The petals?
There's no petals?
There's no motion for me or he?
They all now seem to me.
To be wilting in my misery?
...
The first Snow is now falling and is the most Beautiful of them all.
But my poor Jay?
On that December day?
Why Lord God won't he be able to go out and play?
...
There will be no more Christmas trees, stockings hung in a row, or Santa sleds high above on the Go?
(Don't you know?)
But one thing's for sure on this Christmas Day?
As for my Jay so high Above?
Yes, there will always be plenty of *Love.
| Author Notes |
*Love: noun /lov/
1): intense feeling of deep affection. "Baby still parents with feelings of love" 2): a sweet and special interest or pleasure in something. "He took to the hills on that first school day on his sleigh!" Note: When I defined the word "Love" Yes, I think of all these things and more! And, I think the most Ultimate, as well as, loving Gift, a human being can give to another. ... And, to now learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1 ... "I Mourn'd yet shall mourn with ever-returning spring..." Walt Whitman. Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's Graciously donated on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) "And, the Beat Goes On" Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Just Roses" |
By Ricky1024
"Waste Knot Want More?"
Written on October 24th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
The total generation of Municipal Solid Waste (MSW) in 2018 was $292.4 million tons.
(U.S. short tons, unless specified)
Or 4.9 lb per person per day of the "MSW" generated.
Approximately 69 million tons.
(tonnage) were recycled.
And, 25 million tons were composted.
...
If you compare the amount of garbage the that Americans create to the
"Global Average"
Yes, of the1.6 lbs per day?
We're on the High-end.
...
In my State of New Jersey.
About 800,000 people face hunger issues every day!
200,000 of them, of course, are our
children.
Which means that all these children can suffer tremendously.
And, directly from starvation!
And, the dramatic Effects?
Yes, of that are physical development and mental health being.
...
"If you want to be happy, set a goal that commands your thoughts, liberates your energy, and inspires your hopes"
"There is a Power under your control that is Greater than poverty"
"The Rich have a Moral Obligation to give away their Fortune's"
****
He was not born with a "Silver Spoon"
Yes, in his mouth.
Andrew C.born November 25th 1835.
Yes in Dunfermline, United Kingdom.
This period of time Scotland was suffering severely from starvation and blight.
But with the invention of the weaving machine?
Andrew's father eventually became penniless!
...
December 1848 as a result.
The family decided to leave Scotland for better opportunities and immigrate in the United States.
Yes, for a possible better future?
So, they did immigrate to the impoverished small town in Pennsylvania.
...
There were three siblings all together Andrew was the oldest and his brother Thomas and eventually Sister Ann.
But unfortunately and the only sister was born but then died.
Seems like tragedy will always be close to Andrew?
...
The father was devastated but the mother Margaret Morrison C.
Was the family, 'Back-Bone"
At age 12 Andrew learned about poverty and suffering but Mom would have nothing to do with that!
She assisted her brother, yes by selling potted meats at her "sweetie shop" This becoming the primary "Breadwinner"
...
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Poverty" |
By Ricky1024
'"A Saddened and Broken Heart"
Written on November 4th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
Take a short Dose of Unendless Pain.
Mix it with three ounces of Total Misery
(Shakes not Stirred)
The Results?
Tears ..
...
And, I cry?
And, I want to Die!
Oh, me...
Oh, my?
...
Enhance with but a sprig.
Of Severe, Splitting, Depression.
Now you're heading in the wrong direction!
Park!
Think!
...
Suddenly!
The Car is driven through a Cyclone Fence!
And, into?
"The River of All Regrets!"
And, the waters are eager indeed!
Note: This exactly how you feel when you have to go through the process?
Losing a child is a parent's worst Nightmare!
And, it's the Gift!
Yes, that continues to give!
And, give!
And, give some more!
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented artist, 'irismoonbeaury' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "A Saddened Heart" |
By Ricky1024
"Leaving"(A)
Written on November 5th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
I'm leaving now and it's a
"One-Way-Ride"
Don't know when I'll be back again?
I don't quite understand?
Kind of makes you think?
Run and hide?
I can't quite put my finger on it yet?
But what the Hell?
...
I'm leaving now and I'm rising.
Rising...
Rising...
Rising...
Since I can't see.
My body below?
Yes, and I'm moving up!
Mom don't expect me anytime soon for your sup!
...
Yes, I'm leaving now and I can finally see.
Yes, but didn't know?
That the clouds are a different color blue?
Wouldn't you?
Wonder too?
And, I hear as Crystal as clear.
And, that damn music is getting louder!
...
Oh?
And, I'm leaving and they are here now for me?
Thousand can upon thousands of Angels?
Yes I'm leaving now and they're here for me?
What Must Be!
Shall *Be?
"Arriving!" (B)
Written on November 5th, 2021
By Doctor by Doctor Ricky 1025
Copyright �© Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved''
"When time permits,
"And, I realize that he above exists."(Theology 60.03)
...
I've now arrived at...
"Grand-Central-Station"
Passed through the Pearly Gates!
Pearly Gates?
St Peter?
He's pretty cool!
...
I'm Now using .."Virgin Angel Airlines;"
You know I'm still quite a distance away?
Most people wouldn't realize it until it's their day!
Yup!
I'm leaving on a jet plane!
And, I don't know when I'll be back again?
...
And, everywhere Beyond?
Just one more thing?
The views are incredible!
Why do you leave same way you come in?
Oh well?
What the Hell!
Wish I had my Cell phone?
| Author Notes |
*Be: noun
/be/ 1) To exist or have meaning. March 31st 2003. Jason was a passenger driven into a telephone pole at over 100 miles an hour. 17 hours later he was diagnosed brain dead. And, over 18 years ago today? Yes! Oh my son Jason's birthday! To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, at 1-800-DONORS-1 Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's Graciously donated on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) "And, the Beat Goes On" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Angelheart' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Grace" |
By Ricky1024
"Pocketful of Miracles"
Written on November 9th, 2021
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Copyright © Fanstory
'All Rights Reserved'
'I got a Pocketful of Miracles!'
'Just you wait and see!'
'I keep them very carefully.'
'Tucked deep inside of me!'
...
'In my left hand I hold the key!'
'In my right hand I hold life!'
'Watch as I put them together?'
'The results going to be kind of nice!'
...
'Yes, I'm going to take out of my pocket?'
'This Heart of mine!'
'You don't have to worry about it being wound up?'
'It's totally one of a kind!'
...
'In my other pocket I have something for you to breathe!'
'And, I know you need them both!'
'So very much I believe?'
...
'Yes, I have a pocket full of Miracles!'
'And, plenty more you see?'
'Here perhaps you need a kidney?'
'And, perhaps now?'
'Will be no more need for dialysis!'
From my analysis!'
...
'Yes!'
'I've got mini pockets and many Miracles!'
'Because I'm The giver!'
'Oh I forgot one more?'
'I understand you need a *Liver?'
| Author Notes |
*Liver: noun
/liver/ 1) human organ used or digesting food and ridding the body of toxins. "I desperately need a liver or I'm going to die!" Note: March 31st, 2003 at 8:00 at night. There was four people waiting for this moment to happen wishing and waiting for miracles. To Learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?: Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800- DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's Graciously donated on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'avmurry' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Little Miracles" |
By Ricky1024
"Field of Heather"
Written on November 12th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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"Field of Dreams"
This Pretty Flower?
(Oh so Fair!)
How I do wish?
I could be there!
...
Golden Hair of Wheat.
Blossoms a Purple Pink.
And Violet in her hair.
Eyes so, so, Brown.
Prettiest flower and this part of town!
...
The wind brushes through her hair.
Yes, as she awaits her Fate.
Within the Sun's light.
But cries constantly.
Through the night?
...
"Field of Heather"
Lost her Love.
Searches each and every morning.
*Above?
| Author Notes |
*Above: preposition
/A.bove/ 1) an extended space over and not touching. "A display of fireworks above the town" 2) at a higher level or layer then. "Bruises above both eyes" Note: The idea for this poem came from a bank teller named Heather today. When I commented on her beautiful name. She says... 'Heather means' "Field of Dreams" ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'avmurry' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "Purple Heather" |
By Ricky1024
"The Voice of God!"
Written on November 13th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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I hear the voice of God.
And, I know that this is true.
It comes each time I pray.
Animals and things as I get down on my two knees that way.
...
I hear the voice of God.
When things seem to be going wrong.
And it starts out very slowly.
Should I like a Sweet, Sweet, song.
...
I hear and feel this voice this way.
Yes, especially when I pray.
Those moments when I just want to cry.
Those are moments when I just want to die!
...
And, thank God I hear that voice you see?
It seems to help with my 2003.
When I think of the loss of my only son.
When I think of the Lost of my wife.
When I think of the reason why I still live my life.
...
"The Voice of God"
Seems to be with me.
Each time I write these words you see?
And, I know I am truly blessed this way.
And, I wish to share this blessing with you *Today!
| Author Notes |
*Today: adverb
/to.day/ 1) on or for for this day. 2)at the present time. *Today: noun /to.day/ 1) the present day a time or age. //today's youth. *Today: adjective /to.day/ 1) or characteristic of today:Now. Note: On this day. December 1st, 2006. (now almost 15 years ago) Yes, after suffering a second time of severe depression. And, not wanting to live again. Only 5 days before my dead wife's 54th birthday. And, also following her apparent suicide. Yes, only eight months after the death of our only son, Jason. I decided it was time to join my family but in the wrong way. And I did not pray and I decided to take a 7 inch serrated steak Knife. Directly into my chest not once but twice. After that failure. Even though the second time I hit the heart valve. I picked it up 20 minutes later and not once, not twice, but thrice. Slashed the right side of my neck deeply. Yes, trying to hit the Juggler. I didn't know how hard it was to juggle! ... And, Even though I prayed to die. (At that point that day) God was with me. That day. Note: If you know anybody that feels this way? Please do as I did and call 9-11 immediately. ... Note: Suicide is not the way to Heaven. Yes, the way to Heaven is to pray. Ask for forgiveness for all your sins. And, use His Blessings, that He gives to you. Yes, properly each and every day! ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Annalinda' And, her Incredible Picture Entitled, "blessed" |
By Ricky1024
"Ball & Chain?"
(The institution of marriage)
Written on November 13th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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The Institution entitled, "marriage"
Exactly who winds up in the baby carriage?
Till death do us part?"
Is the Justice of the Peace?
The Grim Reaper?
(To say the least?)
...
Here we go?
Round and Round?
What goes up?
Yes,must come down!
...
I got married at age 28.
In 1985.
It took me a year to get my wife divorce from her first lousy husband who was a heroin addict.
Hence my first daughter Corinne Alexis.
Yes,n was born before I was married.
Should have known then the ball and chain was dragging!
...
Time progressed, seems like she forgot about her ex heroin husband?
And, the window dressing was quite nice indeed.
But it's more than just that.
Yes there has to be stability!
You need, Trust, Hope, Faith, in a marriage of Love.
...
I can feel the ball and chain after 10 years starting to strangle me!
I would not argue about money.
I was told we weren't getting by.
So I gave my spouse of 10 years control of it checking account.
Which would come back to haunt me 10 years later with $100,000 in debt $8,600 in back taxes on our house.
...
And, as lousy is all this may seem?
It was of course previously follow up with the death of our 18 year old son Jason.
And, that was eight months before she decided to take her life.
...
The Institution called, "marriage?"
Yes, would put me in an institution.
(with three nervous breakdowns)
In Twenty years.
But they say?
Yes, when times get tough?
Just pray!
But believe me that's not enough to make your way!
"Ball & Chain"
Can you think of a better name?
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Highfive' And, their Incredible Picture Entitled, "Ball and Chain" |
By Ricky1024
"To Serve and Protect"
Written on November 14th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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To Serve and to Teach.
To Realize and to Reach.
To Go Inward and Touch.
To Love All Thy Serve.
So, very much!
...
To Administer with all of your Heart.
And, Educate as you do.
The Waters that Thee Shall Part.
...
To Walk in the Glow.
And, Serve all that you know.
To Remember All Before and Reflect.
To Lead with Respect.
To Serve and Protect.
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as always, Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Brady Neilson. And, his Incredible Picture Entitled, "Veterans Day" |
By Ricky1024
"Beautiful Magnolia!" (A)
Written on November 19th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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She stands all alone, no place to call her home?
Majestic High!
Just she and I!
Yes she's a grand old gal.
All dressed in Pink Blossoms with no place to go.
(Don't you know?)
...
When we dance?
She wants to dance real slow.
She brushes the sunshine from her hair.
She laughs but she cries?
No one cares?
...
But when it's just she and just me?
She cradles me in her massive arms?
She shares all her Godly Charms!
She won't let me cry.
She refused to let me die
This you need to know.
"My Beautiful *Magnolia!"
****
"Cloaking Moon" (B)
Written on November 19th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
The Night was most Perfect!
The Night air was Welcoming.
The Night's moon was Appearing.
"Cloaking Moon"
...
Yes she's So, So, Aglow!
Yes, she's So, So, Shy!
(This I now know)
But I Love Her So!
...
"Cloaking Moon?"
I'm choking on my Gloom!
How I so wish you'd Know?
How much I Love you So?
Enwrap me?
Subject me to your
Magnificent Glow?
Yes!
"Cloaking Moon"
...
I
Love
You
So!
Note: "Luna the Moon Goddess"
And, Doctor Ricky are getting married next October 24th on my 68th Birthday!
All Fanstorians are invited!
We won't be having the reception at the Moon Diner.
After Luna and I get married along the Sea of Tranquility of course.
Then we will live in a Moon Crater!
Yes, and live on Green cream cheese!
And, tell the rest of this shity old world?
See you all later!
| Author Notes |
*Magnolia: noun
/mag.no.lia/ 1) any of a genus(Magnoliaceai, magnolia of the family of American and Asian shrubs and trees, with entire evergreen and deciduous leaves and unusual snowy white, yellow, rose, or purple flowers usually appearing in the early spring. ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist and Amazing Writer, 'cleo85' And Cleo's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Magnolia" |
By Ricky1024
"The Destination?" (A)
Written on November 21st, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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He was a "Vessel" from above.
A teacher with Compassion who touched All.
With His Own Special Fashion!
With Complete and Utter Passion!
...
We now on this Sabbath Sunday.
Gather at the altar to witness to Thee.
Oh, Eternal Father?
That Ye Died for me!
That Ye Sacrificed!
That Ye was Severely...
That Ye was Forced!
That Ye was Spat upon...
That Ye was Ridiculed!
Yes, and finally?
...
Hung up high on a Rosewood Cross at Calvary.
And, then Crucified!
Forced and Adorned!
Yes, with a Crown of Thorns Upon Thee Head.
Then Bled the ground Below...
"Crimson Red"
****
"The Resurrection" (B)
Written on November 21st, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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The Blade dug deep and without a single stye?
Not a tear was shed from this Amazing Man's eyes!
His Body?
Yes, was raised on the Third Day.
(After the Crucifixion)
Starting or again Restoring...
Yes!
His Exalted Life!
...
Note: According to the New Testament.
Jesus was Reborn from the Dead.
Thus Ushering in something so Incredibly Beautiful!
"The Kingdom of God"
"The Supreme Love of God"
And, "Goodwill to Man"
...
Note: According to the "Holy Bible"
And, or "The Book of God"
Jesus the Christ to be bore from Mary.
By, "Immaculate Conception"
Yes, and in a small town called "Bethlehem"
...
The Little Lord Jesus.
Laid down His Sweet Head.
Yes!
But why in a Manger instead?
And, from this point?
Yes, to the Blade of a Sword?
"The Resurrection of Our Sweet Lord!"
Approximate Word Count: 286.
| Author Notes |
Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ.
Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Linda Bickston' And, Linda's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Pierced" |
By Ricky1024
"The Woods"
Written on November 26th, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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The Woods is the place to be and you need to Believe?
Believe in my Thoughts?
Thoughts that lead me to a Path?
"Path of Existence"
...
Follow me down the Path and Pave?
Pave the way to My.
"My Special Place"
Special Place of Existence and Love!
Well?
Yes, I think I would have made a damn Difference?
Difference that Love fulfills Dreams.
Dreams are as Seems?
...
Are you ready to now Unwind?
Unwind because life is so unkind?
And, it Seems that you're now wandering with Me?
Me?
Well, so now take.
"Take My Hand?"
My Hand to Dreamland!
Dreamland is the place to Be?
Be Happy with Me?
Me and You.
You and Me living.
Living somewhere truly Safe.
...
Safe here where shallow thoughts?
Thoughts no longer exist.
Exist outside your Mind?
Mind not!
Not on this Earth!
Earth is the place of all Human Kinds Birth.
Understand?
...
Understand that I'm your....
"Loving Man"
Loving Man is asking Thee?
Thee and Me are meant to Be?
...
Be in The Woods.
Woods is the Place to Be and believe?
Believe in my Thoughts.
Thoughts to help us Unwind?
Unwind because life is finally?
Finally *Kind.
| Author Notes |
*Kind: noun
/kind/ 1) a group of people or things having similar characteristics. "all kinds of interests" ... In today's World. Sometimes things don't turn out exactly the way we wish them to be. We have War and we have more War all over again? We have Pain and we have suffering. And, then we have Grief and Misery. We have 9-11 and now the COVID-19 Pandemic Virus-Crisis. ... You wonder during these modern times with all the modern conveniences? When will the Inconveniences End? ... Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus. Fanstory and Tom the Administrator. Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Annalinda' And, Anna's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Choices" |
By Ricky1024
"Heart Broken Moments"
(My Testimony)
Written on December 1st, 2021
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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When I write these words.
Yes, from my Broken of Heart.
I think of my past.
Yes, and a time that had part.
...
I think of the birth.
I think of the child.
And, I wonder?
And, I wonder why?
Why that child had to die?
...
And, it's still so...
Very, Very, hard you see?
Hard to reflect
Hard to protect.
Protect my child and take away.
The pain he had and the effect my family and community.
Had to experience on that extremely horrible day!
...
So, deep down inside?
I seem to believe he's okay!
That he's doing his job that he's supposed to do.
Above each and every day!
And, he's looking down at me and you!
...
So, I try not to Shed a tear.
I try not to cry.
Anymore?
But you see between you and me?
...
Life Must Go On.
No matter how bitter or sweet the song!
And, my son Jason's organs are now where they belong!
And, I say these words in the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
*Amen
| Author Notes |
*Amen: explanation
A.men /a.men/ 1) uttered at the end or beginning of a prayer or a hymn, meaning, 'so be it. *Amen:noun 1) an utterance of "Amen" Origin: The basic meaning of the Semantic root from which it is derived is "firm, "fixed" or "sure" And the related hebrew verb also means, "to be reliable" and "to be trusted" ... The Greek Old testament usually translates the word "Amen" "So be it" ... In the English Bible the word has technically been rendered frequently as "verily" or "truly" ... On March 31st 2003. Verily, Verily, my only son Jason. Yes, had a mission. (In which not too many people would understand but me) ... His mission was to achieve life after death by donating his many organs to save four people. And I say these words in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen. ... To learn more about, 'Organ-Tissue Donations?' Simply contact my dearest friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania at 1-800-DONORS-1. ... Jason Richard Smrkovsky November 5th, 1984~ March 31st, 2003. Organ's Graciously donated on April 1st, 2003. (April Fool's Day) ... "I Mourn'd and yet shall mourn, with ever-returning spring..." Walt Whitman. Special thanks goes out first, as always, to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ Fanstory and Tom the Administrator Fan Art Review, this Talented Artist, 'Denise B' And, Denise's Incredible Picture Entitled, "Broken Angels" |
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