By Ricky1024
<><><><><><><><>"Awakened By An Angel 2003"<><><><><><><><><><>
***{A Dedication!}
Poem Number One-
*************************************By ricky1024*********************************************
World Re-known, Ranked and Rated Writer of all Writing Venues.
World Ranked, and Rated by #3 Covington's and #2 Swath-mores
***********************"Who's Who" 2012, 2013, and 2014.************************************
<><><><><>Written In Jersey Shore Hospital 6-01-2006.<><><><><><><><><><>
"Just look what you have!"
"The world at your fingertips!{"
"So, don't be so sad, shake it off with a twist and a flip!"
...
"Now...
"Call out and be noticed for your personal Angel!"
"He is looking for your personal glorification!"
"Let him envelope you!"
"Develop in you!"
"Rectify and embellish in YOU!"
...
"Feel his warm and powerful wings wrapped around you!"
"So, so, loving...
"So, so, profound!"
"Look what you have now *found!"
...
"Feel the quiver as your personal Angel will now deliver!"
"Feel the beating of an Angel's Heart!"
"'Faster and faster as your life again does start!"
...
"Move to the left!'"
"And then move to the right!"
"Feel all of those new emotions this night!"
"Face the sun and feel the early crispness of that night!"
"Your finally doing everything right for your now in Heaven!"
..
"Palm breezes, evening teases, intoxicating moonlight!"
"Gazing and taking the struggle...
"Away...
"For you hath finally turned the page!"
"Feel the warmth of the 'Heavenly Waters' as you wade...
"And that endless **struggle...
"Now finally FADES!"
<><><><><><><><><><><>"The One-Winged Angel!"<><><><><><><><><><>
******************************************By ricky1024*****************************************
"On the day that ****You were born God decided to create a Heavenly and great one with Godly features!"
"He said...
"You are now one of my Heavenly creatures."
"And the Angels gave to you a halo of purified gold that was many, many, eons old!"
"They gave to you His wisdom and incite that makes You more perfect and alright!"
"And after exhausting his very last breath the Angels let of You go before both of Your wings could...
"Grow!"
...
"One was stubbed, {snow en white} that tickled when rubbed in that place that's just right!"
"When wrapped around You it gave a sense of well-being that You found comforting...
"A sensual feeling!"
"And in addition it gave to you warmth, security, and this Heavenly, gentle of touch that meant to You...
'So, very, very, Much!"
...
"Could this mistake or error by God be possibly a small glitch like someone whom was left in the darkness after a downward click...
"Of a "Heavenly Switch?"
"This nub or stub of a wing was so small in accordance to 'God's Angel-Wing' Design...
"A rarity or a one of a kind?"
"It's just a beginning of a wing that was supposed to be but does everything always have to be?"
"Just be SO Perfect, just be so Very, Very, Right?"
"And is Heaven actually a training place of 'Holy Grounds' where all of God's Guardian Angels
including you my Son are found?"
| Author Notes |
8found- recovered.
"Jason took some time to pass above as His soul searched for an answer. **struggle- "To fight for something important." "Note-"Jason was brain-damaged and although the car accident was only a block from our house, He couldn't find his way home." "His spirit was seen thee weeks later and described to a tee from his weight to His clothes to his wild and curly blonde hair!" "Do you believe in Angels and the after life?" ***A Dedication!- "To all whom suffered the flings and stings of the arrows by dying and donating organs and tissue so those whom also surer... "Will have the "GIFT OF LIFE!" ****You- Jason Richard Smrkovsky. "Born November 5th, 1984 and dies March 31st, 2003." "Organs donated April First 2003. [April Fools Day} "To learn more about this amazing and life giving "Gift of Life" call 1-800-DONORS-1 Lara S Moretti "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania and tell Lara that Jay said HI!" 24. "Special thanks goes out first and always to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story, Fan Art Review and this amazing and talented Artist 'MK Flood' and Melissa's pic "Blues City Angel" |
By Ricky1024
20-#####<><><>#####<><><>"Just Me and Just"<><><>#####<><><>#####-14
By Ricky 1024
November 27, 2014
2:32 AM.
{Poem #7}
Incarcerated in The Ocean County Correctional Facility
Cell #4
"When You were born....
"I wondered Why?"
"Why God had you rewarded me...
"And As I looked into your eyes....
"Boy would I be in for a big *surprise!"
...
"And what a surprise...
"Finally...
"After three a boy...
"A boy to watch grow...
"A boy to unlock those Christmas owns...
"And a boy but my 'Brilliant Rose!'
...
"The best thing that ever happened to me...
"Filled me with love for an **Eternity...
"And as You grew...
"The things that You would Do!"
...
"In a 'World Touched and that YOU blessed"
"You wandered in tiny of feet...
"And not a care as You shared...
"And a BIG smile to each and every Soul...
'Your to meet...
...
"And the things that Ewe were to do!"
"The many games of play...
'The concerts that you gave and the***Band...
"That you played...
"All now just so many tears....
"Cloudy me and clouded yours...
...
"From all of those moments recent and long past...
"To all of those special times that...
"Thank God still last...
"Now all sealed in...
"A Heart of Glass...
...
"And this I now say...
"And please understand...
"And as I live and as I still breathe....
"To that day when we will be together again...
...
"One moment at a time...
"When thought, step, and Heart beat...
"Once more Dear God till We meet...
...
"I will always and forever Love and Miss thee...
"My love will continue to keep away....
"The pains and depressions that still haunt me today...
#####<><><><><>#####"The Yellow Rose of Hope!" {A} #####<><><><><>#####
By Ricky 1024
November 26, 2014
8:10 PM. Cell #4
Poem #8
"Within 'Shattered Souls'...
"A secret is now told of sufferers saved from this misery!"
"These rare and few times...
"Were almost all through and they pander their end...
"Until An if you pray and wait and want them too...
"Theses few are examples from a 'Gift of Life."
"From my Son Jay...
An end to Reality but miracles can come true....
"To the lucky few...
"The ****Yellow Rose of Hope from Jason to these lucky but few...
...
"Example #1-
"Chaz from Philadelphia, Pennsylvania...
"April first 2003 {April Fools Day}
"Chaz awaited a gift even though they are rare and few...
"Contained in just a sealed and plastic bag in a styrofoam Chest...
"To be received in Chaz's chest!"
"But for lucky Chaz...
"A blessing and miracle came true...
"And no normal 'Gift of Wrap, Ribbon, and Bow' and this I want you to know...
"He could not even walk 100 yards on oxygen...
"Without collapsing...
"Hanging on but his gift was a month away until...
'My Jay...
...
"But the breeze from God was ready and steady to do the JOB!"
"And yes, no normal "Gift of Wrap, Ribbon, and Bow!"
"But 'The Gift of Life!'
"A new life, another, chance at 'God's Great Dance!"
...
"Yes, his diseased Heart and Lungs became just scattered and wilted, leaves in the breeze...
"And Yes!"
"That breeze blew again the right way!"
....
"And now Chaz races his bike and runs in Jay's memory...
"Ever love...
"Ever lasting...
"The Gift of Life," Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.
Example #2-
"Like Chaz the breeze blew to Bill who awaited a Gift too but a kidney created through the purity of love."
"Not the left but the right before For Bill it gets to late in the night...
"It was at first a non-fit but with a little medicine and God's tender of touch the letter from Lara to me saying that the right, kidney, reciepicant had passed away was wrong she later did say!'
"Thank God Jay as there and His Gift was the WAY!"
"They say that it has to be transplanted before it too will die...
"Contained in just a plastic and styrofoam chest...
"A 'Gift from God,' Carolyn, me, and Jay...
"Divorced and left to die...
"By a heartless wife who shed not a single tear of cry...
"So that he...
"Could be...
"Together again...
"With his princess..
"His Daughter...
"And...
"Another CHANCE at 'God's Great Dance.'
"Daddy's Little Girl"
To Bills and his daughter from me...
"Jay's Gift of life" given that day...
"To take Bill's Daughter's misery away...
"Perhaps she had hoped...
"And perhaps she had prayed...
"Incredible as these two may be...
"The next {Example 3#} is a story that can't be beat and you should not miss!"
"The Gift of Life," Philadelphia, Pennsylvania."
****
Example #3-
"Name unknown...
"Again from Philly...
"In need of a liver diseased as could be...
"A Gift of Life" from God...
"To last an Eternity?"
"To cure his Doom...
"New flowers arrived in his room...
"The Gift of Life," Philadelphia, Pennsylvania."
Example #4-
"Finally...
"Her name I will never know...
"So, I will just call her 'Miss Little Glow.'
...
"She needed a kidney and at age eight....
'She needed it quick!"
"The right to Bill in an unknown town way out West...
"And the left....
"At God's last request...
"And again after no response of two letters...
"Yes twice...
...
"Little Miss Glow...
"From somewhere in South Jersey...
"Though."
...
"As she waited in her hospital room of doom and gloom jaundiced to the extreme, asleep in a coma as if in a dream...
"God saw her and started crying...
"Her blue and beautiful eyes closed in 'Yellowed Temper.'
"But not a Christmas wrapped of Ribbon and Bow...
"But 'The Gift of Life' I want and need you now...
"To know...
"Delivered that 'April Fools of Christmas Day.'
"Did this poem blow you away?"
"Donate Organ-Tissue-Sight."
"The Gift's of Life, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania."
It's God's way...
| Author Notes |
*surprise-"Jason's death {March 30th, 2003
"Organs taken and received by four on April Fools Day.' **Eternity- ***Band-A circle of material to bind. Jason had started a band about eight months before the accident and like a picture {Jay's Epitah}/" "Taken by my daughter at her birthday party {Nikki Harbach}... "With my grand-daughter Sasha sitting on Jason's lap and Jay trying to form a heart with His two hands... "Proving and taken only a few minutes before the accident.. "The Band "Four Ways to Save" shows like Christ an Angel and creator and my Son Jason too, would bring life to those four too!" ****Yellow-A color. "According to the 'Rose Anthology' the yellow rose represents Friendship. ***** "Special thanks goes out first and always to Heavenly Father and His late Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Story and Tom the administrator, Fan Art Review, this incredible artist 'Moon Willow,' and her picture "Before the Storm," and lastly to 'The Gift of Life' in Philadelphia, Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. and finally to Jay... "To learn more about this important mission from the blessed few of "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania simply go on line or call Lara at 1-800-DONORS-1. |
By Ricky1024
2003@))#<><><>$$$$$<><><><>"Missing You"<><><>$$$<><><><>@)!%2015
"You once told me that...
"You would always and forever be but...
"And also You said...
"That you would never go away but...
"You said that we would always be ...
"Father and Son...
'Forever and ever no matter what we would do then...
"Why am I missing You?"
...
"Time has progressed and the seasons of regrets have come...
"And gone...
"Burt God when I try to realize why...
"I can't go on...
"All I now do is cry myself to sleep...
"As tear of pain flow forth...
"In puddles upon my pillowed window of pain...
...
"No Christmas of presents under this pined of tree...
"No candy of cane...
"Stockings in a row...
'Silvered of Bell...
"Just the loss I have come to know...
...
"Trying too hard to forever remember my name...
"What God am I to do?'
"With the shame?"
"And why am I still...
"Missing You?"
...
"The clouds above, the rivers that flow...
"The tear of drop caught in my eyes...
"And all I do is try?"
...
"Try to remember You...
"Try to remember You...
"On this and every day...
"Before You went away...
'Try not so hard to...
"Try with the grace of God to do...
"Try to stop this tremendous of pain...
"Driving me to die and go insane...
...
"No more is there sunshine...
"It too is gone and went away,....
"So God, why didn't you just take me?"
"Instead of *He?"
That long and terrible of *Day?'
"Why him He was special...
"And 'One of a **Kind."
...
"It has been twelve long of lonely years...
"Have passed without You...
"So many moments missed....
"Oh God how hard it is to ***Resist...
"Regrets like 'Sticky Dew.'
"For ever and all Eternities ...
"I will be...
"Missing You...
| Author Notes |
*Day- March 30th, 2003.
"The accident when Jason was forced into a 'Brain-Dead Coma.' **Kind- "Unique, special, rare." 'Jason was an Organ-Tissue Donor' giving life to four and three today... ***Resist-To stop temptations. "On December 6th, 2006 over three and as half years after Jason's and Carolyn's deaths, I gave up and attempted suicide three times in three hours." "To learn more about Suicide and the prevention contact the suicide hotline at 9-11 or simply message me in your review." "To learn more about 'Organ-tissue Donations call 1-800-DONORS-1. "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pa. and tell my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. that Jay said hey." Dad. "Special thanks goes out first [as always} to Heavenly Father and His "Missing of You" Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Story and Tom the administrator, Fan Art Review, this artist 'helvi2' and the picture "A Special Bond.'" and lastly to You my Son Soon... My work here is not yet done.... |
By Ricky1024
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><>Prologue<><><><><><><><><><><><><>
By Ricky1024
<><><><><><><><><><>"In The Blink Of An EYE!"<><><><><><><><><>
By Ricky1024
<><><><><><><><><><>"Awakened By An Angel"<><><><><><><><><><><>
By Ricky1024
<><><><><><><><><><><>"My Son Jason {Angel Eyes}"<><><><><><><>
By Ricky1024
<><><><><><><><><><><>"The Day HE Tried...I DIED!"<><><><><><><><><><>
By Ricky1024
<><><><><><><><>"THE DAY WE DIED!"<><><><><><><><><><><><><>
By Ricky1024
<><><><><><><><><><><>?"Missing You"?<><><><><><><><><><><>
By Ricky1024
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<><><>@@@###$$$<><><>"I Breathed, So You Could Live"<><><>$$$###@@@<><><>
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"How Deep is Your Love?" {A}
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By Ricky1024
"Testimonial for The Gift of Life"
By Ricky1024
"The Day He Died and the Angels Just Cried and Cried:
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"My Thoughts on My Son's Death!"
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"Day by Day 2003"
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"Your Wings Were Ready but?{A)
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"Passage of Time?"
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By ricky1024
"Note- This is based on true events of my late Son Jason Richard Smrkovsky."
"Jason Richard Smrkovsky was born on November 5th, 1986 at Community Memorial hospital in Toms River, New Jersey.
"A happy and always smiling child, Jason grew into a fine and brilliant, young musician."
...
"Jason excelled at most things but lacked in intelligence in His earlier life."
"He was held back in kinder garden, {an error] based on speech."
"As he progressed, his intact will define and astound!"
"Perhaps a gift from me and God,...
"I now follow a similar path [although in the 'Living world1"
...
"As Jason attained the age of only eighteen...
"He and me along with my wife and four daughters would be tested to degree that defies human capability."
End of chapter Number One.
"Chapter Number Two..
"Jason's Life and Eventual Death!"
Tomorrow.
Thanks,
24.
Author Notes
Special thanks goes out first and always to9 Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan story and tom the administrator, Fan Art review and this amazing artist '
In The Blink Of An EYE!
**************************************By Ricky1024*****************************************
<><><>Conceived through the blessing of Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father><><><>
********Written March 16th 2015 at 5:36 AM. and completed at5:56AM.Est.****************
"{A dedication}"
"How can I begin?'
"How do I start?"
"How does a father write when he has lost his Heart?"
...
"How can I write and recite this?"
"How can I relate?"
"What broke a *Heart?"
"And how shall I now...
"Navigate?"
...
"How can I present...
"This to you FanStory reviewers to review?"
"To read and to conceive?"
...
"How CAN I NOT!!!"
"It matters so much...
"To me and to he...
"Dust to dust...
...
"It all started at abouy as quarter to eight over a dozen years of about a single and trillion of tears...
"So many lost moments...
"So many lost years...
"Broken dreams and fairy tales...
'all left behind...
"Life can be so cruel sometimes...
...
"The first noise brought me no mention but the second and [much greater]
noise awoke my late wife Carolyn from a rest full sleep!"
"As if created by some cruel presence...
"Some 'Unholy CREEP!"
"Probably just a car crash involving some unlucky person, not me! {I thought and then the nightmare began!"
...
"Ring, Ring, RING!!!
"Hello?'
"This is Kyle, Jason was just in a car accident and you had better get hear quick!"
My daughter screamed!'
"Life can be 'A bowl of cherries' but sometimes you get the pits!"
Theology 24.24 X ten!"
...
"The event was traumatic, more conceived {if you believe} and so detraght and destine son to drive me.
"Virtually.
"Insane!'
"Yes a mental-ill driver set at destroying himself and anyone in his way can do that!"
"And this is all I can say!"
"That Brian Cole would survive this ordeal and get in an injure another!"
"As if in love with the devil!"
...
"The car was an unprotected Ford Mustang toast was raced at Atco raceway in Atco New Jersey!"
"And Brian deactivated the airbag to install a radio!"
"'To think my Son dies so this fool can listen to some tunes?"
"Yes, this accident happened in front of my Son Jason's best friend Rocco who was at
"The Disney World Senior Class Trip!"
"Jason would be alive today is some idiot kinder garden teacher did not classify Jay as having a speech problem in order to ad money to the schools coffers!"
To be continues tommorrow!
Thanks,
24.
Author Notes
*Heart- Carolyn died after two Heart attacks only eight months after Jason's tragic accident!
"Special thanks goes out first as always to Heavenly Father and his late and only Son{Such as me} Jesus the Christ then Fan Story, Fan Art Review and this artist 'kimartist' and the pic "Drinking and Driving"
Awakened By An Angel
*************************************By ricky1024*********************************************
World Re-known, Ranked and Rated Writer of all Writing Venues.
World Ranked, and Rated by #3 Covington's and #2 Swath-mores
***********************"Who's Who" 2012, 2013, and 2014.************************************
<><><><><>Written In Jersey Shore Hospital 6-01-2006.<><><><><><><><><><>
"Just look what you have!"
"The world at your fingertips!{"
"So, don't be so sad, shake it off with a twist and a flip!"
...
"Now...
"Call out and be noticed for your personal Angel!'"
"They are looking for your personal glorification!"
"Let them envelope you!"
"Develop in you!"
"Rectify and emblish in YOU!"
...
"Feel their warm and powerful wings wrapped around you!"
"So, so, loving...
"So, so, profound!'
"Look what you have now *found!"
...
"Feel the quiver as your personal Angel will now deliver!"
"Feel the beating of an Angel's Heart!"
"'Faster and faster as your life again does start!"
...
"Move to the left!'"
"And then move to the right!"
"Feel all of those new emotions this night!"
"Face the sun and feel the early crispness of that night!
"Your finally doing everything right!"
..
"Palm breezes, evening teases, intoxicating moonlight!'
"Gazing and taking the struggle...
"Away...
"For you hath finally turned the page!"
"Feel the warmth of the 'Heavenly Waters' as you wade...
"And that endless ** struggle...
"Now finally FADES!"
<><><><><><><><><><><><>"The Gift of Life"<><><><><><><><><><><><>
******************************************By ricky1024*****************************************
Poem Number Four
Written August 21, 2011 at the Golden Corral in Pleasantville, NJ.
8:15 PM.EST.
"In today's busy world the creation of Human Life is no less filled with incredible emotion!"
"And in this world of sometimes pain...
"There is anguish and strife!"
"I know this now with simple gratification after being responsible for three human being creation!"
...
"One a son and two daughters that still fill my world with delight!"
"Born in the mid-eighties one a Summered child {Corrine Alexis} who's a lot a-intelligent an artistic female of...
"While the other daughter [Dana Alyse the baby} is independent, laid back and demanding never does she seem to have a sense of 'Worldly understanding!"
"And God created Man and then Woman from one rib?"
...
'"And my little Man Jason was born in 1984 with a sense of understanding and a touch of artistry living in his world of non-reality!"
"Artistic and friendly a musician {by trade} but that was just a dream which was shattered like a glass...
"Filled with vanilla ice-cream...
"Into a thousand, tiny, bits, of memories of past...
"Perhaps they can carry me past...
"But still to this day 'Shards of Glass' and my 'Soul's of Tears' cluster and bound me in mortal fears!"
...
"Jim Morrison of the musical band 'The doors' said it best...
"The Night Destroys the day and thee Day divides the Night."
"It's all physiological completely....
"Spoctologically, Spoctologically ill-logically wrong as my sweet song seems to always and forever...
"Go wrong...
"We don't have the privilege of knowing in this light...
...
"It's also been said that as we are being created we pass through 'The Veil of Forgetfulness' or a Door into a woman's womb...
"To incubate as an ovum or egg a result of the deep love of a man and a woman of wife."
...
"This I understand or have down pat and 'Pegged' in my travels of amazement."
'We advance and take this chance as we emerge and breathe...
"Through the *synoptic of life dividing as god if guiding our creation...
"Elation...
"We are finally considered an embryo...
...
"Ok-er-o, I'm only wee {about an inch} so whatz next going to happen to me?'
'Well child, you'll live inside the chamber or pocket like a heart so tiny in my locket!"
"Like a little Roo except your suspended and connected breathing liquefied oxygen until your finally a small fetus, fully developed, fully formed, and fully erected."
"Get it?"
"Got it?"
"Put on some bulk or weight now because {Holy Cow!} Your eight months away from departure as a Human child!'
"And that's all I have to say!"
...
"But remember this!"
"Experience and savor your childhood!'
"Let them{your nurturers} feed you, nourish you, and look after you!"
"For your well-being is a necessary step to agedness!"
"You are an incredible and new "Gift of Life!"
"Pre-packaged, blessed, and sealed with my or God's appeal!"
...
"in the year 2003 the rate of people awaiting "The Gift of Life!" In the form of a human kidney in the state of New Jersey was 53,000!"
"Today in the year of 2011{when this was written} that figure has grown to 67,000."
66,300 will get to go home...
"In body bags!"
"While only 700 get a second chance."
"To learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations' simply call 1-800-DONORS-1 and tell the LSW. 'Lara s. Moreeti with "The Gift of Life' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania that my son an organ-tissue Donor Jason said hi!"
Richard Edward Smrkovsky.
Author Notes
"Special thanks goes out first and always to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story, Fan Art Review and this amazing and talented Artist 'MK Flood' and her pic
"Blues City Angel"r
My Son Jason{Angel Eyes}
*********************************************By Ricky1024***********************************
{In Memory}
"Hazel-brown were the eyes I gazed and had found on that blessed day in November!"
"How much time?"
"How much I do remember!"
"But he knew and He keep it to Himself as Jesus Knew He too, would pass away!"
...
"You see Angels do that sorta thing like hold it IN...
"And it must have something to do with our PAIN...
"A wing-sota- THING!"
"You see the 'Silver-wing Angels are god's DIRECTORS...
"Think of them as our guardians or PROTECTORS...
...
"Piercing were those Hazel-brown EYES...
"With a gaze He could HYPNOTIZE...
"And he knew it was about to HAPPEN...
...
"Angels are connected to the 'Human Soul' by a fine and silvery THREAD...
"They feel all of our PAINS...
"They feel all of our hopes and our DREAMS...
"Our miseries and our ACHIVEMENTS...
"And they emote massive amounts of TEARS...
"As rain from the gentle skies ABOVE...
...
"Yes, He knew and he saw all as He gave ALL...
"Angels are givers as the fly high into the night skies over God's OCEANS and SEAS...
"Over God's RIVERS...
"Caregivers!"
"They keep the peace and chase the EVIL AWAY...
"They are al;l around but seldom will even the ONE be FOUND...
"Seldom will you get the CHANCE..
"A single GLANCE...
"Unless...
...
"Yes My Angel knew it, kept it to himself and gave it all...
"But what do I remember the most?"
"The most about my personal ANGEL?"
"His gentleness, kindness, and willing to HELP...
"His touch and His presence of MIND...
"One-of- A-KIND...
"A rarity among the RARE...
"Always ready to SHARE...
"No COMPARE...
....
"He was my star up above that might sky so, so, FAR....
"But as I look up I feel that presence and that PLACE...
"But not far as a STAR...
"And I know and feel this PLACE...
"And you could and SEE...
"And then you would have KNOWN.....
"Just Where My ANGEL Would BE...
In Memory OF Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Born November 5, 1984 and died March 30, 2003.
{Organ donated April 1st, 2203 {April Fools Day}
"To learn more about the incredible process of "Organ-Tissue Donations"
Call 1-800-DONORS-1.
"And Please tell my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the LSW. with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, PA. that you reviewed this and shared for JAY!"
Ricky1024.
Author Notes
"Special thanks goes out to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story, Fan Art Review And my Friend a great Artist 'MK Flood' and her picture "Blues City Angel.'
The Day HE Tried... I DIED!
Written by Ricky1024 on March 30th, 2015 at 2:29 PM> EST.
{Story Poem #One}
"How do you go back over twelve years?"
"And how do you dry up...
"All of those many, many, TEARS?"
"And how...
"After so much very, very PAIN...
"Can you move forward after playing *"The SATAN GAME?"
...
"How can I...
"How do I...
"Even though I lived...
"But I still feel as if...
"I died so He can **LIVE!"
...
"Strange THINGS...
"Lost my music and my ***MUSE...
"Drifting away today...
"So, so, very CONFUSED?"
"Angels SING as Diamond rings bring...
"A sparkle back to ****THEE....
"As Angels fly...
"Above that night sky...
"That day my ****Son DIED!"
...
"March 30th...
"Is just another day on the 'Great Calendar of Life' for thee...
"But its been imprinted, ground, and etched...
"In to my Eternal DESINY...
"As I look up into...
"That *****Haunting TREE!"
...
"Reflections binds and blinds my happier...
"Memories...
"Like a SPECTER in the NIGHT...
"Oh GOD how******WE tried...
"But couldn't quite...
"GET IT RIGHT...
...
"Sadness marks the Simplex of my MIND...
"As thoughts of that DREADEDC NIGHT...
"Confuse and BIND!"
"MY God am I losing my MIND?"
"My SOUL and my HEART?"
"Dear God make that PAIN PART!"
...
"They say though...
"That FATE and DESTINY was in control and played it's PART...
"As The 'Mellow Shadows' desperately try...
"To blend with the NOW...
"MORNING LIGHT!"
<><><><><><><><><><><><>"Waiting for Daddy!"<><><><><><><><><><><>
Written on March 30, 2015 by Richard Edward Smrkovsky
*****************************************First Story Poem************************************
*****************************************In Memory of Jay***********************************
"The day you were born my Heart finally REALIZED...
"That GOD had given to me...
"A *GIFT in Disguise!"
"An yes You are an Angel...
"My Angel flying so high...
"Up above this Spring-Night SKY!"
...
"And as I think back...
"I try to reflect...
"But the TEARS blind the YEARS but...
"I'll try...
"What the HECK!"
...
"You were born on a cold and beginning of *November Day...
"And As I try to reflect...
"I realize it was such a happy...
"Of day!"
"And as I think now of you Jay...
"On this **Anniversary Day...
"I wonder if you had lived...
"Exactly what you would say?"
...
"I see you at the door as I leave for work that day...
"And my wife ***Carolyn said...
****He cried and cries until...
"You return home from work...
"Each and every day...
"And as you grew you knew that it would be...
"OK...
..
"And then you went out that door to school as I walked you away...
"Not a tear would you shed for these words You had said...
"It's Ok daddy, I'm a big boy now!"
"I'll be home soon...
"Some day and some how?"
...
"And you attended eleven grades on your way to graduation until that dreaded of ****day
"And when you went out that door you never said...
"Don't worry daddy...
"I'll be home today!"
"But you see for me that was then and this is now...
"As I reflect back and here those Sacred Words ...
"Don't worry DADDY...
"I'll be home today and I pray to God that there was ...
*****Someway....
Author Notes
*SATAN GAME-Jason was possibly sacrificed in a "Suicide Club"[there was a website} by the driver Brian *ole!
**November day-Jason's birth on November 5th, 1984.
***Anniversary Day-March 30th, 2003 the day Jason passed away.-Jason is a "Gift of Life" Organ-Tissue Donor!
****Carolyn-Born on December 6th, 1952 and passed away by stopping her medications on November 23rd. 2003
*****He-Jason Richard Smrkovsky was my muse and 'Buddy Friend!'
Note-A poem I wrote to honor Jay and help His friends after jay Died.
******Haunting Tree-The telephone pole Brian purposely hit only ONE BLOCK FROM MY HOUSE!
*****day-March 30,2003 The day Jason was pronounced after massive brain injuries.
*****WE-Me my wife Carolyn and my four daughters Nicole, Kyle, Corrine and Dana.
"Special thanks goes out first and always to Heavenly Father and His late Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story, Fan Art Review and this amazing artist 'Angel heart' and her amazing picture "Waiting for Daddy"
Editors Notes for second Story Poem-
*November Day-Jason's birth on November 5th, 1984
**Anniversary Day-March 30th, 2003 the day Jason passed away.
***Carolyn-November23rd, 2003. The day that Carolyn passed away from grief and lack of her medications.
****day-The accident on March 30th, 2003 around 8:00PM.
*****Someway-Jason lives on in three recipacants today!
"To learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donation' simply call 1-800-DONORS-1.
And tell Lara s. Moretti the LSW with "The Gift of Life!" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania that Jay said hey!
24.
The Day We Died!
*********************************By Ricky1024**********************************************
Written March 26th, 2015
Started at 12:35 PM. and completed at 12:45 PM. EST.
Poem Number One-
"The day we dies there was nothing left inside!"
"Nothing left in me and nothing left in HE!"
"Nothing left in my daughter Loren as if being led to a slaughter!"
"And now that I am gone...
"Let me tell the world WHY?"
...
"I was born with a Heart deficiency and my doctor told me I was only
going to live till age 53!"
"And yes, this is my story to tell and yes perhaps I now live in HELL!"
"And yes...
"'Do not shed a single, FUC**** tear!"
"And yes...
"I curse and I am DEAD, so get used to it!"
"And if you are offended well I don't give a FUC**** SHIT!!"
...
"It all started on a day of November as much as I can remember giving birth
as I was unconscious at the time...
"My Son Christopher Robinson was an amazing and beautiful young man!"
"And yes, as a child He idolized 'Winn the Pooh' but never shot FUC**** heroin!"
"Christopher was never like that, never was He until he found himself a girl!"
{Name unknown}
"That FUC****slut got Him hooked on that shit and after Christopher's death...
"I bought a gun!"
{A 38].
{More on that later}.
...
"She threw Him away like a piece of garbage on garbage day!"
"I swear, if I was alive today I would have shot off her tits!"
'You see, I had enough problems with my heart and second FUC***husband!"
"I didn't need that CRAP!"
...
"So, I went to Florida and put myself in rehab after developing a severe drinking
problem!" {Christopher was still alive at this time.}
"I left Him and I shouldn't with my second husband George."
"Christopher was doing well at the time and realized that He had made
a BIG mistake...
"Yes, He was doing well without that FUC***SHIT!"
"Until...
...
"On December twelfth 2009, [as much as I can remember] one of the coldest
days in New Jersey history Christopher got into an argument with his girlfriend
Angel".
...
"Angel?"
"Yes Chris?"
"I'm trying to get off of that shit"
"My mother says it will kill me!"
"And I'm only 24 years old!"
{Born November 10, 1984}.
"You like it come on and you like the sex also!" She replied....
"But Christopher was dumped that day by angel and his whole world went
upside down!"
"Christopher then got into an argument with George and stole his mother's
car!"
"He drove it into the Stafford Township woods, crashed it and shot up with
a lethal dose of HEROIN!"
"They couldn't locate Christopher Robinson for three weeks!"
"On December 12th, of 2009 {that coldest date in New Jersey History}
"Christopher Robinson the beautiful child whom adored 'Winnie the Pooh'
died a miserable death all alone in the dank and dark woods of my town
of Manahawkin...
...
"Yes, He shot up with that FUC*** SHIT and yes He froze to DEATH all alone
over a piece of FUC*** SHIT named Angel...
"My second husband George broke the news that Christopher was missing
not telling me the facts!"
"He flew out to bring me back as I passed out after that dreaded phone call!"
"I had a feeling and me and Christopher could just look into each other souls
and communicate without speaking a single, FUC***WORD!"
...
"I want to see my son!' Where is He George?"
"He is not viewable Brenda"'
"I don't give a FUC*** SHIT!" "I want to see Him NOW!" 'He's at Riggs,
'Riggs Funeral Home',
"They are preparing Him Brenda...
...
"Upon arriving at Riggs...
Note-"Bobby Riggs laid out my Son Jason and my Wife Carolyn only
six years earlier!"
"Jason and Christopher were only five days apart and that fact attracted
me to Brenda on the 'Plenty of Fish Dating Site' in 2013.
"And her marriage with George was over."
{Back at the funeral home]
...
"Arguing about Christopher, Brenda broke away from Bob, his assistant,
and George blooding three shirts after breaking off three nails!"
"That was my biggest mistake...
...
"The newspapers said that I blew my brains out over my Son...
"I say it was because of that FUC*** HEROIN and that FUC*** BITCH!"
"Do not shed a single tear for I am in a better place and it is not HEAVEN!"
"It's a place close by...
"Not far like a star...
"You'll feel this place...
"Take a moment you'll see... And then as I write these words with a pen...
"Do not shed a single tear or dwell...
"Because I am in a place close by...
"Called...
"FUC*** HELL!"
Brenda Joy Robinson and Richard Edward Smrkovsky.
Born September 3rd, 1956 and passed away December 7th, 2009."
{Just three weeks before Christmas}
Note-"To learn more about suicide call 9-11 and get that person the
help before it is too late like Brenda...
{In Memory of Brenda Joy Robinson and her Son Christopher Robinson}
Poem Number Two-
"The Day I Died and the Whole World Cried!"
'Hi!
"My name is Jason and was born November 5th, 1984 {Close to my Dad's
late friend Brenda's Son Christopher."
"I never really knew Christopher but he was on a similar course, of course...
"My story is tragic but not quite as horrible as Chistophers."
...
"It all started for me in third grade when I made friends with Brian Cole."
"My dad would drop me off at the strange and dark house and pick me up
never once meeting Brian's mother of father."
"And yes, me and Christopher were only days apart heading on a course,
of course with disaster!"
"God willing me and My dad will try and tell you this dreaded but true, life,
story!"
...
"As far as I can remember {I was diagnosed with severe, brain, injuries} I went
to my sister Nikki's 26th Birthday party and her first father Archie's house on treasure."
"Funny that word treasure for that was not a day I want to remember of TREASURE!"
"Note- my step-daughter Nichole Megan Harbach was born on the 27th."
"Thank God for her..
...
"Now as far as I have learned throughout the last dozen years, Brian was a member
of the local school's 'Suicide Club!'
"And there was something that Brian wanted!"
"An angel but not no ordinary Angel but Jay's girlfriend named Angel!"
"Brian thought that she was a real Angel being mentally ill on a drug called 'Effexor'
for serious depression in adults even though Brian was only seventeen!"
"And that death car was raced at Atco Raceway in Atco New Jersey!' Brian took the
speed control out to make the car faster and also altered the air bags by placing a
radio system in that death car!"
{A Ford Mustang}.
"My son Jason died because of that and Brian's inability to shift it!'Only Jay would
help and only if I had knew...
...
"On Match 30th, 2003, I heard the first noise as the car hit a curb and careened
into a telephone pole at probably the same absurd speed that that idiot drove at
all the time!"
"The second and much louder noise was the car coming down to the street from
an estimated height of eight to ten feet!"
"This happened only one block from my house on Riptide Avenue!"
...
"That day and only seventeen hours later, My Son Jason died from a massive
Brain injury and lack of oxygen in Jay's brain."
"Brian suffered minor injuries {even though they had to use 'The Jaws of Life'
to remove him."
"Jason had suffered a heart attack on the way to the hospital in the helicopter."
"They brought Him back only to lose Him hours later...
Written by Richard Edward Smrkovsky and Jason Richard Smrkovsky.
"In Memory of Jason Richard Smrkovsky
"Born November 5th, 1984 and died on March 30th, 2003."
"Organs donated on April First 2003.
{April Fools day}.
"Jason was an 'Organ-Tissue Donor.'
...
"To learn more about this amazing life-giving procedure call 1-800-DONORS-1
and tell Lara S. Moretti the LSW. With 'The Gift of Life' Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
that you read and reviewed this for Jay."
Thanks,
Ricky1024
Author Notes
"Special thanks goes out first and always to Heavenly Father and his late Son Jesus the Christ, FanStory, and all of the families and donors who had to suffer though this."
Still Missing You {2015}
*****************************************By Ricky 1024************************************
Dear Lord in Heaven above,
Written October 6th, 2015
{One week before I was almost killed while riding a bicycle In Manahawkin, NJ}.
"You once told me that you...
"Would always be, but...
"And also you said that you would never go away...
"And always be...
"My *Buddy Friend."
"Forever and ever no matter what we would do then...
"Then My God...
"Why am I missing You?"
...
"Time has progressed God, I moved on and gave up my job...
"Almost lost the house...
"My life...
"Lost the Son and then...
{A Short time later}
"The wife...
"Why?"
'Why God did...
...
"Time has progressed and the many seasons and birthdays have come and gone away...
"I tried so hard to realize why...
"And now almost thirteen years later...
"All I do is cry...
"And again want not5 to live...
"But to die...
..
"Because...
"There are No Christmas of presents under...
"It is but a fictional tree...
"No stocking hung by a chimney with care...
"No candy of cane..
"Trying so hard to remember my name...
"No ribbons and smiles...
"Forever and forever...
"I just want to run away and DIE..
"What God can I do...
"And why am I...
"Missing You?"
...
The sun in the sky...
"The clouds above...
"The rivers that flow...
"The raindrops in my eyes...
"An God I do...
"I God I try...
"Try to remember that time in November when You gave me a little baby...
'Try to hard to remember but the good times just blow on by I miss Him then and miss Him...
"Me oh my...
"Try to remember that day in November when soft and glistening trees a candle burning...
"Snowflakes that collide...
...
"But now...
"I Try Oh God try but...
"There is no more sunshine where I reside...
"Clouds, rivers, raindrops...
"All gone forever...
"Never oh never...
...
"And Why god him and not me?
"He was so special and one of the few...
"And why God am I missing...
**'You?"
Author Notes
*Buddy Friend- That was my nickname for Jay as we were insuperable.
**You?
Jason may have dies almost thirteen years ago...
'But His memory in the three surviving people who cheated death by Jay dieing...
'Life on today.
"To learn more about 'Organ-Tissue donations call 1-800 Donors-1 "The Gift of Life," Philadelphia, PA.
"And tell my dear friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. That Jay said hey...
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His lost So Jesus Christ too, Fan Story, Fan Art Re3view, this artist 'BerryBabe', the picture REO Drummer, and lastly Jason my strength and my will to live on.
No Way Out!
*************************************By Ricky 1024*********************************************
Written November 11th, 2015 at 11:55 PM. EST.
"C'mon Brian, slow down!'
"What's wrong, too fast for you Jay?"
"This car was raced at Atco Speedway in Atco New jersey and has a need [indeed} to SPEED!!!"
'Yes, but you are only seventeen with less then three weeks behind it's wheel, your no a Nascar driver, this is not a raceway, nor can you shift it properly!"
...
"The year then was 2003 {Early March}.
"The scene then was a few weeks before the...
"Brian had been out of control, mentally-ill on a drug called 'Efexor' for an adult let alone a seventeen, year, old child."
"Traveling no less then 80-85 MPH.!"
"He painted the curbs black in his ten block radius from my street Riptide Avenue to his street {two blocks away} on Whitecap."
...
"Now, hold that thought and the previous one, as I start piecing together this much needed release and true story!"
"Dad?"
"Yes Jason?"
"Can I got to my new friends house?"
"What is your new friend's name Jason?"
"It's Brian and I don't know his last name yet, as we met today during lunch recess dad."
"Ok, I can't seem to find any good reason why no but homework first as always Son because you are going to a good college come Heaven or Hell, Jay...
...
"The year was 2001 and Jason was only seven and Brian Cole six."
"Jason was held back by a stupid kinder-garden teacher named Miss Brown for His supposed 'Speech Impedimate {for state aid!"
"And I would {if I could} shove that IMPEDIMATE up HER *ASS!"
...
"So, I drove to Whitecap [only two blocks away} and Brian answered the door as he would several times until about eleven years later...
"Coming...
...
"There was never a parent {in Sight} as they went upstairs."
"And the living room area was always a dark and sunken room?"
"And that was the beginning of the future problem in 2003."
...
"So, we go back to the previous page and Brian {{eleven years later} was seventeen and Jason{at the time} eighteen with a good head on His shoulders until...
"You see, Brian couldn't shift the Mustang because he used the fathers Automatic transmission in his dad's work van."
"And the creepy thought ago?"
"Remember the house?"
'With no parent?"
The dad was an alcoholic and would die the same year as Jason in 2003!"
"Now, remember when I said 'three weeks?'
"His Mom purchased the Mustang {Jay's black car he bought and was temporarily down}.
"Brain was out of control on a destiny to kill whom ever and himself!"
"In Non-prose...
...
****************************"Experiment in TERROR!"***************************************
By Ricky 1025.
{A companion poem}
"Everybody...
'RUN!"
'Brian *Cole is COMING!!!"
"This is the scene...
'Right out of MY FUC**** NIGHTMARE!!!"
...
"Brian {since junior high} no one wanted to be...
"Around HE!!!"
"A nerd?"
"Mentally-ill?"
"Out of control?"
"On a suicide mission?'
"Of a 'Suicide CLUB!'
'Right!"
"And now get ready to throw UP!!!"
...
"No one[let alone anyone} had a clue how sad and bad it was. The mother could have cared less [as an administrator of the high-school} and the Father never had the FUC***time sucking down the booze which=
"I and Jay and my wife and four daughters..
"Are going to LOSE!'
...
"One lucky fellow Brian?"
"These were 'The Hunger Days!"
"An older sister and a younger brother, Brian was the middle child {and like me] never but an after thought.'
"Craving attention but in a cruel and seemingly 'SADISTIC WAY'...
"Brain was on a course...
{"Of course with} DEATH!'
...
"You see, Brian was a Sick {and ticking} 'Time BOMB!'
"Dead set on utilizing 'The Killing field' as His and jay's 'last resting place!'
'After three years of crap...
'Brian realized that even though his mother held a high ranking as an administrator handling and juggling over 400 hundred athletes, nothing seemed to make a difference but...
...
"My understanding {which was anonymous or not} was that athletes was a member of Southern's 'Suicide club!'
'Which let alone was crazy enough but the Number one Member would devious a wicked plan...
'To be continued tomorrow.'
Thanks,
24.
Author Notes
*Cole-'The crazy kid that would drive 'the death car!'
**Hunger Days-About Jay's friend brian's time lacking the love of a family.
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His late Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Story and this artist 'helv12' and the picture "A Special Bond.'
I Breathed, So You Could Live
{A Dedication}
By Ricky 1024
Written on January 22th, 2015
Like a light with no dark...
'I breathed life so you would not part...
"My love...
"You grabbed what had stabbed...
"And pulled out that knife...
"I breathed life so you could live again...
"My Love...
"As a dove tak3es twigs for the nest...
"I now hold You hand...
"As we achieved our quest...
...
"If only I had known and listened...
"As you prayed...
"Jay...
...
"Like a light with no dark...
"I breathed for thee...
"And that breath hit the Mark...
"And as you realized that...
"It was me...
'You said...
"What is happening to me?"
...
"As a dove takes twigs to build it's nest...
"You reached out jay but...
"You missed my hand...
"As I Journey alone...
"And not together...
"On our Quest!"
...
'You for me...
"And me for You...
"In unity...
"If only I had realized...
"What was happening to thee...
...
"Light a light...
"With no dark...
"I breathed life...
"But for some reason...
"You Jay decided to part...
"And as You grasp Jay...
"And decided to part...
"In that hand of yours...
"I left my heart...
Author Notes
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His late Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Story, Fan Art Review, this artist 'Angel14451' the picture "Only bucket and sand required."
"And lastly, My Son Jason who played in that sand too...
How Deep is Your Love?
****************************************By Ricky 1024********************************************
{Written at my home on October 15th, 20125 at 9:28 PM. EST.
{A Companion Poem}
"Missing you...
"All You stand for...
"And all You do!'
"How Deep is Your Love?'
...
"Those times we shared...
"The Sun's reflection....
"In Your hair!"
"The sound of you voice...
'And You Touch...
"I miss you...
'Jay...
"So very much...
"How deep is You Love?"
...
"Deeper then an ocean...
"Wider then the sea...
"Larger then a mountain...
"Tucked away for an Eternity!"
"Longer then forever...
"Faster then a streaking Star...
"Oh my God...
"Your Gone forever Son...
"And so, so very far...
..
"Far, far, far, above...
"How deep reviewers...
"Is your love?'
"Father to Son" {B}
****************************************By Ricky 1024*******************************************
{Written October 6tth, 2015 at home on 9:35 AM. EST}
"Birth...
'show me your Worth!'
"I will father...
'You'll see...
"Thank you for this child...
"I will cherish it...
'For an Eternity!"
...
"Time passed Summer to Fall...
"Winter to Spring...
"Life moves forever on...
"As sweet as God's Song!'
...
'Birth...
'Now show me Jay...
"Your WORTH!"
"I did father...
'Cherish as best...
"But why of Lord...
"Did you forsake Our Request?'
"Taken away all of My *Heart..
"Taken away what You had allowed...
"Us to start?"
...
"Yes, Time passes...
"And for He...
"it was not to be...
"An Eternity...
"You see...
"Other needed Him..
"As much as you...
"So, remember he...
"With thy pen...
"And never regret...
"And never, ever FORGET...
"Your little...
**'Buddy Friend."
"For a rose is and will always be...
"Forever in Red...
"For that Eternity...
Author Notes
*Heart- Jason was an Organ -Tissue Donor and donated His Heart and lungs, His Kidneys, and liver.
**Buddy Friend...
'His nick name and my first poem written only three weeks after his death on his dell computer...
'"Buddy Friend"
{Written at my home in Jason's room April 21st, 2003}
By Richard Edward Smrkovsky"
"Tears...
"I'm not here right now...
"But I'm not far...
"As a Star...
"Tears...
"You'll feel this place...
"Take a moment and you'll see...
"And then you will know...
"Tears...
"Just where I will ***be...
**Be- Won me a beautiful Silver Bowl {Against thousands} with my name on a black plaque and eventually a doctorate degree through "the international Society of Poetry One Baltimore Drive, Baltimore, Maryland."
"Special thanks goes out first and always to Heavenly father and His late Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story, Fan Art Review, this artist 'Angel 4451' the picture "Rose in Bloom", and lastly Jason and his late mother too, Carolyn Ann-Richmond-Harbach- Smrkovsky."
Broken Forever TisThy Angel's Heart
?????!!!!!!@@@@@#####$$$%%%%% By Ricky 1024 and Jason %%%%%$$$#####@@@@@!!!!!?????
{A Dedication}
{Written on November 17, 2015 at 2:40 AM. EST. and completed at 3:12 AM. EST.}
"As I guide my Father Richard's hand...
'This you now need to know to understand."
"I am a spirit a Spiritual Child of God brought back to 'The Spirit World.'
"My purpose was to live and {after 18 years}
*Give...
"His hand is now at My command."
...
"Why, you must wonder?"
"Why I died?"
"Well...
"Let's just say....
"Pray?"
...
"Pray for Me?"
"Pray for Me now above?"
''Here where I am loved?"
"And...
"Yes, pray for my dad{below} and my four **sisters who had...
"To remember and travel down...
'The Path So, Sad.'
"And lastly...
"Pray for my mother Carolyn who had to live...
"Who ***died for it was too, too, too, too, much...
"To ****forgive."
...
"As sad as that may now seem...
"{Check Editor's notes first}
"She passed on by Her own means but as critically ill as She was...
"Perhaps it was all for the better."
...
"It now seems...
"Come rain or Come Shine....
"Now pray for all of those 'Shines' {School Children} whom passed away {at command} and were killed {mercilessly} by another's hand.}
"Way back then {in 2003} things like that were not meant to be...
...
"As 'Twilight Melts' and again there is a new of day...
"As 'The sun' basks you in it's 'Eternal of Glow.'
"This I {Jason} want you now ...
'To know...
...
"Yes, I died and for a very good reason...
"I was created [much as you} but a little different...
"And with a little, different, point of view...
"I was created {that way} and for that reason...
"For our and my Heavenly Father had this to say...
"And He said it this way...
...
"Jay {Your nickname below} and now Jason {your Birth and given name above}
"It's meaning I now want {You Jason} so very, very, very, much...
"To know...
...
"The five letters in Your name {of Jason} stands and starts firstly {with the letter of 'J' for Your Father's first born male child {You} and his first born females birth month of July {Corrine Alexis.}
"Next the letter of 'A' has little meaning but is 'A' Link...
"Now think...
...
"The third letter of 'S' {at best} stands for your father's third born and last daughter's birth month of September {Dana Alyse}.
"And as for the final two, letters...
the letter {N} represents your birth month Jason {Jason Richard} and Your Mother's death {Carolyn Ann} or November fifth for You} and November 23rd {For Carolyn}.
...
"A 'Chain of Life' linked by an 'A' for You, Your dad, and two of Your sisters of four...
"Adding back the letter of 'O' representing Your second birth sister's birth date of October for {Kyle Erin} and {with no reference} the last 'Linking and thinking letter} is 'M' {the tragedy}
....
"The letter of 'M' is not any friend but represents Your end {Jay} as 'The Winds of March' marched down from the Heavens above and brought you back Jason and created your older step-sister {Nichole Megan}.
...
"You see Angel Jason...
"Death was meant to be {as life also} was meant to be for {'The Lucky Four.'}
"And that is way Son you had to die so those 'Lucky Four could live...
"With the organs that You Jason Richard Smrkovsky...
"Had gived...
"And As I predicted for my older Son Jesus to die on a 'Rosewood Cross' for the past and future sins of humanity...
"You died {not for sins} but so those four could again begin...
"To live...
...
"So, God and giving is my job...
"Is my Heart missing of broken and am I an Angel above?"
"Yes son and well missed...
"As well loved."
"And [like my {brother Jesus] who died for sins...
"The 'Sins of Humanity.'
"Is that the reason God, I had to die God, my new Job now above...
"God?"
"Yes Son...
"An Angel's work {As in Heaven and as on Earth} is never done...
...
"Past 'The Grasp of Crystal Realities.'
"Past 'The Eye's of Humanity.'
"And Finally past...
"Human Conceptions and Beliefs.'
"And finally...
"As your Heavenly Father Above...
"And 'Past The Miracle of The Gift of Life.'
"Your Heart and Lungs...
"And Your Liver...
"And finally...
"Your kidneys and Soul you had to give and hath taken such a toll...
...
"God, did I live and am I n now [more or less} here or apart?"
"Did I live but to give?"
"Yes my Son because...
"Broken, Ever Tis THIS ANGEL"S HEART!"
"By Richard Edward Smrkovsky and Jason Richard Smrkovsky."
{61 and 31 years old}.
Copy-write Fan Story 2015.
"All rights Reserved and Protected from duplications by US. Federal Copy Write Laws."
'Punishable with Federal Imprisonment."
!!!@@@@####$$$%%%% "Forever Broken Tis Thy Diamond's Heart" {B} %%%%$$$####@@@@!!!
By Ricky 1024
{Written on November 17, 2015 at 3:12 AM. EST}
"Simple 'Tis This Diamond's Heart' and soon you will know...
"Why?"
"And soon you too will now know...
"Why I did died...
"And {was not meant to be} for even My pains remain as my Father's for me...
...
"My dad stated...
{In a previous piece} that at only the age of two...
"I knew exactly My purpose here and I would make it count...
...
"I was born November 5th, 1984 and I was 'The Second Disney Child' as dad got mom pregnant 1983 through 1985 while on vacation!"
"My mother Carolyn was not supposed to conceive {due to a botched operation in the sixties for an appendicitis}.
"Her fallopian tubes were marred and one was badly damaged and the other {Through the Miracle of God} worked!"
"And then there was Corrine, Dana and Me!"
...
"You see..
"There was a 'Chain of Delivery" or girl, girl, girl, boy, and girl!"
"And she did not break 'The Chain of Five' for I have two other {step-sisters} Nichole Megan and Kyle Erin Harbach!"
..
"So, with that thought in mind...
"And 'Dad's little man' working perfectly well...
"Hi ho, hi ho, it was off to Work they mom and dad go!"
"And yes, that is why mom always called us three "The Three Dwarfs!"
"Tee, Hee, HE!"
...
"And now...
"Do you reviewers remember the previous piece by Me and my dad?"
"I will now explain 'The link of JAY!"
"Firstly was Corrine{Corey} in 1983 followed with me Jason Richard {Jay} in 1984 and finally...
'My kid sister Dana Alyse {Dana} in 1985."
...
"The Link of Jay' times July, September and November."
"J, "S," and "N!"
"Amend!"
"And back down here...
'What do I perceive?'
"Through My dad?"
...
"Yes Son?"
"These letters...
"You know dad so well before!"
"Shut that door!'
"Yes Jay Ok...
"The first was 1983 and that was Your older sister Corey born in July!"
"Or 'J' or your name =
"Hmm...
"Jay 'J' and 'C' Corrine or 'J' and 'C' {Jesus Christ!}
"Whom had a BIG part of creating me dad?"
"Yes the tubes well destroyed as if over-played...
'TOYS!"
..
"Yes, He had a lot to do with that and Dad realizing {In 1985} that your kid sister Dana, was re-straining to breathe as the cord was suffocating...
"SHE!"
"God damn Dad now the letter 'S' for Dana's birth month of September?"
"Yes a miracle twice for I got the nurse in '85 {coming next paragraph} and you told that crazy kid driving the 'Death Car' that Dana would be riding with her sister Kyle Erin Harbach and not you BRIAN COLE!"
...
"Now dad back again to the letter 'S'?"
"The letter 'S' times...
1985= September a month I shall always remember!"
"Dana was suffocating as she was an 'Active Turner' and was hopelessly wrapped by the cord around her throat!"
"CHOAK!!!
'(9-11 Baby Dana 's got a problem!"
"So...
"As she was trying to breath and trying to be...
"I saw the heartbeat monitor and at 100 {dangerously low} and Carolyn said "She's probably turning as always but...
'The 'Internal Monitor' showed a low fetus beat {now in the 90"s!}
"So, they summoned a female doctor and {with-out an operation} reached in a unwrapped my little gift DANA!"
...
"And yes!'
"Dana survived...
'As they finally listened to me!"
"A miracle?"
"You decide?"
...
"OK, Dad...
"The letter of 'O' ?"
"You know my month and birth October JAY!"
'DUH?"
"And as for the last letter dad?'
'Easy as 1,2,3!"
...
"1- The month of November!'
"2-Your birth month!"
"And finally three...
"Equals Four Ways to Save!'
"The name of you band Jason!"
"And yes reviewers that is living prove and as Jay was trying to form a Heart with His hands in a picture taken by his sister Nichole only twenty minutes before YOU...
"Jason Richard."
"Would go into a Brain Damaged- Coma forever...
"To learn more about the miracle of 'Organ-Tissue Donations.'
"That too is as easy as A, B, and C!"
"Simply call 1-800-Donors-1 and or contact by computer 'The Gift of Life.'
giftoflife. com
"And finally {on the phone} tell my friend Lara S. Moretti the L. S. W. With...
'The Gift of Life' Philadelphia, PA. That you finally got to the end of this and...
'Jay said hey!!!
24.
Author Notes
*Give-
"Jason's organ's being gifted on April 1st, 2003."
**Sisters-
"His two step-sisters Nicole Megan and Kyle Erin Harbach."
***died-
"Carolyn stopped her medications and passed away {after her second hearty-attack} only eight months after Jay."
****forgive-
"She died with the thought that only three weeks before Jason's accident after She through Him out because of an argument with one of His sisters."
"He returned {the next day} and told His mom..
"You are the only woman I shall ever love {on one knee.}
"Special thanks goes out first and always to Heavenly Father and His late Son too Jesus Christ, Fan Story, Fan Art Review, this artist 'angelheart' and her beautiful picture 'Come rain or come shine" and lastly Jason whom is and always will be missed forever."
The Returning?
{Forever Missing You}
{A Dedication}
By Ricky 1024
{Written on November 21st, 2015 at 12:50 PM. EST.}
"As I await and comtenplate...
"As I wonder where you are?"
"As I worry to death with my very, last, of breathe...
"As I await...
"The Returning...
...
"It has been a trillion of years....
"It has been so many, many, tears...
"It has seemed as my Heart is aching...
"Deep inside...
"I now know it is breaking...
"As I await...
"The Returning...
...
"A million thoughts pass though my mind...
"Thoughts of past memories are tangled webs stretched and lost forever...
"In my head...
"No pretend...
"Or time left to amend...
"The pains and feelings of loss that remain...
"As I await..
"Forever...
"The Returning...
...
"And as time marches ever on...
"As another Holiday with out you...
"What Jay, am I ...
"Now supposed to do?"
"For I am...
"Forever missing...
*You...
Author Notes
*you- Jason Richard passed away {no from injuries} irreversable and hopeless Brain Damage...
Jason passed away after the very last organ was removed to bring "The Gift Of life to 'The Lucky Four.'
"Special thanks goes out first {and Always} to Heavenly Father and His late Son too, Jesus Christ and then Fan Story, Fan Art Review, this artist 'helvi2' and his or her picture "A Special Bond."
I'll Remember You
{A Dedication By Ricky 1024}
{Written on November 22, 2015 at 9:35 AM.}
"Father to Son"
"I'll remember {each and every}
*"November...
"I'll remember {way back when}
"Your first entrance...
"I'll remember also...
{way back when}
"The first time your...
"Hazel of eyes opened...
"Thank God...
Amen...
<><>???!!!@@@@####$$$%%%% "I'll Remember You" {Again} {B}%%%%$$$####@@@@!!!???<><>
****************By Ricky1024**************
{Written on November 22, 2015 at 9:35 AM. EST.}
"I'll remember You, again...
"My only Son, why doth thee end?"
"I'll remember You, again my...
*Buddy Friend...
...
"For all that You do....
"For the saved and only **few....
"And I'll remember You again till the very end...
"With no reason to that rhyme...
"Until the 'End of All Time....
...
"All the pain and miseries that I feel...
"Have mercy God...
"For I am ill....
"I just try and pretend...
"That all that has happened...
"Isn't real...
...
"And finally...
"As my thoughts get caught and fade...
"True love doesn't just die...
"No matter how strong....
"I run from IT and hide...
...
"And...
"With all that is left of my Sorrowed Heart...
"I ask God for His blessing...
"So we again...
"Will never part...
"For all the things...
"You once did...
"And still do...
"Jason my only son...
"I'll Remember You...
24.
Author Notes
*Buddy Friend- A nickname I used only at home.
**few-'The Four Lucky Ones'
"Whom received Jason's organs on ***April 1, 2003."
***April 1st 2003- The day Jason's Heart, lungs, and liver."
{As well as kidneys}
Special thanks goes out first and always to Heavenly Father and His son Jesus the Christ, Fan Art Review and this artist and picture...
"avmurry and the picture "Hymn at the end of the Journey"
Testimonial for The Gift of Life
Warning: The author has noted that this contains the highest level of language.
By Ricky1024 and Jason Richard Smrkovsky
"Written on July 16th, 2016 at 2:00PM."
(Part Number One)
"Once and Only Shalleth There Be...
"A Once Upon a TIME...
(And Theology 22.67)
"And, as turn back the "Hands of Time" you shalleth realize why...
"YOU NEVER WANT TO,BE...
"FUCKING ME!"
...
"During the...
"Peaceful and Unstressful times of My Life" ...
"I wanted no more or no less than to be married and start a family."
"Didn't much matter with, who...
"As long as that Gift and Wish...
"Would come true...
...
"That was way back in '62 and as a growing child...
"How was I supposed to know that I would one day...
"Be in for this...
"Hellish Ride?"
...
"Be it not with Grace...
"Be it not with Hope and Love...
"Soon my dream would come true..
"From Above...
...
"Years passed and I was now grown, out of school, and in the "Work Force."
"Yes, with a career job, money in the bank, owned...
"My house at twenty four...
"A 1980 Chevrolet Z- 28 CAMARO bought right off the showroom floor with cash in hand...
"BUT, SOMETHING WAS MISSING MAN?"
...
"A Family, a few kids, and a woman to share?"
"BUT DID GOD CARE?"
End of Part Number One
****************************
"Place of Eternal Love"
By Jason Richard Smrkovsky
Part Number Two
Written on July 16th, 2016.
"Lord, I'm trying inside...
"But, it feels like I'm dieing inside?"
"Help Me Lord for I can no longer *see?"
...
"My Son, My Very, Very, Special Son...
"Your work here is now done."
"You see Jay...
"YOU DIED TO GIVE OTHERS A CHANCE!"
"A NEW LIFE, NEW HOPE, AND...
"AN ANSWER TO THEIR PRAYERS, BECAUSE IF IT WAS NOT FOR YOU...
...
"Yes Lord, but why?"
"I was only eighteen?"
"Son, eighteen is more than many Angels...
"Sent down...
"Before they are
'Duty Bound!"
...
"Speak of Me...
"Not Yourself!"
"The Creator, the Messiah!"
"NOW, SO YOU UNDERSTAND SON?"
"YOUR WORK HERE IS NOW DONE!"
...
"Yes, Father Above, I am begging to understand..
"But, My Family..
"They suffer so."
"ENOUGH!"
"IT TIS TIME FOR THEM TO REALIZE THAT THERE IS MORE THAN THEIR EXISTANCE!"
...
"And Yes, Father, I understand but I shall miss My Family."
"And, yes My Son and they will join and be with You someday....
"I came down (as instructed) to save those...
"Lost Souls"
...
"And My Son Jason, they wiil join You in...
'The Land of a Reflection, The Celestial Kingdom, Heaven Above...
"The Place of Eternal Love...
CONCLUSION Tommorroe.
24.
"The Gift of Life Testimonial"
***************************
"Gift of Life Donor Program Philadelphia, Pennsylvania."
June 6, 2003.
Mr.& Mrs. Richard Smrkovsky.
144 Riptide Avenue
Manahawkin New Jersey
Stafford Township
Dear Mr. & Mrs. Smrkovsky
"I want to extend my deepest condolences to you on the loss of your son, Jason "
"The sudden death of a loved one is one of the most painful experiences a family can endure."
"Your strength and courage in thinking of others during this difficult time is a credit to you and to Jason's memory."
"I would like to share with you some information about the recipicants of your Son's gifts.
"The Gift of Jason's heart and lungs were given to a 44- yeat- old gentleman from Pennsylvania."
"This husband and father of three children had been on the waiting list for several years and His condition had progressively gotten worse."
"I am pleased to report that his transplant surgery went perfectly and he continued to do very well."
In fact, his transplant team reported that he was discharged from the hospital in record time."
"Thanks to the courage and generosity of your family, this recipicant now has a chance at a healthier future."
"He and His entire family are very grateful for this special gift."
"Jason's left kidney was transplanted into an 11- year- old little girl from Pennsylvania."
"She had been on the transplant list since July of 2002."
"I am excited to,share the news that her transplanted kidney functioned immediately and she is now recovering at home with her family."
"As a result of Jason's gift, this child is now free of the constraints of dialysis."
"She is looking forward to returning to school and being able to swim this summer."
"She and her family have epressed much gratitude for this "Gift of Life."
"Jason's right kidney was given to a 55- year- old gentleman."
"He also was recently released from the hospital in the mid- west."
"His daughter is caring for him at home."
"The recipicant of Jason's liver is a 47- year- old gentleman from Philadelphia, Pennsylvania."
"Prior to his transplant, he worked as a carpenter."
"He had awaited this lifesaving GIFT for over three years."
"He did well, postoperatively and he is now home where friends are caring for him."
"This gentleman is profoundly grateful for this second chance at life."
"Unfortunately, during our medical evaluation we found that Jason's pancreas was not suitable for transplantstation and therefore was not utilized."
"Though the outcome may have not been as expected' transplantation is about the hope that you and your family have given to people whom you and your family had consented to donation."
"Thank you again for your commitment."
Sincerely,
Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with "The Gift of Life" Philadelphia, Pennsylvania."
Author Notes
*See:
"Jason could not see being in a coma.'Special thanks goes out to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Story And Tom the Owner....
"And administrator, Fan Art Review, and this amazing artist 'Ricky1024.
TheDayHeDiedrheAngelsJustCried@Cried
By Ricky 1024
Written on February 17th, 2006 at 10:AM. EST.
Note: This is from my book...
"The Gift of Life" written over Ten Years ago...
(A Dedication)
(PoemA)
************2006************
"March 30th, 2003, 8:00 PM.
"His music *stopped on Earth the place of His birth...
11- 05- '84-?
Recreation.
...
"The beat of the drum...
'Great God in Heaven,' You could not...
"You would not stop this Beat!"
...
"I can still see, in mind, and feel the Touch of His Small, Feet...
"With Tremendous Sound heard from blocks **Away...
"My, World Forever turned to Night...
"From Day...
...
"The Sun eclipsed and the Moon and the Stars went Away...
"And the Angels all cried for the next One Hundred ***Days...
...
"I look but can't....
"Go out the door and know eight months later...
"His Mother was Nevermore...
...
"This 'Rocked My World' like no Earthquake you've ever seen or heard...
"But, the beat goes on in another Being's ****Body....
....
"Along with the Others, the music will play...
"Each and every waking Day...
"And, the Angels cry no more...
"Because I now can go out that Door...
"And, with A Soul Restored...
"I will move forward...
"Evermore...
24.
(Poem B)
Written on April 29th, 2006 7:39 AM. EST. at home.
************2006************
"There comes a Time...
"When,we must find deep inside...
"All that we have done wrong...
"All the Bad and Foolish Deeds...
"Injustices and pains will Collide...
"For this wil be...
"The Day that You will Die...
...
"All thr thefts at all the stores...
"All those 'Broken Hearts' left at rhe Door...
"Social Injustices, Rage, Anti- Discrimination in Your small town...
"Must now dissapate and fall Down...
"And only then will you become...
"And, have Acess to a 'Greater Notion' as you now own up to all that you put Down...
...
"I most certainly have done Wrong, been upset deep inside...
"Felt 'The Slings and Arrows' take Aim and I died...
...
"Exactly what does it take to become An Angel?"
"Well, the first thing you need is enough Heart to love 'All Living Life' created on this Planet."
"The next thing you need is the Strengh and Dedication to achieve...
"This Task...
"Then, the Glow of the Halo will Restart and as Dimness will now Brighten...
"You pleased Him...
...
"The Wings will then Grow...
"For all 'Spiritual Beings' to see...
"And, then the Miracles will be bestowed!"
"For this I can attest and as all the pieces fall into place...
"And finally...
"With God's Help..
"Or False Intent...
"Your A New Angel...
"No O%."
"Heaven"
(Poem C)
Written January 2, 2007...
At Ancora State Hospital after a suicide Attempt December 6th, 2006.
Movie...
"The Tasks."
***********2007*************
"We know in Our Hearts â?¡â?¡â?¡ and Minds...
"In Our Bodies and Souls...
"That it does Exist...
"And our Life takes a Toll...
"When all goes wrong...
"We pray...
"We Pray in great need...
"We Pray hoping that Our Savior...
"Will correct that wrong Deed...
...
"There is no, Perfect, Living, Mortal Soul...
"Living currently and walking among Man...
"Casting, silent Foot Prints in the Sand?"
"There are though, 'Beings' called down in Place...
"To teach out and Reach out...
"In God's, Holy, Grace!"
"To Heal the Unfortunate, the Sick, and the Hopelessly ill...
"As we Walk Upon the LAND...
...
"And, as we search endlessly...
"Finding Temples, Mosques,
Churchs, and Synagogues...
"And other Holy Places...
...
"They will search your house, Your Heart and bring to us all...
"FAITH, LOVE, HOPE, AND A GOOD PLACE OF MIND!"
"Peace On Earth...
"Much harder to Find...
"Much harder to Achieve...
"So...
"Perceive!"
...
"Peace On Earth..
"No two people alike...
"Arguments insue...
"Differences in Color, Race, Religion...
"So, what the Heck!"
...
"Two Arms, One Heart, Two Legs, One Brain...
"Two Eyes...
"Are we then...
"All the Same?"
...
"Does your Blood Bleed Red?"
"Blue inside the day You Die?"
...
"We are not...
'UFO.BEINGS!"
"We all got our chests cracked when the Heart skips and stops!"
...
"Cancer is Cancer...
"All Part of a Deadly of Game...
"There's no 'Fountain of Youth' nor...
'Magic of Pill' and...
"Our Life Expectancy is only Seventy Two!"
...
"Lesson learned?"
"Thought achieved?"
"When we finally die...
"We have no choice but to...
"Believe...
24.
Author Notes
*stopped:Jason Richard Smrkovsky passef away ftom a horrid accident on March 30th, 2003.
**away: The accident in which my Only Son Jason was severly brain damaged was only a block from our house.
***days: It rained over, three, conseculate, months...
***body: Four, lucky, strangers received...
"The Gift of Life!"
"To learn more about Organ Tissue Donations simply call my dear friend Lara S.Moretti the L.S.W.with "The Gift of Life! :
"Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.
At 1- 800- DONORS- 1.
24.
...
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ,
Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, and this amazing Artist 'David Ruhl' and his amazing picture...
"Cast Out of Heaven."
Crash!of 2003!
By Richard and Jason. Smrkovsky.
Written on October 5th, 2016
Coming...
Ricky 1024
Author Notes
"Special thanks to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Story and Tom the administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing Artist
My Thoughts on My Son's Death.
(An Event Beyond Human Control!)
By Ricky 1024
Written on October 5, 2016
"Once When Life was normal and Happiness...
"Was only a single breath...
"Away...
"Came Death!"
...
"I paid 'The Piper...
"Danced the Tune...
"Collaberated Not...
"As 'Icy and Boney Fingers...
"Grasp ...
"Let me take you back...
"Into my past...
...
"Life (You see) was simple and sweet...
"For me for...
"I owned my own house at Age Twenty Four...
"Key to the front door..
"Career imbeded...
"But something was not, quiet, conplete?"
...
"Married and wed the..
"Girl Next Store'and thought...
"When my family was on the way...
"No more Blackened clouds...
"No more pain or Grief in the way?"
"But (you see) there was something "Pre- planed) for me...
"As we go back...
"To 2003...
...
Author Notes
"Special thanks to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus the Christ, Fan Story and Tom the administrator,
Fan Art Review and this amazing Artist
Just Jason 1984
By Ricky 1024
Written on March 25th, 2006.
"For a time period of eighteen years and only five months...
"I watched my 'Glorious Most Sweetest Flower' grow...
"A hope for two and a quiet plea or dream...
...
"We left it up to 'His Approval' you see...
"For we were all part of 'The Team!'
"That 'Tiny Seed' that was planted so very, long, ago...
"So long ago in that month of November was to become...
'A Small Branch' on our 'Tree of Life.'
"To always and forever be...
"Remembered...
"By Me and my wife...
...
"Over Eighteen, years, later...
"That 'Small Branch,' oh, so, grown...
"Started to bend and crack...
"If only I had known...
"But, you see, there's this thing called 'Fate and Destiny.'
...
"That future is not ours to perceive...
"So, believe what will be...
"Oh, will be...
"We should live for each moment before they get old...
"Because they're all...
"Cast in 'Solid Gold.'
"And, we should pray that 'Each Branch' will grow old and strong."
...
"Now...
'The Winds of Discretion' are at God's Command and Will...
"And, if they should, so, blow...
"You can never predict...
'You can never know...
'Which way it shall go?"
...
"For, it is 'Natures Most Glorious Show!"
"And, if the 'Branch' by chance should so release...
"To rest on 'God's, Green, Earth' then...
"This shall be...
"The place of our existence...
"The place of our birth."
"No longer so high in 'His Beautiful, Blue, Skies,' and...
"This last part is so hard that it brought tears to my eyes...
"For, it won't last forever...
...
"There's this saying...
'Ashes to Ashes' and 'Dust to Dust' as deep down in my Heart...
"I now know...
"I now must...
...
"I must give back ...
"Oh, My, Lord...
"That precious Gift from above and always remember...
"Your message to me...
...
"What was once started so very, very, long ago...
"That was part of 'Our Team.'
"I now take to my bed....
...
"And, as the many, past, memories collide and filter into that 'Sweet Dream.'
"I will never forget that first sound of Your Birth Jason...
"That first time You opened Your eyes...
"And, that First Smile...
"Oh, so, so, sweet...
...
"For, I know deep, down in my Heart...
"That even though You are gone and all my dreams and hopes for you seem to have crashed in that worthless *pile...
"It all...
"My love...
"Was so incredibly...
'Worthwhile...
24.
Author Notes
*pile:
"The car that Jason was a passenger in was a 'Ford Mustang' that was raced at Atco Raceway in Atco, New Jersey and owned previously, by an adult. "
"The driver was mentally-ill and only seventeen on a suicide mission of Death."
"Jason was only trying to help him learn to shift it."
"To learn more about 'Organ-Tissue Donations' simply call...
"My, dear, friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W. with...
'The Gift of Life.'
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.
At 1-800-DONORS-1.
"And, thanks from the bottom of mine and Jay's Hearts...
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story as well as Tom in Administration, Fan Art Review and this artist 'Michael Whitson' and his picture "{Love your Life"
Day by Day 2003
By Ricky 1024
Written on May 2, 2006.
{A Dedication and Re-write}
"Like...
'The Sands of An Hourglass.'
"My existence slowly passes through...
'The Great Portal of Life.'
"Loss the Son, then the Wife...
"Too much grief, depressions, pain, and strife...
"Finally, in 2006, I tried to take...
"My very, own, life...
...
"The seconds now tick by...
'One-by-One.'
"The minutes, the hours, and the days...
"My Life seems to be slowly, fading away?"
"Fading away by the hours and years...
"No more color...
"No more glee...
"No more 'Little Garden Flower' and no more me...
...
"God, all I can do is think of both of you...
"Never a moment passes...
"Too much distance, too much resistance...
"Too much vastness...
'Shallow and Tear ed Little Flowers' in...
'Dullness of Glasses...
"What, can I Do?"
"Without the two of You?"
...
"My, Dear, Lord above,
"Why, Oh Why, me?"
"I now am just growing old, knowing old...
"As all my memories collide...
"No more smiling, no more touching, just an emptiness...
"Deep inside...
"Lord God, can't You now See?"
"Is this the way that it is supposed to be?"
"Is that all that's left when we create a family?"
...
"So, so, many lonely and sleepless nights...
"Nights filled with Nightmares...
"All alone, no one left around this...
'Old, House, of Stress.'
...
"It's still so soon...
"Took my last breath away...
"I can't get it out of my head...
"That 'Specter of Death.'
...
"Please, Oh please, God send me an angel to take away...
"All the pains that mount...
"Each and every night and day?"
"Take me to a place where You know they will be...
"No more tears...
"No more pain...
"No more fears or loss of breath...
"No more...
'Specter of Death.'
"This, now I do pray...
"Day by Day...
24.
Author Notes
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ,
Fan Story and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing and talented artist..
'Mk Flood' and his picture "An Angelic Note."
Your Wings Were Ready but?{A}
By Ricky 1024
Written on February 8th, 2017.
"When You were born...
"The Stars stood still...
"And, when You...
{My Only Son}
"Walked this Earth...
{The Place of Your Birth}
"They were not ready for You...
...
"I now give to Thee...
"All that I can be...
"My Mind, My Soul, and My Heart...
"And, with 'These Gifts' to Thee...
"I add this 'Precious, Golden, Harp'
for...
...
"For these things can never be taken away or damaged...
"To use in Heaven...
"Each and every day...
"But, for me...
"My Son You see...
"The Sun now, will never Shine...
"The Moon above Glow...
"The Oceans Flow...
"This, I now want You to know...
...
"But, when again I think of Thee...
"My Heart..
{That's Left}
"Inside of me...
"Doth bind...
"These things in me in Heaven...
"You will find...
...
"So Jay, fly below one day and when you do...
"Remember me....
"As I will always and forever...
"Remember You....
Author Notes
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fan Story and Tom the administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing and talented artist...
'cleo85' and her beautiful picture "New Year Angel"
Passage of Time?
By Ricky1024
Written on March 5th, 2017
(A Dedication)
"Time passes like...
'Passages in the Wind.'
Movements are interrupted...
"Heartbeats begin...
...
"Tme passes...
"As if...
'No Hands Upon a ..
"No more tick...
"No more tock...
..
"Time passes...
"Ever forward...
"Correcting, intersecting as if no moment shall be... "Ever so Blessed...
"No more...
"Just too much distress...
...
"Time...
'The Great Healer.'
"Seals the wounds but digs the Graves and marks the Tombs...
...
"Time forever marks the Scars...
"Forever the movements ..
"Forever the chains...
"Forever the Bars...
"Just...
"Where...
"You...
*Are?"
Author Notes
*Are?: Figure of speech."
'Jason Richard Smrkovsky'
Born-November 5th, 1984
Passed-Marxh 31st, 2003.
Organs Donated on April 1st, 2003.
To learn more about 'Organ-tissue Donations'
Simply call my, dear, friend Lara S. Moretti the L.S.W.
"With 'The Gift of Life.'
At 1-800-DONORS-1
Thanks from the bottom of my and Jason's Heart
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and his Son Jesus Christ, Fanstory, Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing and talented artist 'cleo85' and her picture...
"Dark Lady."
I Died So You Could Live?
ByJason Richard Smrkovsky
Written on April 1st, 2003.
(In Heaven)
"I died for you, so you could live...
"I sacrificed and gave...
"All that I had to give...
"I died for you, so you could live...
"I sacrificed and gave...
"All I had to give...
"I died for you and for your family too, for you suffered so...
"Below...
...
"I died...
(Oh yes)
"On Earth and gave...
'Goodwill' to Man.'
...
"Yes, I died and did my very best...
"But you see...
(For me)
"I was only eighteen, years, old...
...
"There has been shed...
"Many, many, tears...
"Doth flow below...
"For those that suffered...
"Below...
"For those who have passed the test...
'For those...
"Below...
...
"You see...
(For Me)
"You must realize that this was My Quest...
"To give all of me...
"To sacrifice...
"The 'Ultimate Sacrifice.'
...
"You see...
"For people like Me...
"We Are Born to Live...
"Die to give...
...
"And, now as an Angel...
"An Angel above...
"I'm authorized to spread this message of love!"
"So...
"Please don't take your organs to Heaven...
"For God knows we need them here on *Earth."
Author Notes
*Earth:
"The name of a planet."
"To learn more about 'Organ-tissue Donations.'
"Simply call..
"My dear, friend, Lara S.Moretti with...
"The Gift of Life."
At 1-800 DONORS-1.
"And thanks from the bottom of My Heart."
"Special Thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and then His Son Jesus the Christ, Fanstory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review and this amazing artist...
'Ricky 1024'
"And his picture...
"Little Drummer Boy."
The Life Above?
By Ricky1024
Written on January 1st, 2017.
"As it is on Earth then Heaven above...
*******April 1st, 2003*******
Midnight. .
"Doctor?"
"Yes Nurse?"
"He is ready for...
'Organ-Tissue Removal.'
"Thanks Nurse."
"Scalpal...
*******April 1st, 2003.*******
Morning...
"Father in Heaven above...
"Grant me...
'The Key' to be worthy...
"And, if Ye so Deem...
"Then, I shall be ready...
"Ready and willing to be with Thee...
...
"Darkened Skies come forth and with these...
'Winds of Descretions...
"They now shalleth blow...
(My Son)
"Blow now in your direction...
Jay...
...
"Heavenly Angels above...
"Please carry...
'My Tired and Aching Soul.'
"Away...
"As slowly I shall Rise...
"Rise above back to this... 'Happy but Sad, Oh So, Sad' of Place...
...
"I'm coming back to My home Father, where I belong...
"It's been many, many, years since I've been gone...
...
'Golden Harps and Trumpets' blare...
"The day I came back to once when I was there...
"Back, to where I now Belong...
...
"A place of 'Holy Grace' where everyone shares and everyone cares...
"A place of 'Blessed Moments'
"Where you can reflect...
...
"I now feel at Peace where I finally can collect...
"Collect my thoughts and wash away my tears...
"My fears and my many, many, past of years...
"Years of Woes...
"My Ill's and My Agos...
...
"Dear Father above...
"Fill Me with...
'Your Eternal Love.'
"Carry My Woes, My Ills, My Agos...
"Away...
"Bring Me peace...
"Bring me rest...
"And bring me back to the place You know best...
...
"I now wrap Your
'Wounded Spirit' in...
'My Welcoming Arms...
"And Compass thee now in My Light...
"This Light so bright...
"And, bathe thee in My Love Above...
...
"Hark!"
"No longer can Darkness be found!"
"You see for Me reviewers here at this site."
"I died thay night but then I was better...
"My Heart stil Beats...
"With Lungs I still breathe...
...
"Yes, I am within...
'The Light of Shattered Souls!'
"And yes, Time hath taken its toll...
"And yes, I no longer walk this land below but these things happen for a reason which sometimes we don't *Understand."
Author Notes
*Understand-
"According to the Colliers and Webster's Dictionary...
"To have knowledge of, to be aware."
Jason Richard Smrkovsky...
November 5th, 1984¢�¢
March 31st, 2003.
Organs Donated on...
April 1st, 2003.
(April Fools Day)
"But, the joke was not on Me as My gifts go on this day!"
"Jason Went on this incredible journey back in 2003."
"And, to and learn more about...
'Organ- Tissue Donations'
"Simply call my, dear, friend...
'Lara Moretti' the L.S.W. "With...
'The Gift of Life.'
Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.
"At 1-800-DONORS-1."
"And, thanks from the bottom of my and Jason's heart...
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly father and his son Jesus Christ, Fanstory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing artist 'BRUCE IORIO' and his picture ..
"Below Heaven and Above Earth."
Just Follow the Stars
By Ricky 1024
Written on January 2, 2017.
"Way above in a place of...
'Forever Love.'
"I lay and await...
'Your Precious Presence.'
"Each and every day...
...
"I so miss those times long past ..
"Forever lost...
"Forever past...
"Forever out of my grasp...
...
"And, I so need...
"To feel thee feel again...
"Your spoken voice...
"You called Me...
"Buddy *Friend."
...
"Yes Father, I am here and I await...
"A time when again...
"We can be together...
'As Paper to a Pen.'
...
"So, for now I wonder and wandered...
"In Step...
"For, this is My Purpose...
"For, this is My Quest...
"And, to find where I are...
"Father...
"Just Follow the Stars...
24.
Author Notes
*Buddy Friend:
"My first poem of hundreds of thousands and what I called my Son Jay...
******"Buddy Friend"*****
By Richard Edward Smrkovsky.
Written on April 14th, 2003.
(SilverTrophy Winner in 2005.)
(A Dedication to Jay's friends)
"I'm not here right now...
"But, I'm not far...
"I'm in a place...
"Not Far...
"As a Star...
"You'll feel this **Place...
"Just take a moment...
"You'll see...
"Then you"all know...
"Just where...
"I'll be...
**Place:
"The Heart."
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly father and his son Jesus Christ, Fanstory and Tom the administrator, Fan Art Review, and this talented and gifted artist 'cleo85' and her amazing picture...
"American Night."
'Ashes to 'Ashes?
By Ricky 1024
Written on March 13th,2017.
(A Dedicated Piece)
"How this...
'Silly World' has evolved!"
"It revolves in...
'Perpetual Motion.'
"But, sometimes in your...
'Deadly Sea of Life.'
"It results in a commotion!"
(Theology 24.01)
...
"But, you see...
"Thay's not the way it's supposed to be...
"M' first then...
'Babies in a baby carriage?'
"Wedded Bliss?"
"How can one resist?"
...
The year was 1985...
"Hi, the kids are atrocious!"
"Can you lend a helping hand with a diaper or two?"
Asks Carolyn.
...
Note: My wife Carolyn Ann Smrkovsky was a...
'Stay-at-Home' woman!"
"There was no need for her to work!"
She stated.
"At least until the children would be older!"
...
"So, they were put in playpens and ordered to watch Sesame Street!"
"She said to keep them out of trouble?"
"And, as soon as I arrived home from work...
(From killing myself)
"With three....
"Nervous breakdowns!"
"She was exhausted!"
...
"The year was 1982."
"And, that's the first day I met you!"
"You were coming off a hard marriage?"
"And, you had said that he .
Never wanted babies in a carriage!"
"But, then you met me and things would change drastically!"
...
"The divorce took a little more than a year with very little money coming from the addict called...
'Archie!'
"Archie or...
'Saint Micheal?'
...
*He was nothing but...
'A Big Disappointment!'
"Jealous...
(As if I had taken his family away)
"We were forced to go on a vacation...
...
"The first time was to get away from him and then...
"The followong two...
"Were for pleasure?"
...
The years were 1983, '84 and '85...
...
"The first to arrive...
(By Stork)
"Was...
'Corrine Alexis Smrkovsky?' "Born on July 14th, 1983!"
"Shortly followed...
(Within months)
"By Jason Richard Smrkovsky.'
(Our only son)
"Born...
(Nee)
"On November 5th,1984!"
"And finally...
(After another return visit)
"To 'South of the Border' and 'Disney World.' our last but...
(Not in the least)
"Dana Alyse Smrkovsky!!!!
...
"Born September 30th, 1985 and yes...
"All three are 'Disney Kids' thanks to Carolyn getting pregnant each and every time!"
(Well I helped)
...
"She figured either in Orlando or South of the Border down the road on the border of South Carolina!"
...
"Yes honey, I'll give you a hand!"
"It won't be the first time and I understand?"
..
"Yes, I got good pretty good at diaper changes and my...
'Back to Dinner Recipe' was...
'PAMPERS!'
"And...
"OUR 'MONTHLY PILGRIMAGE was to...
'Toy's R Us!'
...
"Yes, for formula and diapers which would run. Me about ..
'A HUNDRED MILLION GOD ZILIION!'
...
"About a hundred Christmases would come and go but since the children were young and I poor...
"It would cost us about $600.00!"
.
"With four daughters and only one son, dolls took care of that very easily?"
"From...
'The Cabbage Patch to the Hugga Bunch' we had them all...
(Oh yes)
"A Bunch!"
...
"The 90'S.'
"The children grew like weeds and were costing us...
'A Mint' in food bills"
"And, the first were off to school!"
(Nikki and Kyle mystep- daughtera)
"Followed by only a few years later with the younger children."
"This was known as....
'The Educational Years.'
...
"Yes, first the two Harbachs...
(Nikki and her sister Kyle)
'The Unwanted Kids.'
"From Carolyn's first...
(Un-rehearshed marriage in the baby carriage)
"And then our three!"
"That's when Carolyn went to work."
...
"No more...
'Alone at Home!'
"Taking care of kitties and diapers and like a jerk, watching Sesame Street, Soap Operas, and game shows!"
...
"And now it was time to...
'Get Down and Dirty again!"
"And, that's exactly what we got when she first started her gambling addictions!"
...
"Firstly, with Bingo...
"And, then with Progressive Bingo...
"And, than with...
'Out-of-State Progressive Bingo...
"And finally followed by...
'Atlantic City casinos and ATMs...
"Would take me a long time to...
"Understand...
A...
The second part my regression is called...
"Tragedy of 2003!"
Follows Shortly...
Ricky 1024"
Author Notes
"Special thanks again goes out firstly to Heavenly Father and his Son Jesus Christ, Fanstory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this artist Ricky1024, and my picture to follow the edits.
Thanks,
Ricky...
Missing Me?
By Ricky 1024
Written September 26, 2012
Sometimes something's wrong in my neighborhood as sparkling memories invade the Temple of my tragic parade tirades of lost Embers immobilize my heart how can I start again no more buddy friend sympathy direct me suggest me and tries but never resurrect me 4 I am am I lost in time am I out of my mind depression and manic repossession no game I think I have gone and seen can't even remember my name but what could or would you do for I am forever Lost in You
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Author Notes
The first order for the use of this communication in curfew itfey
Drop-Off Zone
By Ricky 1024
Written on April 4th, 2017
"There's this place...
"Where I go away...
"To find some relief from my sad, sad, sad, day...
"And, when I come and when I stay...
"I leave behind a little pray...
...
"I pray that you're okay and wish that things could be different...
"Come what may...
"And, when I leave...
"I leave a little better than before...
...
"I just came yesterday and I left a little piece of my Heart...
"For You...
"I tried what may...
"To wrap itt but I dropped it and it fell below...
...
"It cracked in half and a piece of me came free...
(You see?)
"It had been trapped inside...
"Inside of me since 2003...
...
"There's this place I go when I feel so sad and bring along my miseries and my bad...
"Then I sit and pray all alone...
"No contact...
"No cell phone...
"And, I wonder why Jay...
"You had to go away?"
...
"I think of those times past and I think of when you were first born...
"When I first looked into Your eyes...
"And, thanked God for this amazing surprise...
...
"But now all I can do is come here to be with You...
"And, look up into the stars and pray...
"Pray that You're okay...
...
"And, while I'm here below...
"I know that these were the way things had to be for You...
"For today Jay...
"You brought life to *three...
Author Notes
*three:
"After Jason passed, we gave His Organs saving four."
(Three fourteen years later"
"Special thanks goes out first to Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ, Fanstory and Tom the Administrator, Fan Art Review, this amazing artist 'Linda Blickston' and her incredible picture...
"Ellie"
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